Help! can't sleep cause I'm scared!!!!

[BunDuck McGee]

  Hi Everyone,

I'm new here, I just had to register and hope someone could give me some insight( and or advice) to this strange experience I had the other night while asleep with my 9 year old daughter.
Let me start by explaining a few things...I'm pretty much a single parent, my fiancé works out of town for 10 days straight and then gets 4 days off, needless to say, I spend a lot of alone time with my daughter.
I should also mention, we live in a very central location in our city, so I'm always conscious of locking our doors and setting our alarms before bed. Now that brings me to my "experience" the other evening.....
We (My 9 yr old daughter and myself) got ready for bed, after our usual, I guess you could call it normal, or routine day;
7:00 a.m. -         We get up and get prepared for our day. (My daughter is in 4th grade)
8:00 a.m. -         Drop off Rose at school.
9 a.m. - 3 p.m. -  Home, cleaning, running errands.
3:20 p.m.     -     Pick up my daughter from school and go home.
4 p.m.   -            Help with Homework while preparing dinner.
5:30 p.m.  -         Relax, have dinner, watch some T.V.
8 p.m. -              Go to bed
So, our usual day became night, as is always my routine when my fiancé is out of town, My daughter sleeps with me ,so I leave the T.V. on through the night and the volume set at '0' (as a sort of night light)as well as lock our master bedroom door.(this is the way we always sleep/Nothing new or different occurred on this night than any other night).  As far as I can remember, I went to bed with a blank mind.  My brother told me of a technique to help me sleep, I thought he said something about helping you 'lucid' dream a few nights prior to this night, so I thought I'd try it...Anyway, I was focusing on my 'third eye' and concentrating on the silence in our home(as he directed me to do). This is where it gets tricky... (I don't remember being in a Vortex of any sort ,like some of these individuals who have posted on this forum), just the round dark ring of my 'third eye'.  I must have fallen asleep because, I heard whispering in the hall just beyond my bedroom door, upon hearing these whispering voices I became afraid for myself and my daughter's well-being, I just had this overwhelming sense of fear. When I tried to wake up, I felt sluggish almost paralyzed, but, only in the physical sense...My mind was awake and alert, I was able to move my eyes, but UNABLE to open my eyelids. It wasn't a long paralysis... if i had to guess , I'd say about 40 seconds to a minute. I didn't panic, I was listening, trying to hear the whispering voices, but, I couldn't hear them anymore. I was finally able to open my eyelids and prop myself up on my elbows ( I sleep more comfortably on my stomach) to have a look around the room, I looked left towards the bedroom door, then, turned towards the right, checked on my sleeping daughter and that side of the room, and then left again... nothing was in our room as far as I could tell, so feeling safe again, I fell back to sleep.
Upon falling asleep for this second time, I'm not sure how much time had passed but, I started hearing the whispers again. I cant say for sure if these whispers were threatening , but, for some reason I was purposefully driven to approach my bedroom door, I remember, literally Rolling ( for a lack of a better word) first to my back then to a sitting position, and into a vertical standing position instantly ,effortlessly, and soundlessly. That brought me directly standing on my side of the bed, and as I visually swept the room I looked down at the bed to see myself and my daughter still asleep. I saw the back of my head and part of my face as well as my daughter's( as she sleeps in the exact same position as I do.) I was aware this was strange, but, I was still hearing the whispers and for some reason that was priority...somehow, mentally, I had to address the whispers immediately..... I proceeded to move towards the bedroom door, unsure of how I got there, short of wanting to be there at that position, in front of my bedroom door..it was like I had a 'thought' to be there.... so... I was moving 'there'. Once there, I stood about 2 ft. from the door. I didn't exactly feel threatened by the whispers, but, I just knew I wanted them to stop. I was thinking to myself "I'm not afraid of you!! Go Away!" and it felt as if I had Screamed it...it sounded so loud, but only to my mind, I did not actually vocalize those words, but, I sensed an evacuation of energy and also heard complete and utter silence. Again, without willing what I felt to be my physical self, I simply 'thought' to go back to bed, and I was moving towards it and then through the bed, until I came to a stop above myself...my sleeping self that is.. I was standing through my body about where my hips or lower abdomen would be. And, I don't know how to explain what scared me about standing over my own physical sleeping body, but, I could feel my pulse racing, and my breathing getting faster, I was afraid to look too closely at my sleeping self...afraid of what I would see I guess.(when I say "I Guess" its because its difficult to explain...to put into words how it was a mental feeling and not at all physical.) The Next thing I know, I'm waking completely up.  I look at the clock and it reads 5 a.m.  I turn the channel to the morning news, jacking up the volume to 14. I fell back to sleep, and woke up again at 7a.m.. (nothing eventful happened, or at least that I can recall during that span of sleep time.)and began my day. I did remember to go through what happened really quickly so that I would remember my "dream". I didn't realize until about late afternoon and after discussing it with my brother, that I possibly had an O.B.E...
So please if anyone has any insight or experience with something like this happening, I would like to know if this was a real O.B.E. or possibly a really bad dream.
I am scared of these whispers, and I considered myself to be a very sensible person, but, there was seriously something unnerving about the 'tone' of these whispers... something dark and foreign about them.
any advice or insight would be greatly appreciated!!!! I am alone quite a bit, and I've read some of these posts on this forum, and it has led me to believe that perhaps my subconscious is possibly running wild or stressing the fact that I'm alone often.

Thank You in advance...


- Monica

[Seraphis1]

I am scared of these whispers, and I considered myself to be a very sensible person, but, there was seriously something unnerving about the 'tone' of these whispers... something dark and foreign about them.
any advice or insight would be greatly appreciated!!!! I am alone quite a bit, and I've read some of these posts on this forum, and it has led me to believe that perhaps my subconscious is possibly running wild or stressing the fact that I'm alone often.

Thank You in advance...


-   Monica
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Hi Monica: This sounds quite serious... my best advice to you is to read Dr. Brian Weiss's – Many Lives, Many Masters... if it resonates with you try to locate a Brian Weiss trained Hypnotheraphist in your area and go from there..

http://www.brianweiss.com

S.

[Naykid]

Nothing to be concerned about if you ask me.  You were experiencing an conscious exit and hearing sounds like growls, voices, etc. is normal.  And I think you handle it very, very well for your first time.  And the fact that you kept a cool head whilst in paralysis is impressive to me. 

Next time this happens to you, find a window, a door and fly through it or go straight up through the ceiling, now don't be frightened if you find yourself in a black void for a few seconds after going through one of these things because that is normal. Well, at least for me it is.  I should add that you can have a destination in mind before you fly off and you might find yourself there.  But if you want a surprise on where you end up, just fly.   

I used to hear ppl outside my window talking about my mail, then I started seeing my deceased pets.  That can be a huge distraction, I guess I can't say I wasted time hugging them and loving them but I wish I wouldn't have gotten sidetracked as many times as I did. 

Thanks for sharing McGee, that was really cool.  Keep it up and you'll be having some wonderful experiences. 

Oh, Dr. Weiss does rock!  A must read, but not because of your situation, IMO.

[Xanth]

Monica,
Welcome to the Astral Pulse forums.  It's nice to meet you! 

As Nay said, definitely nothing to be worried about.  You're in charted territory as far as this forum is concerned. 

Do a forum search on "Sleep Paralysis", because that's what you experienced.
You'll find that all of your experiences are explainable.  You and your daughter (I love the name Rose, btw ) are 100% safe. 

[Jarrod]

I used to have night terrors (consistently horrible nightmares every night) when I was little.  They went away naturally after a period but it was only as a teenager that I learned how to deal with fear properly in dreams.  Any situation that's being driven by fear is the same.  If I'm thinking clearly enough to make decisions, I know that what I should do is to give into it.  Things in the non-physical (usually of your own subconscious mind's making) can't hurt you...but they can sure scare the heck out of you.  The way to defeat that fear is to call the bluff.  Stop running or hiding or resisting in whatever way and just let it get you.  Whatever it is will lose all credibility when you face it because that forces you to realize that it's not real.  It's a really strange feeling giving into a nightmare and the object of your fear just kind of washes over you in a meaningless way, unable to meet the expectation of your fear, and fades away.

[justin35ll]

It's normal, nothing to be afraid of. Even though it might be the first few times.
Sometimes when I'm OBE i hear music play and it sounds beautiful. Or sometimes while exiting I've heard loud noise and people talking.

[Naykid]

I used to have night terrors (consistently horrible nightmares every night) when I was little.  They went away naturally after a period but it was only as a teenager that I learned how to deal with fear properly in dreams.  Any situation that's being driven by fear is the same.  If I'm thinking clearly enough to make decisions, I know that what I should do is to give into it.  Things in the non-physical (usually of your own subconscious mind's making) can't hurt you...but they can sure scare the heck out of you.  The way to defeat that fear is to call the bluff.  Stop running or hiding or resisting in whatever way and just let it get you.  Whatever it is will lose all credibility when you face it because that forces you to realize that it's not real.  It's a really strange feeling giving into a nightmare and the object of your fear just kind of washes over you in a meaningless way, unable to meet the expectation of your fear, and fades away.

Nice post, I agree.  It's the thinking clearly that can be hard sometimes.