True Love and Visitors

[NoY]

 
First True Love


Some years ago I noticed a woman in the world she was very popular and full of life and very beautiful, there was something about her that when I looked at her face it was as if my heart knew something that my mind did not. I began to look at the work she did and tried to find out what she was all about. She said to my heart that I was not to be superficial.
I concluded that people would not love her because she was so beautiful and that people would not see her for the wonderful person she was because how could one person be so great. What I decided to do was to love her with all my heart and to not let any thought in my mind say that she was less than perfect, and that this way I would always have a perfect love, somebody who would never hurt me and at first it was a case of she will never know I exist and therefore never reject me, And that I never ever wanted to hurt her ...
When you think about things you never know where the road will go next, every night I would hug my pillow as if it was her and in my heart it was, I would say that I loved her and sweetdreams and fall asleep in her arms.
But in my mind I knew that if she was given the choice she probably would not choose to be with me as our lives were so different, and it started to feel bad thinking that she would think it was odd for a man to pour out so much love day after day without telling her about it, and it began to feel like I was betraying her. I tried to let her go but I simply could not, one moment my heart and mind was in a really dark place full of woe and there was no joy in life and then this woman came from nowhere and saved my heart, I simply could not function without her and at the same time I was not comfortable with the current situation ...... so what to do

OK I needed to address the problems, The first problem was that she didn't know But.. I knew that energy is stored in walls and objects and that the energetic memory of time is recorded and that oneday in the future Long after my death and after she has seen the lives of all the other people who admire her eventually one day she would get to me. That when she was safe with god she could be shown my Love for her.
I worried about if she would even like me because if she didn't it still would not be OK for me to carry on hugging her every night, So I had to address my faults. I knew that way off in the future after she was a woman and after she was an angel and all the way upto being a goddess, all along this path if not day one my faults would become non existent.
Oneday it would not matter what I looked like she would love me, Oneday it would not matter if I had annoying habits she would love me, Oneday it would not matter if I was poorly educated in life or if I made mistakes she would still love me.
And with this in mind I sent my Love through time from that day until forever, The perfect love one who would never ever hurt me no matter what.
She had taught me to love a person from the inside out and had shown me to look for the good in a person and to not be shallow and knowing that every thought in my head was being recorded I began to do my very best to think the very best of people, It became compulsive every single negative thought in my mind was readjusted to positive, Because I knew that I was transparent and that I didn't want to let my perfect love down or for her to think I was a bad person, She totally changed the way I viewed every person on the planet for the better, because I didn't know for fact what her opinion about something was to do her justice I had to go with the most perfect answer the best and most loving answer imaginable. And that is a wonderful place to exist.
 


Second True Love

Ok...I had already been shown how to look for the good in people and to not be judgmental and to love people I didn't know and to give them the benefit of doubt until they show me otherwise. I saw something in this woman that touched my heart and out of curiosity I found out all I could about her, Aside from being heavenly to look at she conducts her self like a saint. From my new understanding how could I not adore her, Oneday when laying in bed looking down at my first true love in my arms, I looked to my left and there was the new woman I adored looking back at me, I could not deny that she was adorable perfect even. This seemed odd to me at the time because the woman in my arms was perfect and so was the one to my left, I began to wonder how can two women both be perfect if they was so different they had different bodies hair faces attitudes the lot. I began to understand that perfect means that you would not change them. It took more than a year before we had an all night hug but she never left our side not one time and each night I would tell my loves that I loved them and offer them a kiss and fall asleep hugging my first love.
After a while I began to feel Guilty because although I loved them both dearly one of them was getting all the hugs, and I could not justify this as my second love had equal value in her own right she was Just as lovely and just as special and just as unique.
I then began to think about female jealousy, It wasn't enough to simply say that they wouldn't be interested in me anyway so it was not a problem. Because women think differently to that and part of me did belong to my first love. So how could I give my love to another also without saying that my first was worth less. I concluded that part of my heart belonged to god also and so I already did love more than one person, and that if I loved two people already why would it be a problem if I loved my second love as much as the first.
Then all three of us went on and night after night I would tell them I loved them offer them a kiss and would hug them both swapping from time to time.
But I just couldn't get past the fact that my second love felt Like "The other woman" my mistress, This was very bad as it was so disrespectful to all three of us, To my second true love because she was so much more and it was hard enough to justify her being there in the first place the least I could do was honor her and never let her down. And on a technicality in my time they didn't know I existed and were off having relationships with men, So I decided that I did love them both and I could not surrender my second love, And for many reasons, If I told my first love you are so beautiful how could I say my second was not when all three of us knew that she was and to devalue her in anyway would make me false, And thus rendering my first opinion about my first love invalid.
Its amazing how utterly inadequate and selfish you feel when little ol you have to make the choice of which one of two goddess's you are going to cuddle all night and which one only gets a kiss.
And remember the whole time you are totally transparent if you put a foot wrong you risk upsetting one of them or both of them, The best thing is to be totally honest and gentle in nature as you can, and remember that they can do no wrong and that you have to do all the reasoning and emotional legwork to make sure that you don't offend them in anyway.

My first love was enough for me I was not looking for anybody else, However I am dearly grateful for the inclusion of my second love into my life not only did they both teach me different things but together they taught me many things also.



Third True Love

OK... After saying without any doubt in my mind that one was more than I deserved and that two was far more than I could ever deserve, Along came my third True love. Again a totally unique interesting fun woman with many things to teach me, and to my surprise she rescued my second love from being the other woman, And also she showed me that there are many women in existence and from the perspective of love they all deserve a chance and the respect that they have earned aswell as the basic humanity package. Its very hard to say IM not selfish or greedy at this point, It was never my plan to spend my nights resting with three Goddess's, for anybody to assume it has been a walk in the park would be a fool because it has been an education all the way. These women have taught me ,First True unconditional Love respecting people on there own merit even if they have none to give them a chance, and also not to limit love to one person obviously you wouldn't take every woman you love to bed with you, That is what marriage is for a contract of exclusivity, And also not to stop thinking about the enormous difference in people opinions faiths attitudes.
I believe that people should be judged on there intention's rather than what a number of people consider to be the commonly accepted reality of a situation or even the outcome. One week before all this began I would have laughed and said I don't get it. Then one at a time my Love's entered my life and made a home in my heart, after eight years of this I can say that I have learned so much about myself and about these women and indeed all life that it staggers the mind. I learned to walk on a knife edge and knew that even if I fell my loves would never ever hurt me, Which made me want to try harder just to make sure that any negative event regarding themselves was countered by a positive event to fix the injustice done to there heart even on the most basic level.
The oddest thing about all this is IM not really sure when It became my choice as really I only wanted a Hug from somebody that would not hurt me.And ended up getting the most fantastic and adorable education for years from the most lovely women I have ever met. And they probably wont know I exist for hundreds or thousands of years

If I had had a contract or an agreement with a woman at the time I would have missed out on what has been the most joyful moments of my life, I could not put into words how Grateful I am and how absolutely inlove I am with my Goddess's, Its my privilege to be able to say that I love them dearly and that in my eyes and my understanding they are perfect today and always will be .


This next piece was inspired by my Love's 


A Woman for all time

If I was to take a woman lets call her Jane.
OK Jane has faith for her entire life she will try.
Regardless of if she wins or loses.
When she dies she will continue to grow and change for the good.
In 1000 years she will be a beautiful angel .
even if it does not take 1000 years to get there.
In 100,000 years she will be a really advanced super angel.
Even if it does not take her that long to get there.
In 1 billion years the only applicable title will be goddess.
Even if it does not take her that long to get there.
What person can not love Jane for being a goddess before she realizes that she is one. Am I that arrogant or do I have so little faith in Jane that I cant
It easy to adore a goddess. All It takes is to have a little faith in her at the start and you both win.

May God Bless Woman

NodesOfYesod

[Astral316]

Sounds like you're putting woman on a pedistal...

*edited for language ~Xanth

[Micael]

That was amazing and very rich. 
But what exactly is this? Poetry? The only reason for my doubt is because I find this in the AP experiences.
Definitely touching and inspiring, thanks for sharing. 

[NoY]

its my account of a non-physical / physical relationship that lasted over 8 years with 3 astral women
a totally Lucid experience

:NoY:

[moondreamer]

Very nice writing Noy.  I think guilt is a construct of the society we live in.  Truly, nobody should feel guilty about loving others. 

Angie

[Micael]

its my account of a non-physical / physical relationship that lasted over 8 years with 3 astral women
a totally Lucid experience

:NoY:

Oh I see... Very interesting!
So you would always interact with them in the non-physical environments but not in the physical? By what I read they're physical persons right?
If you don't wanna be this specific or I'm just a slow fella it's alright, I just get amazed by this stories as I truly respect, admire and seek true love.

[NoY]

I was in the physical and they were non physical but they are also Physical. I could see them with my third eye and feel them with my Non Physical body. so its like I was with there Ghost but outside of time.


:NoY:

[Killa Rican]

Awesome Experience NoY!!! ^_^

[O.O.P]

Wonderful experience, magnificent writing. Thanks for sharing NodesOfYesod 

[Stookie]

Yeah, that was really good. Not just the emotional stuff, but how you thought through it and consciously learned from it. That's what existence is all about. Thanks for sharing that NoY!

[Micael]

I was in the physical and they were non physical but they are also Physical. I could see them with my third eye and feel them with my Non Physical body. so its like I was with there Ghost but outside of time.


:NoY:

Oh okay I get it, thanks for shedding some light on it.