Gods Antidote to life

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Lol firstly i bet some people take this serious and belief me or belief that i belief this which i dont. I am just in a light hearted mood in between sad and happy listening to a local band called dire straits whom happen to be the first band to make a music video that showed on mtv

Anyways , I done good and i have nt drunk any alcohol for 2 month and my emotional problems now seem so distant but today i had a stressful day although am not sad about as we all know life only throws at us the cards we need to learn our lesson before we go to eternal bliss

I just drank a bottle of wine which is not much compared to what i usually drink and you know theres something i have missed about been in this state of mind it sort of enlightens me to the irony of life and the joke of life

Apart from tis site i dont really tell everyone at leat not in detail about my own beliefs i guess the opening paragraph to monroes book was right when he said one soon learns to keep this to himself  but on occasions when people mention death to me and talk to me about some past experience i have this is what i tell them

" You know you all put death down like its some gloomy place but look around you can you see any thing that makes u wish this could go on for ever. war, crime, betrayl and much more and even if there was none of that why would i want to be limited to this physical plane. I am not scared of death i look forward to the bliss it vrings to the eternal peace and the limitless exploration , its here and now that is the chore it is this life that is the misson death is but the prize . People then talk about my experience i had in life which am gonna not bother putting into this and they somehow assume that because i say the above i am sucidal but i tell them that we only get prizes and presents if we deserve them and so quitting now and killing oneself does not make us worthy. Quitting makes us weak.
If i want to EARN this prize called death i am gonna give life my best so when i get to there ever after i can say to myself....look son yountried your best and when excrement hit the fan you never quitted so just enjoy what ever bliss you can get"

When i was younger and more eager i lived by two sayings mainly becaus eof my personality type and because of what the sayings meant

HE WHO DARES WINS - you put yourself in a postion no man wants to be in and you see it through you ll be on top if you loose at least you had a life of experience in what others did not

either way there is no in between no matter what people thing....she cant love you then like u. she either loves you or hates you.

you cant settle for the foot of the mountiain if you wanna get to the top

and hey if u stumble down in an avalanche of snow at least you tried

so keep your chin up , pull those gloves tight and beat the excrement out of life so at least he knows u aint a ******

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now am sobar i realise how much of a tit i was wen writting this