Hey y'all!

[rubyaura]

So I decided to look for a forum about Astral Projection because that's where my spiritual journey has ultimately taken me. I'll try and keep it brief.

I've been AP-ing in my dreams since I was a little kid. I'd wake up paralyzed with my face in the pillow screaming in my head to get up before I suffocate. I'd also see dark creatures in my room when I would wake from a dream, be pinching myself and when I was convinced I was awake I'd scream for my mom who would flip on the switch, and they'd be gone.

I was always very spiritually aware from a young age and had really strong intuition. Being a daydreamer I probably subconsciously developed it. I'm very artistic and extremely creative, and would go into hypnotic states while drawing. I was doing seemingly weird things like praying for wisdom at the age of 6, too, and went through a bout with crazy psycho parents that left me locked in my room for years with little to no interaction aside from the thoughts in my head (not being emo about it, they are mommy dearest types I apparently chose in order to grow spiritually).

Anyway, I became fascinated with the spirit world, which was very difficult to deal with because I was raised Southern Baptist and no one really wanted me to discuss it. My imagination literally became my escape and visualization came naturally to me. When I became an adult (and the advent of the internet which made information much more readily available) my spiritual journey really took off and I started exploring concepts of past lives and the spirit realms more thoroughly. As soon as I got my head wrapped around past lives, my own spirituality, and thought I had all the answers, BOOM new challenger appears:

My dreams have always been where I was the most troubled. They were so chaotic, but there was always a lot of activity in them. White lights shooting out of my body, odd entities, crazy nightmares. Most of the time I couldn't even remember them. Until I met the person whom after 3  years I finally accepted was my 'Twin Flame, Twin Soul, ect ect'. I've got a few Soul Mates whom I love unconditionally, but on a physical level I barely know this person, and the moment we started working together we had an odd psychic connection (that he seemed to recognize but I did not at that time.) What happened was that almost two or three days after we met he started appearing in my dreams. No one, not even my husband, my parents, anyone, was able to just 'appear' in full figure, fully aware, as if clear as normal physical reality aside from this person. At first I thought it was a subconscious infatuation. He was pretty handsome, but I'm not the kind of girl to fall easy for a good looking face. Also, I love my husband and I'm devoted to him. However, the consistency of his visits started driving me mad, and the fact that we worked closely together made it even more difficult.  Eventually our jobs and lifestyles pulled us apart physically but the psychic connection in waking and dreaming remained. I moved out of town, had a son, and the dreams stopped for a while. Then I moved back into town, and he moved out. (Not before random things like passing each other on the street a few times, something I don't do very often with anyone.)

Anyway, I went through a really difficult time with my husband. He was drinking, and I developed Graves Disease which made me very ill and irritable.  On top of that I had my son and work stress. I hit a rock bottom place and suddenly the dreams started coming back, but this time it had been about 2 or 3 years and I thought I was 'over my infatuation'. I then started having flashbacks of dreams when I was a kid, and I started recognizing he was in those dreams as well. I researched more and more and finally acknowledged that he was indeed a Twin Flame/Soul and had a deep connection with me. I believe, because he's quite a few years older than me, that he already can consciously astral project. If our spiritual progress mirrors each others even marginally, I may be on a fast-track trying to catch up to him, because I said consciously before any of this started that this was my last life, that I don't want to incarnate anymore. (My reasons are for another post). It was after I made this decision that I met him, with no concept of Twin Souls before. But anyway, whenever I meet him in my dreams he always seems to be far more aware than I am, though I'm so comfortable dreaming (perhaps through all of my visualizations daydreaming as a kid) I think he's thought I was conscious while I was actually dreaming at times, because I've seen him get disappointed when I would suddenly do something 'random'.  

I avoided researching AP for a long time because I didn't feel I was 'ready' for it. However I started having lucid dreams and became more conscious of my Astral Projections with TS. I also began meditating, raising my kundalini, clearing my chakras, all for their own benefits, without giving much mind to AP. Then when I finally wonder where I'm going with things, I always get my next challenge. Suddenly I felt the urge to research AP. I'm starting to understand a lot more, though I haven't been able to consciously get out of my body. I'm not sure if those "screaming in my head" moments as a kid programmed me to be scared. I started using Steve G. Jones methods to prep, though I haven't really gotten anywhere yet, I've just basically started.

Anyway, I apologize for the wall of text, but this at least lets anyone curious know where I stand.

Nice to meetcha, I'm interested in hearing what got others into AP and any stories of meeting Higher Dimensional Beings and Twin Souls on the Astral Plane.  

[BlueHalcyon]

Hello and welcome. 

[NoY]

Nice life story
Welcome to the Pulse 

:NoY:

[astraladdict]

Thanks for sharing, welcome to the pulse

~astraladdict

[blis]

Hello,

Nice intro. I feel like I know you a bit now.

Welcome to the pulse

[Xanth]

Hiya!

Welcome aboard. 

[rubyaura]

Thanks so much for the warm welcome. Look forward to chatting with ya.

[Greytraveller]

Hallo rubyaura and welcome.
OBEs and dreams need not be frightening or scary. It is possible to control both (or terminate them if need be). You might want to start here by checking out the "Welcome to the Astral FAQ Forum."

Cheers        Grey