strange energy

[kurai kokoro]

Lately I have been absorbing some very strange energy, I can feel all sorts of the differant energies I have absorbed condensed into a differant kind of energy, when I absorb it, its like absorbing the differant spectrums of light, like red orange yellow, green, blue indigo and violet, all at once.
      and after absorbing it alot of things became clearer to imagine and see with my mind, i've also been able to gather more energy at a faster rate because of it, very strange indeed.

[Chaos Mage]

Full Moon coming up.
All I'll say to what you said, is that you can have all the energy you want of any kind just through meditation.  When you meditate, you become more spiritual, simply by returning to your original potential (state).  After a meditation, and if you can keep meditating, after a while, you start to think, plan, and gain more depth and clearness to your memory.  Sometimes, letting go of tainted energies or bad alignments can be of great benefit.  So if you are absorbing energy of colors, the next step would be to become more energetic and start to absorb sound as well.  The senses are continuously absorbing energy, which builds the matrix inside of the brain.  When you get so much energy, you can start to do things with it, sure, but the energy ultimately has to return to it's original potential.

[kurai kokoro]

okay, what I ment before was I used to be only able to concentrate on a specific color, I am now able to absorb all of them, I thought it was strange <_< but I suppose not, when I meditate I think to my self "let the wind pass through my body" Idk it helps (shrugs) I'm able to absorb wind energy and solar energy, it's how I keep myself warm in the very cold winters, can't project the energy like I want though.

[Chaos Mage]

You do that too?  Back when I was working on a specific game/novel idea, I would say that too, 'let the wind pass through me'.  Seemed to help a lot with my running.

Wind and Solar energy were the elements that my Shardic Guardian used.  The whole idea would require what's been written about it and so forth.  So perhaps you understand what I'm talking about?

It's likely you would understand the meaning of the "Solar Sacrifice", and be familiar with Guardian based knowledge and powers of magick.  Am I right in saying that?  Get back to me on this, I would liket to speak to you more.  Depending on your age, I might be able to help you avoid unnecessary suffering.

[kurai kokoro]

solar sacrifice? I have no clue what that is or means.
guardians i know very little of.
magic i won't stand for, it's just an attempted shortcut.
i have no idea what a shardic guardian is.
and who says i have unnecessary suffering?

just so you know im not angery

[Chaos Mage]

It's fine.  Don't worry about it.
You see that too huh?
Where magick is like something fickle?  How it has no lasting impression beyond deluding the mind to believe that it has any real power (without basis)?

I'd like to PM you, as I want to share my experience with so called 'the weather'.  I used to have greater power to effect the weather, now, a prayer every mid summer and it seems to set the weather for longer periods of time.  It lasts a year, and events follow the course of the things prayed for.  Can you influence the atmosphere too?  You'll have to guard your ability if you want to keep it, some types of necromancers will want the materia or equivalent that you possess.  Just a heads up on that, not everyone is trying to help you grow.

So basically what I'm seeing in what you are saying is that you've gained the ability to visualize, fantasy, and use your third eye in imagination.  It would be an optimal time to organize your time stream and make effective changes to the aspects of self that would gain the benefit while not losing to the bad systems already in place.  There is so much to say concerning this ritual, that it can't even be said in this post.  Very much there to tell you about in terms of visualization techniques.  I can only recommend that you take the time to work with static electricity, balloons, couches, rugs, cats, and such, practice sensing the energy, the electricity as you release the charge on a metallic object.  You will notice the electrical visuals that go with first time experience of static discharge, and will then possess the ability to sense electricity.  Sensing electricity can open up your sense of taste and smell.

[kurai kokoro]

the powers i'm focusing on is more then manipulation. basicly i'm focusing on materializing objects, like for instance a sword for my own purposes.
others would call it manifistation or conjuring but in reality it's just creating something from the atoms around me.
it's true i can minipulate the weather and on occasion control wind currents, i've stopped minipulating the weather because it harms my environment.

[Szaxx]

Hi,
If only we had the collective influence to create peace on earth, what a wonderful world it would be.
No pun intended but it makes you think. Im sure many on this site have the influence effect and don't even know it.

[Chaos Mage]

Are you using visualization?
I'm not sure what more to say, or ask.
I just know that I once 'summoned hail', and that I can effect the weather with prayer.

Although on the matter of 'creation', even if you create ex-- a sword, there is nothing stopping someone else from stealing that sword from you, or even using it against you.
I once created a living being, with tragic results.  I often like to think that I myself was created the same way, something like a demon creating me to be what I am.  So even if you created for yourself the perfect companion and life time mate, a chance of a life time, there is no guarantee that it would have salvation, or even live long enough for you to kiss her.

[kurai kokoro]

Szaxx: you are naive to think that you can have peace with out war, it's the whole balance of the universe thing, you cannot have just good with out evil, if you have good but no evil then that's not really good, because you cannot choose to be good, you are forced, with out free will life would be pointless.

Chaos Mage: the only way to create life is through procreation, cloning is a tech form of procreation and in my opinion evil, i just want to make a sword and if i have to I'll make one the old fashioned way.

to all others: in order to control the elements around you, you must envision the elements as an extension of your own body mind heart and soul, and those four as a conduit for the elements. for example in martial arts you are taught your body is an extension of the rest of your body mind heart and soul, this goes for weapons and the elements as well as the universe it's self.

[Szaxx]

Hi,
Your comments are valid in the physical. When your out its a different story. There are horrid places that you may never go but theres also incredibly beautiful places without any evil. Its more an ideology than a reality respect to.the physical.
It would be a good thing though.

[kurai kokoro]

eh. i still rather have balance.
not to be rude or nothing but i'm a negative person, i cannot help the way i think, i'm depressed all the time, and don't try and cheer me up because youll only anger me, anyway, i am depressed because of the people around me seem to be unable to see what is around them, the say they want to end all the bad things but truth is it is impossible for that to happin when evil exists to counter balance good, cannot have one with out the other, you can only make it reasonable to live in such a horrible world. and it's going to get worse before it gets any better.
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         back to the original topic i have been able to absorb energy in my sleep now, i made a tornado just last week, course it was just an energy tornado.