Sudden anger/thoughts

[ArmyOfOne1911]

I have times. Kinda like right now. Where I hate everybody, everything, and get shaky and agitated. Mostly over the silliest of things. Sometimes it's just a sudden moment. I am very controlled. I do not act out my anger but I feel hate and pain all throughout my body. Sometimes I think it's from my life and all I have to deal with. I am not sure I can even meditate right now. Is this normal? I think every chakra in my body is out of line right now. It hasn't been this bad for a while. I am not suicidal but I do have visions of hurting certain people sometimes. Again, I would never act out. It's the exact opposite of who I am. I don't know why this is happening. I am in so much pain right now. What could be causing this?

[Lionheart]

 It may be someone else's anger, feelings. You may be a conduit of people around you. Look into "Access Consciousness". I find it very interesting and have been practicing it quite a bit myself lately. Question everything that you feel, pain, emotions, etc. You will find that sometimes we carry other people's burden and it might be as easy picking it up as walking down the street.

[Beero]

I get that as well sometimes but less since I started trying self help with EFT, I don't know if that's something you might want to look into.  and also something that has helped me is, a meditation technique where you have to sit and not move a muscle for prolonged periods of time, this might help if you start getting in a rage

[Stookie_]

On top of the good advice already:

For me, the trick has been to learn to notice the pattern as soon as it's coming on, and immediately take hold of my thinking before a negative thought or feeling begins the loop, because I know once I get in the cycle, my day can be ruined. I've been practicing it for years, and constantly get better and better and it. Really meditating everyday has been the biggest help. Using that time to quiet my thoughts and learning to choose what I'm going to think about, rather than letting random and negative thoughts take the lead. It's not a quick fix, but a healthy one.

I've had a LOT of practice here lately, and more to come, I'm sure. That's life.

[psychedelia]

if your saying that you can maintain control over your rage when it happens but when it does you wanna explode like literally and over the smallest of things such as oh ha good example.....i just made a long post well when i make long ones everytime i touch a button it throws me back to the top of my screen and omg it makes me beyond mad just thinking about it and it shouldnt really bother me but it does;/

[ArmyOfOne1911]

^^

No, actually what I had was a manic episode. I actually got in a fetal position and cried. I was actually scaring myself. :/
Just between my anxiety, depression, touretts, women, family stuff, I think I hold all of it so well but overtime I just lose control... but I am so sensitive. I wonder if it's the spirits around me and like the above guys said I am picking up moods from other entities.

[urshebear]

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if your saying that you can maintain control over your rage when it happens but when it does you wanna explode like literally and over the smallest of things such as oh ha good example.....i just made a long post well when i make long ones everytime i touch a button it throws me back to the top of my screen and omg it makes me beyond mad just thinking about it and it shouldnt really bother me but it does;/

At the top of your screen next to the address bar there should be a button that looks like a shredded piece of paper. click on it and this shouldn't happen again

@Armyofone

I know how you feel. I absorb peoples emotions and negativity. I hate it. I am constantly trying to make everyone around me happy because if I don't it means absorbing their negative energy and feeling like crap myself.
I also cant drink alcohol anymore because even a small amount can leave me depressed for days.
It is possible to switch your mindset for example if you are thinking "everybody hates me" turn it around and say to yourself "everybody admires me" even if you don't believe it at first keep repeating it in your head.
Try to keep your mind off the crap by doing something productive. at first you wont feel like doing anything but you kind of have to force yourself haha otherwise just talking about your feelings can help too
Remember, if it weren't for the bad times we could never truly appreciate the good.

[Lionheart]

 Try to create a invisible protective "shield" around, you can enhance it every time you meditate. If you believe this will work, it will. 

[urshebear]

lionheart I dont mean to be rude but can I ask what part of the world you are from?

[Lionheart]

 I currently live in Minnesota, United States of America. Where are you from?

[Astral316]

You're placing all your bets on one table... this life, this low frequency reality. Don't let it corrupt you. Through suffering one builds righteousness which is a viable path to liberation. You're truly experiencing a free casino, everybody wins in the end you just have to know it. Let the poker chips dissolve and be free.

[urshebear]

Oh I am from New Zealand. was just tripping out for a second because what you said reminded me of someone in my metaphysics class who also calls himself lionheart sometimes

[ArmyOfOne1911]

This is really great advice everybody. I am doing so much better. I will keep in mind all of the above. I was told by a medium once I might be a "empath" I think that's what she said? (does quick google search) Yeah! That was it... I will have to read up on that... You know I got to thinking, "anxiety" "depression" touretts" are just words we use to understand eachother or describe something. After all if there were no words... there wouldn't be a such thing... I bought a book today called "The subtle body" on energy systems and chakras... It's like an encyclopedia. It's great stuff... I really think if I practice meditation and energy healing on a daily basis, and learn to control my emotions etc... I will be alot better.

Thank you all so much.

[ZiggyMike]

The trick is to notice and catch yourself doing it. And say, "Oh gosh I am doing it again aint I?" reaffirm to yourself, I am bigger than this, I am bigger than this. That should help you recover.

[Astir]

It is okay to get angry sometimes...when you focus too hard on being positive and happy at all times anger will always seem to sneak up on you.  That's my experience.  Many have told me I am the most empathic human they have ever met.  In my opinion it's a very negative attribute.  If I am near an angry toddler I will absorb their irrational (even metabolic induced) crustiness. 
And I work retail, which makes me a different person everyday from 9 to 7.  Having a disposable income apparently makes people/consumers extremely angry...I absorb all of that.  I experience a lot of other peoples anger, by the time I get home I am at peace.  It's routine, I deal with it.  I cannot meditate the emotions of others away.   

Just never act on anything you experience,  internalize it.  Don't try not to experience your emotions either, just moderate your behavior and don't unleash on others.   

[Astir]

fantasizing hurting people is also pretty normal...everyone does that.  I don't know anyone who doesn't do that. Fantasizing keeps most people from actually doing it.  I punch people in the face all the time, in my head    and I've never actually done it or even considered actually doing it. 

[ArmyOfOne1911]

Astir I feel the exact same way. It just seems I absorb everyone's energy. I am at most peace when I am at home... by myself... Doing things I love, and even then sometimes I think I absorb other entities energies. Going out in public I have HORRIBLE anxiety in public and end up getting hot flashes just talking to people... It's annoying really. :/ And can be depressing... A medium I know says I have tons of entities around me all the time so I am sure I absorb their energy too. Starting to wonder if being this empathic is what is making my social anxiety so bad. 

[ZiggyMike]

I can also say I am an empath too. Some time ago i get depressed and absorb other peoples feelings but now I can transmute every negative feeling to joy almost instantaneously. It takes time to master, but once you know how it becomes very easy and the benefits are tremendous. Just as you can absorb, you can also give out this is how our collective consciousness is enhanced or degraded. Practice makes perfect.
With Love

[ArmyOfOne1911]

Ziggy that's really cool!
I am going to do some research on this and see if I can turn this gift I got around into positive... Could you give me any tips on how to turn the negative into positive?

[Astir]

I get the hot flash thing.  When I try to project myself through what is rubbing off onto me. Most of the time I don't feel the need to project or act, but if I sense they need me to go along with them I "unflatten" a little.  I experience a general flattening of moods even when I'm not being overexposed.  People just have that effect on me...In my life I have only met a handful of people who don't feel like they are burning holes in me. 

[shineling]

It could be a chemical imbalance. If it gets worse you might want to go see a doctor.

I have schizophrenia for example. I have to deal with anger, delusions, hallucinations, negative voices that scream at me to die, every day. I've learned to control my reactions to the negativity. It's the only thing one really has control over with a chemical imbalance. As soon as I take my pill the negativity is gone. So I know for a fact that it's a chemical imbalance in my brain.

Personally, I don't believe in a lot of psychic mumbo jumbo. I find that belief is a strong strong component to how one percieves reality. What you believe actually manifests. So if you don't believe that you are absorbing negativity it all goes away. It's funny that way. Your belief system actually creates your reality. So I stick with the science. Most of the time it's just a chemical imbalance in my brain.

Cya. 

[ZiggyMike]

Firstly just as in the 100nth monkey effect, (trying reading about it. Google.) a general behavior of one individual can affect the collective behavior of a specie. Its science but it's not all science, after all, Albert Einstein said religion and science are all branches of the same tree. There is a saying that goes, "if you stare at a smiling face you inadvertently start smiling" emotions just like disease is contagious. It was also proved during the events of 911, there was a general depression of joy everywhere in the world, it's just that some people are more sensitive to it that others. Being an empath is not necessarily a "good" thing if you can't control or can't learn to control it, it can be disastrous and can lead to mental imbalance. A while ago I often get sad, depressed and was at a borderline psychosis when I see people suffering and injustice being done. I mean I had voices in head and everything and it wasn't looking good. I didn't take any drugs neither did I visit a psychiatrist. With time I just learnt to control/transmute the said feelings. Now I can see people really suffering and even injustice being done and I am actually happy, really happy. Am I a Psycho? You be judge of that. Just that I have learnt or learning to become a passive observe or "remove myself from the equation" whenever I see these sorry and bleak situations, I laughed because I know the world is already perfect and nothing I do can change that. Once, i had a car crash and injured my right leg but I was just really really happy. I was actually laughing as the car tosseed us around. Others thought I was weird. Maybe the blind woman with the shattered legs and dead family members is processing the last drop of karma which will lead to moksha, salvation, enlightenment.

[Astir]

Voices are a reason to worry...
but anger is not.  Anger is human, and I don't care what anyone says, all of us experience it from time to time.  If you don't vent, it builds up.  If you try to refuse to feel it or express it outright you may not realize that you are simply passive aggressive.  I know many people who say they don't get angry but are completely passive aggressive and inconsiderate without realizing it, and it is because they are too polite or just delusional, believing they, "never get angry". It isn't beneath anyone.

I'm always studying people, hundreds of people per day.  My customers, my coworkers, my friends, myself...people are full of it.  I will test them, their convictions and their mannerisms.  I love the positive type A personalities the most.  They will on occasion provoke me into slipping something negative into the conversation if I sense they are trying to wow me with sunshine and rainbows.  When I see someone who believes they are positive and that everyone should be positive I can't help but tease them a little.  I will say something to counter their shiny outlook and it instantly angers them, and almost immediately they attempt to squelch it.  I really feel bad that people don't want to allow themselves to be sad or angry...it isn't good for anyone.  Based on how quickly they react I think they need to let go of the ever-positive, love, light blah blah blah a little.  Some would describe me as a negative force in this universe when I only share the other perspective.  I'm all for freedom.  Feel the way you feel, don't act for others comfort.     

From what I gather, you are very intelligent, which means others are going to frustrate you on occasion.  Someone or something is making you pretty angry,  but because you don't want to feel it at certain moments it resurfaces out of context...thus seeming irrational and sudden.  It sounds like it is just misdirected anger. 

Punch the snot out of a pillow, I say.  It feels awesome...afterward.

[Astir]

Personally, I don't believe in a lot of psychic mumbo jumbo. I find that belief is a strong strong component to how one percieves reality. What you believe actually manifests. So if you don't believe that you are absorbing negativity it all goes away. It's funny that way. Your belief system actually creates your reality. So I stick with the science. Most of the time it's just a chemical imbalance in my brain.

Cya. 

There are certain aspects that are believable, but so much of it can also be explained scientifically. Subtle recognition of pheromones, body language, tone, etc.  I think anyone can pick up on most of it. The empath is the poor sucker that not only picks up on these things instantly but for whatever reason, also identifies with it instantly.

It isn't difficult to sense what people are feeling,  but to actually begin feeling it...That is something else entirely.  If the vast majority of people could actually feel how others are feeling...I don't think people would inflict as much harm as they do.

In my opinion, empathy is bio-electric.  I sometimes describe the sense being similar to having lateral lines, like fish.  I can feel people without seeing them, without speaking to them or being near them.  Some people send a sort of current through my body that feels awful...and it is almost always because they are utterly frantic, on drugs or not taking the drugs they should be taking.

Now this will sound really insane...I remember certain peoples electrical signatures, if they are memorable in that extra special, crazy way...I will feel them before they even enter the building.  I can feel them approaching from a substantial distance.  I know how it sounds. Insane, I agree, but it's fact for me...daily.