Welcome to Tak's Journal - LD & APs -

[Frostytraveler]

Hello Tak,

Yes, Qigong sessions can cause hypnagogic activity to go way way up. They often consists of colorful geometric patterns as you describe, but sometimes are more of an organic nature (which you also describe). Your pic reminds me of neurons under a microscope. I saw this video the other day of neurons seeking out one another to reconnect a neural pathway. (Video below).

The other night after a long Qigong session, I was floating along a wall that was an organic living black and white mural, geometric shapes entangled with organic living and moving beings. Eyes were gazing at me in the heavily animated mural as I floated along it passively observing it. Was it just hypnagogic imagery at this point? Hmm... not so sure. Perhaps I phased. This was a new experience for me. The white Void... never heard of it, but I have been surrounded by a beautiful white light in a very blissful and high vibration/energy state. The perceived walls in the white energy space seemed more finite than the black void which appeared endless. Same feelings though. The white seemed more healing oriented while the black void seemed to me as a vacation from all worry and concern of the physical world. Healing in it's on right, but from a different angle.

Beautiful experience with your cat. I have summonsed my cats successfully quite a few times, and they were not holograms. They were autonomous as I had no control of them. They were individual beings as they were in the physical world. They were in all intensive purposes my cats. To see them is beyond words, and one can wake up quite emotional, as if they were just "here". Perhaps call upon them as not a mere
recreation or hologram of your cat, but the real cat. He is out there.

[Tak]

Wow, Frosty, that sounds impressive! I'm happy that you're still discovering new things, thanks for sharing that, I really enjoyed it! It reminds me of past experiences and I keep wondering, what's all this? Sometimes I wonder if we're seeing our own organism on a different scale.

Your cats are lovely, it warms my heart! You're a lucky person.
Regarding this topic, I'd love to hear your opinion or anyone else's who wants to share.
When I met my cat in the astral realm, he had passed away recently, and I had no doubts it was him, like you. I knew for sure it wasn't a hologram or a subconscious projection - you just know. I forgot to mention an important detail: the day he visited me, my mom also dreamed about him, and it was the same experience as mine. That confirms the experience for me.

Now, I'm having trouble thinking about calling him, because he's no longer just a cat, nor is he 'my cat' anymore. He's a free consciousness. I think he might be reincarnated in another animal or even a human right now. Although time isn't linear, and a part of him remains the same, I wonder if it's a good idea to call him or not. Maybe he no longer wants to be represented as a cat or identify with that form. I even think that I might have been someone's pet in the past, and I wouldn't want them to be attached to me in that way lol.

I now consider my cat more like a friend or a spirit guide, but I'm struggling to identify that consciousness as my cat, because that was just a role. So maybe I'll look for him more as my friend who passed away, rather than as a pet. I never really thought of him as a pet, anyway. I think I only do that in LD out of nostalgia.
When I was a kid and he was a kitten, I used to tell him that we'd be friends forever, transcending time and space! lol. And it came true.

I love your relationship with your cats, Frosty. I wish I could have one right now, but my life is too unstable to give a cat the life it deserves. My dream is to one day have another furry friend companion again.

[Frostytraveler]

Tak, I have had shared lucid dreams/projections as well. One was with my father who passed a few weeks prior to the "shared dream". The simultaneous dream/projection occurred with my brother and I, on the same night! My father was dressed the same in both dreams, same demeanor, same message, same setting/room. Remarkable similarities and details as my brother as we compared notes. The "shared dream/projection" concept is very real. The same has occurred with my cats as my brother and son sometimes have an experience the same time I do. 

An interesting story. After my father passed I had a projection with him in my house. He entered the kitchen (RTZ) and I said "Hi Dad". Then my childhood cat who was deceased for 30 years came prancing in behind him and I said "Dad, you brought [cats name] with you!". Very real, very detailed and emotional with full waking awareness. While I was interacting with both of them, I knew this was a "visit" and they both had died. This factors really help set apart the experience from random dream type experiences. Of course there are other factors which contribute as well. Incidentally this occurred around 1:00 am. My partner who happed to be up working on the computer at that time. She kept hearing footsteps walking up and down the hall at the time the dream/visit occurred. She was really rattled when I told her of my experience, knowing what she also experienced/heard at the same time. Manipulation of the physical world is a rare event, but I do experience this on occasion in very different ways (sometimes visual, sometimes auditory).

I say "my cat" here for reference purposes, but as you say, they are MUCH more than just a pet. They are mutually important beautiful souls, and are family that extend beyond this temporary physical world. I believe my love, compassion and deep bond that was established for such a long time created an everlasting bond/connection that continues with them when they pass. Yes, I am fortunate to see them from time to time, but the loss is something that never fully fades away.

I have had even more profound experiences with my cats both in the RTZ and in the Astral to prove the projections are very real, and my cats are truly visiting me. Unfortunately these experiences are just too personal to share publicly. I have shared with a select few. Perhaps someday I may share.

[LightBeam]

Hi Tak and Frosty, great and heartwarming experiences by both of you. I've also had projections with pets and loved ones who had passed away a long time ago, and they were real, not temporary energy shapes. You can tell when you create a temp shape to take a form that may look and behave like an entity, and when it's an actual being. In my view since everything exists simultaneously and we are multidimensional there is no then and now, we can experience everyone and everything at any given now from any "space/time/life" point that are also frames of now but experienced from a different focus/point of view.

[Tak]

Hello everyone! It's been a while since I last updated my diary. Many things have happened, and among them, I got a new job. I'm happy and I like it, but it's been difficult for my body and me to adapt to this new dynamic. Stress and anxiety. But I'm making it through, and that's the most important thing. It's a job full of new challenges, but it will really make me grow in every sense. Not just professionally, but also as a human being, learning to always be centered, no matter what's happening around me.

The most fun part of all this is that I officially work at "The Old Mansion", so to speak, since the place is an old three-story house remodeled and converted into a Boutique Hotel. I'm the receptionist. And the most fascinating part of this whole story is that just one day before they called me for the interview, I dreamed that they hired me, and that's exactly what happened.

I love meeting people from all over the world and giving them a warm welcome so they feel at home. In just a few weeks, I've received gifts and many compliments! Maybe that's why you'll see me participating less. But I always read all of you! There's always a moment for Astral Pulse in my day.

Something else that's been happening to me is that I'm no longer practicing voluntary astral projection due to lack of time and adapting to my new routine (I hope to be able to do it again soon). Even so, every night my dreams are incredibly vivid and realistic. There are many lucid dreams, and I also spontaneously leave my body for a few minutes, which makes me happy. Every night is a new adventure. But the demands of daily life don't give me time to record them in my diary.

Some photos of the place.







On the other hand, I actually wanted to tell you about an experience I had almost a year ago, related to those famous energy adjustments we always talk about. It was one of the strangest situations I've ever experienced. One night, I was in my room, getting everything ready to go to sleep soon... When suddenly, I felt two very strong presences in the room. It was imminent to me that someone was there with me, and I felt two beings.

Now comes the strange part. I was standing in my room, awake. However, when I closed my eyes... I was in another reality at the same time!! With my eyes open, I was in my room, but when I closed them, I was in another place, seeing as if I had my eyes open, another situation. I was being taken through a corridor by these two beings, one on each side of me. At that moment, I felt that that place was a spaceship, and that those beings were extraterrestrials. I never saw the beings; it's just what their imprint generated in me, non-human presences. And although I didn't see a spaceship either, it's the impression those corridors gave me. They were copper-colored.

So, I was kind of bilocated, one part of me was in my room, while another part was being taken through endless corridors by those two beings, who were also by my side in my room. The whole situation became so strange that it became terrifying. I felt that those beings didn't want me to be afraid or feel bad, and I had a feeling of being "in good hands". Still, everything became so strange that I got into bed and closed my eyes to fall asleep as soon as possible...

I was still being taken through those corridors, and that's when a memory unlocked. This has happened countless times!!! But it was the first time I was aware of it, and that was the most terrifying part. How can I live multiple realities and do things without all the parts of me being aware of each other? I already know this in theory, but experiencing it is different. I felt that the beings were having a lot of fun with my reactions of surprise and curiosity. But they really were trying to make sure I didn't get anxious about it, and I felt a warm, enveloping energy.

I ended up asking them not to make me aware of all this anymore, to do what they had to do with me. But I didn't want to know, I wanted them just put me to sleep. And that's what happened; I lost awareness within seconds.

Two hours later, I woke up, which is unusual for me because I sleep straight through. I can't explain the strange state I was in; there were no thoughts in my mind, it was like a serene ocean, I was completely blank, as if someone had pressed a "reset" button.
If I wanted to think, I thought, but if not, there was absolute silence inside me. That wasn't pleasant or unpleasant.
I asked myself internally why I was feeling that way, and something told me that only a small percentage of my consciousness was in my body now, while another part was intensely working far from the physical realm. I stayed like that for two hours with my eyes open, staring at the ceiling, until I fell asleep again.
The next day, I woke up and felt completely normal, as if nothing had happened. From that moment on, it never happened again, as I had requested.

These bilocation experiences are really something very interesting to explore. Living multiple realities at the same time, consciousness is fascinating.

[omcasey]

I know you are really busy these days, Tak, so I will just ask one question. The decision you made was as a child, do you think you will change your mind and choose to see into these experiences again? I just find myself wondering. Thank you for sharing your experience, and for your time. --(and congratulations on the new job!!!).

[Tak]

Thank you so much, Casey, for your comment! It's greatly appreciated.

I'm not sure if I understood your question correctly, but what I shared didn't happen when I was a child, but rather a year ago. To be honest, it was difficult to put into words what happened to me. I tried my best, but it was such a strong experience that I preferred not to be aware of, it was very strange.

Today, I wouldn't want to feel that way again, as it's quite confusing. At the time, I was also a bit scared; I didn't know if I could trust those beings. Sometimes I think they might be doing something with energy to deceive me, making me think they're like my family and care about me when it's not true. The only thing that makes me trust them is this other part of me that knows them and somehow communicates with this part of me that I'm experiencing right now, telling me what's happening is perfectly fine and "routine." They're part of my team.
It's strange to be divided. I really don't know who these curious energy beings are that feel so extraterrestrial.

As you mentioned, I also perceived them as a child, and my first conscious astral experience involves them. I just wanted to know what they were, if they weren't human, but I was told to go to sleep.
Now I'm the one who wants to be asleep!

I think the only thing that's going to uncover this mystery in my life is hypnosis. At the beginning of last year, I was going to do it, but I canceled my session because a lot of things started happening, and I didn't feel well enough to do it. The hypnosis I'm referring to is the kind practiced by Dolores Cannon's students.
However, it's something I'd like to revisit at some point. I really want to know what kind of projects I'm unconsciously involved in.
It's a very important topic in my life.

Thanks! And I'll be back soon for the group meditations.

[Lumaza]

 Tak, congratulations on the new job! We will miss your constant presence here.

 I came across a QHHT Practitioner at a Wellness show that I vended at this weekend. I think it is time to find out what my "consciousness/higher self" really wants and has to say during a Regression session. I listen and am aware of "signposts" throughout my existence here, but I have never heard myself saying whatever it is that needs to be said on a tape. The Lady said the session will be 4 hours long and she is curious to see what comes out as well.

[omcasey]

Tak,

I understand completely.

It sounds like you feel you need to work on yourself more before moving forward to see more and this is very good. Getting clear on who it is you feel you are, within your own cosmology will help you see what is most important when proceeding into this new spectrum of information. It is not for the meek, to be sure! I can say this having chosen to boldly go forward. But I was 44 at the time of this decision, and I am 60 now. I am confident I chose the right time for myself for the galactic reality to re-emerge in my conscious state. Prior to that, I likely was not quite ready. Not that anyone can truly, fully prepare for something of this scope. But, yet, preparing as well as we are able is a necessity for the most successful shift possible. I appreciate you sharing what you have. Allowing it to surface, in ways in which you can get a better look at what still needs refining within your framework, I feel is exactly the productive step forward.

[Tak]

Thank you so much for your answers!!

Lumaza, I always remember your advice about learning how to balance "both worlds" and being disciplined. Over the past two years of practice, I've made a lot of progress thanks to each of you and the books all of you recommended. I know that once I establish my routine, I'll find my time to practice, as I don't want to lose the progress I've made so far; it's very important to me. I think my Higher Self won't allow it, and that's why I'm having so many spontaneous experiences and vivid dreams. To be honest, I've always felt more connected to the subtle realm than the physical one.

I'm thrilled about your upcoming QHHT session! What a wonder. I love the wellness fair you participate in; it makes me happy to know such places exist. Please, if you feel like it, share with us what comes up during that session. I think there are answers that only a tool like this can reveal.
I've also been told that the session will be very long, that I should hydrate a lot, eat well... and not have any commitments the next day because I'll be very exhausted. Well, I've read Dolores' books, and I see how intense these sessions can be. Oh my! Maybe I felt intimidated. It reminded me of the advice usually given before shamanic sessions, and I think that scared me a bit. Still, I'll do it; I don't know when, but someday it will happen.
Good luck, Lumaza!!!

Casey, I always remember your story, and it was a wise decision. I think like you; before moving forward, we need to have a solid foundation, or everything can fall apart. There's so much work to be done on myself still! This topic is something I don't want to put aside because I feel it's essential to know who these beings are, what my relationship with them is, what I do in other realms of existence while living on Earth. I've already discovered that I exist not just as this person, not just in theory, but in practice. I know that when the time is right, everything will be revealed. It's nice to feel accompanied by these beings and know that the limits of my being go beyond this physical existence and that while I exist here, in this precise moment, other parts of me extend beyond what I can imagine.
I love when you talk about preparing the nervous system for contact. What wise advice from someone who really knows what they're talking about! Nothing could be truer. When one starts having these experiences, one realize how much is needed to work internally and how necessary these adjustments are to move forward.

You'll see me around here, as I love this place because of all of you, who are the ones building it.
But for now, I might not update my journal as frequently. Although I hope to soon! 
Hugs! ❤

[Tak]

Hello! I'm happy to update my journal, even if it's brief. I'm struck by the synchronicities among members here, as we often update on the same or subsequent days; how lovely is that! In this case, I feel there are similarities with Tides' last entry in certain aspects.

This happened last night. Although I haven't been practicing formally since starting my new job, I've continued having hyper-realistic and vivid dreams, spontaneous lucid dreams, and some OBEs, as if to keep the rhythm going.

Last night, for example, I had an interesting experience. I usually wake up in the middle of the night to go to the bathroom because I like to drink chamomile tea before bed, which makes me get up about three hours later, and that can trigger a lucid experience or OBE.

I'm not sure when or how it happened, but I remember that when I returned from the bathroom, I lay down, and after a few minutes, I was still conscious and knew it was "time to exit..." Well, by now, we know we're not actually exiting anywhere, but that's how the mind perceives it. And that's what I'm talking about today - how we have certain fixed structures that are hard to let go of, and how these structures often prevent us from moving forward.

When I felt like I was projecting, I didn't feel vibrations or sounds; I rarely perceive that. It's as if I were already detached. At that moment, I was in a gray threshold, and I didn't see my room, but I knew I was somehow lying in bed. I perceived myself as pure white energy, but I had some extensions that swirled out of me and lost themselves in the environment. I think what I've enjoyed discovering is that my body has no limits or doesn't even exist, and I can integrate with the environment itself without losing individuality and still being a specific point of awareness. I've always sought new opportunities to explore that limitless state, because I am fascinated.
Well, I think something like that was happening because I saw myself as a kind of whirlpool, a huge octopus that swirled and expanded... But unfortunately, conditioning was stronger, and I struggled against it because I didn't understand what was happening to me. I tried to think of myself in human form "because that's what I am supposed to be" and finally rolled to one side, as I always do. And that's what happened, and I fell against the floor and got up. I was in my room, but it was a hologram, just like my body.
I looked at my bed, and my physical body wasn't there; instead, there were rumpled sheets. Everything seemed extremely real. I wanted to go on an adventure through my window, and it was nighttime, just like reality. But when I did and flew through the nocturnal city, I lost awareness. Well, when that happens, I feel like it's a "game over"; I deviated from the expected course, and the experience didn't continue.

I think my Higher Self gave me another opportunity last night to explore what I've been earnestly asking for - to understand more directly about my True Self, beyond human conditioning, to comprehend my divine essence, to understand my relationship with the surrounding reality, with God, to return to my purest state... What I experienced last night was an invitation I rejected because I didn't understand it. But it's okay; it caught me off guard. I know I'm ready to do more than just roll out of my body and have fun; that's very nice, but I need to study and understand more about my True Self and how Consciousness works.

I understand that many experiences can be strong and confusing; I don't blame myself for that. One of the most extraordinary experiences was over ten years ago when I think I entered a higher astral plane or perhaps what some call the mental planes. I'd never experienced anything like that before, and I couldn't understand where I was. Suddenly, I was aware and I didn't have a body; what I saw around me was pure abstraction, colors merging, forming certain structures, and it all seemed like a living, fluid watercolor in constant motion.
The most predominant colors were orange, pink, and gold... It was truly impossible to move through that environment, because I couldn't understand it; there was no space to move either. I was in shock, and at the same time, I felt the most beautiful ecstasy I've ever felt, a peace and happiness so profound with existence. I started trying to make sense of that place, thinking of it as an abstract beach, as if those colors were ocean waves breaking on the sand or something like that, although I knew they weren't; I was trying to give form to that surreal landscape.

In the end, I was paralyzed because I didn't know how to navigate there. If I returned to that plane of reality today, the same thing would happen; I don't know what I'm supposed to do there. But it could be states for developing our creative force and playing with forms.

I'm happy that a larger part of my Consciousness is listening to me and leading me to explore other aspects of myself and rediscover our multidimensionality while experiencing being human. It's an extraordinary gift we have. I hope next time to flow with the experience and not condition or force it like I did last night, and get a little closer to the Core.

[tides2dust]

Hi Tak  Writing to you always makes me smile. Even though English is not your native language, your writing ability is truly incredible. Even more astounding are your experiences, such beauty and courage. I haven't much to add, just that I share your desires-

And, I find my self grateful lately for all we have been blessed with. This "dipping our toes" in the "eternal" waters, the shifts in perspectives and the transcendental experiences- somehow gifted to us, despite our inability to comprehend... But the translation of your experience as recorded here signifies more comprehension than you or I may realize.

Thank you for pointing out the synchronicity shared between members here and elsewhere ~

I think none of this would mean anything if Love was not the driving force. Even if we are One we are clearly unique- which is why the reality of some of these planes of existence, for me, can be so jarring. Where surface level understanding crumbles under the weight of an entirely new world... New to us, who are immersed in the denser 3D material nature of reality.

Wow the other worlds and the MIND field you described... And even that is not the end. You're an inspiration Tak. I will go back and re-read this post of yours soon and I know I will find even more...

Loving regards 

[Tak]

Today I had very vivid spontaneous lucid dreams. I'm still happy that there's full dream activity despite not practicing formally, although I do miss doing it. I realized that sometimes it's not so much about the practice itself, but rather the will and strong desire to achieve it. So, I encourage everyone to root themselves in the power of will.

This morning, I had many false awakenings, it wasn't pleasant, I couldn't come back here no matter how hard I tried. I would get out of bed and it just wasn't this reality, I felt very drunk too. I knew I didn't have to go to work, so there was no problem, but I was hoping it wasn't 4 pm already. I don't know why I was convinced it was already very late, even though it wasn't really.

I found myself walking through the streets of my city, until the path led me to a beautiful temple. It was reddish in color, like terracotta, like it was made of adobe. Many people were entering and leaving, there were children with their families. I see a wise man coming out of there, with black robes, hood, and long white beard, like a wizard. He seemed like an important person, maybe a guide, and I greeted him with a bow, clasping my hands and bowing slightly. He smiled and returned the same greeting. I was happy to enter that place, which seemed like a site of wisdom. But when I entered, everything turned black and I was floating in outer space. I wasn't scared, but completely ecstatic. Until I realized I was starting to see a rocky and pointy area, and I moved away, and it was the surface of a planet! It had peaks all over and was yellowish... Although beautiful, it seemed desolate and sad, so I decided to create life on it. I started forming emerald-colored rivers that began to branch out through all the rocky channels. From that, I formed vegetation, more like shrubs, and some trees. I wanted to keep going until I could create some animals. But unfortunately, everything turned black and I woke up.

I still felt strange and even had low blood pressure or something, sometimes I get this feeling when I'm awake, where everything turns black with blue stars, and it only lasts for a second, which sometimes scares me. It  happen when I am awake. It took me a bit to start the day, but I'm very relaxed and happy.
Somehow, I feel very connected to a part of my consciousness that helps me progress in all aspects of my life.
Thanks for stopping by! 

[tides2dust]

Absolutely beautiful.

I have spells of dizziness too. It was strange for me to notice we were both really tired the last few days and having our moments with physical stress.

I'm glad you're ok and had such an amazing experience.

[Tak]

Hi! This just happened this morning.

I became aware and found myself trying to leave my body, it was as if I was stuck. I felt my physical body lying in bed, but I knew that with a simple thought I could free myself and just leave... and that's what happened. As I did, I rolled out to the left as I usually do, but instead of falling against the floor, the mattress was endless, because that's what I thought at that moment just to have fun, let's say I created that holographic space and sensation. When I got bored of doing that, I decided to fall to one side, but that was also a created and holographic sensation, since my environment was pure energy, there were no furniture really. My body was almost non-existent, very volatile and made of energy too, like a cloud. But I decided to create a simulated physical space and when I stood up, I realized I had the blanket on me and I easily took it off, it was funny. Then I touched my hands to see if they felt magnetic and electric, like I used to feel in my ethereal body, but it wasn't like that, everything became very physical because my mind created a perfect holographic reality, I even felt my own fingernails pinching me. I know there were several detachments, this was just one of them.

Then I went out the window, luckily I'm remembering not to open them. But I couldn't see anything, until I merged with a white light and felt a lot of pleasure, freedom and vitality for a moment. My body also disappeared (I regret not staying there longer!!). Then I regained my holographic body and asked my higher mind to take me for a ride, at that moment I saw everything gray. I started to see and was floating outside my window on the side facing the building in front of me to my right. I don't know how happened, but I ended up entering a lucid dream where I was with other people on top of a car and I decided to create sakura trees in a kind of tunnel that released many flower petals that fell on us while we were driving and that's what happened, it looked very nice. To create in lucid dreams, you just have to imagine, don't force things to change, it's like daydreaming, just imagine your desire and it will become reality. You don't have to look at the object and wait for it to change with forced thought, but let your mind flow freely and the environment will change accordingly. It's hard to explain, but it's what works for me (and sometimes in the physical world too).

Then I was opening a wooden door and felt like if I was ghost or like I wasn't supposed to be there. Inside was a crib with a baby and I was afraid that they would think I would steal something, I don't know why. There also was a library full of very old books that I browsed through a bit, but in the end, I left because nothing interested me. Everything was gloomy and eerie.
When I left, someone grabbed me and touched my back, I felt it was a woman's hand, probably a helper, they always grab me like that by surprise. But in some cases, I didn't recognize them and took it as an aggression and wanted to defend myself. The other day I bit the hand because I forget again that they were my helpers LOL. Poor them! I felt bad about it,  I got very scared. But I'm sure they were laughing their heads off. It's hard for me to get out of survival mode and know that everything is okay.
Then I started to dream in a semi-lucid way until I came back.

I'm still trying to remember to flow with my new energetic environment, no matter how strange it may seem, and stop creating holograms that simulate the physical plane to feel more comfortable navigating there. I know a "new" environment invites me to immerse myself in it, and I hope to get used to it soon, since it's my area of interest. I think I'm slowly achieving it.
Sometimes when I say "I don't see anything," I'm actually seeing things, it's just that they're things I can't understand or translate.

Thank you! 

[tides2dust]

It sounds like you're becoming more aware of your environment in these states. Your courage and willingness to explore is always comforting. Your last paragraph is the most interesting.

It's true, I don't think we can understand a new environment if it's something that goes beyond ordinary human perceptibility. Your word choice... That the environment invites you, is really profound to me. Your Faith in that relationship- I think allows for the OBE's even when you aren't attempting a formal practice. That and being honest with your self.

It's fun to think about, who or what is inviting you. And to think you are being gifted insight into other worlds.

Thanks for sharing ~

What an amazing thing you have happening over there.