I could use advice in this area

[SpectralDragon]

I can fully understand the situation with a controlling mom, though I never really had to deal with Pagen magic the way you have to. If she is doing these wrongs to you it is only right that you fight back by letting the authorities know about the fruads and the tricks she tries to pull. This way she learns her lesson. I am surprised she does not go by the rule of 3's my pagen friend told me about which state that she has to pay for her magic 3 fold but perhaps she has found a way to pass on her Karma to you.

With your declining health a psionic shield is impossible. However, if you have just a little money any black colored stone you find that ends with -ite will help cancel any negativity and transform it into something positive. It won't completely solve the problem but it will help slightly. []

It just isn't right that a mother should act so. My adoptive mother treated me like I was something from hell after a while, and there really was not all that much I did to make her feel that way. [!]

If I find anything else I will be sure to tell you.

[goku22]

Here's a few ideas, get Robert's Practical Psychic Self Defense and try some of the stuff in there. Or look up some wiccan defensive spells to see if you can get the stuff she is sending you to bounce off you and go back to it's sender. And remember, she may be using your remaining love for her against you, as a way in for the magic. Just guessing. Ask around in the magic forum. Knowledge is the best defense.  Ben

[Anonymous]

The Bard,

I am having trouble with my own parents. Though I love them dearly, they are much too controlling. I am 23 and they treat me like I am 15. However, I see signs that I need to move out of my house, whether I am living on the street or not. It is my responsibility as an adult to assert my independence, and I intend to do just that.

I hate to say this, and it's not going to sound very nice, but I don't think your mother knows what love is. It is her job to make sure that she has prepared you to live on your own, and it was her job to provide for you when you were a child. This is not something a parent should ever hold over their child's head. It's their job, plain and simple, whether the child loves them or not. If I were you, I would show her tough love. Do whatever you have to to make sure she learns that what she has done to you is wrong and unacceptable. Using such magic and then passing off the karma to you is a mistake only a fool would make. There is no bypassing karma. Someone will make sure she gets what she deserves. That's the way the world works. If a criminal goes around stealing from people enough, he'll have an angry mob after him eventually, even if he places the blame on someone else. The retribution and punishment will simply be more swift and severe. That's the way the Universe works. My suggestion to you is, find out if something (i.e. a bad spirit) is controlling your mother. Some spirits can be very subtle and sneaky, and can be almost undetectable. I have fought such spirits, but I am coming to a point where I want to lay down my sword and show them the Light. Nothing exists outside of the Divine. I do not know what religion you are, but reading up on Zen and the Tao have both helped me a lot. You learn from these religions that you can control nothing outside of yourself, but you can do anything with whatever is inside yourself. It starts with your thoughts. You must endure this with perseverence and the persistence of positive thinking. If you truly want to be outside of your mother's life, treat her as though she did not exist. It will take much discipline to do this, but in the end, what can she do? She will have no choice but to give up. Show her that she can never take your happiness away from you, and show her that you have no attachment to material possessions like she does. Her value system is likely very different from your own, so what she sees as valuable, she will try to take away from you.

Good luck. If you try my and others' suggestions and they do not work, email me, and I'll try to help you as best I can.

Another handy stone to have is kyanite. It's a bluish stone and it has a limitless amount of energy, and it also has the ability to slice through astral matter. It never needs to be cleaned or recharged.

Look within yourself for the nothingness from which all things manifest.

[The Bard]

Thanks for the advice. Since I wire wrap stones and make jewelry I think I have all those stones that were mentioned. So I will dig out some of the jewelry that I never wear and start wearing some that contain those stones.

I plan to buy Robert Bruces books after the holiday season.

I'm not into court battles. I think they just open wounds wider but I might move out of State for awhile and put a distance between her and I.

I hope you all had a great Solstice[]

[Dark Knight]

I don't think you can evade Karma...I think maybe you can delay it for a while, only to pay everything in one lump sum. That must be a sight.

I can understand not wanting to go to court. It sounds like your boundaries haven't been supported or re-inforced, and yes you're right, you can't fight in court when you're boudnaries are weak. In court, you're already weakened boundaries are going to be challenged and probably wouldn't take the strain.

If at some point you have the strength, I think you should report your Mom's fraud to the police. If she's doing this to you, I can only imagine what she is doing to other people.

I don't think the spirit of any one is trying to get you, I think it's like what was mentioned in Dennings and Philips book, sometimes families, workplaces, groups of people can create their own, combined neg aura, that can attract God knows what (and hon, sounds to me you've had some black voodoo done to you...that's sarcasm I don't literally mean voodoo).

I am probably one of a few people on this site that can relate to the Money aspect. It's awful. I would suggest hematite, citrine, and black tourmaline. I don't know how comfortable you feel about ebay, but that's how I get most of my stones and I can find some really good deals.

You've got to heal yourself first, which is hard when you have kids you're trying to take care of...I would not tolerate crap like child welfare fraud, you should definitely report that to someone (so if they took the kids away where would they go? To foster care or grandma...that's sick).

To the rest of you guys reading this, I have one question...Bard goes to the cops to report the incident(s), the mom is arrested, what about the rest of the black pagan clan? Could there be retaliation? I only ask because after 5.5 years of attacks I have learned one harsh lesson...only tinkle off your attacker as far as you can recover from the retaliation.

Hey Bard, I mention this a lot on this forum, maybe you should also try salt baths using bath salt blessed with Holy Water (sorry, don't know if you belong to any particular religon). You may need to regularly "clean yourself" of anything that may be attached or tagged onto you (Your aura I mean). It's hard and it sucks but it does work and it's cheap (table salt will work just as well if you can't get the shi shi poo poo bath salts...poor man's bath, just like me).

[Dark Knight]

quote:DK,

He is parasiting the channel you have opened to call down these neg entities into you. You must either protect yourself before you open a channel or you could recite this extreme purification if you sense him laching onto you again.

"PURIFICATUM CHRISTUM,
ST MICHEL ARCHANGELUM ARCHANGELUM,
ADJUVA MEUM,
ADJUVA TEUM,
IMMORTALIS CONJURATOR ET PECTORUM VERITUM ADJUTORIUM"

Recite this as many times as needed and also recite this forty times whilst taking salt baths as it is an extreme purification that works wonders. i use it all the time.

regards
posted by alchimiste in the Magic thread of the PSD forum

Bard and Alchimiste,

Alchimiste I humbly ask forgiveness for quoting you out of thread, but I thought this was excellent and I hope you don't mind. Bard, if you choose to do the Sacred bath I posted, you might want to add Alchimiste's suggestion as well.

[SpectralDragon]

quote:Originally posted by Dark Knight

To the rest of you guys reading this, I have one question...Bard goes to the cops to report the incident(s), the mom is arrested, what about the rest of the black pagan clan? Could there be retaliation? I only ask because after 5.5 years of attacks I have learned one harsh lesson...only tinkle off your attacker as far as you can recover from the retaliation.

I understand your assessment of this, but keep in mind that just because that one pagen in that area is using magic for evil, the others don't have to be. TRUE pagens abhorr the use of magic for evil, and know that if they do so they will pay heavy prices. I know this because I have friends who are pagan.

[The Bard]

Dark Knight thank you for the advice. Actually I already bath in salts and an astral friend of mine keeps them from attaching things to my aura. It is more like what GoKu22 mentioned

quote:And remember, she may be using your remaining love for her against you, as a way in for the magic.

Most of the few pagans here are very kind and gentle folk and she isn't part of a cult.

The court system is very corrupt. My mom is a bit of a celebrity here because she does an awesome monthly radio show.

When I told the Judge about the fraud she pulled he ignored me even though I have evidence. It turns out she is friends with a couple of the judges.

Part of the reason my moms family hates my husband so much is he comes from a family of cops but he was their black sheep. They still love him dearly. My husbands father is a retired LA captain and his brother is one of those cops that rides a horse around LA.

My family are all hippies and whenever they get in trouble with the law (and they have recently) they blame my husband. Neither he nor I have ever called authorities on them and we never will. They have tried to sick authorities on us before with things they fabricated and the cops left us alone once they realized they were crank calls.

I believe there is a higher justice system and I personally think several laws are unjust. There are many crooks who are authorities missusing their power.

I love my husbands family and I love my family in spite of their attacks on me. I do find it amusing that my husbands family has been more open minded about things than my hippie mom who preaches stuff that is high and holy but won't practice what she preaches.

[Dark Knight]

Yeah, I know Pagans aren't evil ( most aren't anyway ). I amde the statement after reading this quote:

quote:My mom's family attacked us with everything they could muster. Including magic. I finally moved away in 1999 after my baby died from a doctor's mistake.

Did I misread this? The whole black pagan clan I was referring to was based on this quote.

Gotta love Justice especially when someone has their hand tipping the scale. Have you ever thought about going higher than the local authorities, say a senator and telling them what the hell is going on (now that would take a lot of energy and I won't pass judgment if you say "no" you don't want to. I was gonna work in race relations ,remember, so I'm always in rebel mode [8D]).

If you actually have people helping you to make sure you don't have icky things in your aura that's awesome. That's probably the best you can do, and keep a lot of crystal and plant a lot of helping herbs come spring, especially lavendar. Do you smudge at all, especially with your own grown stuff?

[The Bard]

quote:Did I misread this? The whole black pagan clan I was referring to was based on this quote.

quote:My mom's family attacked us with everything they could muster. Including magic. I finally moved away in 1999 after my baby died from a doctor's mistake.

Gotta love Justice especially when someone has their hand tipping the scale. Have you ever thought about going higher than the local authorities, say a senator and telling them what the hell is going on (now that would take a lot of energy and I won't pass judgment if you say "no" you don't want to. I was gonna work in race relations ,remember, so I'm always in rebel mode ).

If you actually have people helping you to make sure you don't have icky things in your aura that's awesome. That's probably the best you can do, and keep a lot of crystal and plant a lot of helping herbs come spring, especially lavendar. Do you smudge at all, especially with your own grown stuff?

I don't think their curse energy caused my babies death. It hurt my mom to lose a grandchild but someone or both she and her husband cast a wish spell in a tree at the farm that I use to sit and draw in. The year that he died. They knew it was a special spot for me and they didn't know that I would recognize the spell from a book about trees that my mom gave me some years before. Maybe they forgot I had that book. I don't know what they wished for but I know it was a spell aimed at me in a negative way.

I won't persue legal action against her. That is what she fears from me because there is more than just the fraud I could sue her for. Her attacks on me are based off fear and I really don't want her to fear me. I don't call authorities on people unless they are causing physical harm on someone.

Part of her problem is her husband is an abusive drunk who wants revenge on me for having him arrested for beating my mom after she had surgery 12 years ago. That is when they started their attacks on me. I think it is him and not her that is cursing me but she isn't stopping him and goes along with everything he tells her to do. It was his influence that got her to use my money. They were married when I was 17 (the year she took my money.) I am now 40.

I do grow herbs and flowers every year and
I smudge when I have sage.

Thanks

[Dark Knight]

Damn!

Your case is becoming too typical...you've done all the basics, prayers and blessings, but the problem still exists. It sounds like your mom has a "neg" attachment in the form of her husband. I'm real sorry about that.

I have absolutely no authority to tell you what to do, sounds like you're the expert on your situation, and I'm still being attacked on top of it. You're hanging in there, keep hanging.

There is only one thing I would feel the need to say, but I don't expect you to take action accordingly, sounds like you have too many things to prioritize as is. I grew up in an abusive situation and not all abuse is physical. I realize that you wouldn't do anything unless a physical threat is involved, but mental and emotional threats are just as abusive and leave long lasting scars and wounds that could take a long time to heal. Maya Angelou calls them little murders...it's like they take a little bit of you each time until there is nothing left.

Seems to be popular here to tell people to just get over it, and people don't look to see what they're sacrificing. Doesn't seem to occur to people the things they tell others to "get over" and sacrifice are the things that give you the strength to live through a hell like this. Eventually you've compromised so much of yourself there's nothing left.

You need yourself in order to stay strong and fight, and every bit of you is precious. Just be aware that as you make decisions, you're not just making decisions for yourself, you're whole family is involved. How are your children (I ask as a child that was once abused). Kids need to feel safe, when they don't feel safe, they stop growing because all their energy goes into feeling safe. And children are not pawns for people's arguments. That is one of my strongest buttons for someone to push and get me riled up. This crap of getting the authorities convinced you're a bad Mom has got to have an effect on your kids (kids notice things, they just don't let on, trust me on that).

Please just let us know you and you're family are OK.

Hate to say it, but it sounds like your Mom got her Karma but it cost your baby's life.

[goku22]

It sounds like your family are fake hippies, not practicing what they preach, as you said. I consider myself half-hippy, and that half just wants to smoke pot, go to drum circles, and spread the love. Maybe your mom was like that before marrying that guy, who I get major negative vibes from by the way. Sounds like you've got to figure out a way to get rid of him. Naybe find some arch-nemesis of his so they fight it out and the negative vibes get redirected away from your mom and you. That'd be cool. Well, you have my best wishes, good luck.  Ben

[The Bard]

quote:Originally posted by Dark Knight


Please just let us know you and you're family are OK.

My children are having a blast for the holidays. We just took them to the Lord of The Rings tonight. My daughter is turning 11 this month, She was up late last night  painting with watercolors with me.

They were having problems with their new teachers this year and begged me to home school them. I have home schooled my daughter before when she was in first grade. The next year when she returned to the school she was ahead of her class and put in Junior Great books and Math Olympiads. This year her grades plummeted. So did my sons. My son is 9.

They both came home from school acting like their teachers were torturing them. Even the music teacher was making them hate music and my son quit singing around the house. He reminds me of Adam Sandler with the songs he makes up and he pretends to be singing opera and his voice is beautiful. The music teacher told my children they had bad singing voices. I finally got fed up and started home schooling my children this month and they love it. They still get to go on field trips with the school and participate in sports, inventers fair and school plays. I think they need extra attention from me this way because of all we have been through  with my family.

My children tell me every day that I'm the "best mom in the world." I do spend most of my time with them. Even now during the holidays they are having so much fun learning that they are playing with an inventers kit and a model of the human body that they put the bones, muscles, and nerves,  into. My children also love to read every day.  I am very proud of them.

Their dad makes snowshoes and toboggans for a living so he's not home as much as I am but we are thinking of starting a family crafting business. The children and I do many arts and crafts. I even taught them how to spin with a spinning wheel and weave on my floor loom. The floor loom is in storage as we work on remodeling our house. Both my children helped weave two blankets on it when it was set up.

My children have been hurt by the situation with my mother and losing their baby brother. Plus my husband and I almost broke up in 1998. I left him for 8 months. He did his best to win me back and then got me to marry him. We've been together 12 years now.  Most of our problems are caused by my family.

The children love their Grandma and it hurts them that she hates their dad. The reason I let her back in my life is for them. They missed her. She is a better Grandma than a mom. She only got verbally abusive to two of her children out of 4. (Her youngest and eldest are her favorites.) One of my half sisters is still treated like she is stupid. She is 25 and very beautiful and due to have her second baby in February. She is still at an age where she sucks up to my mother in hopes for praise and love. Whoever called child health and human services on me did it to her too with the same accusation of living in unsanitary conditions. Luckily they left her alone. Right now my mom has convinced my sister that I tried to have her son taken away. It wasn't us and I've been grieving that she thinks I would do that to her. When she was a child at the farm I was always protecting her from her dad when he was drunk. I am more like a second mom to my sisters than a sister. My sisters are ages 20 and 25. Both her and my baby sister were able to hide out in my trailer when their dad was drinking. It really hurts me that he can see her son and I can't.

My house isn't unsanitary it is just cluttered with books and crafts and maybe a few cobwebs because I like the wolf spiders in my house. They don't bite, live in the laundry room, and bathroom. Wolf spiders are really funny. They have battles in our claw foot tub and if someone leaves water in the tub one will drown itself. We decided they are giving sacrifices to their claw footed god. We tend to kick them outside when we catch them but we don't kill them. The cats eat them. We have 5 cats and a dog who is part wolf.

My mom treated me poorly because she considers herself a genius and was ashamed when the school system tried to convince her that I was mentally retarded. I had a very bad lisp and was dyslexic but back then the school system just thought I was stupid. She had an IQ test done on me when I was 8. The man told her that I got bored and goofed off. He told her he really couldn't tell what my IQ was but that I got things right that most children knew nothing about and I got things wrong that most children know about. He told her I was right brain dominant and above average.  My grades were always poor and I did not do well until I hit my teens and went to a Free School. That school was the best school I ever went to.

Another thing that made my mom ashamed of me is I became chubby as a child. Now that I look at childhood photos I am shocked. I wasn't very chubby but she was calling me fat and putting me on diets all the time. Which made me crave food more and now I am obese. In fact the more she attacked me the more weight I gained to the point now my health is failing. (Adult onset Diabetes, High blood pressure, Hernia, and Sleep apnea) I do exercise and have done yoga since I was a teenager and belly dance since I was 20. I also swim and bicycle. My children mimic my working out and now both of them are very athletic and always get A's in gym. It is the exercise that has kept me from being crippled from my size. To me this has been her biggest curse energy on me.

Last summer I fell twice on rocks at a river I swim in. Anyone else my size would have been crippled but since I take bone Maximizor with Glucosimine daily I wasn't hurt from the falls at all which really surprised me. I do have extremely strong bones even before I started taking bone Maximizor. Two years before I met my husband I survived being hit by a speeding corvette and  shocked everyone who saw it by walking away from the accident in one piece and went home. A man in a cowboy hat asked me, "How could you still be alive after that?" My ex-boyfriend screamed at me for not sticking around to collect the guys insurance but I felt bad because it was my fault. I was so tired after working a double shift that I pulled out in front of him on my bicycle.

I'm just rambling here. Sorry can you tell I love to write. The kids and I are fine. I am still dealing with grief and healing from it. I agree that verbal abuse isn't easy to get over but if you look at your parents as mentally ill you learn to feel a bit of sympathy towards them. Instead of hating mean people I tend to pray they heal. That is how I handle it. I am a very strong person but I do have hurdles to jump before I am healed.

Edit- I have an 18 year old step daughter too but she grew up with her mom and moved here to go to college. She doesn't live with us yet we see her quite often. She works as a CNA and is a great roll model for my children.

[Anonymous]

I am glad to hear that you are doing well. You are very self-sufficient and hopeful, two very honorable qualities. I like that you don't go looking for revenge because of your mom and step dad. Life will slowly wittle down their attacks until they will one day realize that they cannot win. Your life is improving because you have the help of the Divine. There certainly is justice in the world. It is like the Zen say- There is no problem, it's just that people don't realize there is no problem. People often try to fix what is not broken to begin with.

[SpectralDragon]

Speaking of Pagan, you might want to talk to some of them and see if they can put counter-curses around you. It wouldn't hurt to ask.

Sounds like things aren't going too badly at the moment. It's good that your holiday turned out nice. It's even better that your kids are staying at home to learn. []

I hope things turn out all right. for you, Bard.

[Dark Knight]

That is excellent! As long as you have support and love in your life to that degree you can probably deal with anyuthing that comes your way, and I agree with the home schooling or a similar structure.

Grade school was absolute hell for me. I'd get abuse from my classmates, abuse from my teachers, then come home and get abuse from my family. High School changed everything. I went to a Catholic Girls school which provided me with the structure and safety I needed to grow and become myself. When I entered college (the first "public" schooling I got in my entire life) I was shocked at how unprepared a lot of the other freshman seemed.

Anger is not hate. Anger in a mild term is one of God's little pain receptors warning us that we're wondering too far away from Him. Anger often comes up when too many compromises have been made, when people's value is not recognized or validated, when a need exists. Everyone is different and has the right to be treated with respect. Calling all anger hate is not using listening skills that God gave us,...the invalidation of a human being, which I consider an act of hate.

It doesn't sound like you're in that situation though. Sounds like you have everything you need. I'd take the kids out of school and home school them. They don't need that kind of crap. There are other ways to socialize.

Wolves? They're a totem animal for me []

[Aries]

Bard, if I were you I would try and get some other Pagans to do some counter spells, or make some wards or something along those lines.
Have you ever just called your Sister or Mom and let them know how you feel and what it is doing to your life?
Well at anyrate I hope things get better for ya.
-Aries

[The Bard]

quote:Originally posted by Aries

Have you ever just called your Sister or Mom and let them know how you feel and what it is doing to your life?
Well at anyrate I hope things get better for ya.
-Aries

Yes I do communicate how I feel to them. Sometimes they twist my words and try to use them against me but the communicaton might be helping. They are coming to see us on Christmas. I hope it will be a friendly visit on their part but it has made my husband very moody. They have ganged up on us during holidays before. I'm praying this time will be different.

[Dark Knight]

It's Christmas morning and I hope all has gone well for you.

Bard, boundary manipulation is one of my specialties given what is happening to me. Sounds like they are taking things out of context and supporting them within the confines of their twisted little boundary structure...which has the effect of destroying your boundary structure and injuring your self confidence. Pretty soon everything you think and feel is wrong and everything they think and feel is right...brainwash job. I don't think you'll have that much of a problem given the support system you have described but be aware in the event that support system ever disappeared and you were on your own, it makes one helluva difference.

That is a toxic situation I am famaliar with and I am very sorry you have to go through it.

Being right is not more important than love, and it is not more important people. You may want to remind them of that, and if they turn it around to apply that to you, you can question them about compromises which have to be made in everyday life, and question whether they are doing their part. It won't kill them to think, and may force them to re-examine their own hearts.

[Aries]

DK thats deep...
Yea what she said!

Anyways how did it go Bard?
-Aries

[The Bard]

Christmas day went very well. Some Ojibway friends of mine showed up on Christmas eve. They are a family I have known for 23 years and I helped raise their twin boys who are now both 20 years old. One of their twins named Rainbow came with them.

They smudged my house with sage and sweetgrass. They spent the night. We fed them leg of lamb and had a great time together. They are also friends with my mom but haven't had anything to do with her since she dragged me to court over the title of the land. They don't understand why she wouldn't share it with me and they knew my husband well enough not to believe their lies about him.

My Uncle showed up on Christmas day and gave the kids Girl Genius and batman comics. He wants me to read a sci fi novel he is writing.

On christmas day I was told my mom and older sister would come. They never made it. They did show up the day after and they were very nice to all of us. My mom even talked with my husband in a civilized way. My sister didn't try to get me to let her take my daughter with. Luckily she had a car full of people.

The kids got more presents than I could list. I just got done playing clue with my daughter who is being insomiac.[]

[Dark Knight]

That sounds great Bard, I'm so happy things turned out well for you.

[The Bard]

For 12 years I have been under psychic attack by a member of my family or a couple of them. (My mother and her current husband.) They use slander in the real world but both are pagans who use magic as well. I love my mom and tried to heal the situation by allowing her to visit my children on Sundays and talking things out with her but the wounds between us run deep right now.

A month ago I hung up a Mask of Barong Sai (which is thought to ward off evil spirits.) I joked to my husband, "If my mom quits visiting us it will mean her visits had evil intentions." I wasn't serious but what is weird is she quit visiting.

One day I realized there might be more to the situation than I realized. I remembered an old roommate of mine who was sad because her sister was alienated from her family because they didn't like her spouse. (Her sisters spouse was an ex-boyfriend of my sisters) At that point I was very tight with my family and couldn't understand how her and her sister could let a man come between them. I prayed that they would make up. Soon after the prayer my roommates sisters husband drowned. She and her sister made up and were reunited. I doubt my prayer had anything to do with it but I felt a little weird that the man died after my prayer. I didn't wish him dead. I just wished the sisters would make up.

Then a few years later I met my husband. My mother's whole family hates him. He uncovered a fraud that my mom had committed against me over a trust fund I got from my dads death and some real estate that she invested my money in when I was under age. I didn't take them to court but I moved onto the land and made a home with my family. My mom's family attacked us with everything they could muster. Including magic. I finally moved away in 1999 after my baby died from a doctor's mistake.

It did not end my family's attacks. In fact they still use slander to drive us out of town even though we own our own house and stay out of their lives. My mom took me to court for the title of the land the year my baby died. I settled out of court and she agreed to pay me $11,500. I sent the money back because to me the money wasn't the issue. The issue for me was because of money they got from me when I was under age they got 80 acres that they should have shared with me.

I love my family but my mom is a gold digger and I got in her way and she always thought she had complete control over me.

This past 12 years I have had many heartbreaking experiences from this situation. I gained a bunch of weight and my health has declined. Part of me wonders if it was brought on by the spirit of the man (whom died when I prayed the sisters would be united) or if it is just my family's weird cursing energy.

I am healing myself and my spirit friend protects me as much as he can. He warned me of the times they tried to call the police on us with fabricated stuff. He also once jumped in me and cleaned my house to the point it had zero dust or cobwebs. The next day child protection came to my door and said, "We heard you live here without running water and that it is unsanitary for your children." Luckily the place was so clean they left us alone. That is when we lived in a trailer on the land. That happened twice when we lived there.

I don't know much about defending myself from psychic attack and would be open to hearing suggestions. (At least in things that don't cost money.) I am rather strapped financially right now.