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Hi, master.
I'm sorry to disturb you, but this question is much important to me and I have been wondering a lot about it before coming to you.
I have discovered big things, that were beautyful, and very pleasant, I was in zeal and awe before their greatness and their beauty.
But now I feel these things might be a mistake, although I desire them much each day. How could I just know how to find them again, while avoiding to be mistaken, and take what is hell for paradise.

in a word, don't you think searching for paradise might bring hell?

I discovered energy sensations while meditating around the end of year 2000. Eversince I've had many serious problems that nevertheless have come with improvements in my life.

Today I face a situation where I fear to suicide unwillingly.

Recently I felt unexisting things that seemd to work on me while I was falling asleep, like hundreds of little tools that would touch me on the torso, belly, and head. It was fascinating, but was it good? or bad?

Sometimes I would really prefer to sleep peacefully, that's part of my point, But also one day it seemed to finish its work and my body started to move all by itself (especially head). I suppose this can be called possession. Strangely though, the thing that moved my head seemed to point out very interesting ideas, by illustrating them with objects present in front of me.

I also feel something touching my head, and now even during the day I feel like there is some kind of being sitting above my head and touching me. I tryed the egg exorcism from robert bruce's book, but although it seemed to work with other problems, this one seemed to stay.

Two other elements are negative in the balance: my daughter (3yrs) who never heard of this story told me that I had a monster that was eating my hair. Also I was diagnosed psychotic and am forced to eat pills.

The only solution that seems to work is not so practical, it consists in trying not to pay attention to it... which sometimes can become very difficult.

I wonder if these sensations are related to my own energies, to other beings, and I wonder if these beings are dangerous to me, if they might influence my ideas, like it seems, toward suicide. I want to find a way to know what it is, what it wants, and why it is there.

I read kundalini spontaneous, or novice events may induce leg paralysis... I've had bizarre and very scaring sensations in the base chakra for two days... sometimes I've been forced to stop and sit in the street... Is there a risk that this could be related to a too early kundalini awakening? Is there some way to avoid serious trouble?

(I already stopped any energy stimulation since I had disturbing effects last year)(except maybe let's say self care around primary center)

When like today I find steps toward a kind of possession where my face is driven toward positive and encouraging ideas, I start to remember the times where this path leaded me to a forced stay by the side of ignorant but caring doctors. I wonder if being enlightened will necessary mean feeling depressed having to be alone, and stop counting on the help of people who, just because they think they can help, omit to consider how narrow are our points of views.

The bad side means, for me right now, tobacco, night clubbing, sex, money, and ignorance...

My problem today is that for the third time in my life, when I feel my feet buzzing all day long, I fear. When I accept to question my point of view, protection and peace comes and comforts me... but what about the world I live in?

How shall I continue to live with people for whom my current false values are a sign of salvation... I really don't feel well... it would be so easy to follow those unexisting things who bring relief to me, and so hard to leave these, who want me good, physically, but tend to hurt... if they feel I leave... How can I hide? How can I escape from their control, without hurting them... actually nobody else down-here have been as helpful as they have.

I have accepted earlier even to die in order to be able to help other people... and now what I find harder is being able to live without hurting them... my own success seems only to be threat for some of those who love me... just because if I want to help, I realize I barely accept a higher position that would make of me a source of good.

I felt since a long time, at dawn, like if it was a special time, and even had started being afraid that it could mean something for the whole human race, which made me even more afraid.

Today, at dawn, I had astral sight, and was in a curious state, neither excited nor fearfull, and I could focus on one element of this sight, and I understood what means "Astral Projection" I could project my being here into the picture, and feel myself inside it, When I managed to hold this feeling for a few seconds, the exit sensations started to rush in fastly and strongly. I knew I was going to be there if I just went thru the whole exit process. But the vision was suddenly so vivid and present, that I started to be shy, and the process ended.

I thought that first I had found one door to astral experience, that I had not read about, then, at midday, I realised the feeling at dawn might be related to this entrance. It would be like a Call... and thinking this a strong shiver came in. Thus confirming, this feeling could be just a call, and not a sign of human schedule. This is so reassuring, and also seems to mean AP might possibly become easy for me if I just accept to live a more vivid experience. I realised my work on this was so shy, and how different it is to actually accept to succeed. Until now I thought of it like of a healthy process, and was mainly expecting vibrations. But now I can see how different it would be to intend to do it, really, knowing it will work, and admiting that very deeply... not as easy as it sounds, given the extreme vividness of Astral Experience.... also I called, myself, and worked a lot, getting this kind of answer makes me feel special.... I hop I'll just get over that!

could somebody list me the focus states from c1 to f10 for I found only a list for f10 to f35

I have started practicing only yesterday, so I of course guess that I need more practice. But I felt still interesting things that make me wonder:
1. After a whil without moving my hands (about 20 min) I feel like my fingers are touchin themselves, but they actually are not... any explanation?
2. yesterday, I felt like someone was pulling my hand out of... my hand, and I could feel like this invisible hand, very light, and it seemed to be unable to move fast, like if my invisible body were paralysed, instead of my physical body, which I have to do efforts not to move at all. Is it my imagination? or is there a real start of dissociation between my physical and inivisible body?
3. What are Gamma wave, why do they say they are dangerous, and what are the dangers?
4. I listend to extracts of monroe tapes, and tryed to obey the voice... but I think I missed the first tracks of the CD... it says move to the 12, move to the 3 move to the 6, to the 9... I really don't understand what this is all about.
5. Is someone here able to list me the states that are labeld Focus 12 focus 15 etc. And tell me the hexaustive list from the start?...I orderd a book from Monroe, but will receive it in two weeks, and am not even sure there is this list in it.

I once had (24 years ago) a spontaneous OBE while sleeping straight into the physical plane...

I was sleeping at my sister place, and she arranged a bed in the balcony, since there were not enough room for all of us there. I fell asleep on my back. Then I had this experience that at the same moment I interpreted as being a dream that I was dying. I felt vibrations over all my body and started to fly up. I could see/feel myself down under me, laying on the bed. Then I started drifting to the living room where my deceased grand-ma was sitting quietly, busy doing something that I cannot remember. She did not pay too much attention to me and I did not pay to much attention to her. Then I think it all turned into a dream which I forgot. The next morning I was sure I dreamed (a lucid dream) that I was dying because I "went" out of my body.It is only much later, when I read about all that, that I realised I had a spontaneous OBE while sleeping in the real physical plane.

I find that when you are Lucid and find yourself "awake", if you settle down and wait a minute or so, you can go OBE into the RTZ. I kind of think I really dont wake up but I am OBE ready in my body. I have had some success of this by waiting a few moments before going OBE. Kind of like false awakening.

The way once recognizes a lucisddream is by thinking "hey, I'm dreaming" and intentionally doing something that is impossible in the real world.
The fact that you thought to see if your hand melt is a string indication that the dream was a lucid dream and perhaps even a projection. Keep doing what you've been  doing to get this far and you're ok.

2cents & L&L
jouni

Choose to ignore it.

It may sound silly but it works.

You choose to ignore it, you tell yourself its not real, that it's not happening, and it goes away.


But my personal feeling is that the above mentioned is not really dealing with the probelm.

You really should learn as much about the items in question as possible.  Learn both the metaphysical and medical side of various problems and body reactions.

Not every little odd or bad thing that happens in your life is the result of a neg.  There are plenty of physical and medical reasons for many of the problems that people encounter.

Hey Frere,

Just curious: Have you tried the NEW system? It will greatly improve your skills.

where have you read information about the incubus? Im also interested to know where others have obtained this name from.

As far as im aware the Incubus is and always has been a Demon (possibly maybe demons, called Incubi) that fed off the life energy of new born babys.
The word Incubus is somewhat close to the name of an 'Incubator', often new born babys are placed in incubators - at some level the word Incu is related to the demon and babys. Perhaps Incu is latin - im not entirely sure.

Im aware that the succubus is a demon relating to draining of peoples energy and is sometimes responsible for the causing of sexual arousal but the Incubus to me, has and always will be what it has always been in old literature, a demon that fed off new born babies. Why it's name has been extended to become another breed of succubus I have no idea.

My rant is now over [].

The worst of them try to suck my energy and I kick their butts. Others scare me when I'm in a lower state of consciousness, but are not a real threat.

Could be some sensations caused by your crown chakra activating because of the yoga.

2cents & L&L
jouni

You say a HOOK? Did it like stab you?

Like I told you in another post OBEs are like riding a bicycle, and now I think you have an idea of what I was talking about. [] You have to have a mental and emotional balance, until then your experiences will be short. But this is good because it is better to have short experiences you remember than long ones your forget. Yes your experiences will become longer the more familar and comfortable you become with the astral. Just do not become discouraged if your experiences are short.

You need to learn to forget about your physical body. Not always an easy thing to do, but you will get better with practice. Try not to think about your physical body at all but focus on your astral surroundings, especially when you start to feel like you are becoming more aware of the physical. I am not sure how you remain calm, it is just something that I do. I guess you just try to clear your mind. Try to calm yourself without physical attention during the day, just try to clear your mind and emotions mentally.

By the way, congratulations.

Though I have not used the rope technique it is may understanding that you are suppose to keep your body relaxed and let your awareness climb the rope. That is part of the technique, teaching you to keep your physical body relaxed while you get use to moving your awareness outside the body.

You are not necessarily suppose to fall half asleep. You are suppose to put your body to sleep and keep your mind awake. Though you can allow yourself to drift and just before your mind goes to sleep jerk it back awake. This way allows the separation process to happen naturally as if you are going to sleep. If you do it right after a few times you can wake yourself up in your astral body instead of your physical. The trick is 1) to not let your mind slip over into sleep and 2) not wake your physical body up, just your mind. Is this something along the lines of what you are doing?

Greetings Frere,

Seeying with you're eyes closed is what is called clairvoyance. I am not sure do if it can help archieve an OOBE I hope that someone else can answer that question.

As for you second question I think that it is indeed you're guide talking to you, but I don't know what the focus is this dreams happen on. I hope that I have at least asnwerd a part of you're questions.

Peace,
Stealth Fist

my ideas of possible explanations:

1. they are the voices of your family yelling at you to get up...

2. they are creatures in the astral plane (being a bit vauge here, but you didnt describe the voices so i dont know)

3. You are creating them your self through lucid dreaming

thats all i can think of[]

The key is to shift your awareness from the physical to the astral (or wherever you want to go). I am not sure how to explain this well. Try not to think about your body, try not to feel for it. Many times when I first started I would get out, feel overwhelmed and instinctly "feel" for my body. I am not sure if that makes sense but I do not know how else to describe it. You have to learn to remain calm and passive. When out, especially at first you can feel overwhelmed and vulnerable, though really you are not. If you cannot remain calm I think you instinctly "feel" for you body. You must learn not to do that and remain calm.

It sounds like you were close to OBE or AP. That is a technique I have used with some success. I would lay down and let my mind drift a little and as soon as I felt it drifting off to sleep I would snap it back awake. If you can do this and not fall asleep it seems to work pretty well. After a few times of jerking myself awake, my mind only, I seem to be able to jerk myself out of my body so to speak.

Mon Frère,

I'm an expert, but don't take my word for it, and I say drop the theorizing, you don't need it. If it works for you, it works, and that enough, unless you want to become a teacher, but as you say, you are a 'newbie', and 'newbies' ain't allowed to teach, at least not yet. And remember 'practice makes perfect'.

Mirador

Hahahaha beware. I want to meet that neg, if there are any like it.

No the problem is to stay out longer. If you hear a tv turn on you might come back.