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My eye color is best described as a hyperactive  , they change color often, people are always telling me this. It's probably my single interesting feature. They turn bright green, shades of utter gray, to blue and aqua. From very dark to quite light. But I think it has nothing to do with me or them, and everything to do with the colors that surround me and how they change environment to environment. They are just very reflective, it's no magic of mine.
I've seen others who have similar eyes.

I can't drink it, can't get over how awful it tastes. 

I'm sorry! I have a bad habit of assuming everyone is male. *shakes head*

So you have pasta issues? Hmm. It seems like as with lactose intolerance, there are varying degrees of gluten intolerance in all populations. Many friends tell me they have issues. Of course I didn't realize people had issues with gluten at all until I started to.

I think part of the problem must be that the offending molecule itself is rather large...not impossible to digest, but harder to.

I miss bread greatly, but I've tried gluten free bread and it is fine, though you could break a plate glass window with a loaf of it.

I think through profound feeling...that there is danger.
A year before my uncle/godfather passed away, I dreamed he became very sick and died, but then his spirit visited me. I awoke unnerved and frightened for him. Everything that occurred in the dream has since happened, and he does visit me occasionally from the other side. I know it is him, his unmistakable sense of humor, he always brings with him fresh jokes.
I grew up very close to him, he was a second father to me.

I keep dreaming about visiting tombs and cemeteries ages old...lately everything has taken place in an old ghost town or ancient city and I am by myself. Ordinarily this might disturb me...but I guess I am simply more disturbed when I dream my cats walk through walls  Anyway, enough about cat portals...

There is an undeniable nostalgia in these dreams, considerable depth. But most of all there is a peace in these places. The vivid nature of them makes me think I might actually be projecting to places. That I might be remembering people, revisiting the resting places of souls I once knew who have since left earth...perhaps when I should have. Or maybe they are still here but have chosen to forget everything, even the faintest...
The familiarity in them is strange.

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Everytime I eat even the tiniest bit of wheat, it is the biggest mistake of my life...lol every time!

Since you are diet conscious I have to share, I've had way more energy since cutting wheat/gluten completely out. To the point that I'm now convinced it is truly the grandest dietary woe. I believe it is the culprit that leads to insulin resistance (though not in my case, as my immune system is what destroyed my pancreas, I'm actually quite sensitive to insulin  ) Type 2 has risen in connection to -- not necessarily obesity, that's an effect -- but our diet over the past 100 years. Wheat flour, has become a filler in many many foods. A century ago, people ate far less wheat just because every single item on the shelf simply did not contain it.
Ooh, don't get me started on how terrible meat substitutes are due to their ingredients! If you do go strictly vegan, and are worried about diabetes...then certainly avoid them as much as meat. There are some items free of gluten apparently, but I have never seen them anywhere.

To be honest, (unless you are utterly allergic to something ) anything and everything can be good or bad for you. Good is in moderation, and bad is in excess. Good luck with your dieting, Mr. leaf! I pray that diabetes never gets its wicked hands on you.


PS
Chocolate is actually good for your heart, and strangely, your teeth 

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I eat more vegetables and fruit than anything else, because (due to other issues) they are mainly all I can have. I don't eat dairy, I seldom eat meat, and I'm allergic to wheat/gluten. All I ever eat regularly is rice, tofu...fruit and vegetables. 
And chocolate sometimes!

Diets do not necessarily help my blood sugars. I can only help myself, by paying very close attention to insulin ratios, and counting every carb. I cannot avoid carbs completely, I need them or I eventually will go into ketoacidosis and on the short term, can become severely hypoglycemic.

Fat and protein are actually what keep my glucose levels a bit less erratic. But it is important to keep in mind each diabetic individual might be a little different than the next.

Green Tea helps some people, cinnamon helps others...people swear by these things, but they just don't work for everybody...which is too bad. 

I've not had much physical energy my entire life, no matter how much I sleep, nor how much I dream...especially since puberty. I don't experience any great recharge. But I think unlike most people, my energy is spent in other ways. At all times I believe, I have a foot in the door of another consciousness. I would describe my reality as layered with shallow skins separating. The problem is I cannot take my foot back. I can only go inside that door and can never go completely outside of it. When I sleep my dreams are just as real as reality and I remember this reality as if a dream.

I am sleep deprived even when I sleep. I can never get enough. Life feels very much a duality. When I sleep I am not sleeping. I never cease. I know nothing of dreamless sleep. I can only experience nothingness through meditation, and it is after meditation only that I feel rest, that I feel peace.

I always awake more tired than before bed...especially if it was a very involved or busy dream. I usually have a lot I must do

When I was little, I used to think I really went somewhere and did these things because I just could not rationalize the exhaustion otherwise I've always struggled upon waking. I need 12 hours at least on each side.

Do you think the near death experience contributed to her awareness?

Ooh, Interesting, I'll have to show some friends of mine on another message board.

The cessation of eating meat has only ever made my blood sugars more erratic (and diabetes more brittle), because protein and fat slow down the rate of change (which can be dramatic) in glucose levels. But I suppose since I am a type 1, it is completely different. The type of insulin I'm on requires I eat a lot of protein before bed, but peanut butter and tofu really don't cut it, no matter how much. I don't know why, I always wake up sweating and hypoglycemic no matter how I adjust my insulin.

Bottled insulin is nothing like the real thing 

It likely does not help 
But mostly it is the neurotransmitter, serotonin.

No...just not too much.
People can't live without chocolate can they ?

It's the serotonin in chocolate that triggers migraines. It's a very common trigger, for me a smaller issue. My biggest trigger is hormones...girl ones. And intense light. Oh, and the smell of tires/auto mechanic shops.

Blue Crystal Monkey
Red Eastern Castle of Turning
Earth family- Cardinal
Clan- Truth
Galactic Activation Portal


I dedicate in order to play
Universalizing illusion
I seal the process of magic
With the crystal tone of cooperation
I am guided by the power of abundance
I am a galactic activation portal   enter me

A portal day, like everyone else in my family 

I've felt that way.
Now I feel incredibly protected by something I haven't been able to really articulate. I wouldn't say it protects me from death itself, but over this past year in particular I've become increasingly less fearful. I've taken some hard hits...health wise. But somehow, I'm being held together and I believe I have the ability to keep things this way. As long as I want it this way. In my mind, looming death is only in the loss of a will to live. And I refuse to lose that...ever again.
I am receiving help though...from something else as well.

It could be a "migraine aura" or something else entirely. It probably is a good idea to see a doctor or at least let your mother know so she can decide.

The neony colours make it sound like a migraine, but I don't know if burning and pressure is part of that. Then again, I rarely get migraines. I also think "going blind" as in just before fainting is different from transitory partial vision loss. I'm not absolutely certain, but you didn't mention getting dizzy or ready to pass out. Important questions are was it in one eye or both, and how long did it last.

Get well soon, okay?

Definitely sounds like a migraine.
Since age 10 I have suffered chronic migraine syndrome with aura...I've gone almost completely blind in both eyes (usually I lose sight in only one eye)...but I've fainted, thrown up. You name it, a migraine can cause it. Burning and pressure do fit into the migraine picture. A migraine can even give you diarrhea. It often makes my face partially numb also. I get at least one or two per month. Best to stay out of the light those days. If I don't retreat to a dark room immediately it can last for half a week.

Avoid chocolate...caffeine...canned or preserved foods. (Hahahah and don't watch A Scanner Darkly! It triggered a migraine for me  )

Another thing you can do next time, if there is a lot of pain, is submerge your arms and lower legs in hot and cold water. It draws blood away from your head providing a temporary relief.

But see a doctor and get a referral for a neurologist if this continues or worsens. And do feel better soon. 

Waking Life

 

Nothing has ever shut me down like being anesthetized. No dreaming, no self...for one of the first times in my life to my recollection.

I did wake up laughing harder than I've ever laughed, they had to put me in another room for a few minutes because I couldn't walk I was laughing so hard. All I remember is being bent over in a chair, fits of laughter and nothing but the color yellow. I was in quite a haze the rest of the day. I'd suggest, if anything, try it as soon as you're home if things are still fuzzy. I was able to tap into some of my talents later that day, to an immense degree.

I can't trust you in this case. I'm sorry. I trust only what I feel...and I wouldn't say I don't believe in God. Or angels for that matter...

How can you tell they want waking??       The one time I tried to get people's attention they were like zombies.. I couldn't get any of them to acknowledge me except this one kid, then he ended up pulling me into his drama.  I did slip over to the neighbors once and got a glimpse of the man standing in the bathroom, looking into the mirror shaving.  It took only seconds for me to be gone..LOL.  I dislike the peeping-tom aspect of that. 

That is a good question! Hmmm, and I guess the answer is that they've done the same to me So, yes, I assume it is okay. I've also gone to a few friends houses when they were awake and projecting, in those cases everything always seems natural. The reverse is different, If someone comes to help me get out of body I mostly ignore them and never remember a word they say, though I'll remember the visit. My only issue with conscious AP is that I'm kind of a narcoleptic projecter (which is funny because I am regular narcoleptic also). I slip in and out and people end up always trying to keep alert. 

But when I'm scared, like I was in this house I described, I become so alert that everything intensifies to the point of becoming far more vivid than wakeful reality. It was probably just as bad as when I was 15, when negs used to pull me out of my body and drag me around my room like a ragdoll.

HAhahahaha. The shaving man. Usually I naturally stay out of peoples bathrooms, I don't want to accidentally see the goings on. So this was the first bathroom I've projected into. 

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Balance is the key. Jeesh dont any of you listen.? Ok some of you do so dont smite me...lol
Really seriously in ALL HONOSTY. There is a god and a devil. There is good and evil. Dont any of you have experiance in dreaming at all? Have none of you ever met a demon? How do they look lol they look like us (or whatever they want) but normally just like us. Come on open your eyes and your minds and your hearts. All the bibles in existence are not lying.....All the religions of the world are not wrong. See for Jeaash im hanging out at an astral forum and none of you can say you have net a demon or a angel? What the heck you been doing? Are you just all talk? There is no REAL dreamer among you? 

I don't believe balance is the key. I believe it just is.

I've dealt with some annoying negs. Some terribly frightening ones too...no demons.

It isn't our sight, but our interpretation. The differing views here account for each individuals interpretation. It isn't a matter of sight or being a real dreamer. I could say the same about you, that you are a fraud if you cannot see the good, and the beauty in this life as well. 

When I fall asleep, I wake up inside of that sleep and I stay awake until I rise in the morning...I don't ever stop seeing, dreaming and projecting.

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Not at all.

I have seen some people enjoy a good witch hunt...but there's never any real witch. People do thrive on negativity. When I spoke of ultimate good and evils I was refering to religion in a manner. For example, no one would read the bible if it was entirely gray area. You may be able to understand things as you have described. Others, they look for proof.

I really believe there is no more evil than there ever was. There is only media that reports only negativity because it makes for a better story. You don't see much of the good. Nobody does, but it is still there and always will be.

...And I did say it was my opinion when I said I feel in the 3rd line down after the first two statements. I tend to make statements at the very beginning of every opinion I inject into conversation so you know automatically what I see. It's just my way, I am frank. I'm not negative or trying to be...anything really, other than myself. 

I only wake those who want waking...and only when I'm expected. Then I let myself in.

I don't know why I barged into this house. I'm having occassional problems with a subconscious divisiveness...to cause mischief as a child would. I'll not be fully there yet and something else runs my mind. And then I will come to, fully (takes me a little while)...and I won't know or understand what on earth I'm doing there. 

There is one painting of mine...I don't remember painting it. I remember seeing it though, as a real place some time during the process.

I've projected into other peoples houses a few times, mostly on accident (I think O_O) I certainly never begin with a mind to do it. One house, I had the voice of some entity call out to me...they knew I was there, and asked me who I was. I never saw them though because I hid in one of the bathrooms for a while and never replied D: It was so vivid I didn't feel I could leave the place without finding the front door. And then of course I could not find the front door. I hadn't come in any door...But I did have some mysterious intention of being there. I had walked up the street past other houses, right to the beginning of the driveway. I stared at the house a while and then suddenly I was just inside.

The owner had little pet birds, a swimming pool, and a long driveway that wrapped almost entirely around the house. I could paint pictures of what the rooms looked like, because it was like being any place while conscious. I did draw the layout of the downstairs and the yard.

I have one question to ask you who reads this. Just in your opinion, was it likely someone that I already know somehow? I've projected into peoples houses (that I know), and woke them up a few times on purpose. But with this session I really felt like an intruder, and I wasn't able to see who the home owner was because I was too chicken to leave the downstairs (someone was upstairs, never came down...but there was a considerable amount of pacing going on above, probably the being that called out).

Oh, and after exploring a little while at first I had done something...I don't know for sure what (made a sound, aggravated the birds) and alerted this being of my presence in the house.

It probably sounds mild compared to more horrific astral experiences, but I was scared out of my mind to the point of getting stuck there for a while. I haven't had anything astral spook me for some time.

I do wonder why I never saw the being...
Maybe they weren't supposed to be there either