HI Dria,
After reading your post, two things come to mind.
1. You need to work with your solar plexus chakra. This is located a few inches above your navel. It is the center of your will, power, success and happiness. Strengthening this center up will help give you the confidence to take control of your situation. From the way your post reads, I feel this is really important for you. The color for this chakra is yellow. If you are good at visualisation, do color breathing exercises. I also find this is a good point from which to imagine golden light expanding outwards like an explosion, at times when sudden and imediate protection is needed.
(don't neglect your other chakras, but I do think the solar plexus is important for you)
2. I thought you may want to try a clensing ritual. Just something simple like running a bath and saying a prayer and asking for the water to be blessed for you, maybe even a candle for atmosphere. I had a bout of depression a while back and I found this to be a really healing activity. If you are carrying any redundant energy that is attracting psychic attacks to yourself then this could help. (besides, a bit of self indulgence is excellent for the soul).
Good luck,
spiral
After reading your post, two things come to mind.
1. You need to work with your solar plexus chakra. This is located a few inches above your navel. It is the center of your will, power, success and happiness. Strengthening this center up will help give you the confidence to take control of your situation. From the way your post reads, I feel this is really important for you. The color for this chakra is yellow. If you are good at visualisation, do color breathing exercises. I also find this is a good point from which to imagine golden light expanding outwards like an explosion, at times when sudden and imediate protection is needed.
(don't neglect your other chakras, but I do think the solar plexus is important for you)
2. I thought you may want to try a clensing ritual. Just something simple like running a bath and saying a prayer and asking for the water to be blessed for you, maybe even a candle for atmosphere. I had a bout of depression a while back and I found this to be a really healing activity. If you are carrying any redundant energy that is attracting psychic attacks to yourself then this could help. (besides, a bit of self indulgence is excellent for the soul).
Good luck,
spiral