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Wow this was well put together in a way I could understand, I may have to go search what 4-7-8 breathing consist of , which I have a feeling I already do it when I try to project but like you said we try to take control instead of let it be, I shall try this tonight, thanks.

@Illuman, first yes I definitely know my mother is ok, I had a experience with her, that cleared that up, but it still did not help my depression, see I been stuck in a rut in my life , where i'm not moving forward to nowhere no matter how hard I've tried to be positive. My dream has always been to help people but not in the conventional way people do it through being police , doctor  or firefighter, I always wanted to heal people ( like that Jesus fella), inspire them  save lives (vigilantism), I never gave up that childhood dream and don't plan on it, but the possibility has dwindled down, to Aya being my last chance to try to change myself from the inside.

I know I can't have the abilities of television heroes so I just  want to open up the abilities of my human mind, you know telepathy, telekinesis, all the kinesis's, but if I can't do that through Aya, i'm at least looking for a better outlook. I know I have to help myself before I can help others which is why this Aya thing is so important to me it can help me go within like no other thing like meditation can. sigh, I know I sound crazy atm, so I will just stop, no one really understands no matter how I go about it, this is the best I can put it. Also i'm not scared of  death otherwise I wouldn't have tried to commit suicide.

The experience with my mom: http://www.spiritualforums.com/vb/showthread.php?t=112298

When I said I wanted to do Aya because I can't do it alone, I didn't mean I wanted it to do all the work I just needed it to help me go within myself so that I can make the possible changes that i'm looking for, a typical Aya trip has four sessions where you take the Aya  substance and with it being so strong, I can change a lot with myself, and the rest I can deal with, peope say it is hard to control an Aya experience, but my intent is just as strong, even if I just lead it a little, i'm not looking for it to fix my problems, if anything i'm going into this just hoping for a placebo effect, it will just help shake something loose. Key word help me, not do for me.

I'm 31 years old, been trying and continue to, but nothing has helped, even faked a suicide to get the help I needed for my depression didn't work then I actually did try to kill myself but again nothing panned out, I got put in the hospitals psych ward put on pills that never worked, and here I am still dealing with it . like I said Aya is my last hope for something to change the change I could not pull off alone.

Of course not, but it can help towards awakening something in me that I may take as an ability like healing or something, i'm just tired of this depression that I've lived with since the death of my mother in 1995, looking for a new outlook on life,  or maybe become more intuned to the other side, not just the abilities, i'm not really expecting it to work cause, everthing else in life has failed me in my pursuit so I know this will too.

Actually Ayahuasca is my last hope at trying to merge with my higher self to gain abilities, though I haven't as of yet figured out how I'm gonna scrounge up the money to go to Peru to try it, I also haven't really heard of anyone gaining no type of profound abilities through it but its my last hope before I give up my pursuit entirely.

I'd say support him, as doing something like that can be stressful,  I also thing he would be a God to those people, like Karxx said that is beyond imagination at that point. I think I did something of that caliber, but  unkowingly  and not as big. I created a team of superheroes in the astral so much so that a friend of mine  sees them in his experiences all the time, he tells me about them  all the time which amazes me,  cause I wanted something so bad that it has become permanent and real astrally, I have yet to run into this team yet myself, he also tells me I'm the leader of this team.

This lucid dream was more lucid as usual for me, and of course y'all know I like getting involved in the senarios so here we go.

It started off with me going to this "Garage" to go get my car fixed (Shania). I parked beside a 18 wheeler and sat there waiting for my turn when I seen the "Mechanic" coming towards me , I exited my car, he asked what I was there for and handed me some paper to sign, a lady that said hey you can come sit next to me, (for some reason I was now inside the building after receiving the paper). I sat next to the lady and signed the paper, I got these wierd vibes from the lady but I keep to my doings.

I then hear next, it was now my turn, I sat in a chair in front of a desk with a lady behind it, by now I was feeling more weird, now it was like I was being auditioned for something, the lady started asking weird question not pertaining my car which was the reason I came, but I was answering the but like on autopilot. Then the last question came, she asked Are you ...... After that I heard her muffled voice, I begin getting distorted and felt faint, I then said sorry I don't understand a thing you said, she then hopped out her seat and I got woozy and fell over.

She then came over towards me saying, he's ready. The moment she said that someone else from behind me started putting this light band thing around my head, the light was so bright on this thing that it snapped me out my woozy daze and I begin to put up a fighter as I became more aware and more lucid, at this point I noticed that these weren't dream characters. I went into full beast mode growling and tossing the beings off me, the wondered how was I not still under whatever they gave or did to me to make me woozy. I then calmed myself when I saw the fear within them. They showed me around their hideout, there was a variety of alien like beings there and humans with powers, they were hidden somewhere here on Earth.

I then begin feeling my physical body starting to awake and so did they, they ended with saying I was the Chrysalis and that they needed to find me, since I was becoming more and more awake my dream/astral body begin shutting down I could no longer talk , so I spoke telepathically telling them that I had a power/energy surge in the physical few days ago if they can trace residual energy they can find me. I said my goodbyes and hugged the lady from the desk and for some reason she begin seizuring in my arms and I awoke.


Yeah a few days ago I opened my chakras all the way to the crown and dispersed the energy into the sky and it actually Manifested into snow cause at that moment it started snowing... Well flurries but still it happened, I'm not that powerful to do full blown snow storms yet lol, it shocked the heck out of me that people were now walking in my physical manifested energy. I doubt I will try it again though. See that energy was supposed to go into the universe with a message to  manifest money into my life mostly thru winning the lottery. It was just something that came to me to do and I tested it out, it's been a few days and nothing yet.

My Conclusion: after some time thinking on this I think this was the universal Beings answering my chakra message, I sent to them, Chrysalis meaning i'm in the transformational stage of my life. Your opinions are appreciated as well.

After seeing thru eyelids you were basically out unless you were very much still aware of your Physical body then you would have had to deepen the state, but really at that point you can just try an exit technique, mainly since you were meditating that would be imagining yourself floating or getting up walking around your surroundings. Congrats either way though cause not many people go the chakra route, I did it once before and my body went numb and my hands got extremely hot, and I got up and out of body if I recall correctly let me go find the experience. Ok just reread it I did some next level stuff with my chakras lol, link below, I blacked out  not got up.

http://www.astralvoid.com/hydro1-journal/bug-t375.html?hilit=Hot#p1219

you did read my top experience right I did ask to meet with my higher self, but was told he didn't want to meet with me, or that I wasn't ready, meditation was never my strong suit which is why I tried pursuing in other ways, and the one time I do , it blows up in my face, I only have one more way i'm willing to try and that's thru Ayahuasca, my last chance at this, but I need to first, get things in order in my life otherwise I will be met with same, results as this, I don't wanna waste  or risk that again.

people have deemed it so unrealistic that it makes people like me who want it, hard to become, now getting the abilities of the human mind I mentioned shouldn't be hard to achieve with the higher self that has already achieved it, and merging with that self, it is said merging with your higher self changes you drastically and that's why I started to pursue it to become the person I wanted to be, but atlas I have to do/achieve something in this world first in order for it to even want to acknowledge me, but I don't know where to even start, there is no other personal things need achieving in my life outside of getting my 6 finished books published.

without sounding crazy, if I need a super powered selfs help to become the hero, i'm sure you can guess the type of hero I want to be, none of the types you said 

Do you want to be a hero in your own eyes, or can you only be a hero if someone other than you thinks you are?: I want to say both, but more so myself, I want to be an inspiration to others as well, but not like a regular everyday person.......I maybe mental wanting to be a hero in this way, but its been a childhood dream I never grew out of, and them always making inspirational movies about them , inspires and drive me to want to do it more... lets just call it what it is- superhero. you can go ahead and laugh at me for it (sigh). I know I can't have the powers of Sups, but I dialed it back a bit and just want the superhuman abilities of the human mind , Telepathy, telekinesis, healing etc. if I can just merge with that Higher self I can finally become what I always wanted, and began my journey.

I do not watch GOT but I get what you are saying

You have a point there Selski, I did at first think it to be one being, cause I was looking for the me that has accomplished all the things I been wanting to, maybe those were the voices of my higher selves, but wasn't the one I was looking for, especially the ones laughing manically, but then again all the stuff I expected the one I was looking for to have did go insane/mad with the power, so I do need to look at this differently, but still none of them were ready to meet me, so I still haven't met a single requirement whatever they may be, in order to meet with none of my higher selves.

So I must set out and accomplish something in my life.....and the only thing I can come up with is getting my books published, its my only goal I haven't done, cause I have no other goals, well outside of being an inspiration in the way I wanted but that is something I dearly need them for...because the inspiration I wanted to be is a hero I, something I can't become without them....look at me i'm already one of the insane ones I spoke to, wanting to become a superhero.

Me and my bestfriend finally did the float tank, it was not at all what I expected, I expected more on the lines of visuals and images, projecting and such, I didn't get any of that but I still enjoyed myself, I kept bumping the wall for the first few minutes and finally relaxed I guess you can say. Tho I didn't get visuals I did get impressions of audio voices in my head and all around me, so I decided why not attempt what I wanted here to experience thru this, so, I told the voices I wanted to meet with my higher self (yes I'm still on that lol), the voices went wild saying no and a few he don't want to meet with you, and he not ready to meet with me, I asked why but they kept saying he don't want to meet with you and laughing manically, at that point I begin to wonder why were he with all these beings/voices, why was he letting them speak for him, I mean he is me, he must know the condition my life is in by now.

After that I just drifted off once I notice wasn't getting anywhere. After my float was over I was refresh and less thoughtful in a good way meaning my mind wasn't clutter and running wild with thoughts. Then we headed to Brunch, and parted ways from there. I'm sort of disappointed, with the experience but love it for the mindlessness and renewal of energy.

wow that's a good idea i can project or lucid dream into one of my books to help me, actually finished the story off and come up with more storyline for them, right now i'm stuck on one of my books and don't know where to take it next, the characters (about 25 of them) are now just sitting there surrounded by goons, (the goons) awaiting their master to arrive to figure out what to do next, right now they hear her foot steps coming down a long hall towards everything now its an anxious wait. ok a little bit  of the scene, the goons have broken into the heroes hideout and have them all surrounded now they waiting on orders.

this is a far out answer but maybe you are alien and purple is you original skin color and you became human long ago to blend in, and has forgotten your origin, you probably can turn your whole being into purple but you are just on your hands for the time being. i suggest researching government data bases or just search internet for purple aliens, maybe more than one type but its a start and you can go from there.

My mind and body are hard to teach and learn that stuff on its own, so I just wanted to maybe get help doing it, but you can't find good help these days...this has me scared to try my next bucket list thing which is doing a float tank.....I have this feeling its not going to be no different than soaking in your bathtub, except more space, Ayahuasca the same too no differ than smoking weed and feeling the highs and lows or drinking liquor and being in a drunken stupor.

also before I forget, her hands were all cold as well, I thought hands were suppose to be warm or something, she had essential oils to, like mugwart and such she laid on my chest on a paper towel, though she did not chant she did dance around like the wacky arm inflatable tube man.



@ baro-san: sorry to keep you waiting, the hypnotist name was Connie Trunk (not Trump lol).

@Phalanx, describes my reiki user to a T every single thing except she said she studies reiki for years and took classes in nursing school......heres their website and blace of business.

http://centerformindbodyspirit.com/wp/

reiki user: Madonna

click on providers to see her.

sigh another waste, I come to realize all spiritual sh*t is just b*llsh*t, people just wanna feel bonking special, like they have these abilities i'm talking about Reiki, All the woman did was dance around my body waving her arms, and touching certain parts, I didn't feel anything like people describe they feel when this spit is happening.no one know what the f*ck they doing in this world, just a bunch of fakes. I'm so done with these type of people was a waste of money.

Sigh, didn't go as planned...learned I can't be hypnotized, so i'm ticked, it was a waste back to the drawing board. next Friday I will be trying Acupuncture to balance my energies, so stay tuned and look forward to that one, also there is suppose to be an accupoint that helps with projection so I will look into that as well.

 This Friday (Black Friday) i'm going for a hypnotherapy to get regressed to a past life... see since birth I had this vivid memory of what I used to be and what amazed me is I had abilities in that life, and I been on the search for over 20 years (31yrs old now) trying to find out how to retrieve those abilities in this life, so fast forward to now, i'm finally getting ready to go get regressed, to see more of that life and see if everything adds up, and to possibly retrieve what was lost to me, the chase for this has left me depressed and stress for most of my life, cause everything I ever tried heeded no results, I had a little talk with the lady that's doing the regression and she said she can help me retrieve what was lost and also help me to adapt to this world...

and for good measure I will see if she can help me with Astral projecting at will, cause when you in a trance like that you can program your mind to do whatever you want, so I am very excited about Friday. I also had another life where I had abilities, may look into that at some point to but i'm focused on this one that I have vivid memories about.

The hypnotherapy is going to cost me $400, cause she said mine will take 4+ hours to do, so we broke it down, this Friday we doing 2 hours for 200, then next week same, hopefully we can finish up next week.

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MoxieMerle =The link you posted didn't work for me, but here is their official site! https://claridream.com/products/claridream-pro
I'm not sure how I feel about this yet. It's nice seeing all the good reviews, but it's only been about 3 months (as far as the reviews go back). Also I saw an AD that was supposedly verified, which makes me wonder how many of those positive reviews were real??
I mean, it's 60 capsules, and it's roughly $50.00, which is less than $1/capsule, which isn't bad. Also, it looks like you only need to take about 1-2 a week, so if you took 1 per week, that's over a year's worth. I'd say that's definitely worth it for the price, if it actually works.
Maybe when I have some extra money, I'll get it as a christmas gift to myself haha. I'll let you all know how it works (unless of course Hydro gets it first?)!

hydro1(Me)= Heh, well we may have to count on your review of it, cause things didn't go right with my money, it all had to go towards fixing my car, you weren't the only one who thought those reviews were fake, someone on one of my other astral site I frequent said the same, which made me skeptical of it as well, and maybe it was a sign when all my money had to go to my car. The only reason I wanted to try this is because I read the reviews on the REM dreamer mask I wanted and the reviews not doing any justice, so if you want to give opinions on that as well i'll leave the link.

https://www.amazon.com/Dreamer-Inductio ... dpSrc=srch

MoxieMerle= Eesh, I'd never be able to sleep with a mask on. So that'd be a no-go for me. Plus I'm seeing all the reviews on that, and it looks like it takes a lot of work to understand/work with...I mean if that's what you're into, go for it, but trying to sleep with that thing on would make things worse, I'd imagine.
I've been trying to look up safe herbs to take that help with dream recall. It's hard to find something that's not hallucinogenic or anything that creates a 'high'. The two that I see that have potential are Mugwort and Ginkgo Biloba, but even those should be used with caution

hydro1(Me) =ha yeah I bought some mugwort last year, I think I got only one experience out of it, its around here someone mainly in my journal somewhere, but yeah, I put it inside my pillow and went to bed on it and got a experience out of it if I'm not mistaking, after that it stopped working, I don't know what's up with all techniques and such I try I only get the one experience out of them and they just stop, it erks me to no end to have to keep going thru new techs everytime. I did try some other LD pills, but they gave no result, and the bottle only had lucid dream imprinted on the bottle

MoxieMerle= I think Mugwort would be more effective as a tea, or put in with tea like peppermint or yerba mate with some honey & cinnamon. You could probably also just buy supplements in the form of pills for Mugwort, but I feel like those would be a lot more concentrated and maybe a little more risky. Also I've heard/read a lot of people & articles saying how some herbal supplements have had traces of toxic metals like mercury & whatnot, so if you were to try mugwort again in a tea, It'd best be bought as a fresh (organic) plant and steep the leaves that way

hydro1(Me)= Oh I've tried it as a tea as well, still no results, or maybe I just didn't make it right.

MoxieMerle= So I totally forgot about the Claridream thing and blew all my money, RIP
But there's always next check. Also might be a good thing I forgot, because maybe then the Claridream will go on sale for Black Friday/Cyber Monday? Even if it doesn't, I'm putting money aside for it, FOR SURE this time haha.

hydro1(Me)= I would love to know how it goes. I've decided to go ahead and get acupuncture done to balance my energies and to expand my mind, release some of that bad energy, then i'm going to do the float tank after, I hope this heed some amazing results, with some of that pent up energy released I may be able to pull off a projection or Lucid. I also want to do Ayahuasca, but that's when I come into some big money like lotto or something, cause you have to go to peru to get the experts to guide you and all.

lol that is Me Mergingwolf is also me, I do have other sites I visit besides here, I just like a variety of opinions I am also Hydro1 on astralvoid.com I posted it there too.

if things go the way I planned it out with my money I will be well on my way to buying these, it has great reviews, with so many I was wondering if any of you tried them yet? if so what were you experience/results with them?

https://www.amazon.com/Claridream-PR...70_&dpSrc=srch