new wave of darkness

[erynys]

i dont know what it is. but it happened yesterday, where a wave of darkness has clouded my timeline and everyone elses. its prolly not related to maya, so feel free to move it. but last time i got a sense of foreboding half as strong as this, 2 weeks later i went to a psych ward, was arrested, betrayed by my family, and thrown out of school. this one is so much stronger, and has blocked my ability to see into the future. i cant see what will happen to me, or anyone else. and i cant remember where my memories come from. i remember things, and on the outside, i act normal, but inside, i feel cold and alone. like a cosmic loneliness. and alien feeling. like being out in space by yourself. i dont know how long its going to last, but i can see it clearly. the last one i got was a black mist. this one is a floating sludge, black/purple, and inpenetrable. i dont know what it means, if its just for my life, or everyone elses, but it seems to cover all the timelines.

[Rodentmouse7]

you can see into the future?

what will happen in 2012?

[NaomiChan]

Yes it is a protective seal. Do not be afraid. You should have found it lifted this morning?

Love,

N

[Nay]

Check out erynys or is it synyre's sig...?   I read this post yesterday and all that kept running through my mind was how some people seem to go through life embracing the negative.  Not just embracing but searching for it, living for it, and keeping it alive within their reality.

Why?

Ya know, the older I get the more my body shows me little signs that I'm not the young chicken I used to be.  Take walking down the stairs first thing this morning..  LOL.  Now... ask yourself, would you blame those little kinks in your body to be normal, then shake your head, laugh and continue down the stairs, or would you immediately search for the salt to go bathe in because you think you are being attacked by something or there is some new wave of darkness issue happening?  And have you noticed you call it a new wave?  What? the old one not valid anymore??

Do you ever stop for a second and consider seeing the glass half full instead of always half empty?  Do you ever stop for a second and consider NOT thinking about the feeling of depressions when you think they are covering you?  If you can't control it, then I think a visit back to the local doctor is in order.  There is nothing shamful or harmful about GETTING BETTER.

I don't know... this fad of thinking if you've had mental issue means you are psychic and makes you closer to all things paranormal (real or not) is one step closer to having a lot more shootings at schools and colleges. 

My opinions of course.

[Nay]

Yes it is a protective seal. Do not be afraid. You should have found it lifted this morning?

Love,

N

Welcome to the AP forums.  Care to elaborate on your comment?

[erynys]

i think it has been lifted. my abilties are still cloudy though. and 2012 isnt going to be a huge battle. i dont think. im basing this on what i remember. what i see is a timeline. i look at people, or within myself, and i see a timeline, like railroad tracks. they're grey on a bluish black background. i see the events on the time line as swirls of energy, much like a spider's nest. now i look at my timeline and its black. but i think the black is lifting. and im trying to use this time to reconstruct my timeline as i see fit. and btw, im not looking to the negative, im just very alarmed when i black mass covers my future. the last time anything like that happened, my life fell apart.

[Nay]

It sounds like what one would see doing certain drugs.. no offense.  If you aren't doing any, then I would yet again suggest a visit to your doctor.  This doesn't sound like something you should be seeing. 

You need to put on some fun dance music and dance around some.  And I'm sorry, but you are negative.  Have a look at some of your past posts.

[erynys]

im not negative, i just only post here when i have problems. and my vision things of timelines arent like a physical sight thing, its an astral thing, like when you scry.

[Nay]

Then I would say that what you are seeing when in the astral is fear based and created by yourself.

[erynys]

wait, how? why do you think its fear based? and what exactly. there's nothing scary about a timeline. if ur talking about the darkness, its not my creation. i just took a peak at my timeline and holeh crap, it faded to black sludge.

[Zante]

erynys

Needless to say, I'm interested in what it is you are claiming. Were I to talk to other people about my experiences they would probably ask if I was taking any medication. So, I'll ask you the same thing : ) I do not mean to offend you.

People who see colours / interpret concepts as colours fascinate me.

How do you think/feel that you are able to define/recognize a timeline?

As an experiment, if you were to look at my timeline what would you see from my 'past'?

Have you tried to manipulate what it is you see/feel?

Many people are fearful of their future(s). This manifestation might have something to do with it. Have you ever seen something positive in a timeline?


I'm just trying to understand you better as I believe that your interpretation of these events is interesting to say the least.

[erynys]

i dont see the past. only the present and the future. i wont deny it. im not very strong, and my answers are vague and sometimes wrong. i see what i see. no im not on medication. i dont do drugs, and i dont drink alcohol very much. if youd like to know more about color cods, monday is blue, tuesday is green, wednesday is orange, thursday is purple, friday is yellow, saturday is red, and sunday is grey. and bt, the timeline only shows an event im looking for. so if i was to ask myself, when will my mother own a home, and a spider nest appears on her lifeline at 63 years old, then i say around 63 and tell my mother not to worry about it, because its a long way off. then she gets sad and curses at me, and tells me im going to hell for dabbling in the occult. another example is that i asked when a person i know will die, and it said 24. thats how it works. if i saw all the events, how would i know it looked like a railroad track? however, out of curiosity, i once tore a timeline open and looked under it. i saw red/orange flesh and ribs lined up in a row. it was odd.

[Jelal67]

erynys, you are a person who fascinates me, if you have Aol Instant messenger, please contact me on it, or hit up my myspace www.myspace.com/hippiegrungeboy and my AIM sn is hippiegrungeboy

[Zante]

erynys,

One thing I'm still curious about. Do you feel as though you are able to distinguish between physical and mental aspects or are they all the same to you?

For instance, if you wanted to know whether or not someone is going to get ill at some point in the future, would it look different from a potential bout of depression they might face as a result of it?

Would it always appear as a spider web marker?

Why do you think this kind of imagery appears as often as it does?

How clear are these images, are they so clear that there is no question about them?


I've woken up to see symbols, very clearly, rotating on a 2D axis. These things are as clear as day and there is no doubt as to what they are. Are you sure that you're not over interpreting anything? 

You don't need to answer the last one as I know it might seem insulting. It's just something worth considering.

[erynys]

the spider thing isnt related to spider. it just looks like a spider EGG SACK because its a ball of web like energy and strings of energy holding it down to the timeline. and im not sure. ive never tried to look at things like that. i dont practice it much because i like the element of surprise in my life. but every once in a while ill take a peek.

[NaomiChan]

I apologize, I am not able to expand comments...

All the best,

Naomi Chan

[xblimeyx]

i think it has been lifted. my abilties are still cloudy though. and 2012 isnt going to be a huge battle. i dont think. im basing this on what i remember. what i see is a timeline. i look at people, or within myself, and i see a timeline, like railroad tracks. they're grey on a bluish black background. i see the events on the time line as swirls of energy, much like a spider's nest. now i look at my timeline and its black. but i think the black is lifting. and im trying to use this time to reconstruct my timeline as i see fit. and btw, im not looking to the negative, im just very alarmed when i black mass covers my future. the last time anything like that happened, my life fell apart.

i'm not an active member, a former jonas ridgeway forum member, i read alot of this forum and dont write, but i kinda feel i have to say this...

first i do not mean to be offensive, and sorry if i'm wrong, but this and very much most of your posts (erynys) sound...well...fake
(this one keeping millimeters away form exactly replicating the way seeing a timeline was pictured in Donnie Darko)
And one thing that confuses me alot is that you claim to have a vast expirience and abilities in magick, astral travel etc. but somehow still sound as a troubled, and depressed teenager. That kinda doesn't fit together, at least in my opinion and expirience, cause the expiriences i gained in the view of oobeing, lucid dreaming, and even some drug induced states, and the feeling of inner growth that fills you when you start to "open up" spiritually, has for sure made me a better and a very very much happier person, and made me realise some of the mistakes i've made and had been making with keeping myself depressed, heavy heavy drinking, and drug abuse.

And the funny thing is i got into OOBEs a few years before i started drinking, but about the time i was 17 i kinda kept it in my mind, but somehow i just cracked, and for the next few years just kept getting deeper into it, especially alcohol. And the sad truth is the more you drink, the more depressed you get, and the you drink even more..and it basically turns to crap, and you start to show more and more compulsive and addictive behaviour in every aspect of your life, finding every day more reasons to feel bad about yourself.

Sorry that this has got a bit long, but my point is, if you have the spiritual knowledge you claim to have, or even if you don't (wich IMHO is the case, sorry) you still are informed about it more than 70% of the worlds population, just use that knowledge to make a better life for yourself, you're the only one responsible for the way it will all turn out to be...so just reach and feel the true love inside and outside of you, it will make everything better and easier.

[erynys]

most of my experiences happened when i was a child, before my depression. i claim no abilties, i simply tell you what i experience. if you choose not to believe, thats fine. its not a sideshow affair where people are paying me to perform some trick. im just trying to learn as much as i can and get feedback on what i see. i loved donnie darko, but i dont recall him seeing a timeline. i remember a watery ether protruding from the chests of people, which is what i see connecting people when they are in love, except its not water, but a slightly invisible substance accompanied by a soft orange glow, or a dark red glow. but thats not the point. i am a little tired of people calling me fake, instead of giving me feedback. its very hard to learn that way, and i spend a lot of my energy responding to those accusations. i do have a tendency to learn things extremely quickly, and i am very intelligent. all of my teachers can tell you i am extremely bright. i think that because of my aptitude and intelligence, i may learn certain things a lot faster. this is only a theory of mine. i am not saying i am sure about any of it. in the future, if anyone has anything to say to me, please send me a private message instead of accusing me in the same place that i try to learn.

[xblimeyx]

i'm not accusing you, sorry if it came out that way i wish you all the best, and just wish you see that there is nothing to be depressed about

and btw, you should watch donnie darko again it's almost the same to what you are describing

[erynys]

i prolly will. i love donnie darko. and i love jake gyllenhaal. so yeah. lol. i seriously dont remember a timeline. all i remember is the thing coming out of peeps' chests.

[Canicula]

 
  hi erynys i don't really see how your post seem fake, but seems like you have a very active imagination. I'm not saying you making up your experiences. i just thought that because i used to have similar experiences when i was young and my imagination was in over drive


   



 

[erynys]

i can tell the difference between imagination and reality. im not insane. ive been through that whole ordeal.

[Nay]

I think in some cases people think they know the difference but they are still fooling themselves. 

I believe pretty much anything can happen in the astral but when it comes to the physical.. I'm not so sure.  As a child I couldn't tell the difference of being in the physical or the astral, it felt so real..solid.  I thought everyone played with colorful bugs and sparkling lights at night, in bed before falling asleep.  And here I am years later with a light-bulb over my head saying, "Ohhhh, I wasn't in the physical plane while playing with all those insects..."   

[erynys]

hmmmm. thats NEVER happened to me. nothing like it has happened to me either.

[Jelal67]

I thought people always talked to them before they fell asleep, but I never played with stuff like that... thats pretty neat...