Where am I

[moonbeam]

themadness...
What is it your trying to do?  It sounds like your in a trance state or in between and could go either way depending on what you do when you first wake up.  Do you move at all?  If you move then you very well can lose trying to get back out.

Then maybe your awareness is not quite aware enough to project?  Or the combination of your physical body being awake to much?  Did I confuse you?  

[themadness]

I'm trying to project. I've made it out before, but I always end up in the etheric.

When I wake up (false awakening, though) I don't move. I do think, "Oh man! Failed attempt!" Then I will truly wake up, and yes I do move right away...
Those are two points to work on - staying positive and not moving right away.

You mentioned that maybe my, "awareness is not quite aware enough to project" - What do you mean exactly and how can I work on improving or increasing it?

Thanks a lot moonbeam!

[moonbeam]

You becoming aware and having your consiousness back as in the physical.  You need to be aware but not feel physical.  Sort of in an almost asleep mode.  Almost in a dream state to the point of where your body is asleep but your mind is aware.

Then you must just focus on one thing to project...like the beating of your heart....and only that.  If in doubt then ask for clearance or say to yourself I am in the astral.  Have you ever projected before?

[themadness]

Alright, I'll focus on one thing. I like the idea of focusing on my heartbeat. That will center me and channel any desire I have to recognize the physical into awareness of my heart. From there, hopefully I can transition into projection.

I had one forced projection in which I was literally seized and tortured... not a good time. I've had a few close attempts of projecting into the physical (is that RTZ or etheric?). After vibrations I'll try to fly out of my body. Usually I go flying out of my body through my room, then hit the wall and collapse, blanking out and finally returning to my body.

[themadness]

Sometimes towards morning when I finish dreaming I will enter a state that I'm not quite sure on what it is. There is almost a "cue" when I finish dreaming... sort of like my energy/astral? self says, "OK, I'm done playing, you can have your consciousness back."

Then I'm handed this and I suddenly become aware of what I think is my physical body. Everything feels "thick" to my energy body - like if you had swollen fingers than touched things. From this state I try to project or at least LD. I always get 'out' (though I think I'm already out, it's just a habit) but then I fade back to my body as I don't have enough energy. I then wake up... but that turns out to be a false awakening.

So I'm really confused as to what state I'm truly in. Is it my energy body dreaming of my energy body projecting? How can I maintain or raise energy? I try to yell, "clarity now!" but that doesn't usually work. Any ideas?