Dark Anger encounteed in AP

[vladjackguy]

OK so it's 12:06 15 November 2009. I was at the computer searching for some random stuff on the internet my mom came and told me to go to bed. I was very upset and angry and started to argue with her because it's not that late etc. and the anger accumulated in me but i didn't observe it.So i go to bed(sleeping with my sister sometimes).

Something was awkward and strange but i didn't mind it too much.
OK so i had in mind to AP.I was clearing my mind but the anger keeps coming in my mind and I'm struggling to pass it.Some moments i clear it but the last tiny thought was an angry one and hatefull.

So i started with a series of vivid dreams till the dreams get more and more lucid.
The last of the dreams was something similar to what happened i was in my bed and my mom started to argue with me to go to bed but i did realised that she isn't her and she isn't acting normal.

So in the lucid dream i listened to her, more hatred accumulating in me and something was very very very very weird that i realised in that dream.I was feeling the dead in my house they were like a lot of them some of them i recognise from  my last occurs with them but they were manipulating me in my dream trying to make me angry. Also in the last dreams the light wasn't there it was like a rainy night i could of feel the mist in my house black mist on the floors.

So in the last dream i was going to sleep.I laid in the bed and slept.Then i was so angry I didn't know where i could of get that evil anger and hatred from the depths of my soul. The process was so quick that i projected.

I was standing near my bed, i can feel like they were manipulating be but i couldn't control myself.They were trying to make me summon a portal with my fury and evil. So i felt an EVIL ANGRY RED energy on my chest it was so evil that i can't describe it even if i write EVIL 100000000000 times it doesn't describe the hatred.

Then i could of felt like i had double consciousness A part of me said to stop it's not worth it and an EVIL part makes me uncontrollable and I jumped(not really jumped it was like a jump but i didn't use my legs) and accumulated all the RED EVIL ANGRY energy in to my hand like an evil psyball....

OMG it was sooo baddd i launched it into the floor(my good consciousness saying to stop.Then all turned INTO RED and the dead started to  burst from the portal that i have started. These is real and it wasn't a dream.Then after they have used me I have gone again to sleep so my astral body has gone to bed and something weird happened and i can't explain what happened but i will try.

I was seeing black as my astral body closed hes eyes then a part of my astral body or a part of my astral consciousness was launched uncontrollable in to the air. That astral part, consciousness  it were some red particles, like lines, that it were from my back of my head of my astral body and i was flying so uncontrollable, the sensation was like a Rocket was on my back and my head was tied to her and the rocket was launched uncontrollable.

So i was these particles lines who i was trying to control and  i managed to remember that i wanted to go to moon. So i was thinking of going to the moon and i could of felt as if me, the particles were changing the direction.Then i felt like, i was seeing  a little like my rest of the astral body was struggling and moving in the bed and i felt like he was in danger. The dead and evil entities were like trying to harm it.

Me the moving particles i was vivid seeing my astral body getting up and trying to move to the door(I didn't know who controlled it or maybe a part of my consciousness did).

I felt like the dead were trying to launch some deep dark energy that i can't describe.
Me, the particles were trying to stop the dark energy but there was a problem.Me the particles were kind of going into sleep or deep trance and i struggled to fight of the bad energy like i was stopping a missile with the energy from the back of the head.

So i stopped the energy, it almost hit my body it was like  1 meter distance from hitting it.My body was still there moving like slowmotion or not moving at all. Me, the particles were very tired and i felt like i didn't had much energy in me so i was trying to sit on the bed but i couldn't because i was the red particlesand i didn't had legs and i was floating on the end of the bed looking at my astral body.

Then i floated up leveled to my astral body looking at it's back i was going in my astral body to become one once again.
Then i entered it the feeling was so weird the things were so hmm...I can hear screams a lot of them desperate screams(not from me from the dead) i had more senses feeling completed and one and i had a good sight,  i can look at my hands and feet. OK so IT WAS SO DARK AND GLOWY DARK even darker than the night dead people were passing near me i was scared.

I could of see, feel all the dark energy from the other rooms and the dark mist.Instinctly when i was scared i wanted to go to my mom.Then the weirdest thing happened I was trying to go to my mom but i was moving so slowly that it seems that i was moving backwords.The dark entities were trying to prevent me going to my mom(but my mom wasn't there) so they have tricked me.

I finally got moving and entered my moms room and saw my mom.I got in bed with her and i was looking at her she was acting weird and i can't really described what i spoke with here because it was AP and i didn't really spoke i was like telepathically speaking and i was speaking with her and when i first looked at her she looked like my mom and then when i tried harder to really see her my moms face dissapeared and I realised that i was talking to a dead entity who was trying to be my mom so that i gone to her.

I realised that my mom isn't my mom and it was an dead bad entity.And i think that entity realised that i realised(lol xD) that she wasn't my mom and that entity told me that something about dead dark entities who he didn't wanted to call by that name directly and called them ancestors or something like that and that my sister was next or something like that.

THEN I WAKED UP IN ANOTHER BED WITH MY SISTER i was so scared it was night 01:30 and it was so more light than the AP place i was scared and was shaking and my hearth pumped fast and i was all wet i. I saw my phone on the ground in the exact place where i stopped that dark energy  with the particles consciousness from hitting my astral body.

The phone was out of battery and beeping  and i turned it on i opened the TV and the lights and waked up my sister.And told her all that happened.

I must go to buy some groceries i will tell the rest of what happened after i woke up.


 

[vladjackguy]

OK so I'm trying to finish that post.The fact is that after a lot of weird stuff happened and i could only sleep when the sun rises. I don't want to talk about this anymore because it's not that good for me.
I'm trying now to reduce the anger.. , i sometimes have anger problems(Ex:I broke the blackboard at school with my foot, really uncontrollable), these negative entities are sucking my energy.

Hmm... i think this thing has affected me.Now i can hardly sleep at night or even try to project.

I'm asking you some advice for protection or banishing or just something helpfull to chill me out.

Thx Vladjackguy

[Greytraveller]

Wow Vladjackguy! That was a very intense experience!

Your OBE reinforces the importance of controlling extreme emotions while out of body. You learned what many other people have found out -- that emotion = energy = power. You made some positive steps in controlling emotions because unchecked it can be an unstoppable force.
Robert Bruce wrote quite a lot about psychic shielding in his popular book "Astral Dynamics". That book is a good source for, as you wrote,

some advice for protection or banishing or just something helpfull

Regards 
Grey

[vladjackguy]

Thanks for your reply Greytraveller.I will take in consideration your advice.

Today I was awake and I was trying to take a little short nap on my bed and experienced some vibrations even when i was awake and I didn't move.
The past several days I controlled my emotions and now it almost fits like a puzzle.

Thanks for your reply again.

[Metaphysically born]

lol that sound so funny when you keep saying "me the particles" that sound like tarzan lol. Anyway  to get to the point. There is nothing that can hurt you whilst being outside. The figure you saw whilst being outside which appeared to be your mom, does not necessarily mean that it is a bad entity just because it disappeared. Your mom may have been projecting at the time but doing it unconsciously as she was transcending into the astral realm/dream realm. Some of the entities which you saw may be just a reflection of yourself and the anger which you had within you and manifested itself outside the body. Better control yourself or you will have bad experiences outside.

[vladjackguy]

lol that sound so funny when you keep saying "me the particles" that sound like tarzan lol. Anyway  to get to the point. There is nothing that can hurt you whilst being outside. The figure you saw whilst being outside which appeared to be your mom, does not necessarily mean that it is a bad entity just because it disappeared. Your mom may have been projecting at the time but doing it unconsciously as she was transcending into the astral realm/dream realm. Some of the entities which you saw may be just a reflection of yourself and the anger which you had within you and manifested itself outside the body. Better control yourself or you will have bad experiences outside.

Thank you for your reply.Sorry for my grammatical errors.I'm almost 16 years old and I'm from Romania and not that good at English.
I'm absolutely sure that there were dark entities because i can feel them now.Sometimes it gets even worst.They kind of I don't know trying to scare me.They are doing this right now too.I get short visions of bad scary things but i control them and avoid them.

Chem asuprea mea forte ceresti
Sa ma apere de tot raul ce ma-nconjoara
Impreuna vom triumfa pe veci
Impotriva raului ce ne-mfioara.

I have to say this to protect myself.It's night out here 12:22 AM.

Maybe i exagerated with the portal thing but it's for sure that they were/are feeding with my energy.

OK so good night if you have further things to say feel free to post

[Metaphysically born]

Hello and sorry for the late reply. I haven't had time the last day. About your grammar. I do not mind the way you write or speak i just found that phrase funny. No offense.  I am from South Africa and speak an South African language Afrikaans which is similar to the language spoken in Netherlands. About your certainty of your energy being drained. Yes it is possible that your energy can be drained. There are entities that will drain your energy to reduce your projection time which will leave you feeling quite tired after each projection.

After projecting you should feel all rested and ready to take on anything and if you feel exhausted afterward then you may be dealing with a psychic vampire or an bad entity that is draining your energy. Try do do protection work everyday and before you project. Some people will find that doing protection work before projecting take most of their focused energy as they want to dive right in and project but if you do protection work each day aside from your normal projection times then you will not need to protect yourself when attempting to project.

About your vision that you get and see as flash lights. Maybe someone did not tell that by trying to project you may get more than what you bargained for. In your attempts to project there is a possibility that you may develop one or several psychic abilities. To some they come willingly and in your case involuntarily. There is no need to fear but you need to learn to control these. We wouldn't want you to end up in a psychiatric ward when people claim that your crazy. Then again these images can be from a higher being with good intention or from your higher self trying to communicate with you  but to you it appear evil as the communication is symbolic.

But there is a chance that it may be from a bad entity and you then are at risk of emotional trauma. What you need to do is to do grounding work as well and close your chakra centers after every projection to keep you grounded to the physical and not open to the astral.

Enjoy your day

[vladjackguy]

OK I'm sorry too for late reply but i was busy with the school exams.

I think i have had some kind of emotional or psychical trauma because now these things that i feel and sometimes see tend to scare me but in the past they had no effect on me being for me something natural.
Having the third eye over-active made things more traumatic for me and i can feel and see the presence from my house.But know i controlled the things and I am OK.

In the past i was studied some types of psychokinetics that even in the present day i can feel them even if i didn't practiced them for a long time.Done some energy channeling work who had a good effect one me and kind of freed my mind and the  of God and the environment.

I'm using ESP and other techniques who are giving me, in my mind, patterns of raw energy of the future or what I focus on when i want something to know.I'm kind of processing that raw patterns of energy transforming them in some how,depends on the accuracy of transformation, so that the my human brain can know things that i want to know.

Also i read about the Law of Attraction who had definitely changed my life in a good way.I'm still using it day by day in any circumstances.

So on topic I was, am already used to this "Paranormal World" but that last AP violently "thrown my consciousness" in some kind of bad negative environment.

I had a strange lucid dream who started nice and i could of done every thing i want.It was very clear and i could feel all the entities that were involved in the end of the dream.So the dream started nice I was picking some fruits from a tree floating in the air.
Then the dream went by....It turned to night and there was some patterns of energy that i could feel at the country side of my passed grandma.

A church was present there, a large one.
There were a lot of people there who i know from real life.Someone told me that my mom was bitten by a dog and she was about to die.I was very calm and I wasn't scare.There was some kind of riot of some students outside. I went in some building in a room looking from the window at them.They were idle in some kind of way.

I got down from the building and somehow started the riot back.Then the I started feel that angry feeling that i felt back in the AP.And i controlled and i was worried because i didn't want the bad things to happen again.I felt sorry because I had that angry energy back again.

It faded away.I remembered that i must go see my mom.I'm going back in the church.I meet somekind of priest who told me to follow him. I was following him and I'm going with him passing in some kind of underground room.How i got to that room was very odd.There were some kind of stairs who I couldn't call the stairs.

OK so I got to that room and i saw my mom laing on some kind of table or bed.She was looking at me unable to move her head.Instantly i knew that it wasn't her.I could of feel that energy It was a familiar one.It was my dead grandma.It's not good to speak about her because a lot of bad things will happen if i speak about her.

So my mom was dyeing because she was bitten by a dog.In my country the dog appearing in the dreams means an enemy.So i was looking at my mom and that so called priest or was looking at me and my mom.
I somehow started crying but i wasn't crying was feeling sorry.

My mom was kind of fading into a blueish glowing cemetery stone.Now the energy that I was feeling light blue, the spirit of my grandma was becoming more obvious that my mom in the dream wasn't my mom in real life.

Then my mom in my real life waked me up because it was the time to go to school.The End

My sister had some sinister dreams that she told me.She told me that she wasn't  frightend in the dream but she was afraid of she looking insistent into the graves of the cemetery  she was dreaming about.

So i wish you a good week.Vladjackguy