What is this?

[RayJay6870]

Last year, some very freaky stuff went on with me. I won't get into the graphic details. I'm still trying to sort this whole thing out. Some of the tamer stuff that happened was- I could write backwards and upside down. I became ambidextrous and I am normally right handed. I think I died. I suddenly knew things- about what went on in the garden of Eden, things about GOD and satan and the end of time. I could "see" things in the bible- codes, hidden meaning, strange writing. I heard the roaring of beasts- lions or bears and ringing that I mistook for the phone several times. At one point, I thought I was the antichrist. This isn't even the most disturbing thing about the whole ordeal. I found that if I did certain things, wierd stuff would happen (stuff with holy water and rain and the behavior of animals around me, etc.). I thought I cracked my mind so I went to a shrink. She said I was quite obviously psychotic and put me on meds. I thought it was helping for a while but recently, I started going through some of the same stuff that happened at the beginning of this whole thing last year. I'm afraid it's going to happen again. I can't put my family through any more torture. They almost left me last year because of how badly I scared them last year. They look to me to be the stabilizing factor- if I "go nuts" again I might end up alone. This scares me almost as much as the stuff that happened to me. Does any of this sound like a kundalini experience? I'd appreciate any guidance/info on this matter.
                       Thanx Much,
                          Ray J.

[RayJay6870]

Major,
Psychosis might very well explain all the "hallucinations & delusions" but, I do not believe it explains the bizarre things I was able to do in front of witnesses. Every plant I touched petrified without first wilting. Our electronic equipment would do strange things when I entered a room. This is just a glimpse into what you might like to call madness. I agree that psychosis might explain most or even all of the "hallucinations & delusions." It does not, however, explain the physical things that others were witness to. Did you go to college? And, as I stated in my previous post, I've been on anti psychotic meds for almost a year now. They haven't done anything but make me drowsy and prone to fainting with the ever popular heart palpitations to top it all off. And yet I continue to take them- for the sake of my family. Thanx for your input but maybe you should educate yourself with some basic psychology before you attempt to advise others. Please feel free to not contact me in the future.
                             Signed,
                                Ray

[Staceyc_330]

I don't think your psychotic. And I would like to know more. Do you have visions?

[kiwibonga]

Ray, tell us about your childhood.

[Arn de Gothia]

If this is psychosis, then i want it. It sounds like some kind of awakening, cool stuff

[A Souls Fury]

Ray.. I don't think it has anything to do with kundlini, maybe since you are asking you might want to look into kundlini.. it might be just what you need. also take time to meditate, go inside..

Try to quiet your mind and your questions, and find a place of inner peace.. relax into yourself. Have you thought about brainwave entrainment? there are a few meditations floating around on this website that may help to get your brainwaves balanced.

All in all by shutting it all off it might be hurting you more than helping you.

[ubiquitous]

Maybe u hit an enlightened stage in your life, but lost where it happened/originated and reached out for it in religion.
Relax and harness it and maybe look into this tamer stuff of amber dexterity that sounds quite cool!!
Life can be a gift and a burden and if others can't relate to your experiences can make you feel alone
U just gotta know when to switch it on and off for your family, and these drugs sound a bit scary clear you mind dude
CLEARNESS EMPTINESS NOTHINGNESS !!!!!!!!!!!!

4UR2B3

AH.... JUST REALIZED ORIGINAL POST WAS LAST YEAR APRIL!!!!!!!!!!!!

[unknown2012]

wow i wonder what ever happend w/this guy. i hope he's ok.

[Shuriken]

With the things your seeing and hearing maybe you should watch the movie called A Beautiful Mind. I think a similar thing happened to that guy in the movie he ended up a college professor and won the Nobel prize. I don't think they all turn out that good though.

[Multihealer]

Hi RayJay6870!

Congratulations, did you know that people are searching for this state of mind?

Almost no´ne finds it during their whole lifetime. People like Buddha and Jesus and other global leaders did have this state of mind.

This is my advice.
What you hold in you're hand is the knowing of everything.
Ask this power to tell you what you need to do, that is all you need to do.

Love and light
Kent