controling yourself and a few experiences

[Targett]

Yesterday mornig i managed to get through the paralysis state and i could feel my leags slowly floating up but the rest of my body was numb, then i managed to leave my body and it was hideously out of control. I went flying through the room, through the garage, up through the roof about 40 meters in the air, and started spinning around forward really fast. Then before i knew it i was back in my body again.
Then this morning the same thing happened again. I got out went out of my room window and then all i remember is just compltely losing control and my sight going wild and spinning all over the place at 100000 kmph.

Its a bit like ice skating with ultra long momentum when i try and move, you try and stop yourself and its impossible because i just keep on moving, then it just gets messy. Could it be because the other night i didnt get any sleep? ever since then my obes have been messy

And another thing i wanna ask is does anyone ever see little lights? On my second projection last wednesday i seen a whilte light glowing out of my wristwatch and another one coming from the door of my booth, and this morning i remember seeing a glowing red light, cant say where it was coming from because this morning was just a mess and i wouldnt have even called this morning a projection.

id appreciate any advice

thx

[Telos]

I've also had similar "out of control" experiences. Too many times I've had experiences where my jaw won't move and is stuck open, only to wake up and find that it's closed and quite comfortable, thank you very much. I found them so needlessly disturbing, I just try to forget about them and instead focus on clearer, more "lucid" methods, like lucid dreaming.

Really, that wild out of control stuff is the closest thing to a hell's confusion I can think of.

I remember one where I was floating around with no control whatsoever, praying to God for him to help, but there was only silence. Only later did I wake up and discover it was a dream. That didn't do much for my belief in God, I'll tell you that