I'm Not Sure What Happened To Me

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kaikai

[I've posted this on many forums, looking for different answers. I'm just going to copy and paste it.]
Hi. I am new, and I'm 16 years-old.

Recently I've become interested in lucid dreams and OBEs because of a show I watched. Then 4 days ago or so I began my dream journal, hoping to help induce lucid dreaming. About 2 days later I decided I was more interested in achieving an OBE (though I still continued the dream journal).

The night I decided this was my goal (well, the night before last), nothing happened. I decided I was too tired anyway and just wanted sleep. Last night (more like this morning because I didn't go to bed untill 1am) my nerves were completely shaken. For hours I laid in bed, trying to completely relax and focused on one phrase ("I am going to astrally project" to encourage it) to keep my mind from slipping into a deep sleep. Nothing was working and I became restless and tired. Even worse, I got a headache. I decided to let it go, there's many more nights to try and it takes practise.

It was now 4am. I closed my eyes, relaxed and then I heard noises. Like chimes, or bells. I can exactly recall or explain them, but they were eerie. I didn't like them at all. I became anxious as it happened about 3 times (and I have a panic disorder, so calming down is no easy task). I sat up for a few minutes and tried to reassure myself it'll go away. I lied back down and closed my eyes. Within seconds I was in a dream-like state, and just as fast the whole thing was over.

I looked to the right and a man was standing at the foot of my bed. I think he may have been my father (I don't see my father anymore). He had my quilt, all folded up on the edge of the bed - although it was in a messy pile next to my face in reality - and he said something along the lines of, "Would you like more blankets?" It was then the chiming/bells started again. I didn't like them so I panicked, trying to wake myself up. I looked to the left and tried to lift my arms. They lifted a bit, I saw them, but then they stopped. I was stuck, trapped. I freaked because I'm so scared of the feeling of being trapped. Then a loud noise started, almost like a lawnmower or some machine running. I tried to yell/moan. I didn't get much out as I was paralyzed in that way, too. I was stuck and couldn't wake up. Suddenly, I awoke though.

It all happened within a few seconds. I was so scared and I almost cried afterwards. I didn't want to close my eyes afterwards. I've been up ever since, and even now, a few hours later, I'm still shaken by the whole thing. Because I just began a book called Soul Traveller and the author talked about becoming paralyzed, I wondered if it was me attempting to leave my body. But because of the man standing at the end of my bed and asking me such a random question, I think it may have just been a very odd and scary nightmare. I don't know exactly what happened, but that's why I am here seeking answers from those who may know what's going on. Answers/Advice would be greatly appreciated. I want to know I'm not insane!