Hello ~

[linlin]

Hello, I'm new here.. just recently found this place.. and I think I'm in trouble. I've been trying to find the answer to one of my problems lately and I could find no hope from those I know as it is so I'm here to ask some help and advice, what has been going on is emotionally destroying me.

I have been projecting for a little over 10 years now since my father died while I was in 5th grade. After he died the following day I got beyond sick for well over a month of 103 and thats when all of this began.

So when I project and all... everything is fine.. normal, something an average projector would seek. However, one of the problems that has been reoccouring is the guide who I am with refuses to answer any questions besides his name. I have been trying to seek out my father and only have done it sucessfully maybe once a month but all the other times when I have trouble, I ask my guide, and the instant response is "I can't help you" or "I'm not allowed to tell you" and I instantly wake up like nothing happened.

That's not really is depressing me now, its the combo of lucid and astral at the same time.

Every now and then (give or take maybe once a week) I'll have a fluke and I'll wake up to several MEN wanting to have sex with me. It's like they're LURING over me like a hawk just waiting, and I can't get rid of them. It's absolutely terrifying considering I have a fiance and the overwhelming of guilt is starting to take me over with something thats in another plane and theres something I have failed to control yet. I want nothing to do with these people and it gets to the point as to where they purposely try to scare me by forming into some of my family members. It's horrifying, and they almost make me take part in their "thing" unless I wake myself up. I wish I knew what to do.

Has anyone experienced this at all? It's royally screwing with my mind, hard.

I've read up on incubii and sucubii.. I'm not really sure what to make of it.. and its beyond depressing to read. Sometimes they don't allow me to even wake myself up... if I try it's filled with petrification through my body emotionally (even though there is nothing frightening visually or any sort) and then I lose all self control entirely.

I can't abandon my room, its not really an option. I only have so much space to live... and I know nothing about the other options other then resisting, which I do a majority of the time. Is it normal to have more then one of them??/ Usually there are 4-5! And why don't my spirit guides help me at all? I know my father roams the house consistently and I can't think to fathom that he knows what is going on and doesn't help? I'm at a loss.

I hope somebody has some advice >.<

[kiwibonga]

Something I've read that supposedly would allow you to fend off incubi is to literally "peer into their soul" -- look at them with the intention of seeing their true nature. They are parasites that like to take on forms that are attractive or friendly to the victim. Once you lose the illusion by seeing their real form, they'll supposedly run away. The way they attach is by making you feel powerless (the rape scenario) or by creating such attraction that you will feel compelled to "do the deed" with them (the "lure" scenario). If you destroy that ability, they can't do anything to you.

This is a particularly useful technique for any unwanted experience -- nothing can manipulate you if you prevent it from using your own perceptions and fears against you.

And also, I want to underline the fact that the rape dream is one of the most common nightmares among females -- it can happen in projection as well. The "dweller on the treshold" effect is when you get attacked by some subconscious fear while exiting the body, as if something was waiting for you to come out. It's highly plausible that what you're experiencing is not incubi but just an irrational fear. Thankfully, the method to get rid of them is the same -- make their ability useless by looking beyond the illusion, and they'll disappear along with the fear, never to return.

Hopefully the lack of help is due to the fact that you're the one trapping yourself in your subjective world of fear. Always remember to think outside the box, to pay attention to detail, to look at everything as if it were the first time you saw it. You are at the mercy of your subjectivity, and the best way to progress is to supress it using any mean you can. Once you look beyond the veil, it's likely that many things will become visible, that could include you guides, and your father. Never underestimate your mind's ability to work against you

[Nay]

Hello, I'm new here.. just recently found this place.. and I think I'm in trouble. I've been trying to find the answer to one of my problems lately and I could find no hope from those I know as it is so I'm here to ask some help and advice, what has been going on is emotionally destroying me.

Changing your thought behaviour is number one.  Look at your very first paragraph!  You have already given over your control!  Not only that, but you are validating it.  BIG no, no.  Nothing is going to destroy you, if you do not believe it can or will. 

Now.. as to the rest of your post.

Ahhhhh.... incubi.  I have experience in that area.  Short and straight to the point comment....  have more sex with your mate.  I'd like to have more specific description though.  Are you caused to have an orgasm whilst still "asleep"?  I've never found it to drain me or depress me, but it does feel like a violation in a sense.  If you are uncomfortable speaking out here, please feel free to PM me.  This does not have to be a fearful issue in your life, I promise!! 

[linlin]

hey.. thanks for the reply..

to Tala: yeah its while still asleep, however its a really unwilling one.

as for having more sex, I really don't see it an option. I'm one of those type of people who could care less about sex and really don't see it as a necessity to enjoy life. most of the time I rather do something else then have sex. I have a few times when yes sure theres always that mood for it but its not on my top priority list. It's not that I don't enjoy it, it's just that I could care less for it and I don't particularly enjoy "doing it" more then once a week if even that much. It's kind of a complicated thing to explain, has nothing to do with my partner, its more of a personal preference. I'm lucky he can accept that.

thanks for all your help, I'm willing try try some more.

[Nay]

Of course it's always a unwilling one.. only guys would find it normal.    Kidding, kidding guys.  I've learned over time to catch it right before it happens, but some times I'm not lucid enough to realize it until it's too late.  With my experiences, it's the type of dream that I am having that gives me a heads up.  For some reason I have to be upset...not angry upset but hurt/sad upset.

I understand everyone is different and can relate to what you're saying about not caring about sex.  I went through a two year period where I thought there was something wrong with me sexually.  It was remedied by divorcing my first husband.   The reason I said have more sex is because for me I found that if I allowed a build up of my sexual energy this thing would show up as if to take it because it was overflow or something...  So.... we started having more "us" time.  Has seemed to work for the most part and not to mention I have a very content second hubby.  Two birds with one stone, not too bad.

Maybe it's showing up to point out the very thing in your life that you tend to ignore?  I wish you luck.  Sorry I couldn't help.