PSAS, Kundalini

[genep]

Kundalini is Self, Samadhi, manifesting it-Self to thoughts, Mind.

Kundalini manifests it-Self to thoughts in different dilutions, dynamics, waves and even explosions of unfathomable Bliss that most must take with terror. Very rarely Kundalini explodes in  a universe-vanishing BigBang of duality-killing laughter....

Kundalini is the so-called "god-intoxication" of Masts, lunatics and street-people... or it can be uncontrollable hysterical laughter at nothing... 
and for those experts of spirituality, non-duality, 
who think  that only celibate saints and  gurus can get stoned on Self, Kundalini,
just for these  experts  Kundalini also manifests it-Self especially well as "Permanent Sexual Arousal Syndrome (PSAS)."   
-- O'no

[Leilah]

"Very rarely Kundalini explodes in  a universe-vanishing BigBang of duality-killing laughter.... "

That is pretty much , well exactly, what went down last summer. At the time I had no idea what the hell was happening. Basically it was just supposed to be a nice trip, as me and few friends were under the effects of what happened to be a fairly strong dose of a certain psychedelic. It was a very confusing time. I ended up in a mental hospital for a good week. They believed I was schizophrenic and accordingly, prescribed me some anti-psychotic medications. I only took these for two weeks. I felt like they were damaging my body so I stopped after the second week. I developed all sorts of strange reactions to the drugs and actually to this day (its almost a year in july since this happened) I still suffer from involuntary movements when I speak. I plan on filing a lawsuit as soon as possible for misdiagnosis and malpractice and personal injury.

Anywho, the experience itself as whole has changed me so deeply. Right before the "spontaneous awakening", well for hours I felt as if I was surrounded by thick slithering snakes. Finally I had had enough and went to a dark empty room. I was at my wits end. I asked the universe or whoever was able to help me, to make it all just stop. (the snakes and the thick negative? energy) I put my hands together and shut my eyes and meditated as I did this. Thats when I became aware of about 10 beings surrounding me, very loving and helping, beings I seemed to have a past or connection with, for when I looked at each one I instantly remembered our history together. They started to sort of whisper and move amongst themselves, it seemed like they were like wind in their movements, now I wonder if they were maybe gathering energy or something but while they were doing this, I had a sense that they were preparing to give me a sort of "key". And while I did not know exactly what repercussions this would have or how it would really effect me, I knew it was something very powerful and that i felt I was not ready. So i did my share of shouting. An absolute "nonononononononono" came out of my chattering mouth. NOT HERE!!!! NOT NOW!!! I was literally pleading with them.

They insisted, communicating to me that it was important and it had to be done NOW that it could not wait any longer. And it seemed they even were apologizing for sort of "leaving me in the dark". And then ZOOM. This feeling powerful still white light was shot through my entire body. At that point I wasnt even in my body anymore but basically jesus christ. A whole array of other things happened which I think I will post eventually either here or on the EIC forum. Its all interesting stuff but its funny because I used to be weary about the kundalini thing. I had heard about it before but never really gave it too much thought. Its funny because I didnt even realize what exactly happened untill about two months later when it dawned on me as I was online. and then i was like "ohhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh". that would explain. A LOT. lol