experience with worship

[Chaos Mage]

So last night, I put on some clothes and my raggy looking leather jacket, and with full determination to do something spiritual, I walked out to the road.
When I got there, I had a smoke in my hand, so I finished it, threw it down, then stared up into the clear, star filled sky.
Then, it began... I flung out some banishing, then began to worship.  The worship was as I was talking about on here yesterday, only, the majority of it began in my own head.
But soon, there were sensations that I hadn't experienced before.  I got dizzy very quickly, but persisted.  Within about ten minutes of wavering on my feet in something I liken to a crack cocaine high, then this happened... I felt a space open up in between my hips.  And also, I felt the coolness of the air, I could feel my body as I hadn't for years, due to the inhibitor.
I'm sure that if I kept going with it for another twenty minutes to a half an hour, I would have been able to levitate.  Feelings of energy were abundant.  Also, my range of vision increased proportionately to the energy I was experiencing.
When I stopped, the high feeling stayed with me until I got back to my camper.  Also, I moved at increased speed on my way home.  During it, I would worship, trying to open my chakra, then I would banish, to much the same effect.  I heard voices of some form of sub conscious telepathy coming from the buildings, and all of it was directed towards me.  Looks like the multiversal aspect of consciousness communicates soul-to-soul at all times, so that those who are receptive can gain the benefit of the wisdom of that communication.  After that experience, I felt like I had regenerated from some of the damage of the inhibitor.  No real evidence that I did by today, that crap atrophies any progress, keeping me in a pubescent state of mind, easily controlled by directed remote telepathy.

That night, when I layed down in bed, my focus was for about five minutes on increasing my genital organ's size, then, I had another smoke, wrote out some crap, and went to bed.  Now, this is where it ties into astral projection.  I had a lot of dreams!  I dreamed that people were getting married, and then returned to that idea in a later dream.  I remember experiencing an alternate reality, and I was in some massive complex that dealt with sewer wastes and other chemicals to purify it.  I did something there, but that's not the dream that I woke up out of, so it's harder to remember.  There is a massive black space in between my dreams last night, and each dream connected to the other ones by the idea of this one young couple getting married.  Now that I remember a little more, I distinctly remember eating a meal in my dream, some kind of potato wedges with some brisked chicken, and a couple of shots of rum to wash it down.  It was good, the wedgies were crunchy and had nice breading.

Now, tonight, I'm going to try something else, and try to directly astral project from a phantasy.  I'm so worried that what I visualize will be disaster for my spiritual state.  I already know... the more that you work on your imagination, combining it with strong emotional sensations, the easier it gets to be to work with, and from a semi trance, you can go full trance at any given moment, and planeswalk or soul walk to your heart's content.

muah!

[Xanth]

So last night, I put on some clothes and my raggy looking leather jacket, and with full determination to do something spiritual, I walked out to the road.

Spirituality isn't something you do, it's something you *ARE*.