NOT everyone

[apop]

don't wait till you die to find out if this is true or not.  Awaken!

this is what gnostic jesus told in Gospel of Thomas!  

[helder]

Well, I already understand many things that it would take lifetimes to learn. I don't get angry anymore. Well just on the Internet

No, seriously, I have witnessed rage, knives, blood, violence with my parents for 18 years. I have lived in a rage for 33 years. I always wondered why I felt like crap and had no energy. ATTITUDE

That was my #1 revelation. The second one was my firm belief that "nothing gets in" meaning, no bill, no person, no job, is allowed to get inside me and produce a unwanted emotion, unless I deem it necessary to be there.

I also go about my days being nonjudgmental of things and humans. This is the most monumental task for me. I try not to overpower others with my opinions. Until opinions become truth to others, they are meaningless to others. Like telling people it's bad to smoke. Come on.

I do not empower the past either. I can dwell in misery with the memories of all the blood and violence I have witnessed and play the victim, or I can forgive and move on. I have forgiven my parents. I just choose not to associate with them. My choice.

The only other real barrier I have to overcome is that I create my reality with my thoughts. I have dreams. I focus on them continuously, but I have core defeatist beliefs firmly embedded in my subconscious that tell me my affirmations are useless. My waking conscious believes, but my subconscious does not believe that outrageous things are possible, like me being wealthy and not having to work as a corporate slave.

I've given up on meditation. I just fall asleep and nothing happens. I've meditated for about 3 years and there is no benefit other than feeling good and having a better perspective on life. However that's not my goal. My goal was to see the miraculous white light, meet Jesus and Buddha and all that and go places. It's obvious to me that some people just can't meditate and astral project.  I've spent countless hours trying. I give up.

So in my 35 years, I see how things work. I see how we are here to love and to help and to learn. I see how the environment is going to force us to be a union rather than trying to one-up others all the time. Other than having attachments to the people I love, the hobbies I have and my identity, I see no reason to come back. Supposedly you have to give up all you love and let it go to become enlightened. I don't see that happening. I love my wife and daughter. I want to be with them for eternity. Why can't I have that?

Kevin

Hi kevin, your post got my attention. Yesterday I posted an article in my blog about "Everything happens for a reason". It's about freewill and karma, and why there seems to be always someone directing your life. If you wish to read it, I hope it'll give you some answers... or at least direct you to making the right questions.

As for your meditation technique... well I just get a little disappointed when people say they've tried everything. Maybe you didn't! I don't know which method you used, but there are hundreds! Maybe it was eastern, and it doesn't suit your western mind. Maybe it didn't suit your goals. If something doesn't work, try something else. If you keep doing the same thing, you'll just keep getting more of the same. I suggest you go to www.higherbalance.com and try Eric Pepin out. He opened my eyes about meditation, and he delivers what you seek. Just open your mind and hear what he as to say first... then if you wish to try it out, it's only a decision away.

When Thomas Edison failed a thousand times before he invented the light bulb, a journalist asked him "how is it like to feel, to fail so many times?". To which he replied "I didn't fail... I successfully learned what didn't work!". Great mindset! The greatest achievements and revelations are just around the corner of "giving up".

About being with your family for eternity, I guess you must understand that you won't be forced to reincarnate, as you put it. You WILL be attracted to that which you are focused on. As for eternity... my guess is someone in your family, or even you, will sooner or later realize the need to growth. It may be apart from each other, and it may be together. Only you can know that. I say you will change and grow, and in some point in your personal evolution you will perceive things differently. When adults say they want to be with someone for eternity, they mean for a very long time! When I was a little kid I said I would NEVER even date a girl... let alone marry! 2 years later I couldn't stop thinking about girls!

You can't be fighting against gravity, jumping to the air all day long. It's a physical law that applies to everyone. The same with everyone's need to grow. You may be with your family in 3 thousand of our year's time, only to learn that you must move on. And this is the thing... it IS your decision. No one will be forcing it on you. Change is 100% guaranteed... the only question is its rate. If you need one more lifetime on earth to grow, then you will naturally decide to reincarnate. If you've experienced everything there is to experience in the physical, then you'll move on.

I like to see physical life as being the kinder garden, and I want to finish college.

As for NOT everyone has a SOUL subject... don't say, maybe no one knows. Maybe there are lots of people who see things as they are, or as close to the truth. You and most people have some missing basics. I don't say I have them all, I'm trying to be impartial here (we all have our own path). What I'm trying to say is that it only takes ONE missing basic to perceive things SO much different. Just be patient and... if you really wish to know, then when the student is ready, the teacher will appear.

I think the biggest problem here is that people naturally ignore some facts and sometimes they are so many, it makes me wander why people have overlooked some things so many times. I try to see it as a puzzle. We get some pieces here and there... remember that every piece connects to 4 others (most). Than things start to click and you can see how they're related.

You should be able to see something from different points of view. It's like having two cameras in an aquarium, focused in front and the side of just one fish. When looked separately, they seem to be different things. Soon you realize that when fish #1 moves to the left, fish #2 moves to the left. They seem to be communicating instantly. Then you realize that's actually the same thing.

It is also a problem of communication. Words are supposed to be a consensus, but we do give them different meanings based on our own experience. I think it's important to say things like "this for me means...".

Now back to you Kevin, the URL of my post is http://quantum-focus.blogspot.com/2006/02/everything-happens-for-reason.html, if you wish to take a look at it.

Take care everybody