A little poem about my Path

[BlackTalon]

Great poem Kenneth, somehow it rings framilliar with my own life The last part I like the best.

[Kenneth]

Thanks BlackTalon []

Thanks very much for your response [][][][].

Yes - I also like the last part the best, but it IS the feeling behind my reaction to the first part, that is among those things keeping me from completely reaching that last part that I like fully [] ... (I know - THAT was a tricky statement *LOL* - couldn't find a way to formulate it differently though []) ...

The latest question / scenario / Paradox in relation to feelings and energy, that is tumbling around in my system is:

"If i put my guitar on top of my piano, and hit the A-note on the Piano, then I can get my guitar to sound that very same note, without actually touching any of the strings. This fenomenon is called (In Danish) <Resonans>, meaning that it Resonates with the guitar.

My experience with feelings are, that they in themselfs are simply a vibration inside of us, that we "react" on, and through this, feelings can be very contagious - and the ones that "catch" our feelings, will themself "react" on that feeling, and the "Game is On"."

So now my thoughts are in the area, that "What if my feelings are "only" the Resonans of other peoples feelings? .... That knowledge I feel is a very good "stepping-stone" to greater understanding of ourselfs, with the "limitations", that SOME of those feelings are our "old stored" feelings hidden deep within ourselfs looking for release, plus the Resonanse being generated by other persons feelings. It is my experience, that the actual amount of NEW feelings being generated inside from the actual situation at hand is actually quiet minimal [:O].

So how can I use that little "brain-wave" in my daily life? ... Well, I try to apply it, when I am driving home from work, and even if I am very much at ease inside my mental body (My thoughts are quiet), and my physical body are OK, then I can feel different sort of feelings trying to "grab" my attention all the time. I sort of "acknowledge" that they are there, but any more lingering on that particular feeling, and I get stuck inside it, and have to make a real effort in order to work my way through it.

...And the reason why I do this ? .... Well, I haven't been bored one second on my journeys to and from work since I started on doing this. There are ALWAYS something to be aware of, to look at, to experience [] ... And traffic-safety you might ask ? ... Well, my most important tools for doing this is Awareness, focus and presense on everything in me that is experiencing - and what are the "golden" rules when talking traffic-safety? ... Yup - awarenes, presence and focus on the Traffic. But what is it that gives me the information, that something MIGHT be wrong (that someone suddenly brakes in front of me?), well - that is all my sences, and my ability to feel and Sence everything around me - and it is THAT thing that I am aware of....

I have actually never felt SAFER while driving than now. I react instantaneously (and correctly!) to most situations while keeping my awareness at all the different "inputs" my body puts through to me. I can sence the feeling of fear passing through me like a wave in a "chock" sitation, without it actually "grabbing on" to me, and at the same time look in the mirror to see, if the car behind me has stopped too. No judgements, no curses, no anger, no sweat ... just awarenes, presence, and a continously looking around in my self []

...And ofcource there are days and times, when I get lost in my thoughts on my way to work, and sort of "wake up" suddenly, and don't remember how I got from being on the High-way, and suddenly being in the City [}:)][8D] ... But these Unconscious moments get farther and farther between, and the other slowly becomes more and more dominant in me []

And at the same time I LEARN a he** of a lot about my self [] ... being your own best test-bench [] ... Using my mind to "create" a scenario, and then feel how my body reacts to it, and then "follow" that feeling to where it is in my mind and body - and having fun at the same time !! []

[BlackTalon]

Thats really interesting Kenneth the part about other people resonating with you...reading what you said about trying to be aware in the car then realizing your already in town when your thoughts took you away. Reminds me of when i'm meditating...how those thoughts just take you out for awhile...kinda amusing how attached you get to them and end up having a whole story going on in your head.

I think i'm gonna give this a try, trying to keep remembering to be aware of my thoughts and feelings and be able to step aside and watch myself. I could be having a great day then one thing will make me feel a little worse of than I was before, but that feeling will stick around like it's part of me, and the thing that brought me down could have nothing to do with me, so it seems pointless to be dragging that feeling around and thinking it's me....even if the proglem had to do with me it can't really touch my spirit so even that seems pointless.

[Kenneth]

This little poem is actually a part of a response to BlackTalon and HalfPhased in the thread "Shead the Junk". I wouldn't cloud that thread with Poetry, how much "On Topic" it is, but I have chosen to put it in it's own thread instead.

So - happy reading all you fellow seekers...[]


my Path:
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I started out as nothing,
no more than an empty void.
Made my errors,
made my calls.

The consequences were to much,
stone by stone I erected my wall.
I AM - I shouted,
Standing proud and tall.

Becoming greater and greater,
in the eyes of man.
The walls stood taller,
Defending my land.

While the walls they grew,
my world became dark.
The unconsciousnes reigning terror,
Like the mouth of a shark.

And suddenly they cracked,
And the Promised Land,
for a glimmering second,
was in my hand

The crack ever so short,
However my world it tumbled.
And the fighting slowly stopped,
as my Unconciousnes slowly crumbled

So much to be aware of,
So many details to expand.
So much growing still to do,
Before I reach the Promised Land.

So much cleaning up to do,
so many misunderstandings to understand.
Removing stone after stone,
Lifting each by my own two hands.

So many feelings to feel,
So many tearsh to shed.
Bravely facing it all,
Making Gold out of led.

And in the end,
where to then?
I look for the answer,
in my blackened Den.

But it's not black anymore
It's all been turned to Gold,
Shining brighter than light,
Through my awarenes now so old.

A question comes through,
How does it shine?
there is no light in here,
to make it this fine.

It reflects so strong,
it actually hurt my eyes.
I turn my face away,
again hiding in my lies.

But it keeps getting stronger,
It will not rest.
burning through the lies,
refining only the best.

And through those trials
I might one day,
be strong enough,
That I will NOT turn away:

The trials have all ended
they were nothing but a lie,
to learn that the Shine
came from only one place .....

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