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yeah. like principle said, the sensation varies on the element. sometimes i feel electric shocks in my hands, and sometimes i feel warmth and softness. other times i feel magnetism or cool water. it all depends. youll know when you have manipulated energy. you can feel it, whatever it feels like to, you can feel it surging though you. it really does take much practice. it took me about 6-7 months and a reiki healing. but now, i can extend my aura to 50 ft and more, i can make shapes and pictures and colors and different things like that(not visible to the nakes eye, id have to lower the frequency for that) and i can feel all of it. i also have a thing where i dont actually see it with my third eye, but i do see it. which is odd. ive seen out of my third eye before. its very different. anyway. just practice, and just visualize the energy. dont be set on using your hands. they arent THAT important. focus on using your mind to mold it. see if you can make streams of energy in the air with butterflies flying around psychic people. its pretty fun.

oh, thanks for deleting my last post. i was about to change it anyway. but w/e.

i shall not try to explain something i dont know much about or i will look like the straight christian fundamentalist explaining what homosexuality is. obviously, he has no clue, and looks like a total butt.

diets dont work for me. they take too long. and i give up. besides, i can never stay healthy. my dad is cheap and lazy. he only buys foods that make you fatter. if i lived on my own. i would only buy healthy food. im naturally drawn to it. i dont eat things like soda, doughnuts, cookies, cakes, pies, or chips, pizza, burgers, tacos, all greasy foods and sugary foods. im forced to eat some of it because i get really hungry and my dad is lazy and cheap. for instance, he got lifetime free pizza cause he did free legal work for a pizza guy. we now eat there every day. it makes me so sick. i hate it so much. but yeah, i genuinely do not find fat people attractive. i also tend to shy away from them. its probably the most horrible thing i can imagine. but its true. im really a very shallow person. anyway. i really feel that my weight is a punishment for my shallow attitude. i dunno. maybe it isnt. and i have accepted that im fat. ive been the fat kid since forever. i hate it because it keeps me from getting into relationships, and because it limits what i can do. i feel huge all the time. and i really am. i weigh so much. its horrible. i dont know what to do anymore. i cant diet, because i can never get the right food. i dont have time to go exercise too much cause im always sleepy, or i have homework or other work to do. im pretty sure i can direct my excess energy and combine it with a thought to make me lose weight. i did it in a spell. it worked for a week. then the plant that i used to grow the spell died. and i stopped losing weight. i think ive been gaining weight too. anyway, i did that BEFORE i learned how to accumulate large quantities of positive energy. and yeah. i got fat over the past year, because i changed schools, and i REALLY liked this guy, beyond normal reason, and i never got to see him again. he didnt like me and he thought i was creepy and was trying to kill him. which made me feel worse. cause i only wanted him to feel safe and loved. and it all went wrong. so to make up for his loss, i started eating a lot. i recently stopped eating like a freakin pig because i want to be healthy. i enjoy the feeling. another reason i cant do this is because i have SO many things im trying to juggle that need to be done right now, and i cant really do that right now. which is bad because the longer i stay fat, the longer ill be without a bf, which is never good for me, because my thing is love. its what i live for. and to be alone is the worst thing for me. its even worse than my mother not caring about me, or my father being psychotic and trying to kill me. so i dont know what to do.

ok. thanks. ill do that. i also have another problem. i am overweight. and i dont like the way i am. i think this causes me to be very critical of other people's appearances. its a big battle, because i know i can start losing weight, if i can learn to accept and love those around me with the same problem, instead of being horribly shallow. i hate it, but i dont know how to get rid of it. i think its something karmic. like i am critical of fat people, and only attracted to skinny people, because i AM fat, and i had the same attitude in another life, so thats why im fat now. any ideas on how to break this horribleness?

i had a dream, that i was swimming with some friends in a river(before that, i had another dream that some old friends of mine dropped some metal wires, and they fell onto a map of the city and made a lightning bolt sigil. like that S thing and turned red) anyway. in the dream, a shark came. he tried to pull me under. then he said, you did not know of me, so i will let you go. the whole time, i was trying to pull myself out of the water, because my friends told me that the shark was coming. and i couldnt get out, although i was trying, the grass was too slippery and i grabbed onto everything and i couldnt pull myself up. anyway. the shark told me(yes, he was speaking. although not with his mouth) he said next time i was in the water, he would have to feed me to his children so they wouldnt go hungry. so he told me not to go in the water while he was swimming there. so then he was swimming. and i was walking along. and it had become day. and we became friends. not by talking, just by mixing energy. and he would point out rocks to me, and i would look at them, diff shells and rocks and stuff. and i would read them and they would make words. and i would look again and they were just rocks. but i read them so well. they really looked like words to me. i read out whole sentences from these rocks. but to get the message, i would have to give him a snack. just some goldfish or something. and he would eat them, and give me the message. and he came to a little village. and i warned the people not to put their hands in the water when he swam by. my friends were there too. my new friends from my new shool. (as opposed to the old ones from my childhood) and they listened to me. and he swam by and then he came to the shore of the river. and i got in the water. with some fear, but then it went away. because i knew he wouldnt hurt me. and then i dont remember anything. i might've woken up, or dreamt another dream. btw, the dream was in color, it had was very vivid, not lucid, but vivid. and it was not very negative.

lol. silly. the merging of the two is how we influence the physical reality. im laughing as a teen, but really, im giggling as a child.

i love this stuff. it so coincidentally follows everything im doing. right now, i just focus on putting more white light around me, and finding my way through life.

tk IS real. yes, there are many fakes. but its not dismissable just because there is no scientific evidence. tk is accomplished through streaming MASSIVE amounts of medium frequency kinetic energy through your arms or from your mind. doesnt really matter which. dont ask me how i know this. im not sure. its just one of those things that i KNOW. like, some things i know and they come from nowhere. its an innate understanding. but yeah. thats how it works.

i did. i saw a REALLY good eye doctor. i remember it now. i complained about seeing colors to my mom. and she took me. they ran a lot of tests. and they found nothing. his name was doctor spock. i know it sounds made up. but hes a polish guy. survived the holocaust. my mom went to law school with his daughter. anyway. they found nothing. so yeah. its not my eyes. or my head, since im sane. and i had a new experience today. lately, ive been influencing sound around me. ill be watching tv, and it'll get louder. at first, i thought it was just my perception, like i was paying more attention. and it would happen at the movies, but usually at my computer or my tv. and it only rose a few decibels. but then it happened in class, while we were watching the news. and all of a sudden, it got really loud, and my friends started complaining about it. so i knew it wasnt just me. THEN i tried doing it on purpose at an awards ceremony. i took a really low high frequency, and amplified it until people started holding their ears in pain. it was kind of embarrassing in a way. so i made it stop.  then today, i did the tv thing again, but not on purpose. and my mom was there, and she had to turn it down with the remote. she thinks my psychic stuff is demonic and she doesnt want me to talk about it. anyway. i have a request. if you can scan me and tell me what color my aura is, i would much appreciate it. i think its blue. but i cant really tell. i have tons of energy, i make my psychic friends dizzy, although i dont know how to use it other than strengthening my chakras. however, i cant see or feel my aura. neither can my psychic friends. i had one friend who said she could, but i think she was lying cause she told me violet was a bad color. and its not. and she was kinda weird anyway. like the kind of person who WOULD lie. anyway. please scan meh. and tell me what colors you see.

i think its safe to say that this topic is like....i dunno, not only dead, but decomposing. on a lighter note, i slept 0 hours last night. i did take small naps though. to see if i could OBE in a state of intense exhaustion. stupid homework....anyway. i kinda started to see a bright light grow i felt disconnected from my body, then i opened my eyes, and it was back to normal.

ive been seeing this crap since i was a baby. i always thought my eyes were screwed up.

ive been told that as well. i should probably do that spell again. it should work better when i do it the right way. lol. but yeah. i suck at tk, even though ive been told its innate to me. the concept is innate to me, but the objects dont seem to follow. i guess we decided to learn a lesson at the same time. lol. we gotta practice.

is it normal to see different colors over everything and outlines of objects and stuff like that. like, if i look in my room(which is painteed white) i see red at the top, and it fades to blue, and then theres like chaotic flashing everywhere. i think ive ignored for a long time. but i was wondering what it was.

um, if i can get a hypnosis session, to remember things, he can tell me what i said, and ill think about it, and ill remember it after thinking about it for a day. but thanks.

cool. anyway. i raised white light in a spiral through my chakras, and poured the light into my chakras today. i did it in front of a mirror, and then i started to strengthen my chakras. when i got to my heart, i flooded the room with green light again, and after charging my third eye(i did all this with my eyes closed) i opened them, and i saw green light everywhere. again. i did it again, but i flooded my yellow solar plexus chakra throughout the room, and i saw yellow. it was AAAAAHHHHmazing. just like the mattress giant.

i have a habit of suppressing bad memories deep into my subconscious. they'll happen, and then i just wont remember them anymore. i need to remember some things that are crucial to my defense in a legal battle, but they were so horrible, i cant recall them. does anyone know what i can do to bring those memories out?

omg. i had an experience yesterdays. it wasnt metaphysical or psychic or anything though. but here it is. me and my singer, we're like, telepathic with each other. we share the same thoughts, and we learn the same way, and we agree on everything, and we react the same to everything. we are so alike in every way, its creepy. the coolest thing is that when i synthetically lower the pitch on her voice, she sounds EXACTLY like me. its so weird. 

yes. very true. i agree with hannah. al experiences are real. it doesnt matter if they were experienced on the physical realm or not.

"damn, talanay, why are you being such a grump to him?"- quote from anonymous user   he hasnt said anything bad to you and and he hasnt ever shown any emotional repsonses. its a bit sad that a moderator, of all people, is harrassing the users of this site. its ok for you to say that this website does not recommend that the users give out personal information, however it is very rude to post annoying and disruptive messages on a board that was intended to be a place of learning and healing. its like watching a noisy kid run around screaming at a funeral. its just not acceptable. im sure you have the right to behave this way, seeing as you are a moderator, but that does not make your behavior correct. i really wish you could find it in yourself to not pester people who are trying to move forward. would you please consider this?

sometimes, when i have homework to do, and i go to sleep instead, i start to project, cause i think my spirit pushed me into my body sideways. cause thats how i was laying, and i went woosh, out of my dream, and into my body. it was a very violent push too. like a " wake up, cause you have a huge paper due in 4 hours that u havent started on and its 3am" push.

lol. from a young explorer, you never lose it. ever. its just harder to get it back once your're an adult. but keep trying, because its there. definitely.

i agree. its the humans!!! ugh. who know the worst disease was homo sapien.

i smell somebody over analyzing things.

yeah. none of the reasons are solid, and rely on other, non-related explanations. its not cool, guys. if you dont have a clue what im talking about, you werent meant to.