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Brother, I'm with you. These experiences can be complicated things to figure out.

Maybe you were interacting with her astral or etheric component and she wasn't otherwise aware of you. That is common. Interaction through different consciousnesses doesn't guarantee memorable hits. It gets distorted in several ways.

Visiting people; it's actually more complicated than we originally think.

Hello Sagar and welcome to the Pulse!

To have met a personal guide so early in your work must surely be a wondrous thing. I've not had the pleasure but I am beginning to notice their presence more and more. Just on the side, on the periphery, not showing themselves completely yet.

For a conscious exit, have you thought of trying the WBTB technique? Wake, Back To Bed... Go to sleep at a normal time, just set your alarm for 3 or 4 hours worth of sleep, then get up and stay lightly active for 20 to 50 minutes or so, read a book or something... Then lay down and work on your trance state and see what happens. The idea is that your body will slide back off into sleep but your mind can disconnect and remain awake and aware... Noticing... As Frank Kepple suggests. You'll likely see lots of Hypnagogia, just enjoy the show passively watching...at some point the images will stabilize and solidify... Then you can literally step into them.

Otherwise, pay attention to when opportunities present themselves. If you've done a lot of energy work, then various times throughout your sleep cycle should present energetic moments that catch your attention.

Saturday, March 15, 2014

Earlier in the week, I had advised a poster on the Pulse to recognize and take advantage of potential tunnel portals that were presenting themselves during his trance work. I was a little envious; I have never gotten anything like a tunnel before in trance. When I'm already out, yes, but not in trance. I thought that would be so cool and convenient. Well, apparently the message got through.

I had been awake into the early hours and was sleeping in very late; 10:30am, and was drifting back to grab another hour of sleep when I was presented with a spiraling tunnel against a grainy, gray background. It wasn't the fanciest or prettiest of tunnels but I was ecstatic for the opportunity! I didn't even wait two seconds for it to strengthen or anything, I just dove straight in---and phased instantly into a futuristic facility, all white and silver paneling, ceilings and floors, glass dividers, a broad information-type counter, hallways leading off to alcoves, all clean and spotless. I felt like 98% physically solid in a body and with bright, vibrant lucidity. I was happy and confident and determined to take on a lesson.

I stepped across an atrium and up a couple stairs to the counter which was attended by a young man and woman, early twenties, who were dressed in similar white, pristine uniforms. They welcomed me enthusiastically and asked how they could help me. (I think they physically spoke or the communication was so strong that I automatically interpreted it that way) I said I think I am here for instruction. The girl said Wonderful, then you'll be using this portal over here and she pointed to this device on the wall to my left. I looked hard into her eyes and saw the clear, crisp consciousness behind them, not the dull, lifeless eyes of a dream character. I asked where the portal might take me and what would I be doing? She smiled and said that she did not know specifically but that it would not be beyond my abilities. Then they both began calmly talking to me and I could feel my consciousness shift somehow, almost backwards slightly, like I was now hearing them through a filter, ever so slightly muffled. I realized that the lesson had already begun in some way; they were intentionally forcing me to receive information simultaneously from two separate channels. The young man was quietly explaining that I would need to navigate around a course of some sort and avoid certain obstacles; the girl was describing the obstacles as other flyers and water geysers, and possibly other things; she further cautioned me to avoid going into the water. Midway through their talk, I became aware that a third person was addressing me from an alcove off to my right about thirty feet away. She was a thirty-something woman who reminded me of Ooma, the Ascended Being from the Stargate SG1 series. She was sitting among a group of young children, as if their teacher or mentor, but was calling over to me to also caution me (with a wry smile) about avoiding the water. I realized for a moment that I was interacting with sentient beings or energies, wrapped in forms that were likely, at least in part, my creation.

Everybody stopped talking at the same moment. The young girl smiled at me and asked- Ready? So I said let's do it. She touched the portal-plate and a rapid shift occurred and the next moment I was standing with my arms outstretched and the young couple were fitting some kind of flimsy exo-skeleton onto my arms and down my back and down my legs which I gradually became aware having some kind of small helicopter blade system below each foot and above each hand- it was a flight system. Flying, huh? I was okay with that.

Within seconds I was sliding out to my left and dropping outside into an airstream and into a vast open area of sky, like an arena thousands of feet across. The blades spun, their rpms controlled by my thoughts; direction by angling my hands and feet. I fell for perhaps a few hundred feet until I got my speed up and got myself stabilized, then powered back up to my original altitude and looked around. I had the hang of it pretty quick, or so I thought. I looked around and saw other flyers off in the distance, I could see them working their way around pylons suspended in the air; we were probably 800-1000 feet up. It was a spectacular sight. Now, geysers of water arced up from below aiming in my direction. They were relatively easy to dodge, so keeping them in sight I tried to angle to my right and get onto the course, but it became increasingly difficult to move in that direction; something wasn't right.

Now another problem appeared. Two flyers were approaching with a large intensely black net pulled taut between them, to ensnare me. Off in the distance, I could see the ocean and remembered the admonition. I was confident I could avoid the net flyers but as they approached my control faltered as if the flight system was quitting on me the closer they came. I was determined not to let that happen and put some intent into willing it back into operation and got nothing; No matter what I did, the system continued to malfunction. The flyers were on me and I hit the center of the net but with what felt like sheer determination, I bounced and twisted and kicked myself free of the net and hovered off, shakily but still flying. Although I had been bumped by the net, I judged that was a successful dodge but I was having severe control issues by now. The flight system was damaged and failing. I threw the last of my determination and intent into the struggle but it was not enough; I was going down. I became confused and then immensely frustrated and I started fading back to my physical which I could tell was face down, arms outstretched in bed... I tried one last time to re-engage but finally I faded completely.

I slept for a bit and then began dreaming. I was seated in a small office with a young man seated to my left, whom I did not recognize. He was telling me something (instructions, no doubt) and I gained almost full lucidity just as he finished his talk, so of course, I had not gotten any of it consciously! And obviously I realize now that I didn't have sufficient presence to question him, I just sat there fascinated.

A minute later, I realized that the office had somehow disengaged itself from the building and was sliding smoothly down its interior corridors, turning left, then right, transitioning through different interior sections, up many levels through beautiful architectural flutes. I was more lucid now and really enjoying this HD ride through these gorgeous, futuristic buildings. This wasn't an office, it was a shuttle of some sort.

We slid out of the first building, into the sunlight briefly and I could see the city around us, then disappearing back into another building and presently, we slid out near the edge of the city and down along the shore of an ocean. We descended to a pier with watercraft lined up, my companion saying something about riding some of them. We stepped out onto the pier and he spoke with an attendant who said Yes, I have a couple returning shortly and you're welcome to use them. Moments later, two sleek, black hoversleds floated forward into a staging lane before us; the second one with little batwings tapering down off the sides; it shimmered and vibrated almost violently as it slid up. I knew that one was for me; it just looked screaming fast. The attendant said Yes, that one is particularly fast... and tricky. So we walked around to the other side of the staging lane to climb onto them I assumed, but when I looked again, the sled was gone and only this blue object remained, looking like a bicyclists' helmet. I was confused so I turned to query my companion but he was gone, already put his helmet on it appeared, and slipped into and under the water. I could faintly make him out, about three feet down, the same blue shape of a helmet on him and little blue half-shoes on his feet. I looked back at the remaining helmet, no scooter-booties to be found. I was unsure of what to do. Put it on and jump in? I couldn't understand why the scenario had changed. I was getting frustrated...and then everything faded.

These were some of my initial observations---

Lessons of some sort, but they both seem to end prematurely, almost before they've begun.

They both end in confusion and frustration. That can't be good. If I go with feel, then it was a fail both times.

I've realized a pattern at the beginning where 2 or 3 of them are all speaking at once, giving instructions, confusing the heck out of me; or speaking as I'm gaining lucidity only to clam up when I hit full awareness...then they kind of laugh and look at me like they're thinking, "I know you missed all that on a conscious level...are you ready now!" Rascals!

Maybe them all talking at once is teaching me something about concentration or communication.

Does the admonition to stay clear of the water in the first scenario still apply in the second?

I've learned from others that if you are repeatedly cautioned about something you better pay heed; failure to follow strict instructions can get you booted for awhile.

The first experience seemed to involve determination or intent and I maintained both throughout, even not getting tangled in a "web of despair". Was that any kind of success? Or do I have to complete the simulation with not even a single instant of doubt/fear/confusion?

I always try to stay within the given ruleset, but pretty quickly the rules seem to change or an insurmountable obstacle appears. Do I stay within the rules no matter what? In the first, I might have gone Ironman and shot out of there: don't know unless I try, I guess.

Then, a few days later, further observations---

LD2 I was unable to judge whether or not to trust my companion.

The attendant saying the sled was "tricky"...was that a clue to an upcoming change in the scenario? Because the sled did indeed play a trick by morphing.

Then, last night this occurs to me---

These are lessons to help me build the proper mindset, to keep a calm, detached and clear-thinking attitude. And I failed both times; I lost control of my emotions and succumbed to frustration; this might include doubt and confusion and maybe a touch of fear, but it wasn't until I got wrapped up in the frustration that it was like a 3 second timer was started---1,2,3 okay you're done...fade out...frustration was apparently the key.

The first experience was probably designed to have my flight system fail, no matter what I did or how much determination or intent I brought to bear. The test was not to navigate around the course; the test was to see if I could handle my emotions and keep my composure when everything I tried had failed.

The lucid dream was a variant with the key object in the scenario (the hoversled) morphing on me and introducing confusion, followed by me becoming frustrated. A trick was used...and they even told me ahead of time.

So, if I have recognized this correctly, maybe I convert the failures into a small learning success by improving my mindset for the future. I won't know until I get back there.

The NPR mindset requires control of all the emotional impulses we are prone to, and seems to follow a fairly orderly progression as our experiences move deeper. First, we learn to control Fear, then Excitement, then oftentimes Sexual impulse, then maybe in some order, Fascination or Distraction, Confusion or Indecision, Frustration, Anger? What's after those?

Another part of this is that no matter how lucid or clear I think I am in NPR, my thinking is nevertheless limited in ways I don't fully understand; ideas that should occur to me simply don't. That ability somehow needs to be developed more fully. I think I see it improving, but slowly.

It's always something...

Snydaleid,

Since we talked about 40 days ago, what do you think you have changed in your approach to get to this point? Something has obviously worked!

Hopefully this has spiked your interest again. If you haven't already started a dream/obe journal, you should. Take the time to write a thorough description and concentrate on the "feel" of the experience, not your emotions, but how you perceived your awareness during each phase of the event: the tingling at the beginning, your motion up and down the hallway, and back again in your physical body. The whole experience has a feel to it and you need to replay it in your mind in order to memorize it on many levels. This way you are programming your inner/higher self to look for and recognize this feel in the future.

Szaxx, a question: In the very beginning you said this recall came in more than one part and that you were waiting for a trigger to occur. How would you describe the trigger; is it always the same or does it show itself in different ways? Do you actively pursue the trigger or simply notice it passively as it happens?

Thanks.

Soarin, As far as my inner map, right now it's more of an understanding of where each state is with relation to each other. I know how (most times, lol) to jump from the RTZ to the Astral or from the Void to the Astral, but not the other way around. There was also a grey, foggy cloud area I was in one time between RTZ destinations, maybe it was actually just a cumulus...

I get the impression from others that going from the Astral to the RTZ is rather difficult; not sure why.

We could split hairs and say that you had a partial exteriorization of your etheric body and sent it searching down the hallway or some such esoteric jargon...That's what may be happening with remote-viewing.

I say, wherever your awareness is, you is.  Even if just briefly, you gave yourself permission to fly down the hallway and back again.

Congratulations on your first OBE!

Are we having champagne?

Lionheart points out the paradox.

The harder you try, the harder it is...

I agree with the early morning tries; several successes from this will give the feeling of the mindset you are looking for; then you may find it at other times more easily.

I would add to Lionheart's point to ALLOW the experience to unfold. Part of the technique to doing this is to remain the detached, emotionless observer. During the exit, this is of prime importance, keeping your emotions under total control. ANY degree of fear will throw you out; you're pretty close to having that covered. The next is over-excitement once you make the exit. After that is fascination and distraction within the environment (what still gets me I think).

Funny, he posted that while I was typing this.lol

Just some ideas, have fun!

Aaaahhh the Night Hag coming to take a shot at you! And you had the right response- no fear! So she took off...

A couple months ago, I was on the verge of a RTZ exit and was struggling to lift out. Suddenly a young woman, having a really bad hair day, was leaning over close to my face and screaming at me. She caught me off guard, so I screamed back, and the two of us just screamed at each other in harmony for a few seconds; then I realized what was happening, smiled and started beaming PUL at her and she disappeared in a poof!
Then I fell asleep...

Great experience raditus! LMAO! Thanks for sharing that.

The Blue Ridge mountains in Virginia, the whole Appalaichian range,  have historically had reports of fireballs of various sorts.

The number of fireball sightings, especially red and orange ones has been on the uptick over the last 20 years; or the number of reports, at least. I've been watching. My particular interest has been the blue/green fireballs/spheres.

NUFORC is a great collection site for such reports but I have serious doubts about the integrity of its information, specifically and generally.

Personal experience, just sayin'...

Hi omega,

Are you sure you were fully into your dream state?

The times I get really odd characters who say really bizarre things like that is when I am on the edge of sleep or dreams. Either pre-sleep or in-between dreams; or early morning wake-ups. Maybe also a little sleep paralysis. This is usually the realm of Hypnagogia and can offer some really freaky stuff. The fact that you are beginning to notice these distractions is good, it's probably a sign that you are developing your NPR awareness; but it comes with the hassle of dealing with noisy, bothersome trash like this, especially when you are working close to an exit. I wouldn't read too much into it unless it continues to show up in the exact same form. It can be quite difficult, figuring out what you should pay attention to, and what you need to ignore. Entertainment otherwise.

Excellent experience Szaxx, I look forward to the rest.
Your explanation and detail of the mindset gives me so many clues as to what I need to develop in my own; I still feel like I'm wobbling on training wheels.lol

Pretty much agree with everything Lionheart said.

A lot of this can be considered as astral noise or interference. It takes shape in many ways; you can get lost for awhile, chasing them all down, figuring out what they are.

#1 maybe you are sensitive to auras or energies, I'm just not sure.

#2 sounds like hypnagogia, normal weird visuals we all get, very individual phenomena when we are getting close to an exit.

#3 acts like energy body sensations; try Robert Bruce for a much broader explanation; good signs something is going on!

If you pursue OBE, you will find this is all a variety of sensations that: some should be followed and explored; most of the other sensations have to be compartmentalized and/or ignored.

Enjoy the journey!

Hi soarin,

This is to answer your question and share a few more comments about The Multidimensional Human

It was good for me to dig back into this book, there's so much for me to gain from it at this time, but it does require work and determination! Sometimes I'm in short supply of those! So much still to learn!

Over the last several years, I have had a sufficient number of, and variety of, NPR experiences that I'm starting to finally get the feel of my own NPR map. I am also recognizing more of the supra-physical senses Leland describes. He groups the senses into four broad categories: Existential, Environmental, Kinesthetic and Relational. So I take the most obvious ones that I think I am detecting in my own experiences and work with those. For instance, the five Environmental senses are: Space, Time, Position, Navigation, Perception. If I look at each one and where I might be sensing it or making use of it within an experience, I begin to feel the wider, deeper capability of it; it's really like exercising a new muscle.

Example-Position and Navigation- Physical space and distance don't exist in NPR, but psychological space and distance do. Having a variety of experiences is beginning to give me a stronger sense/feel of where I am and how to get somewhere else. I have a definite knowing of where the RTZ is, where the 3D Blackness/Void is, where my Dreamspace is and where the Astral is. And I know it's not a "where" out there, it's an inner "where", a mental relationship of these states or focuses of attention. And I'm on the lookout for portals like never before: Windows, doors, pictures, mirrors, tunnels, spirals, etc. I'll probably instinctively dive down the kitchen drain if I come across one. lol

The Relational senses include: Cooperation, Vibration, Communication, Information, Permeation.

Example- Communication/Information- Over the years, in some of my experiences, I have been slowly introduced to the concept and use of Non-Verbal Communication (Monroe's NVC) with less than stellar results. Then, in my Fieldtrip experience, I feel like I took a significant leap forward using telepathy and receiving packets of info and unzipping them like compressed files. This is how Leland described it, how Szaxx described it, and how I interpreted it. I "feel" the understanding of how this is done to a much greater extent than I can put into words (that's a weird concept in itself!). For that matter, the majority of my Fieldtrip experience was "downloaded" in a way that had never happened for me before. I remember having the experience and writing down a few paragraphs at the time. But I really didn't have much more than those three paragraphs for detail at the time. 2 and a half years later, I came across them in my notes and I felt the urge to lay down and do a reverie-review and see if I could pull any more detail from the experience. What came forth astonished me: I went from three paragraphs to ten pages of notes of descriptions, thoughts, feelings, new concepts.  I seriously doubted myself for a time, wondering if I was somehow unconsciously embellishing the event, but each time I tried to pick at a thought to test or question it's validity, rather than deflate the thought, more info would come flooding in; just the opposite of what I expected. I had never experienced this type or level of recall before.

Example-Permeation- This is the sense or technique of the mindmeld or imprint that I experienced in my Fieldtrip and had explained to me by Szaxx. Leland also has a pretty thorough and similar description. The whole experience still blows me away.

Leland offers some 30+ exercises to awaken these 20 senses; it's a little daunting, so he offers a list of 6 exercises as a kind of crash course to get one started. That's what I'm doing.

Some final thoughts:

"The true language of Otherwhere (NPR) is feel/think or feeling-based telepathy." This, to me, is a fundamentally important concept for explorers to be aware of. In my Fieldtrip analysis, the concept was reinforced to me over and over, not to spend too much time trying to translate my thoughts of the events into words but more importantly to pay attention to and memorize the "feel" of the experience/event/situation.

Leland describes specific categories of senses to work on depending on where you are in your development:

"If you come to this book having had some psychic and mystical adventures and wanting to go farther afield than your bedroom or the astral plane Dream Zone then focus on your kinesthetic senses...These practices are especially beneficial when you hit a wall---when your adventures have ceased for an extended period of time or repeat themselves with no signs of progress."

"If you come to this book with a long history of psychic experiences, lucid dreams, OBEs, and other adventures in consciousness, focus on developing your relational inner senses...especially if you encounter no one during such adventures, you're not sure which nonphysical entities to trust, you're not meeting guides, or you're not getting clear and detailed information from them."

"Everything in NPR can be conceived in three ways: as information, energy and consciousness."
                                                         ________________________
Two thumbs up!

Soarin, I'll post my Power of Love experience in a separate thread so as to not muddy this one.
Be well and see you out there!

EV

I agree 100% with your thinking Xanth but would add a caveat. In a theoretical sense I think this is closer to the truth but in a practical, working sense I think the distinctions, divisions and definitions exist for us to discover, understand and eventually move beyond them. These terms and concepts help us to understand for ourselves and to describe to others what we are experiencing but yes, they can also limit or trap us in our thinking and our further experiences. So they are necessary, but at some point we have to be ready and willing to discard them and transcend their potential limitations.

But really, most of us are making assumptions and judgements about what we are experiencing. They may be temporary, arbitrary and dependent. We have to shuffle them around, trying to categorize them, comparing them to others' ideas, sometimes dumping them all together, trying something new.

The limiting factor may be our consciousness learning to un-individuate itself and broaden our view to increasingly larger portions of the Wider Reality. From my readings, it appears that most people advance along a fairly regular path of recognizing the next closest aspect of the plane just beyond the one they are presently focused in : Physical...Etheric/RTZ...PersonalAstral...PublicAstral...Mental...Causal...and so on. ( I know, more names, more labels ...lol )

Can some people make the jump directly to the Mental plane? I suppose so, and their newfound perspective may look back on the Astral as just one undifferentiated plane. I'm open to that, it's just not been my experience. Maybe somewhere in the Mental or Causal planes we start to leave behind the labels?

I'm guessing it has a lot to do with the development of the new senses that each energy body requires to experience the new plane/dimension.
If you are lucky enough to have developed the right supra physical senses to a sufficient degree, you might just "see" right past all these semantical limitations.

Do we mention the potential division between Astral 1 and Astral 2 to new explorers? Or just wait and see where they land on their own? In this case you're probably right; initially treat the Astral as a whole (which it is) and see how much people are immediately open to, without throwing any unintentional blocks in their way. Maybe I'm tossing out a roadblock that doesn't need to be there. I'm ok with that idea.

Anyway, just my current thinking. ( Subject to change without notice )

Thanks,  
EV

Soarin, those are some spectacular experiences and I enjoyed the way you describe them.

Occurring in the Physical makes them even more powerful, I've had a few! My "Power of Love" experience was in the Physical. The music experience I've read about but not had for myself, though I'm a great music lover.

Is this where some of the great compositions and writings and ideas come from? It's incredible!

To describe some of the supra-physical senses I've noticed through Leland's writings will take some study with book in hand, but I'll do that in a day or two. Based on your wonderful descriptions of your experiences, I think you can find some of these senses developing for you, as well.

I made a list of his described senses and try to look for them now in each of my experiences. Just gotta keep learning.

I embrace the paradox, as well.

To me, the Collective Astral, or the Astral Proper is at a higher vibration and personally, I have to work up to that frequency, so I still need some practice. I've hit a few times but it's still a struggle.

You may be able to get there now, you just are developing access points or methods. You've just had presented to you the DILD. Later you will learn others. These access points are leading you into that "personal" Astral space. Once you become acclimated to that area, you will gain entrance to the "collective" areas. Your vibration may allow access now or it may require some work like it has for me.

Good luck and have fun!

EV

Rachael,

I am just reading your reply to Amorda's thread and then I re-read this one.

You are now projecting to the Astral.
You are making your entry through use of a DILD, or Dream Induced Lucid Dream. In other words, like you said- you are coming aware in a lucid dream. That's just one of the early entry methods we learn. There are others like directly phasing. Once you get exposed to a few different entry methods the trick is to just be on the lookout for whatever opportunity arises and what method is at hand. Making more sense?

A Lucid Dream IS in the Astral, at least the first part. It's the "personal" Astral, where our dreams and many lessons apparently take place. Just take command of the dream, alter it, erase it or look for a portal and go where you "intend".

I know you want to get to the Astral Proper, that's the "collective" Astral; that may take a little more time and work.

But make no mistake, you have taken the step from RTZ awareness to Astral awareness. Starting to feel the difference?

Oh........and congratulations!!

I wish I could learn that Lionheart, but it takes me forever to silence the chatter; truth is, it just stops when I tire out and I never see it coming. As much as I promote affirmations, that's one area that hasn't worked for me.

What I have noticed is other opportunities presenting themselves, and obviously promoted by my conscious/subconscious requesting: In response to the thread by Inphered, I suggested acting upon the presentation of a tunnel image. Privately, I was thinking, "Why don't I ever get tunnels?! That would be so convenient!"

I couldn't believe it! Less than a week later, I rolled over to go back to sleep one morning and was staring straight into a spiraling tunnel!

I dove straight in immediately and had two back to back Astral instruction lessons...

You're right soarin, my bad; Unanswered Question is apparently his second book; I was commenting on MultiDimensional Human. The book I bought used online was Otherwhere, which was excellent, much like Monroe's Far Journeys. I hope it reprints someday.

Monroe's books were among the first I discovered and were excellent I thought, but totally lacking in offering exit techniques for the general population. Monroe was simply a 'natural' but he didn't realize that until much later. In his books, he was just offering his readers the best of his understanding at the time. The exit tech he offers in Journeys Out of the Body is somewhat difficult conceptually and geometrically as I remember trying it although I did manage to hit strong vibrations twice, but could do nothing with them. Did scare the crap out of me as a 13 yr old.lol

I thought Leland made an astute observation about Monroe's books: He surmised that the first book Journeys was from the perspective of Monroe's Etheric/RTZ and Astral bodies; the second book, Far Journeys was from the perspective of largely his Astral and Mental bodies; the third, Ultimate Journey was from the viewpoint of his Mental and Causal bodies.

The Multidimensional Human is a good read, but I agree, it's a bit complicated and slightly overwhelming in all the sense-development practices. But I have recognized in his 20 something (not 24!) supra-physical senses that need to be discovered and developed, I have in the last few years, recognized several senses he describes, as developing in my own experience; and been hinted at, pointed out or suggested by some here on the Forum.

Like I said, I'll be reading it a few more times, taking notes and highlighting.

With that said, your comment that your early experiences tracked an almost reverse course from the Nirvanic to the Mental to the Astral and on down sounds like a definite need for its own re-telling on its own thread...

I wanna hear about that!  

This is a tough one, but I guess I'll chime in.

I've been projecting for 40 years and really never felt ready to try and reach a passed-over loved one. Some things I'm ready for and others I know I'm not;I generally recognise and am ok with that. I just didn't feel up to it at an intrinsic level.

My dad shot himself in 2010; I was fifteen minutes from picking him up, to take him for a medical checkup. He was 80 and deserved to go any way he chose to go, and he chose his own exit. But it crushed me.

Three months later, At the time, I was working (frustratingly) on recognizing portals when they might present themselves in the RTZ or the Astral and I had an event one night where I realized I was standing before a mirror.

And I simply said, I guess instinctively, "I want to see my dad." and dove into the mirror.

It was foggy, maybe because of my focus level, my mood or attitude, my first time there, I just don't know... But I saw my dad for maybe ten seconds, a young Indian man observing the proceedings from the side, (maybe my guide for the moment) my dad was in an environment he would have designed for himself, an office or workspace with fireplace, tv, desks, faxes, phones and such and an old hound dog lounging by the fireplace. I asked, " How are you doing, dad?" and he said just fine...and that was it, I faded out.

We go through these slow periods... Stinks, doesn't it?

Hey!

Hang on to Christ! From what I gather he was a great guy! Great attitude, great outlook! Who could argue with that?

The other guys in the bible... What dimension do you think they were tapping into and trying to interpret? The prophecies, the visions...

Just sayin'...