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Now seriously, Andrew, why do you speak about prostate? Really...

I think my is own prostate is good lol. Tell me more about that topic

lol you people have a fetish for prostate check eheh, kidding...

i think that the problem is really really my job...i am starting to see that i dont have a life. Being a teacher means to have no life on this f************** country:-(

And today i got more sad. I had the knew that i will keep the same incoming (salary?? how do you say in english? the earning of the month?? ) for some more years.

The system is so rotten! I should have changed my incoming at 1-2 years ago but now i must wait more 4-5 years to have a better incoming every month. 7 years winning the same and now i must wait more 4-5 and work muuuuuuuuch more.

Get the prostate checked....funny??lol explain me how is that possible! unless the doctor is a veeeeeeeeeeery nice female i dont see how can be that possible eheh

Frank? Where have you been? lol

Since long ago (1-2 years??) that Frank is missing. No one knows where he is

This topic was created after reading one related topic, created by Manuel (a member on this forums). I need something too, like him, but not just "vacations". Thats why i created this topic, for hearing your advices, any one.

I feel very tired and loosing my old capabilities to look at things with a refreshed mind. I dont know what is happening with me. I feel myself loosing energy, vitality. I feel my spirit being drained.

I am becoming a zombie of society. Why is this happening? For my sadness i dont know the reason and i am starting to not care about it! And thats even worst!

In part, the problem may be related to my job. I am a teacher. In Portugal, contrary to what some people believe, teachers (speccially like me of 1st grade to 6 grade) have looooots of stress and work. Often i work lot more (MUCH MORE) than what i am paid for (and no one pays me for the extra work that I AM OBLIGATED). We must deal with thousands of papers and burocracy, we are facing a new and very stupid revolutionary system on education, we are facing new things that will crush down teachers... In one word: we are in the middle of s***!

That & the fact that Portugal is starting to get like Brazil (no jobs, money flowing from poor/medium people to rich people, assaults, robbers, a tirant government, etc....) is getting me sick and tired of everything.

Notice that i am not exactly depressed, sad...i am more like having no feelings, or better, with the feeling of suffocation and no energy. Even the things that i used to do to increase my energy and counsciouness, i am not able to start to do them! I am to "lazy" , i am to much depleted. I am not able to start any meditation, to feel pleasure when i go on bike, to feel the "magic" and fresh air in a forest, i am not able to go on a nightclub and feel the very powerful energy of some good electronic music (dnb, trance, electro, etc)....I mean, the solutions that i used to have are not working or worst, i cant start to do them because i am to tired for trying it!

I need something!

Do you have any good advices? If your advices includes the reading of some site, ebook, etc, give me links to it.

thanks guys!

AP forums had some "dramas" too...the disapearing of Frank, Robert Bruce conflit, the conflit between this forum and other one, and the arrival of a very controversial and demonic member: me! lol kidding.

Now, if that people is leaving that forum, tell them about APForum

We are very nice here

oh...
ok

you know, Frank was writing a book about long life, about health, among other things. Its bad to see that afterall these kind of paranormal stuff doesnt work.

For the right price i accept to be the admnist. of the forum

Coming back on topic, Nay was nice. Hope i can see her again here.

About Frank...well, its bad that we didnt have any information about is state. Is he dead or what? hope not!

Hey -- there is life beyond the internet, too!  We go through different seasons in our lives, and sometimes the change leads us to other places.

DH

I know that! thats why i came here just once in a month or even less.

oh, ok! I just tought that somethinh happened here, just that.

about AP forums i dont know..maybe there are outthere some good forums but i dont know anyone. Maybe people dont think that much on OBEs, etc....

What way? can you specify?

wow, it seems that while i was out of the forums many things changed here. About Nay i think i dont have any way to contact her.

What caused this? Any confusion between moderators?
about the forums i think they are somewhat quiet these days. maybe its me

A big hug for all of you guys !


EDIT: i see that RunLola is out too...whats happening ?

I hope that these forums are not dying...

What happened to Nay?


I know that she is not a member anymore. Why?

Sisyphus:
1st: i never told that MM is more important. I agree with you. Since the 1st day that i consider a blasphemy what is happening: are portuguese childrens unworthy of any help?? i think so...they are portuguese. they are not blond and beautiful like MM and besides, portuguese fathers are not rich ...so, portuguese childs dont deserve anything!!...i love that concept.

2nd: about finding MM with obes its just a way to prove something to the world. If someone from the paranormal world could find her it would be great.

thats so strange!
probably some wet on your eye was the cause of it. Maybe a drop of water in your eye was inverting the image.

oh i see. btw, what kind of technique do you use for energy releasing?

What you guys reach with chakras? really, not being ironic...do you feel different, is your life different due to chakkra stimulation?

thanks

oh, good points

No i think is more "desorientation". I Feel more like that. I feel that i awake, suddenly, very quicly, without knowing where the heel i am.

Its so strange!

But i ve beem reading stuff onnet and it seems like night terror. I will send an email probably, to the author of the website i gave above and see what he thinks.

No, i realy see. I am really awakened with my eyes opened and almost (if not tottally) fully awakened.

thank ou stroke. after your suggestion on night terrors i found that very probably its what i suffer from...and i would never guess it, because i had a different idea about night terrors. thank you

i found useful information on this website:
http://www.nightterrors.org/

lol sorry but i didnt explain correctly that about the clinical option: i intended to say that i will not consider any of your options as an "official one" in what refers to medical diagnostic...well this is confusing to explain lol. I mean, my objective with that point was to make you feel safe: you can say whatever you want that i will never consider it a real clinical opinion, because if do that, it would be stupid for me to accept it as a real diagnostic of my medical condition. lol

Well, about might terrors i dont know...i tought that with night terrors people get in the bed, not my case. Maybe sonambulism? But it cant be because i am partially waked or even completly awake...i just dont know where i am.

So, why obers fail to find little Maddy?

I have a recurrent problem and i want your opinion about it.

I dont want:
- a clinical opinion because i understand that what you guys will say, its just a simple opinion
- stupid opinions saying ridiculous stuff like "you are being chased by Greys"
- opinions that only serve to provoke or show to other people that your guys, are amazing

btw, the 3 points that i said should be apllied to every topic on this forums...specially the last one.

Now, the problem is not dangerous, its nothing special, but it happens that its common with me.
I wake up in the middle of the night and i dont know where i am. For example, last night i woke up suddenly, completly scared without knowing where i was ( i as just in my bed). I got up from the bed and even walked for some while, scared....really scared because i could knew where i was. Then i tried to find some light. I know that there was light near (the lamp near my bed). By using my tactile senses in the dark, i found the lamp and turned it on. Then i realised that i was in my room. When the lamp turned on i think that i got completly awake and realising where i was. I could feel my hearth pumping fast yet, due to the  situation. I calmed down and went to sleep again and i got into sleep state fast.

On other night i woke up and again i didnt knew where i was. Moments before waking up i was dreaming with sewers or the like and when i woke up i got myself wandering, in the dark, if i was in the sewers! Then i saw the red dot light of my TV (turned off, in stand by mode, with the typical red light that you can see in any TV on stand by mode). So, Since that light was the only one and i was completly scared for not knowing where i was, i started walking slowly to the tv. At the same time that i was scared i start to scream, calling for help. i cant remember exactly but i think that i was calling for my cousin or my father...i dont know. My grandmother and my father woke up from the bed because they were hearing my screams. Then, when i hear their voices i realised that i was in a dreaml like state and i was in my room afterall. I got calm and went to sleep again.

These kind of episodes are frequent on me. Sometimes i just wake up witouht realising where am i, but i realise quickly that i am in the room. Sometimes, like the descriptions above, it takes time.

What the hell is this??


I dont like because it scares me a lot when i have it.

thank you

Thats not the problem...i obe when i can and thats rare. I do not achiece obes whenever i want, so i cant do experiments bymself. if i could i would prove that obes are just illusions. i am not saying that you people here lie. i just say that you believe in something unreal: there are not strong proofs even for yourself, that obes are real. I dont saw yet anyone here doing tests like the card test with a very high degree of sucess. in my opinion, obes are just a a kind of hallucination.