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So I was wondering were some of you get your screen names?
For instance, Inguma, Tir13, Distant Bell, Blue Light Mystic, kifyre and the list continues.

Me personally there are two parts.

Cainam (pronounced cain-am) or I used to write it this way, cainaM.  Any way, it is Maniac backwards.  When I was in highschool I played football (american football for all you people who call Soccer, football. And yes I know we are the wierd ones.)  A couple of the guys were really big on having nicknames and one of them started calling me Maniac.  But it did not fit very well.  This being because I was not a maniac on the field but rather I was calm, I had some what of a plotted evil to me. (I only cheated a little, and only got caught once.)  Since I was not the raving lunatic that the name suggested they started calling the Cainam.  Which was a way saying I was just as crazy but with a more diabolical intelligence.
I then almost pulled Nazier out of the air.  (Pronouced with a long "z". not a "ts" sound.)  I had not heard the name prior and it sounded good, so I put thm together.  But you have know idea how many people use cainam and nazier for handles.  But I have not run accross any other cainam_nazier's.


Cainam Nazier, There is a method to my madness.

David Rogalski
cainam_nazier@hotmail.com

I relocated this because it was tacked on to one of the posted articles and I didn't want to continue the thread there.

I had originally said that it was weird that every time I experience something there seems to be an article posted a day or two later containing the very same elements and most of the time the only knowlage I have of the situation is my experience.

Bismart replied with the following.

cainam, this phenomenon was titled 'synchronicity' by Carl Jung. Synchronicity is an interconnected overabundance of what we call 'coincidences' in your life. The truth is, there's no such thing as coincidence. Things are connected on a far deeper level than most people realize. Seeing this in your life is a good thing.

bitsmart -

so on that note,

So what does that mean?  Why is that a good thing?  I mean what use is it?  Because I seemed to be synched up pretty well with the forum should I put in my app to be an administrator? http://www.astralpulse.com/forums/images/icon_Smile_wink.gif" border=0>    No offense but your answer just kinda left me hanging.  Need more input.





David Rogalski
cainam_nazier@hotmail.com

I remember as a child believing that as long as I stayed under the covers in my bed nothing could harm me.  And at the time it was an important thing.  It is a practice that has some what stayed with me through the years.  It has now evolved beyond that.  I have and do keep a constant barrier around my room and house, but still there still seems to nothing like the safety of the bed and blankets.
 I was wondering how many people feel the same and or routinely practice keeping the security and sanctity of the home?  How do you do it? What are other methodes people use and such?  And like a child do you still feel the safest in bed under covers?




"Random thoughts can lead to moments of great genious and incredible stupidity.  All pending how they are treated."


David Rogalski
cainam_nazier@hotmail.com

After reading Mr. Bruce's Psychic Counter measures I had a question about something that only just happened yesterday as a matter of fact.

 I have been trying to project for a while now and I am just starting to hit a point where I can induce a heavy body unable to move state. (Or what ever it is normally called.)  But yesterday while in this state a very distinct image came to my mind.
 I was sitting in the same chair that I am now while doing this and I could feel some one behinde me.  When I looked up in my mind I saw a rather ugly and vile face looking down at me.  He grabbed my chair and shook it violently but briefly.  I managed to maintain my focus but was still unable to project.  I have not seen the image since and I have made two other attempts to project.  But they were both in a different location and not that chair.
 Is this something that I should look into further or just let go.  I do not know if the image was something I created or not but delt with as such and ignored it.  It only bothers my slightly and I am not really worried about but I would like to know a little more about it.  You know like "why?" and all.
 I only bring this up after reading Mr. Bruce's article with the core images, negs, and so on.  I have really given much thought about such things prior since I have in the past been able to deal with the more physical oddities that have appeared.  But this is new ground for me and I do not know if the same thoughts and practices will work.

Side note Added-  I was mostly wondering because I would not like the thought of something penitrating the sanctity of my home of which I have gone through great details to protect, well at least from the spirits that walk amuong us.  But I do not know if the same barriers would work against something activly looking to make a connection.




"I'm am Lumberjack I don't care."


David Rogalski
cainam_nazier@hotmail.com

I have been having some inor difficulty logging in and out.  It is not consistant.  Some times I log in just fine I will be reading messages and then I go to respond and I can't cause I am not logged in anymore and the buttons at the bottom of the page are missing.  I end up relogging in and everthing seems to be fine after that.

Also I am not getting logged out every time either.  Like this time when I pulled up the page I did not have to log in.  But I remember logging out and getting the message saying I was logged out before I closed my browser.

This is ofcourse only a minor problem for me but I an reporting it because I don't know if you are aware of it or if it may lead to/ cause other things.

Bu-bye.

AND KEEP UP THE GREAT WORK!



David Rogalski
cainam_nazier@hotmail.com

I was reading one of the other threads and the two individuals were exchanging common terms that they use.  One of the examples they were talking about was the saying.

"Pass us me durries."    I think that's right.  From what I gathered it is an Australian phrase.  Weather it is a common term or not I do not know.
But us in the USA would just say "Pass me my smokes."

And I personally had another conversation with Qui-Gon Jinn in which I used a common phrase for me and I ended up totally catching him ofguard and he had no clue what I was saying.   But it was a compliment and in short I was saying he was smart.  

So does any one have any interesting lingo that they use?  Is common for your country? Your friends? Or is it just you?

I know a really common one in the US is "wazzup".   Which is "What's Up" or a generally friendly greeting for "How are you doing."

I know this might be a simple or stupid example but I did take for granted that some one else new a phrase that I used and they did not.

So for the sake of bridging some of those commonuication gaps lets have at it.




"Just smile and nod."  <---there's one.




David Rogalski
cainam_nazier@hotmail.com

Okay,  I have been unable to project.  I have been trying for rather a long time.   A year or so.   Now I do have one question since I am still new to many of the concepts of the action.  Originally I would just mediate on projecting.  And I usually meditate before I go to sleep.

Now my question.  In most of the things that I have read many people some what warn of not trying to project before you go to sleep when you are first starting out.  
Why is that?  
I know one of the things Mr. Bruce says, (I think if I remember correctly)  was that it is better when begining to try during the day when you are fully awake.  Mostly because it is daylight outside.  
So are there any other reasons?
If not would this apply to me since I sleep during the day and am awake at night.  So if I was to try and go outside during the day I would have to do it before I sleep.

Also, I have gotten to the point of vibrations only a couple of times.  The last was several months ago and I have not been able to bring it back.  Any suggestions?


"If you see the wrong way sign you had better rethink your course."


David Rogalski
cainam_nazier@hotmail.com

An odd question mirly for amusement and philisophical disscusion.

Bald or not bald.

Does one give you better "reception"?

I have noticed slightly improved "reception" and or clearer controll over certain things.    It sounds odd but it is however true.  I used to have long hair but it as been getting gradually shorter and now I am at a point of taking a Bic to every couple of days.  

So is there any truth to it?  Or is it phsycological?  

How many people shave thier heads?  Or pull thier hair pack when working on Psi?




"All men die, but not all men truely live."



David Rogalski
cainam_nazier@hotmail.com

Question.

   I have been developing a new sensation that I think is related to the energy work.  I keep getting the sensation of ants, or small bugs crawling all over me.  It often gets so intense that I end up actually checking to see if anything is there.

Does any one think it may be energy related?
Or am I developing a phobia?





David Rogalski
cainam_nazier@hotmail.com

I really only bring this up because I have been awake for 21 hours now and need to get up for work in 3 hours, then go to work which will make it 33 hours and I don't know after that.  If I live that long.  
How many people here have sleeping problems?

I know for me some days I sleep a lot and other I don't sleep at all.  For me it is not wholly uncommon for this to happen.  I just hate when it does and I have things to do like go to work.

Of course I contribute to day because I am still ajusting to a new schedual and would have been off before and hence stayed up longer than I should.  But I would really like to sleep now.  But there is now use trying.  Now it becomes the ever fun question of....
1.  Do I stay awake and risk feeling really bad at work, maybe causeing an injury do to lack of sleep?  Or
2.  Do I take a short nap and risk 1 missing work or 2 feeling really really bad because I didn't get enough sleep?

It really is a tough debate.  Sometimes after a short nap you feel better while other times you just want to sleep more.  And you never know which one it is going to be.

My mind wanders.  You know I really am starting to hate this cordless key board form Logitech.  I keeps jumping to thier web sight while I am typing and I am not even hitting the key for it.  Most anoying.  I wish it would stop.

Speaking of stopping.


David Rogalski
cainam_nazier@hotmail.com

I would like to start a minor case study.  I would like to find out just how many things we all have in common to see if there is some sort of pattern for what makes up a psi.  Honest and truthfull answers will help the most.  Simple answers please.  And I will post any results that I get.  And this won't be the only questionar.  I will post more as I get more ideas for questions.

1.  Birth Month:
2.  Day of Month:
3.  Time, (then GMT please.):
4.  Age at which abilities first showed:
5.  Current Age:
6.  psi grown stronger with age:
7.  loose any abilities:
8a. Listen to music:
8b. How much:
9.  Musically inclinced, Do you play an instrument or sing:
10a.Watch TV:
10b.How Much:
11. Artist, Paint, Draw, that sorta thing:
12. Writer, or enjoy doing it:
13a.Meditate:
13b.How long per session:
14. Martial Arts:
15a.Other physical activities:
15b.List em:

That's it for now.


David Rogalski
cainam_nazier@hotmail.com

Edited by - cainam_nazier on 12 April 2002  16:57:20

I am what I am and thats all that I am.  Here's why.
Funny I just went through this with a friend.  And I'm pretty sure he thinks I am crazy now.

My real name is David MAtthew Rogalski.  My father always wanted a David Matthew, m brother almost got that name but my mother interveened.  Also for those who have not noticed, I don't spell good.  I get as close as I can but am too lazy to go get a dictionary. But any how.
I am 25 now. I am a Stationary Engineer at a hospital. I live arizona in the valley. That is as close as I will put it.  And before you ask....A Stationer Engineer is basically a glorified maintenance man.  I have other duties but mostly I fix stuff.
Things I have done before in the means of psi.  I see dead people, (I like that line), and other things.  Some I do not have names for yet.  I also have been able to read minds, some divination (sp?), astral sight, aura reading, and some other things.  Those have been going on since I was about 8.  It is something that runs in the family but to date I am the only male so affected.  Some how I think that has made it a touch stronger in me.
Lately I have begun to get into Astral projection, telekinesis, pyrokinesis, cryokinesis, and the like.  Inspired by the famous line..."Use the force Luke."
I am into martial arts which gave me a good start on the mental progress and also as a result I collect sharp pointy objects.  Swords, knives, axes, and the like.  I have about 50 peices now. Other than that its COMPUTERS.  I really need to get out more. OO...and I bowl too. Average about 150 now.

And now to back track.  Like I said most of this started when I was about 8.  I had an event happen, from which I still bare a scare, that sorta jump started every thing for me. In short an entity formed above my bed one night and I swung at it.  I managed to actually strike it and ended up cutting my hand open.  But it left me alone. No harm no foul.  After that I begain to see more things. Shadows, spirits, aperitions, what ever you want to call them.  At first I used to try and follow them but often found that I could only do so for a few feet and then poof.  Gone.  Later the feelings and such started to play a factor.  I could not always see somehting but knew it was there.  Then they both started working together and I noticed something.  For many years there was always this one presence.  The same one all the time, it felt the same, and looked the same.  I never did find out what it was there for.  But it stayed up until about 2years ago.  It was always there watching me.  I felt like I was being studied.  But I became acustom to it, and as a result also got used to protecting myself because of it.  Sealing my room, and then the house.  That lead to me cleansing various houses that I have lived in.  Started doing that at about 12.  AT the time I did not know what I was doing only that it felt right to "lay claim" to various places as I call it.  COming in, saying its mine, so that anything that was there leaves.  It just felt right.
Things stayed like that for many more years.  Until I moved out by myself the first time.  It was about 4 years ago that I begain to try and activly improve my abilities.  That lead to the mind reading, and a stronger sense of what was around me before.
Then there was the nasty little dream explained previously on the general mettaphysical board so I will skip it.  But after that I lost every thing and begain searching for a reason why.  I have still not wholly found one.  BUt it set me on a path.  When my secound occurance happened(also on the general metaphysics) it was like everything re-awoke.  Almost everything was back, some stronger than others and some still missing.  Then I began to try and strengthen what I had left.  I was doing a lot of meditation during this time.  Trying to various things.  And made very little progress.  Then I ened up meeting this dude at work and he got me listening to Art Bell.  Which lead me here.
Now that I can see the ease of some of these things that I have been trying, maybe I can do them now.  Also this has helped me with my beliefs.  Fortifying them, changing some, and dropping others.  I truly believe that I will reach the goals I have set for myself.  
And Guess What....You lucky people get to help.  And listen to me bable about it.
I think I will stop now.




"As walk through the valley of death I shall fear no evil..Cause I'm the one with the shotgun and the C4."


David Rogalski
cainam_nazier@hotmail.com

This one is short I promise.

I had another thing happen that I was looking for info on.
I had been meditating before bed, as usual.  I woke some time in the night and sat up.  When doing so I look straight ahead to the door that goes out side and the AC unit that I have mounted in the door.  But this time it was not there.  The place it normally occupies was empty and there was blackness beyond.  I could tell that it opened up into a space but it was all dark inside.  There were three females standing there around coldran or something.  Not much else happened because I decided it was wrong and laid back down and went back to sleep.  
The thing of it is I am positive that I was awake and not dreaming.  I woke up normally, like you would when tossing and turning in bed and the just decided to sit up, and that is what I saw.


David Rogalski
cainam_nazier@hotmail.com

Okay the short version.  I have had a couple of experiences pertaining to various abilities that I have and I am looking for info and or advise.

Some back ground.  
Things have been like this since I was young.  The ability to hear others, mild thought reading, astral sight(? see things beyond the view of the average person. Shadows, ghosts, beings, what ever you want to call them), high control of physical body, seeing things before they happen, and as they happen with out being there.  Started between 6-8 years old, can't remember exactly.  Oh, and I still bear a physical scare from something tha happened a when I was about 10.

Continue.
A couple of years back I started activly trying to improve these abilities through meditation and practice.  I hit a point were I felt I was making considerable advances and was feeling rather comfortable with it. And then I stopped dreaming, and went for about a year and a half until I had one. Its next.

Situation 1.
I had a really messed up dream. Or rather I should state that I hope it was a dream. (advance warning this will be lengthy, unavoidable)  The dream starts out with me waking up a hospital bed, (side note. I work in a hospital),  It felt like a hospital bed, looked like one,  but it was different from ones that I have seen before.  The room was almost all white.  Different shades,  tile/linolium(SP?) floor, hatch panel cieling, 2 foot by 4 foot lights spaced every other panel, White walls, and a 4 inch white rubber trim around the bottom.  The door however was a natural wood brown. No visable lock just a rectagular push plate where the handle should go, and no visable door closer.
I get up and notice right away that I was wearing my grey sweats, only the bottoms, with no shirt.  This is important for later.  I moved to the door and went out into the hall.  The white walls continue as I walk, almost stagger down the hall.  The 1st room I came to was on the left, no door, natural brown wood trim frame.  Inside the room it was set up like a lab.  Brown cabinets, black counter tops, and various equipment.  There was one person(?) inside.
This person was wearing black pants, and a white lab type coat.  I can not tell you what color his skin was or what his face looked like.  But it was a man.  Although there was no facial fetures I could tell that he was surprised that I was up and walking around.  But he did not move, and made no attempt to stop me.
I continued down the hall to the secound room.  Again no door and the same door frame.  This room was similar to the 1st but with out as much equipment and a large counter in the middle of the room with nothing on it.  There was another man in this room with the same description but I knew it was a different person.  This whole time I could hear almost nothing it was like every thing was muted.  This man comes up to me and gently grabs me by the arm.  The guy from the first room had followed me in and he grabbed the other arm.  I was grabbed by the right arm first and then the left.  They vary easily brought me to the counter and laid me face down with my hands crossed under me with my head resting on my wrists.  The noise was slowly getting louder and I started hearing them talk although I could not make any thing out.  But then the very last thing I heard was the guy from the 2nd room saying "don't worry he won't remember anything."  And then he took a large needle and stuck it in the back of my head.
   This is when I woke up.  Lying face down in my bed with my hands folded in front of me and my head resting on my wrists.  The feeling of being stuck in the back of the head remaind.  The thing that really got me was the fact that I was unable to move.  This lasted for what seemed to be about five mins. before I was able to pick up me head.  After that things started to move again.  Also I was wearing my grey sweats.  This is important because out of habbit at the time I would not have been wearing them, or much of anything else. Wink wink.

Result:
Life changed after that.  Every thing that I had been working on for so long was gone.  My whole world looked and felt different.  As a result I became very parinoid, this lasted about a week.  Now I sleep alone so there is no one else to say where I was, or if I got up out of bed or anything like that.  But my room mates never said I came out of my room until I woke up and told them my story.

Things continued liek this for about another year.  My senses dulled and missing.  I eventually became used to it. Then something else happened.

Situation 2.
I was at work.  The guy I was relieving was getting ready to go home.  It was about 11:15pm.  We were talking and I was sitting infront of the computer.  I stood up, got woosy for a secound, things went black, and I wake up on the floor in the corner.  The guy I was working with had the phone in his hand getting ready to call for help.  I managed to talk him out of that one.  A little later I went up to the ER to make sure I was okay physically.  They scanned my head, ran some blood tests, and found nothing abnormal. (physically)

Result:
When I woke up again my world had changed.  Almost everything was back, some things were not as strong but I was almost what I considered normal.  I was also some what tired before and after I woke up it felt like I had gotten a full 8 hours of sleep.  I also was in an extreamly good mood.  It was like some one gave me a stupid pill. I was almost giddy like school girl.
Since then some of my abilities have grown past where they were before some have been coming in cycles.  I also did some research.  I went back and looked at the scan of my brain.  I was looking for where I was poked orginally and I found it.  With some further research I believe I found what that section of the brain does.  It controls memory, some say storage, and some say generation of memories.  But it is agreed that the section it question dealing with memory and some of your more primitive human functions.

So my question to thoughs of you who read the whole thing.  What do you think happened?  Why the lose of ability?  Was it a dream?  Or are there too many details?  Why the sudden resurection?  What should I be doing now?  Or am I just crazy?  I want your 2 cents!




David Rogalski
cainam_nazier@hotmail.com

Okay, I always do my energy work before I go to bed.  I have always meditated at this time and found it easier to do the energy work also at this time.  I do about 15-20 mins. of work and then usually happily fall asleep.  I have been finding myself more and more after doing this, sleeping for about 2 hours and then waking up fully awake as if I had 8-10 worth of sleep.  Now this used to happen before I started the energy work so I am used to it but it has increased considerably since.  Does any one else have problems sleeping after energy work?  Why?


David Rogalski
cainam_nazier@hotmail.com

Normal?

I seemed to have lost control over my MBA.  I can still feel it moving around but it seems to just move on its own and to were ever.  I am have many dificulties now focusing on one spot.  When I attempt to do so my awareness just shifts to different spots.  There is no decernable path or order.  This is a recent development, I was not having this problem before.
Also this does deem to go away a bit when I think of things as a whole. Foot, leg, hand, arm, body.  And is easier for me to pull energy as a whole unit instead of say one leg or arm at a time. But both arms and legs pulling in at once seems easier more controlled.  Come to think of it when I started doing that is when I started losing control of MBA.

So is that a normal thing?  Should I work again on regaining the control or just continue with the whole parts?

David Rogalski
cainam_nazier@hotmail.com

Okay, I was meditating last night before I feel asleep as I normally do.  Since I have been practicing NEW I meditate with the intension of working on my energy levels.  There are two things that have started to happen.
1. I have had this happen before but it is getting more frequent sincve I started useing NEW. My body seems to become extreamly heavy and I also feel as if I am twice as big as I normally am.  I.E. My arm feels like like it is the size my leg would normally be. and so on.  Anybody know whats going on with that.
2. Also it seems because of this I can not focus on just one point but rather the body as a whole, But last night while this was happening I was still able work on drawing "my astral hands" up my legs and could feel it and my whole body at the same time.  Still not focused on the one event but still able to do it.  But with every stroke my whole body just got heavier and so on.  I finally had to stop because I think I started to project but it was not right some how.  Instead of the normal you project and see your normal body and image was forming above me.  I only know this because I had opened my eyes in an atempt to break my concentration.  Any thoughts would be appreciated.


David Rogalski
cainam_nazier@hotmail.com

I down loaded the New Energy Ways V.2 and was reading it. I got about a page into Chapter 4 when I had to stop.  I was not actually trying to do the excersizes but they were happening as I was reading.  I was feeling things before I was reading that I was going to feel things if I was trying to do the excersize.  This was happening more so when I got to the M.B.A. and T.I. sections. Do you follow me?
Is that normal?
If not what does it mean?

And also I had some difficulties getting the feeling to stop.  It took about 10 mins for the sensations to go away.

David Rogalski
Cainam_nazier@hotmail.com

That movie was awesome.  

I went to see it a week or two ago when they did the sneak preview in the US.  I got a hat too.

It was cool, funny, with plenty of action.  I highly reccomend it to the 18+ crowd that can really enjoy the movie.

I know what that is like.  Usually for me the only dreams that I remember are the ones that I became aware durring.  In my opinion this is a big step towards more lucid dreaming.  I know one of the things that has helped me a lot was to try not to get excited when I became aware.  I took a more mellow and laid back aproach keeping the thoughts simple at first.  I would often tell myself "Okay, I'm dreaming..so now what?"

Another thing that helped me at first was to not try and force the control over the entire dream but rather just myself and my own actions.  I would try to keep my mind thinking about what was going on by asking myself questions like what I was doing in the dream, what was going on, and if there was some purpose to the dream.  Later I branched out to just trying to have a little fun by doing things out of step with the rest of the dream.  Like turning left when the dream wanted me to turn right.

Keep in mind that you don't always have to fully lucid in a dream to get anything out of it.  Some times doing that can mess up a good dream and you kinda loose the "practice" of getting the feeling of what is going on and what you are doing.

Here is a list of pretty good forum topics on the subject.

http://www.astralpulse.com/forums/topic.asp?TOPIC_ID=1265
http://www.astralpulse.com/forums/topic.asp?TOPIC_ID=924
http://www.astralpulse.com/forums/topic.asp?TOPIC_ID=5237
http://www.astralpulse.com/forums/topic.asp?TOPIC_ID=2085
http://www.astralpulse.com/forums/topic.asp?TOPIC_ID=4658
http://www.astralpulse.com/forums/topic.asp?TOPIC_ID=216
http://www.astralpulse.com/forums/topic.asp?TOPIC_ID=77
http://www.astralpulse.com/forums/topic.asp?TOPIC_ID=6858

An Atheist "believes" that there is no god.  It is not the same as just not believing in a god.  Do you follow what I mean?

Ha, it worked this time.

Pick me! Pick me!

I have already had the talk with my room mate.

Wolverine, Magneto, Mystique all rolled into one neat little package.

That of course being the original comic book version of Magneto because because he could feel every magnetic force on the planet.

Your greatest fears and desires often play out in your dreams.  Dreaming some thing does not always mean that it is going to happen or that you are having a problem with some thing.  

But if he is having the same dream over and over then you two, as a couple, may want to talk about it.  See if either one may have done some thing or said some thing that would suggest that.  Find out what it was so you two can deal with it and get over it.  Be blunt and an adult so that you can avoid cause any real problems.  

If anything I am willing to bet it some thing really stupid.  So get it out there, have a laugh about it, and tell/show each other how much you love the other.

It will go away.