If you did commit suicide your love ones would suffer. They would be very upset. We are here on earth to learn from our mistakes and to keep trying to improve ourselves. By committing suicide we are not improving ourselves. We are going backwards. I do not think anyone really knows what would happen if you commit suicide. I cannot imagine you would be rewarded for doing it. My guess is you would probably be reincarnated again. You may be in a worse position than you are in now. If you are thinking about suicide, as the others said, get professional help.