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"knowladge is power!" Learn!
"Understanding is wisdom!" Learn!

Learn as much as you can.  Before the perfection of any process you must first learn what it is and how it works.  Some things can not be used very well/ or at all with out finding the proper manual.  

And yes please do tell us about the lightning.  That statment was too well baited to let go of.


David Rogalski
cainam_nazier@hotmail.com
I am he who walks in the light but is masked by the shadows.

You know oddly enough I also tend to fear being in water by myself.  Like in a lake, pool, or the ocean.  When I am around others I don't get that way but when alone I always feel as if something is going to come out of the nothing and pull me under.

David Rogalski
cainam_nazier@hotmail.com
I am he who walks in the light but is masked by the shadows.

It's not odd.  I consider it normal.

I often hear many different voices when drifting off to sleep.  My mind sorta opens up.  They do not seem to come from any one direction but rather from all over.  I have not heard anyone scream as if in pain, but I do get people yelling some times.

I would suggest maybe either trying to block that one sound or if you feel up to trying to assertain who and or what is screaming.  

But I urge you very strongly to trust your own instincts.  If you feel that it might be bad then do not do anything more.  Push it away, block it.  HOwever realize this as well.  Do not be afraid of it even if it is bad.  It does not matter to much that you are new to this.  If you have the ability to hear it then you have the ability to block it or protect yourself from it.   Trust in yourself.

I tend to be a little more openly curious.  I would try to find out why first.

A few notes on things you may hear.

1)  Often random noises are not to be worried about.  Yes they can be anoying but as hearing for the astral improves so does your physical hearing.  That means that you will hear a lot more noises generated by your enviroment.
2)  Voices can be a lot of fun at times.  Listen to them.  YOu may find some to be of people you know and others to be strangers.  Or even just random thoughts of people.  Some times they are conversations and such.
3)  Some times open communication is possible.  However you shold only commmunicate and not "invite" any thing in.  There are 2 reasons for this, one it could be a bad thing, and two, it "could" cause some what of a flood gate effect.  That being the same as to kicking out the dam holding back all the water.  The possible onslaught of information could prove a little over whelming.
4)  The voice pitches should never change!  This is important.  Just as if you were talking to some one normally thier voice does not change.  Should you encounter a voice that does change pitch while speaking you need to turn it off.  Do anything to stop hearing it and push it out.  It has been my experience that a change in voice pitch is an attempt for some thing to mask what it is.  And also in my experience they have always been bad.  If need be get up and do something different, like a physical task, some thing to take your mind away from your hearing.



David Rogalski
cainam_nazier@hotmail.com
I am he who walks in the light but is masked by the shadows.

A word of advise never hit the "esc" key while typing.  You will loose the long post you were working on.  Since that happened and I don't feel like putting all back in I will sum up and then just expand on what you may ask about.

It is possible that some see what is in you.  But that does not make it bad, just possably different from thier views, or they may look with hate simply because they can feel the difference and it thus points out thier own.

The second being the way you carry yourself.  How you walk, look at people, and so on.

In general people are weak and fearful.  A person however can be every thing the people are not.  Being a person and not one of the people makes the people have a range of responces from fear to admiration.  

Trust me I know a great deal about the way you feel, and how people respond to it.  In my opinion they are not seeing negativity just an "abnormality".

Now if your presence have ever just made some one cry you may have a problem.  I know about that also.


David Rogalski
cainam_nazier@hotmail.com
I am he who walks in the light but is masked by the shadows.

I fear control the most, or rather loosing it.
I like to feel like I am in control of my life, my emotions, and the things that effect those the most.
I do not like the idea of some one else "doing the driving".

This can be a big problem at times since there are instances where control needs to be given to another or perhaps removed to feel the full effect of the situation.  While developing this problem comes in the way of not understanding something at first.  When things just happen and I don't know how or why.  There is no control over the situation and I tend to pull myself away.
I understand that some times you need to just let things happen, and let them happen a few times untill understanding and control are established.  But there in lies my problem, I want to be able to control it first, so then I can decide if it is some thing that I want to do or not.

David Rogalski
cainam_nazier@hotmail.com
I am he who walks in the light but is masked by the shadows.

""PeacefulWarrior, are you saying that just because this man is an atheist he is not good or righteous? How can you be certain that the founding fathers of the US were good and righteous? Of coarse history will make them to be such because who wants a nation founded by evil selfish men (not saying they were). I am just saying that you cannot really judge historical figures because their true personalities are not shown but rather the "hereo" that the public has made of them. ""

Asked the Native American, or American Indian which ever you prefer, if those the "created" this nation were good or evil.  Were they good and righteous? Or did they drive an entire culture from thier homes because they were deemed "uncivilized"?

The belief in anything, God, no God, way of life, good, bad, or what ever really should not be forced apon any one in any way shape or form.   Who decided that any one person or group of people should be allowed to force thier morals and beliefs on another person?  What makes them so "good and righteous" that they should be allowed to do so?  

Do not get me wrong.  I am willing to defend my home and my country should the need arise, but I do not do so in the name of any god, for any god, or because I think any god would think it right.  I would do so for my country, not for my god.

I do not believe a god would care for any city, state, country, or nation.  I believe that a god would only care about its followers, or those that believe in it.  Not any and all that live near one of its churches.

Let me ask you this as well.   Do you believe that forcing a person to say that they believe in any god would be any different than what the Romans did to the first followers of Christ?

I personally do not like being forced to lie about my beliefs because it is what the majority says is right.


David Rogalski
cainam_nazier@hotmail.com
I am he who walks in the light but is masked by the shadows.

In all honesty since I was of age to decide my own religion I would perposely omite the words "under god" when I would say the pledge.  I said the pledge along with every one else I just changed it to suite my beliefs.  
Then this was strengthened even more when I started learning about this counrty's history.  The why and who of those fleeing other countries to come here to be free, mostly to be free from religious prosocution.  But as things go the same establishment that drove most people here is now in control.

I believe that there should be a very clear and uncrossable seperation between religion and politics.  Religion should not be forced apon the masses but rather it should be some thing that can turn to if they choose.

Also I personally never liked the idea that it says, "In God We Trust" on ALL of our currency.

David Rogalski
cainam_nazier@hotmail.com
I am he who walks in the light but is masked by the shadows.

Ah, despite my jumble of words you followed it just fine.


My specific why.

I was gifted certain "talents" from birth I sappose.  They have always been there.  Along with that I have been given a great feeling that I a sappose to be doing something.  Some thing important but I don't know what exactly.  I know in part I am here to help people.  It is some thing I do very well, a certain natural instinct if you would.  But I feel there is more to it.  
I seek for a reason why I am the way that I am.  An answer that would give me purpose.  I seek for the reason that I feel that I am not doing what I am sapposed to.   It is, in part, the universal why are we here.  But for me I feel there is more to it.  There are a few other things, a handfull or re-accuring events, the feeling of being watched most of my life (not in the paranoid fashion),  and a big one for me is this.  
Most of the traits that I have seem largly to be handed down from female to female in my family.  To the best of my knowladge I am the only male in the family so affected.  My brother may have been but he has "fried" any hope for development.



David Rogalski
cainam_nazier@hotmail.com
I am he who walks in the light but is masked by the shadows.

Fenris-
"Interesting idea, a good way to tell if you are waking up at the end of the first cycle is that you would most lekely have memory of some dream activity. But that is my logic not something I have read."


Now that I think about this a little more this seems to have started about the same time I started dreaming again regularly.  About a month and half to two months ago.  I was not dreaming that often prior, or at least I should say there was a big void between going to bed and waking up.  It only seemed like five mins most of the time.   But it seems almost reverse since I started dreaming more.  My dreams seem to be much more vivid and alive.  I have had a couple of Lucid Dreams in this time and one Project from a LD.  And some just really jacked up dreams, just odd crazyness.  It seems the more frequent dreaming and loss of sleep started about the same time.
After the 2 hour "nap" I do not always remember the dream but always know if I have at least dreamed.  Call it a feeling.  The ones I do remember are strongly impactive, and almost every detail remembered.

I know I probably should see a Dr. but I am hoping that it will tapper off soon.  That and I hope to improve my living conditions soon which should also help, I hope.  As far as looking on the web, I have half heartedly tried it a couple of times.  I mostly pull up pages for places wanting to help but not convaying(sp?) any real information.


David Rogalski
cainam_nazier@hotmail.com
I am he who walks in the light but is masked by the shadows.

Ashfo-

I have actually found it to be almost a requirement for two reasons..  I tend to generate a lot of heat when I am sleeping and need a cooler setting in order to not break out in a sweat while asleep.  This is something that over the last 7-8 years has been becoming more of a problem.  It seems as more time passes I generating more heat.  Also I tend to "nest" when I sleep.  I am not really happy unless covered by a good, heavy blanket.  

I remember at one of the appartments I had I had a habbit of turning the AC down all the way when I would go to bed.  Then when I woke up I would turn it bak up.  Well one night in the midst of winter I had some friends over.  They ended up spending the night.   I did as normal just before I went to bed.  Well some also left the back door open and it was like 30 degF that night or there abouts.  I woke up at about 830am to a house that was 35 degF.  You could see your breath inside the appartment.   I kinda felt sorry for my friends, one of them fell asleep on the couch without a blanket, just a t-shirt and shorts.  When I woke up he was just laying there shivering.  The first words out of his mouth were, "can we turn the heat on now."  I could hear his teeth clacking together and he was slightly off color.   He probably could have froze to death.

David Rogalski
cainam_nazier@hotmail.com
I am he who walks in the light but is masked by the shadows.

I had a LD that went to a projection that solved a problem.  Does that count?


David Rogalski
cainam_nazier@hotmail.com
I am he who walks in the light but is masked by the shadows.

THings I have been doing for a while now.

1.  Recently told as utter tabboo.  Absorbing energys from my enviroment.  Pulled from the air and absorbed into the body in the locations of the main chakras.  I was told this is bad for you.  Chakras should only ever emit energy and never absorb.  That's what I was told.  But like I said I have been doing it for a long time and never have had any ill effects, that I am aware of.

2.  Playing with, manipulating, and using energy or rather energy sources outside of the body that seem to be connected to the body. See - Chakras out side the body-   One individual told me that these centers are conrol points for the physical body and should not be played with.  A few others said that this form of energy manipulation is a way of dark magic, or only used for evil intent.  But it's primary function originally was that of protection of me, my home, and my familly.  With in the last few years I was using said energies to help enhance my own abilities and bring about new ones.

3.  Another main thing about the chakras outside of the body was again pulling that energy into the body and storing it.  I found this to be different from abient energies but found oddly that it was infact my own energies out side of the body and figured I was pulling them back to where they belonged.  

4.  Openly seeking to connect with a part of my ethric(sp?) self that I had no control over and had already been "given" a task.  I was told that the means in which it performs the task are not always pure, and should be carefull.  Aslo the nature of the task and the information that it has collected thus far could be more than I am ready for and/or the mir knowing this information could put me at greater risk.  -See- "Have you seen this person"  Although I have been told by one person here that I have no personal connection to this entity and that I again should not pursue it any further.  But a couple of people that I have met have seen this entity and see a connection with me and the entity, again they have told me not to pursue.
          A)  If I am indeed a part of it how can re-connecting with and re-establishing the control be bad?
          B)  If I am not a "part" of this thing then why do I feel the strong connection with it, and why is it something that has been there since I was a child?  So then would trying to contact this thing be bad if only to find out it's interest in me?  I believe myself to be more mentally stable to deal with this now than I have been at any other point.  I also feel that solving this riddle will answer more than a few questions I have about things that have gone on in my life.

Distant Bell-
"But, the fact that you posted this topic makes me belive that you might put some value in the opionion of the people who have critcised your doings.
And you still havn´t told ud WHAT it is you are doing- this makes me think that you perhaps suspect that people on the forum to might consider it to be strange or wrong.. "

Some of the "warnings" came from individuals that seem very knowlagable about such things, but the problem being that they could not give me any solid reasons.  Many just saying that it is not something that should be done or talked about and so on.  One such warning came from Mr. Bruce himself, but still with out answering the question.  But he did admit to not having experienced it and there for did not have first hand knowladge.


David Rogalski
cainam_nazier@hotmail.com
I am he who walks in the light but is masked by the shadows.

That was some interesting reading.  

I found it odd that some of the changes mentioned by some, that are going on in the human body are things that I am experiencing.  So the question comes.  Are they right?  Or is based not so much on the past but what is happening to a lot of people now?  Sort of a transition, an awakening of the mind, for every one.  Interesting.  

We shall see.


David Rogalski
cainam_nazier@hotmail.com
I am he who walks in the light but is masked by the shadows.

Fenris-

"I half hartedly deny these wild aqusations!! Actually the beauty of being a guy in a nursing course is the 10 to 1 gender bias!!!  "

I know what you mean I work at a hospital doing maintenance.  Hit on them in school though.  It seems most of the ones "in the field" are married. But I digress.

As my current situation.
I am a "shifter" as it was put.  I work mostly 3rd shift.  11p to 7a.  But this is not a problem for me since I have worked nights since i started working and find it much easier to sleep during the day and not  at night.  I always get a sudden burst of energy between 6pm and 8pm wich will normally carry me through till at least 4am.  
Caffeine.  Can't get enough.  My liquid of choice is Coca-Cola.  And will often have one just before sleep.  I figure myself to be immune to the effects of that, since like I said I can normally have one and sleep fine.  I have been doing it for years.
What's excersie?  It's been so long I forget how.
Enviroment.  There is a good one.  It was a cool 113 degF today.  Great for sleeping if I could only fit in the freezer it wouldn't be so bad.  The large part of the problem being the location that I am in only allows me to get the room to about 80 or 90 degF.  Which is a problem since I like it to be 70 or lower.  But the only thing is this started when it was still nice outside and I did not have the problem with keeping my room cool.
I generally avoid going to the Dr.'s.  I feel most thing will work themselves out in time.  But I have been considering it more and more when I have long stretchs of poor sleep.

Although this weekend my computer died and I only just got it back up and I spent most of my time sleeping the last couple of days.  But I am also mildly depressed given my financial situation, but it is passing.

But generally I found your information helpfull.  You learn something new every day.  That being the part about the rem and nrem cycles.

Do you think that for some reason I am waking after the 1st cycle ends and before the next one starts?  Hence the 2 hour limit.

David Rogalski
cainam_nazier@hotmail.com
I am he who walks in the light but is masked by the shadows.

So you actually kinda "wake up" in the middle of performing a task of some sort.  Interesting.

Have you ever woke up andfound ourself talking to another individual in the astral?

As to your questions, the last one first.
I believe that for most of us it is a matter of understanding.  Often there are situations or circumstances that you are aware of but either do not know what they are or WHY they are.  Me for the most part is a question of why.  I believe that there are things that I may be doing when asleep that are having effects while I am awake.  This has been driving me to this point.  I figure if I can remember what goes on when I sleep I will have a greater understanding of the why when I am awake.  Follow?

As far as my name.  Cainam, a name that was given during high school.  I tend to have a cool, calm, methodical means of doing this.  It came about when playing football.  I was a madman on the field but with an agenda.  Hence cainam or maniac backwards.  "There is a method to my madness."  
Nazier, a name I simply pulled from the air, although I have been seeing the name used more and more.  To me it sounds like a wizards name, a scholar of sorts.  The two together represent the main parts of me.  The warrior, Cainam, the loose cannon, and Nazier, the mystic, the scholar, the logic behind the chaos.


David Rogalski
cainam_nazier@hotmail.com
I am he who walks in the light but is masked by the shadows.

    I am still pondering this one.  

 I keep hitting on this one thought.  I was told very bluntly by a couple of different people not to do and should stop practicing a certain thing.  I was told that it is used soley for black magic, the dark arts, what ever you want to call it. Evil.  So the question becomes this.  

Am I boardering on evil? Even though me and those around me consider me to be a good person?
Is it a question of beliefs then? Or teaching?
I discovered this on my own and when it was needed so how can it be bad?
These things have begun to help my spiritual and emotional well being, so again, how can they be bad?
Just because a person takes a different path than the mainstream does that make them bad?
Even "if" the practise is bad if the result and intent is good does it make a difference?

David Rogalski
cainam_nazier@hotmail.com
I am he who walks in the light but is masked by the shadows.

It is possible that things will be that way, however it is also possible that it won't.   50/50 alots for both.   The major thing of it is on your part.  Do not just dissmiss the child already because you can see its mother with in.  You have to remember that your brother is in there also.  There is a blood tie.  If you cut that connection now it will be next to impossible to restore.  If you just instead accept it things will hopefully go better.  
However the child will most certainly always have that question of why.  I have seen this many times with children of divorced parents.  One side will do a lot to beat down the memories of the other side but that question always remains.  Why the hate?  What happened?  and so on.  In most cases I have seen there eventually developes a need for the truth.  The child will seek this on thier own.  Your part is not to give reasons for these things, be open and accepting.   The child will see who and what you are with thier own eyes and formulate the truth from there.

David Rogalski
cainam_nazier@hotmail.com
I am he who walks in the light but is masked by the shadows.

"No scars but your experioence could have happend on the astral and manifested in the physical."

  Possible? yes.  But I believe that I was still in my actual room.  This is only because nothing had changed in my enviroment, with the exception of the presence.  I can remember very clearly that the room was the same as it always was.  The only major variance was in the lighting of the room which seemed to be caused by that thing.  The light was coming from it, it was a red hint of color and being generated from behind the entity.  But the outer skirts of the room were dark as usual and the night light that was always on was still on and of normal color.


David Rogalski
cainam_nazier@hotmail.com
I am he who walks in the light but is masked by the shadows.

A woman where I work had to get off the night shift because it was affecting her sleep in that manner.  She said her husband had woken her up several times because she was sitting of the couch having a smoke, but she was asleep and can't not remember doing it at all.  She said that it was really freaky for her the first time he woke her up and she was sitting there with one in her hand.  
The only major problem usually comes when you try and wake some one who is sleep walking.  They can become dangerous because they may not recognise you and see your actions as a threat and act accordingly.  It is often said that the best thing is to just tell them to go back to sleep or to go lay down for a minute.  Or not to disturb them and let them carry on with what they are doing if it is nothing hazardous to themselves or others.  I have found that most people are "very suggestable" while they are asleep.

Ps.  Still waiting for Fenris to get back.  I would like to know what I can do with this 2 hour time limit I seem to have developed with sleeping.  It sucks bad.


David Rogalski
cainam_nazier@hotmail.com
I am he who walks in the light but is masked by the shadows.

It is a simple idea really.   Many physical/emotional/mental problems people develop are merly the result of thought.  Also refered to as stress.  The there is the metaphysical aspect.

Some one who suggests this is telling you one of two things.  

1)  To check your thought patterns.  Are you thinking heavily on any particular subject?  Is it some thing that bothers you?  Are you worried about money, work, relationships?  Dwelling on these things can cause physical side effects.  More so when depression is tossed in because of the feeling of not being able to do anything about it, or if you have tried and met with dissapointment.  The thing that you need to do is find out what is bothering you and take steps to orrect the situation, either through correcting your thought patterns to actually going out and doing some thing about it.  This can include getting proffessional help if and when needed.

2)  On the metaphysical side it is much the same.  The only major difference is it is usually referenced to the need to do some soul searching.  Are you on the right path and that kind of stuff.  


David Rogalski
cainam_nazier@hotmail.com
I am he who walks in the light but is masked by the shadows.

That's why I started this topic.  Since my beliefs do not include an all superior being in control of my life.  I don't believe in predestination, however I do believe in fate.  And before you ask they are not the same thing.  Untilmately I decide whats going on.  I on the other hand do not make references to god.  As in "he is punishing me" or "It's god will"  or anything like that.   I sum up most of the things that I don't know about with the phrase "Life is funny like that!", or "That's what makes things interesting."  I do not blame god nor give him credit.  It just is.  

Although I have always thought it would be really funny if some alien race showed up and said we were all crazy and they put us he and had the "photos" to prove it.  "See there's Pual and Helga, we started with them."  "Here is us given the Microwave to science." and so on.  I would find that really amusing.


David Rogalski
cainam_nazier@hotmail.com
I am he who walks in the light but is masked by the shadows.

Mobius,

   As always you have some interesting thoughts on this subject and I thank you for sharing.  Do you tend to lean towards any one particular thought on this or do you rather believe parts from each?  Or are perhaps like me who would like it much better to have some facts either through science or experience before "selling myself" on one particular view?
   Because of my experiences and way of thinking I tend to lean towards evolution.  This being largly since I have never seen/felt a god nor have I seen aliens, also I find it hard to believe almost all abduction stories.  Most things being a product of the times.  Heck look back 50 years and how they thought space suits would look.  They are nothing like what they actually use today.  They also thought that we would have gotten a lot farther than we have by now.  I am ofcourse not say that aliens don't exist, infact I have seen more evidence for aliens than I have god.  But I don't think they are doing all the wild experiements on us that some people may think.  

 I often wonder though what drives a person to feel the need to have a god or be part of some greater good.  I see this alot.  As people get old and near death they suddenly become highly religious.  Most have not seen or felt anything different but they feel death creeping up on them and feel the need to be "forgiven".  This ofcourse being so that they can die with a clear mind.   I personally don't feel I need an explination of what happens when I die.  I know my thoughts, I know my actions, I know what choices I have made and what the results are from them.  Currently I am still happy about the over all outcome.  Granted there are a few things that I would have like to do differently but I know that it is not possible, I have said my "sorries" to those people I have hurt already, and I know that asking for forgivness from a higher source will not change the lives of the people I have effected at all.  It changes only my view point on it.  But I feel that it does not make it any more or less okay.

I rambling again.....toodles.


David Rogalski
cainam_nazier@hotmail.com
I am he who walks in the light but is masked by the shadows.

I personally think you handled it well.  But as a word of cation I would be aware of what he does with his hands and such should there be another encounter.  Should he actually decide to take it to a physical encounter there will be some notion of this in his gestures and posturing.  
It seems that most people although act as if they wish to fight they really are only looking to intimidate.  It is the male ego to show superiority over another.  In what you did you have defeated him on that level.  Although you were scared you did not allow him to "bully" you.   Eventually he wil do one of two things.  He will either eventualy get board and stop bothering you or he will take the swing for which you should be prepared.

Do you think that you might run into this "person" during the summer?
Have you considered some form of self defense classes if this is a constant issue?
Have you disscussed this with your parents at all?
Will you be attending the same school next class year?

David Rogalski
cainam_nazier@hotmail.com
I am he who walks in the light but is masked by the shadows.

Hey he's funny, we should keep him.


David Rogalski
cainam_nazier@hotmail.com
I am he who walks in the light but is masked by the shadows.

Many animals are more sensative to thier enviroments, more so it seems cats.  I have lived with many different cats and although it seems to be stronger in some they all are effected the same.  The one thing I have noticed is at times it would seem that "we", being me and the cats, were looking at the same things.  As to there being any scientific evidence to support this I do not know.  But cats have been spiritual icons since the Egyptian times and show up many times in various other mythologies.
The most well known is that of Egyptian where cats were the guardians of the underworld, if I remember correctly. Natural deduction would say that for some thing to be able to guard or guard against some thing they would need to be able to see it.

David Rogalski
cainam_nazier@hotmail.com
I am he who walks in the light but is masked by the shadows.