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I don't know him and I understand some people around here might be young... also I'm not sure being very serious is always the right attitude

sometimes you don't call people master at all, but treat them as though... in this way Robert bruce is some sort of guru too.
Also, I'm sure in other planes, you will come upon huge things, that will inspire you pure respect, even if you say not "master" you will knee. Now I prey that no false master or vampire master aproach me, because I don't see what I could do to guess what is behind the disguise!

master did not you tell me sacrifice was a sin?

Hi, master.
I'm sorry to disturb you, but this question is much important to me and I have been wondering a lot about it before coming to you.
I have discovered big things, that were beautyful, and very pleasant, I was in zeal and awe before their greatness and their beauty.
But now I feel these things might be a mistake, although I desire them much each day. How could I just know how to find them again, while avoiding to be mistaken, and take what is hell for paradise.

in a word, don't you think searching for paradise might bring hell?

what sort of energy development have you practiced?

the sort of I probably shouldnt have: I experimented pleasing sensations with breath and conciousness quietly in my bed... and got some energy surge.

Do you or any family members have a history of magic and/or occult work?

Not that I know of
But the girlfriend I had then had a mother very profoundly drawn in these matter

This other woman you speak of, would she have any reason or inclination to seek harm toward you?

yes I had a very noisy way of life being a rock musician, and she happenned to be incapable of having a lawful attitude to stop me... I'm sure she hated me, deeply... although her hatred was diproportionned compared to the harm I felt I was doing to her. She attaqued me several times by yelling nonsense and rolling her crazy eyes... actually I feared her, but didnt realise she could curse me!

I will go to the swimming pool, we have such plans with a friend of mine.

if you think you want a photo, I can send this to you! (would an email photo work?)
Now tonight there is something new: I woke up and saw an insect on the wall, but it was not clear, so I came closer, Then I saw it clearly, but after a while the insect vanished.

I feel these horrors are from my previous apartement, where I spent 4 years. there were rats and loads of insects, I also had a neighbour that I suspect was talking with entities. her name was Françoise Tixeuil She was supposed to be schyzo, but I felt like she was playing with all that, and she seemed much like possessed... although maybe she likes that.
Also some month ago I was seeing rats in my new appartement, but not clearly, the result, is that true mouses have come to appear in our building, while it was very clean when I came.
I feel like I spoil the place... but don't know how or if it's really me!

I discovered energy sensations while meditating around the end of year 2000. Eversince I've had many serious problems that nevertheless have come with improvements in my life.

Today I face a situation where I fear to suicide unwillingly.

Recently I felt unexisting things that seemd to work on me while I was falling asleep, like hundreds of little tools that would touch me on the torso, belly, and head. It was fascinating, but was it good? or bad?

Sometimes I would really prefer to sleep peacefully, that's part of my point, But also one day it seemed to finish its work and my body started to move all by itself (especially head). I suppose this can be called possession. Strangely though, the thing that moved my head seemed to point out very interesting ideas, by illustrating them with objects present in front of me.

I also feel something touching my head, and now even during the day I feel like there is some kind of being sitting above my head and touching me. I tryed the egg exorcism from robert bruce's book, but although it seemed to work with other problems, this one seemed to stay.

Two other elements are negative in the balance: my daughter (3yrs) who never heard of this story told me that I had a monster that was eating my hair. Also I was diagnosed psychotic and am forced to eat pills.

The only solution that seems to work is not so practical, it consists in trying not to pay attention to it... which sometimes can become very difficult.

I wonder if these sensations are related to my own energies, to other beings, and I wonder if these beings are dangerous to me, if they might influence my ideas, like it seems, toward suicide. I want to find a way to know what it is, what it wants, and why it is there.

in hard moments forums are too slow to be a confort
But I've got to admit I apreciate our little chat.

Yes I actually do this... and get much more than answers, but I've got to admit it scares me: I often feel like I'm not doing things right, comparing to the wise thing that stays over there, so close...

This morning, after a night too short to be true, I saw people cleaning in the supermarket... And I thought: maybe they act in secret too... and I felt a little too paranoid...

I also fear to become some sort of shadow, or danger to myself... So many people out there confirm that's a possibility... too possible to feel safe...

The "settle" term is right: I have made things with this intention: these things, I've paid them, and the price seems sad for everybody, although I notice joyfull new thing that blossomed.

I feel like the choice would be: try to change the world and be destroyed, or protect and love imperfection, and then last, and maybe evolve...

"setteling" for me was somehow trying to speed up an evolution, in order to end a cycle, and get some new... the result is weak compared to the effort... I'd say the success could be rated at say a brilliant 5%... much joy but so discreet, compared to the means...

Right now I would like to work in secret, because I realise how much more results can be found, while not trying to make things visible. I would like to be strong enough to huch, and keep a positive view although seeing the flaw.

I read kundalini spontaneous, or novice events may induce leg paralysis... I've had bizarre and very scaring sensations in the base chakra for two days... sometimes I've been forced to stop and sit in the street... Is there a risk that this could be related to a too early kundalini awakening? Is there some way to avoid serious trouble?

(I already stopped any energy stimulation since I had disturbing effects last year)(except maybe let's say self care around primary center)

except links are sometimes knots

When like today I find steps toward a kind of possession where my face is driven toward positive and encouraging ideas, I start to remember the times where this path leaded me to a forced stay by the side of ignorant but caring doctors. I wonder if being enlightened will necessary mean feeling depressed having to be alone, and stop counting on the help of people who, just because they think they can help, omit to consider how narrow are our points of views.

The bad side means, for me right now, tobacco, night clubbing, sex, money, and ignorance...

My problem today is that for the third time in my life, when I feel my feet buzzing all day long, I fear. When I accept to question my point of view, protection and peace comes and comforts me... but what about the world I live in?

How shall I continue to live with people for whom my current false values are a sign of salvation... I really don't feel well... it would be so easy to follow those unexisting things who bring relief to me, and so hard to leave these, who want me good, physically, but tend to hurt... if they feel I leave... How can I hide? How can I escape from their control, without hurting them... actually nobody else down-here have been as helpful as they have.

I have accepted earlier even to die in order to be able to help other people... and now what I find harder is being able to live without hurting them... my own success seems only to be threat for some of those who love me... just because if I want to help, I realize I barely accept a higher position that would make of me a source of good.

I felt since a long time, at dawn, like if it was a special time, and even had started being afraid that it could mean something for the whole human race, which made me even more afraid.

Today, at dawn, I had astral sight, and was in a curious state, neither excited nor fearfull, and I could focus on one element of this sight, and I understood what means "Astral Projection" I could project my being here into the picture, and feel myself inside it, When I managed to hold this feeling for a few seconds, the exit sensations started to rush in fastly and strongly. I knew I was going to be there if I just went thru the whole exit process. But the vision was suddenly so vivid and present, that I started to be shy, and the process ended.

I thought that first I had found one door to astral experience, that I had not read about, then, at midday, I realised the feeling at dawn might be related to this entrance. It would be like a Call... and thinking this a strong shiver came in. Thus confirming, this feeling could be just a call, and not a sign of human schedule. This is so reassuring, and also seems to mean AP might possibly become easy for me if I just accept to live a more vivid experience. I realised my work on this was so shy, and how different it is to actually accept to succeed. Until now I thought of it like of a healthy process, and was mainly expecting vibrations. But now I can see how different it would be to intend to do it, really, knowing it will work, and admiting that very deeply... not as easy as it sounds, given the extreme vividness of Astral Experience.... also I called, myself, and worked a lot, getting this kind of answer makes me feel special.... I hop I'll just get over that!

is it possible to have a spontaneous projection to RTZ during sleep, or are we bound to pop in astral planes?

I ask this because I had only one spontaneous projection, and many lucid dreams since I started some month ago to take this stuff seriously. And I wish to visit a distant town, which is very far away from me... this concern have even led me to have dreams, where I was projecting with help of external and invisible male hands, but my room had abnormalties when I came back, so I think it was a dream. I dreamed I got out, then flew thru the ceiling of my room, trying to reach orbit, but as I looked down, I felt vertigo, so was drained back to my room, and then I woke up... I keep having strange dreams, or lucid dreams related to the projection process, sometimes I end up believing I had a projection, and realising that my deeds were not what I would have done if I wasn't in a dream state... for example, searching for the person I want to meet in a school, rather than feeling for her straight away, or getting closer by flying to orbit. It's strange, because dreams are very vivid, and even sometimes partly or totaly lucid, but I never manage to achieve what are my real time goals...

Each time I get a lucid dream, very vivid, I seem to be wishing so much to come to RTZ but I don't know how to do, I tried once, but finally woke up, it's a shame, now I'm very careful when I realise I dream, and rather avoid thinking about my physical body... but I think I read that thinking of the physical body can help in getting back to RTZ... any help?

I had a lucid dream this morning, and had the reflex of looking at my hands, I thought let's see them melt, and they melted.

Was it *because* I was intending to see them melt that they melted?

Also I was surprised that they were looking just like my real hands... is that a way to recofnise lucid dream from OBE when your hands look real?

Does somebody there thinks that every little uncontroled feeling is due to spirits: muscular sponaneous contractions, uncontroled motion without feeling muscules, different shivers, some of which pleasant, some less pleasant, strange reverse energy flow, all that without any other kind of visible or audible manifestation (thermic crackings but that's all)

What would you advise me in order to sleep peacefully again? (I guess it would be possible to ignore all that, but somehow I feel like it's possible to get rid of them. am I wrong?

I was meditating, and suddenly I started to feel like some slight fingers were touching me. evetualy I felt also sort of an ectoplasm spread around my sex, so I wonder, is there a possibility that despite a great lack of fear or sexual arousal, this could be some kind of incubus?

That's a question I think I should ask, because beavis is so proud with negs. Currently I'm reading Psychic defence, and I find that dealing with negs doesn't only imply not being afraid, but also doing the right thing in the right time, which doesn't seem so easy to me...

I feel like I have a hat, it happens very often. It started when I did Kundalini YOGA for one week, everyday, in june. it's like if there was something on my head, but I assure you! there is NOTHING. The evening when I lay down to sleep, it starts moving slowly, floating, and eventualy it disapears only to reapear shortly. It scares me when it starts to move, I feel like it's not a hat but some being that wakes up when I start to sleep. Please someone explain!

Since I had my 2 seconds OBE every night I get some sensations related to the process of leaving the physical body. I want to tell those who learn: be aware that ther is inertia in the learning process, and you continue to work for days after you actually stoped attempting to project. It is a process were unconscious mind plays a big role, so you might be progressing while you think nothing happens.. take this in account or you might be overwhelmed after success by a lot of uncontroled effects!

I was having a nap, and some solid and probably invisible hook grabbed my shoulder trying to pull me out, but it seems somehow it realised I will not progress in the OBE being forced, it stopped.
The sensation felt really physical... Sometimes I really wonder how far entities could go in influencing my sens of touch... it seems they don't have actual limit, if my protector or/and I don't give them some.

I will ask my guide WHO this was, but I'm very unsure of getting an answer easily, for the answer might be a little complicated... anyway, I don't expect to find out much more about that event, so this is free for you to comment

tonight I got out of my body... for the first time... but for only two seconds, don't even know if my feet have been out... it was during a dream, and I realised "the evil was REAL" in my dream, I guess that Idea of REAL brought a kind of lucidity. From that point I felt my Protector really strong in my whole body and the vibrations were far, far away, but I felt soon pulled out of my body. then I felt two "friends" who yet are unnamed, and looked like shadows, taking me to an unknown place, flying... we flyed up as I tried to calm down, but trying to calm dow I tended to feel my physical body, so I faded out, and fell back in my body..... but the sensations were [:O], I start to measure what means more real than real... Still wonder if that was enough to be called a first time... but the proof it can happen to me is made.
might it be longer some other time? I have the bad habit of listening to my physical body when I want to be more quiet... What should I think about in order to stay out and calm myself?

I just tested the method from the treatise by robert bruce...

Can somebody tell me here how can one fall half asleep (because that's where the vibrations came for me) While being imagining they are climbing a rope!!! When I imagine that I stay rather tense... so I really wonder if even transe has come.

What does transe feel like?

I never been paralysed but felt the vibrations, anything wrong with what I do?