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Could it be the Tom Campbell trilogy? It's the only "long" book (which could actually come 3 in one) that I can think of at the moment. You cannot download any PDF from the website, but you can read it online. If it's not, good luck in your search!
https://www.my-big-toe.com/explore/my-big-toe-trilogy

That's beautiful Tak. I could use an emotional connection and release like that. You're very fortunate. Thank you for sharing.

Thank you very much Tides, for your comment, I'm glad you enjoyed it! I'm more than sure that all of us experience this fusion with the White Light, Unconditional Love, energy regeneration or wonderful encounters, from time to time during sleep... we just don't always remember! It's often evident when we wake up in the morning, and although we're not very clear about what happened during the night, we have a feeling that something incredible happened - something wonderful that we can't explain. And we're left feeling happy and full of energy. It's a blessing! I've witnessed these incredible events many times, but I don't induce it at will, I just let it happen. 

If you really need this, just ask for it before bed, and I'm sure something wonderful will happen soon. 

Thanks for being here, hugs to you!

Hypnagogia: I started seeing rectangular cuboid shapes rotating and fitting together in different shades of dark green. Then, it transformed into a beautiful composition with wavy lines and small circles attached, all in a wire-like texture. It was wonderful! Once in this deep state, I decided to generate mental movement to enter the scene. I entered the Void, pretending to move through tree branches with just my arms, while my body was hanging in empty space. I don't know why I thought of doing this lol, as a monkey. It felt very real! I could even feel the strength in my arms. It was fun. But everything around me was black. When I got tired of doing this, I let go and fell. So, I ended up sitting on a hard surface, where I imagined myself going down a slide. I wanted to go faster, so I generated the falling movement and slid down at full speed, ending up on a kind of moving train. Everything around me turned into an incredible abstract landscape, but also a room decorated with panels and neon lights. There was music, drawings, and strange inscriptions on the walls - crazy! I laughed a lot and had a blast, but then I lost awareness.

When I recovered, I found myself in a fascinating landscape - a field with a medieval town of small houses in the distance. Bordering the town was a big mountain, on which incredible buildings were constructed. They resembled castles stacked on top of each other, like a huge medieval-style apartment complex. At the summit was a grand mansion with Gothic towers and peaks. The mountain was so tall that its top was obscured by clouds. I examined every detail and thought how wonderful it must be to live there. The mountain was surrounded by lush vegetation and flowers, and its slope was gentle. When I looked to my side, I saw a strange scene: An eagle trying to take flight, but a strong wind kept throwing it to the ground, rolling it around and preventing it from flying. The eagle tried many times, but the wind wouldn't allow it. It made me sad to see the poor bird struggling so hard! When I looked down, I had a cute little bunny in my arms. I decided to free it, worried that the eagle might haunt it, but the wind wouldn't allow that. Suddenly, the rabbit transformed into a small bird of prey, which flew sideways, unaffected by the wind, and disappeared into the distance. The eagle continued trying to fly without success. I think this is a reflection of my own limitations in life, and that perhaps to overcome them, one should take different strategies and go with the flow, rather than fighting against them, just like the other bird did.

Suddenly, I was carried away by the Guiding Force, and the scene changed. We found ourselves in a shopping center full of people. I didn't control the situation, I was just transported by this energy, as usual. I was convinced that I was in the Real Time Zone (RTZ) and had gone out for a walk around the city, but that wasn't the case. Everything was incredibly real and had a grayish color cast, as if there was a gray filter on it. We left and headed to the street, where many people were walking and shopping. I also saw many children with backpacks, as if they were going to school. I thought it was a boring city landscape and asked to go to the beach, since we were surely very close! Instead of going at the height of the people, I thought it would be best to go up and see the sea from above, but it didn't happen. We turned a street, and from a distance, I could see the sea. I was very excited, but we never got there... 

Suddenly, the Guiding Force left me standing in a zone, and everything turned gray. I started saying, "I don't see anything, please, I need to see!" It wasn't that I didn't see, but that I was in the famous Gray Void, the threshold that can take me to RTZ or other astral areas, but at that moment, I didn't realize... It was a wasted opportunity, but I didn't want to be there. I really needed to go to the beach and connect with the ocean (physically, I also really need it). Then the Guiding Force returned and took me through a stone portal, and yes! I finally started to see the beach. When I spoke with the Guiding Force, I didn't do it with my voice but with my mind, but I still heard my voice in a kind of echo. 

When we arrived, it was a small bay full of people, surrounded by big mountains where another landscape seemed to be unfolding. We almost went through the vegetation and left the place, but no. I saw a group of huge sea lions and was so excited, they were beautiful! Then many seagulls flew around me while the Guiding Force carried me through the air, I thought they were going to collide with me! I saw many children swimming on the seashore, and at one point, I realized we were heading straight towards the ocean... I was a little afraid to go to the open sea, and then everything faded away. 

I saw everything gray again, but the area wasn't pure gray this time, it was turning white in some parts. Something curious - I kept listening to the waves of the sea and feeling the coolness of the sea mist. I was left standing in this gray area again and didn't like it, I was confused. I tried to create the beach with my mind, thinking about it in the most vivid way, but it didn't work. I got angry because it is supposed to be a thought - response dimension and what happens? So, I lost a little control of my emotions and started crying and screaming (I'm not like that physically, but in these experiences, it seems that emotions are heightened lol). I began saying that I couldn't see, without realizing that I was already seeing, I just was in the threshold. I started running and crying until suddenly I saw again. It was night, and I found myself in a kind of park where a woman with long hair was standing. She asked me what was wrong, and I explained that I wanted to create a beach and couldn't do it, I really tried hard thinking, but nothing happened. She took me by the hand and told me, "Let's see what we can do!" We left the park and returned to the gray area, flying, where she suggested singing a song to create the beach, as if telling a story, that would relax me and help me concentrate. While singing, I had to fantasize about that place. That was excellent advice! I started singing then, saying, "Sea, moon, and stars, it's all I need to be happy!" Repeatedly LOL. And then the beach appeared! But it was night, and the sea was subtly illuminated by the moonlight. The full moon crowned the landscape alongside a beautiful starry sky, where the Milky Way shone in all its splendor. There was vegetation on the sand, and many people were sitting there enjoying the natural show. I flew frantically and was euphoric. I knelt on the floor and was very grateful for that experience. The woman stayed by my side the entire time and seemed happy to see me being successful. The great emotion made me return.

I just want to say that I'm so grateful and excited that there's always help available to us, always a helping hand willing to offer unconditional service. We may not always see them, but throughout this year, I've received so much help from non-physical instructors that I have no words to thank them. I still remember when I made one of my first posts here called "Ask for a Dream Agent," and it makes me laugh now because a lot of help came from there. I'm sure that on a subconscious level, we worked a lot together, and my conscious mind can't remember it all. 

In fact, something very nice happened to me yesterday in a lucid dream. While in a scene, someone suddenly grabbed my arm very tightly... I didn't want to see who it was because I got scared. But I began to feel a rush of energy throughout my body, feeling so much love, warmth, and security... and then I decided to look. It was a tall, blonde man who told me... "You're doing very well, very well done!" He looked at me with pride and added... "From what I see, you don't need me anymore" (and he laughed) "that's why I came to say goodbye." I was a little confused, unsure if he was referring to astral practices or daily life events. He gave me such a strong hug, I felt so much unconditional love that my energy body vibrated as if it had millions of electric ants. I also felt that he healed deep wounds in me, which made me burst into tears... I thanked him for everything and told him I loved him very much. When I realized we were in the White Void and the light was almost blinding us, I asked him who he was, but he didn't tell me anything and just smiled, looking at the sky. His eyes were teary with emotion at saying goodbye, as if working with me had been very important to him and a great opportunity. I kept insisting that he tell me who he was, and although I didn't hear his voice, I felt that the word "teacher" formed in my mind. When I was about to take out my endless list of "life questions" to start the bombardment, I lost awareness. 

It's not that I no longer need guidance, on the contrary! But rather that I feel as if someone more suitable for this "new stage" will be in charge of guiding me from now. I don't know who this particular instructor or energy would be, but it seems that subconsciously, there's a lot of activity with other beings that help us advance in our progress. I celebrate this! And to have been an opportunity for someone to also grow along their path.

Lightbeam, I simply want to say that what you've shared is delightful. The description of your experience is so rich and beautiful that it's almost a tonic for the soul - I can feel it! I don't have enough knowledge about the subject to fully understand what it's about, other than what was mentioned about the chakra. 

When I came to this forum, it was initially to understand what these energetic adjustments, imparted by these mysterious beings, were all about. You all helped me understand what it was more or less about, and not to be scared, but to see it as a blessing to witness that moment. I just want to say that I think it's wonderful that we came to Earth with a whole team of helpers guiding us in our progress... I've learned that they also grow and evolve through this process, and that it's very important to them. Sometimes they seem more concerned about our lives than we are. At first, it seems like only one is concerned with their own life, but there are "others" behind the scenes learning from what we do, and their work with us here, as well as the teachers and doctors, who grow in their careers by working with the rest. 

The love you're feeling is beautiful - enjoy it! What a better way to connect with the core than through the purest love? 

I already know that we're not alone on this path, and I don't need any proof, my experiences have already given me everything I need. However, sometimes nostalgia knocks on my door, and I look at the sky. A few days ago, I asked for a sign that we're not alone, that higher forces of all kinds are with us. Can you believe that in less than five minutes, a huge yellow "meteor" appeared, descending vertically and leaving a huge trail... It was truly shocking, I was frozen. I live in a city with a lot of light and air pollution, where these phenomena are not very common, and it was still early at 8 p.m. This is the third time that exactly the same thing has happened to me - I make this request, and a huge meteor appears (or at least that's what it seems to be seen)

When I went to bed that night, I felt a presence, and like an energy waterfall flowing from my head throughout my body, along with a wonderful feeling of love similar to yours. They never tire of telling us, "We're here!" No matter who they are, I really feel part of a team. There seems to be strong activity today helping humanity! 

Thanks, Lightbeam for sharing this. I really appreciate your words.

Hey Traveler, what you said is exactly what happened. Many times during an OBE, when we start to 'leave' the physical body, it seems like we're a few centimeters further away, and we hear the body's sounds as if they belonged to someone else, because ultimately, they do. They're the body's sounds, not ours. The body snores and breathes, not 'us'. It's happened to me many times, but with breathing. It seemed like there was a hurricane in the room, and it was just the body breathing in and out, but it sounded incredibly loud. Isn't it amazing? That also happened during meditation, not feeling like I was 'leaving my body', but that my consciousness was more 'spread out' in the environment. It's hard to explain. It's kind of weird, but at the same time, you know you're reaching your goal somehow. Nice! There are always new discoveries, and I'm glad you're feeling better about the stress .

After induction and a breathing session, I entered the hypnagogic state and asked to see a pleasant ET past life. An old man appeared wearing a blue robe and a long white beard. He began searching through a piece of furniture and pulled out a huge golden scroll from a drawer. He spread it out to show me, but just as I was about to read it, I woke up feeling very scared. Maybe I'm not ready to explore this idea yet.

I wanted to enter again, so I focused on my third eye with my eyes closed. Small shapes that I saw with my peripheral vision started to appear. I saw a point that grew and became a door, but it was like an irregular, dancing yellow polygon in the darkness. Then, I saw many colored three-dimensional spheres joined by very thin white lines, resembling a solar system, similar to the models we made in school. However, it wasn't our system - there were planets of all different colors, and it was breathtakingly beautiful. I was amazed.

I also began seeing shapes that looked like wormholes with a continuous flow of movement in pink and yellow colors. Everything then changed into a white background, where circles and serpentines shot out from the center. Next, I saw complex, surreal, and abstract compositions. At one point, I saw lines and points of tension forming a fan in a non-uniform way, with animal eyes, peacock feathers, and other natural elements between the spaces.
After that, I saw a flowing path formed by a grid of colors that slowly stretched, like little Venetian blinds. It was wonderful!

A strange scene appeared, where I saw superimposed, highly polished stone-carved artifacts - wheels fitted inside one another, rotating in opposite directions, like gears but with smooth edges. They also had small stone spheres scattered around. Then, I saw walls with inscriptions that looked like ancient runes.
I always see various strange inscriptions, hieroglyphs, symbols, and writings during hypnagogia. I've read that they are messages for another part of my consciousness. Although my conscious mind can't interpret them, they activate things within me that can be useful for my development.

Now I see a kind of screen where I see colored masks and various landscapes. I don't know if I'm singing a song, but there's music, and I'm very happy. Everything seems to be made of undulating patches of many colors. As the scene unfolds, I see butterflies, birds, elephants, flamingos, a river, and other elements of nature that I create around myself at will.

I end up leaving my body and falling onto the side of my bed. Everything is black, and I feel like I'm going through the floor. I fall and fall, but in the end, I'm back in my room again. I want to get out of the window, and I slide gently through the glass. This is something that's very difficult for me because I still open doors and windows, but I'm trying to get used to it.
I still don't see anything, everything is black. Somehow, I feel the outside, and I realize that I'm out of the building, perhaps because I can feel heat, air, and noises from the city. Now I can see! But instead of seeing the city, I see clouds below me, like cotton candy, and everything is pink, violet, and blue. I feel an exquisite peace and happiness, and I'm very grateful for this.

I enter the Void again and travel through a kind of tunnel, other people are with me. Suddenly, I see the shape of a person playing the piano in the darkness and the music is very beautiful. The place is full of different objects, it looks like a kind of museum. Something that catches my attention the most is a chair made of bone or ivory, which seems to be woven with thousands of threads made of very thin little bones. The backrest is square and double. I touch the texture, and it's incredibly real!
There are many objects to investigate. A man is in charge of that place, he approaches us and starts telling us very interesting things about the museum. He's also very happy to teach us, but I don't remember anything about what he said. However, my Ego and I interrupt him, and I tell him, "Are you aware that all this is just part of my dream, even you?" And he answers, "Mmmh... I prefer not to think that way. Let's look at it differently. We're all part of a larger dream and a single Mind that contains us all. We're all part of someone else's dream and therefore its manifestations, even you!"
The man shuts my mouth and puts my Ego in its place! He's absolutely right, but sometimes when my awareness isn't 100%, I forget those big truths and say those kinds of things out of habit.

After telling him that nonsense, the man no longer explains anything to us but instead contacts security, although I don't see him use any device. Then he begins to say that he has a group of children there (referring to us) who seem confused and lost. Maybe it would be good if they came to take us to a more appropriate place.
At that moment, I'm starting to lose awareness, and I focus on a huge panel that seems to be made of jade. I press my face to it, and I can see that it has hundreds of air bubbles inside, forming many colored circles. I look crazy doing that, but I need it to increase my awareness lol.
Meanwhile, my partners continue exploring the area. As I realize they want to take us, I tell my group that we have to get out of there now, we have to escape quickly. So we all run out, and I open a very large, rusty, old door that I find. Once on the other side, I tell everyone to run, but we enter the Void. We all start running in different directions, although we're no longer on any surface. Since I can't see anyone anymore, I think we're getting lost, so I tell them to imagine their happy place lol I imagine a forest. However, I see nothing and wake up.

I induce another experience again. I found myself lying on the floor and got up. Next to me was a black marble staircase, which I climbed. When I entered that place, I was stunned! It was an old temple with huge white columns, and on its sides, there were pedestals embedded in the wall, in the form of arched windows, containing white statues that resembled ancient Greek or Roman philosophers/wise men. Some were alone, while others were grouped in triads. I heard mantras/choirs from behind and expressed my gratitude for being invited to that place. Initially, I thought it might be the famous Library, but it wasn't.
At one point, everything began to fade away, and I didn't want to leave. So, I found a wooden cane with a golden tip and started hitting the ground with it, as it occurred to me to do so to maintain awareness. The energy in that place was strong, making it challenging to stay aware. I also felt a bit strange walking with a cane, thinking I would look older lol, but it was to stay aware.

I decided to sit on some long wooden seats, similar to those in churches. A girl was sitting next to me, and I asked her if she was there due to practicing astral projection. She said yes, but was just starting out and reading about the subject. I thought that, being a beginner, she might not be aware of being there. Those next to her told me they had been avid projectors for years. I asked if they knew each other in physical reality, and they said no.
I shared a bit about myself and asked why we were there. They told me we would receive a talk from a teacher, an announcement, or some news. I asked if the announcement was personal or collective, and they replied in a way I didn't fully understand, as if it were both things simultaneously.
When the teacher was about to arrive, everyone got excited, but I began to feel like I was losing awareness. I started hitting the cane against the floor again LOL, but couldn't do it this time and was absorbed by the Void... Again, I missed the best! However, I like to think that another part of myself received the class while the human part returned to Earth.

Earlier tonight my mind was soaring- I suddenly noticed a crow and an airplane soaring in the same direction. It felt like a reflection from consciousness. What was happening with me internally was being reflected externally in real time. Almost like there wasn't actually any distance between me, the bird or the airplane. It also felt like the bird and the airplane weren't just those things but something more. Like a giant wave. Something I am trying to understand... and so I realize consciousness is always speaking to us.

I like to think of All That Is as a huge Living Organism, and that we are simply its cells or its particles. That mere thought fills me with great joy I cannot explain. It's beautiful what you're feeling Tides, and so are your friends. I think that when we give up the illusion that Consciousness is confined within a particular individual and realize that in reality Consciousness is a huge field around us that interpenetrates all, will be when we would see better these things you describe. Everything I do with these practices is aimed to have a better understanding on this relationship, as you say, that we are part of a bigger Being. Although for now I just feel like a kid playing who only gets a few glimpses. 

Traveler, some time ago Lightbeam made a very interesting post on this issue of making an intention every night before going to sleep, it is very practical and does not require extra time, other than preparing yourself to go to sleep as every night, I really liked it and I ask permission to put it here. I do this same exercise before going to sleep of asking my Higher Self to show me things, guide me in life, etc. Do it without expectations and letting yourself go! One day I felt with my eyes closed that I was rising very high and I kept going up and up and up, while still in my bed. 

https://www.astralpulse.com/forums/welcome-to-out-of-body-experiences!/spirit-teleporter/

I've noticed a difference in nearly every aspect of my life as a result of this exploration. My wife even pointed out that she can see a noticeable shift in me towards putting out positivity as much as I can, and I believe that's why we're in a position to make a better life for our family.

Traveler, you do not need more pressures than you already have in life now. On the contrary, feel free and enjoy every moment. Feeling well and fulfilled opens paths that we never imagined. I see that just by changing the perspective of the matter a little bit and organizing your day you already made progress, very well done!

I don't see any stagnation here, quite the opposite! As you been told, we must remove the misinterpretation that daily physical life is something "that goes against" or is different from spiritual life. Since we are Souls experiencing the density of physical matter and not physical matter experiencing spirituality only when we do astral projection, meditation, etc. So, there is no way to not be exercising spirituality or to be outside of it. Soul and Consciousness are present all the time, nothing is outside of Consciousness. As Souls we carefully and lovingly choose this life to experience all kinds of things that help us grow, and most of those things are poured in daily life events, so take advantage of it! We are always spiritually growing, the simple fact of being here, breathing, is part of our path and evolution, just BEING this particular manifestation of Consciousness, as we are now.

Regarding stress, I have to tell you that doing daily breathing sessions has completely changed my life, as Tides said, it only takes a few minutes, no more than 10, I feel very relaxed and with more balance to make decisions. The benefits have been magnificent. One of them is 4/7/8 breathing: I inhale for 4 seconds, hold for 7 sec and exhale 8 sec. I do 20 sessions of this exercise. But there are many on Youtube you can search. I was going through severe anxiety and two weeks of these exercises have completely changed me. Now I am addicted to these breaths lol 

Perhaps it would be good to look for active meditations, which can be applied in daily activities. 

Our Great Spiritual Journey is happening right now, at this very moment! Enjoy it

Shineling, I would like to ask you, why are you so afraid of the darkness? Do you think is it the Void itself, the threshold that we all get into when we are making the transition in awareness? Or do you consider all this at a different level? If so, why? I am also curious to know why you distrust these shadows, have they ever done you real harm? 

If you are simply entering the Void, this state is also thought response, if one is afraid there, you will surely start to feel things that threaten you, but they are just a product of your own mind. Many years ago, when I still did not know of the existence of the Void, I considered this state the lower astral plane, and feeling fear and all kinds of negative emotions, many times they manifested themselves in unpleasant sensations, even attacks, but created by myself, now I realize. 

Remember that there is no good or evil as such, as this is just a human distinction, it is all part of the same thing to different degrees, the two poles, both sides of the same coin, a swinging pendulum between two faces of the same energy. That's why I like so much what Lumaza said, that in darkness there is also light. We also have to stop thinking what looks dark is bad and remove that symbology from our belief system. Immerse yourself in the darkness, open yourself to it, face it and you will see that you are invincible! That no one can hurt you. That you can transmute fear into love and darkness into light, you have the power to do that.

Many years ago, I had a non-physical experience with Master Plants, where I was outside of my body, completely aware and lucid, in a horrible place. In this place I could not return to my physical body even if I wanted to, and I was in a room completely surrounded by all kinds of vermin, snakes, lizards, frogs, insects walking on my skin and above all a huge toad over me, crushing me. I never felt so much suffering in my life, they stripped me of my body and also my will, since I felt I had no control over the situation. After who knows how long, two humanoid-shaped beings of light appeared holding a golden disc in their hands and told me that they would help me get out of there, only if I gave them permission, because they cannot help without consent, and with just a touch I would be back to the physical plane. I told them that I thanked them for their help, but that I wanted to take this as a challenge. 
They told me so, that then they would give me some advice, FEEL LOVE, LOVE would take me out of that horrible state of being and return me home. The solution was so simple and yet so powerful! Which was hard to believe. When I started to focus on feeling Love and not fear and suffering, everything faded away and I get into infinite ecstasy, where a huge golden snake returned me to my body. 

That experience was one of the most important and powerful for me so far, because I understood that we are the great transmuters of energy. Instead of being controlled by fear, take the reins and focus on feeling Love, transforming your world and not being affected by environment. Always carry the torch of Love very high and be yourself the light you want to find. It's my humble advice! My two cents. 

Thanks for sharing, Shineling. Always nice to read your writings. 

Tak: Has your friend seen any orbs? I know that I see them around the house, usually at night. What about taps on the wall, or muffled, disembodied voices? Unexplained breezes or taps on the skin? (The latter feel like a bug on my skin, with no bug to be seen).

I am aware of ghosts (Earthbound entities) and can see the orbs, feel, hear and sense the ghosts. The orbs look to me like little sparkles of light, somewhat seen with the mind's eye and physical vision at the same time. I almost never see apparitions, usually just outlines, mists and orbs.

Nice Kodemaster, you really are very gifted! You must have learned to handle fear very well. I don't remember if my friend saw orbs, but she has had all kinds of paranormal manifestations. Her father and her children have seen orbs, but colorful ones, I have to ask her to tell me those stories again. 

I have seen once, I posted that somewhere on the Pulse, an etheric projection with the same teenage friend I mentioned. We saw a being entering and leaving my kitchen in repeated movements, for several minutes, a kind of semi-transparent white body, elongated and formless, but composed by thousands of particles that moved in different directions, like old TV' static. It was something really dense that could be seen in detail.  I didn't feel like it was anything bad, quite the contrary. We both saw it and it was the best shared experience I've had so far. 

I am one of those persons who loves daydreaming, I walk in a forest or the beach, but at the same time I am in my own inner world. I think it is in those "between" states, where I am in the physical, but far away at the same time, where this non-physical vision could take place, overlapping. People I met in my life told me how they saw ethereal shapes among the see waves or orbs coming out of plants, that's why I always thought they were elementals, but I'm not sure. Meditation is a good way to reach this state and perhaps many things can be shown to us.

Thank you very much Adrian for your feedback, it is greatly appreciated! Regarding the orbs, in many cases they are just dust. I have taken a lot of photos in a dark room with the flash on and hundreds of orbs came out, just dust reflected in the camera light. But this is not always the case, such as those you described with an intelligent behavior or maybe those with incredibly brightly colored auras. I suppose each case in particular have to be analyzed.

When I was 16-17 years old, I have seen many of these manifestations, semitransparent white balls of about 6 inches flying in a straight line, entering and leaving the walls. I saw this clearly, not as an optical phenomenon generated by peripheral vision or maybe a quick flash due to an eye strain, but very clear like any other object in front of me. Many times, I saw them come out from the mirrors, and the strangest thing is that I have seen small orbs enter my own body at the solar plexus level. 
But since last year I had some manifestations of these again after so many years. I have seen black ones with blurred edges, about the size of a tennis ball. And almost a year ago I saw the most incredible orb so far of about the size of a basketball, enter through a wall and left through the other side. It was a golden one with "static rays" spikes of golden light, it came slowly so I appreciated the details. I really tried hard to find the most logical explanation for all this with no results. 

I have read many things about orbs, but I am not sure what to think about. They could also be condensed thought manifestations themselves, as Nameless suggest. Maybe it is a blend of this and that and in each case, it could be always something different. At first this disturbed me a lot, but now I accept it as part of the wider reality.


Kodemaster, thank you very much for your response and taking the time to see the picture. I totally understand your point, this photo has been taken many years ago and my friend and her father have tried to find all kinds of possible explanations (and still) but they have not come to any "logical" conclusion. There were no windows behind, they live in a tall building so there are no reflections of cars coming from the street, no one else was in the room with my friend. There also was not painting behind that could be reflected. 

I know human imagination is huge and if we start to see damp stains on the walls and things like that, we will find a universe there. I remember a few years ago I saw an entire jungle in dried mud stains on a glass window LOL. However, what is striking here is that this is something that appeared and then disappeared. If it was just some dust or sudor located on that part of the camera lens, which momentarily formed that face, anyway, the result still seems quite amazing to me. Unfortunately, because this is not my photo, I cannot give all the details I would like.

Thank you very much again and all comments are very welcome 

Thank you very much for your answers! 

Tides, sorry about that! I know it can be a little creepy. About the reddish color of the picture, I asked my friend and it is not lighting, the color of the photo is like that, I guess at that time some photos could be in that color, or it became that color over time, by my estimates, it have been taken at 60's. They do not have other photographs with this phenomenon, only of lights in the sky and some orbs, because like Dr. Greer does with his ET contact group, his father has also done this with a group and have seen the lights and orbs in their heads during contact meditations and have some pictures of that. They did not use Dr. Greer's methodology, but I suppose similar principles. I have so much to talk with him! But this took them by surprise and left them bewildered. 

Nameless, I like your feedback, we are not blind to think that it has to be an entity, it is good to read all kinds of possible explanations. Perhaps because we know that these types of manifestations are possible, we tend to think that way. In the case of the other story I told, the girl saw her grandmother, so the photograph truly captured "something", but in this case we don't know. It is very interesting what you say about mist being thought response. When I was a child, someone told me that there was a place in my country where people went on pilgrimage to Virgin Mary, many people took photos and saw similar formations, but of the Virgin, a woman with a white cloak in heaven and that kind of things. I always believed that it was the thoughts and devotion of people who formed these phenomena. I apologize if I'm offending believers, but perhaps this could be a possibility. So I understand what you are proposing. Maybe my friend's nostalgic feelings could form this in the air, through mist or who knows what, could be a possibility, why not. As I understand, my friend and her father tried to recreate all the conditions to capture something similar again and was not possible. 

Thank you! And we are open to all kinds of explanations. Feel free to give your opinion!

Hello everyone! This is a request for a friend. I didn't really know where to post this, but I would like to show you a phenomenon that my best friend captured in a series of photos some years ago. Her mother passed away time ago, leaving a framed picture of herself (the deceased mother) on the wall in her father's house. One day visiting his house, she took some photos of this picture on the wall, a sequence of three continuous photos, as we all usually do, taking the same photo many times to see later if it turned out well. Watching the followed images on her cell phone, she noticed a strange appearance, seeing how in the lower corner of the picture, a kind of white cloud began to form, which in the third photo clearly shows the face of a person, I think it's an old man. If this were some type of stain, dirt or optical effect, I think it should have appeared in all the photos at the same way, but you can clearly see how the image is gradually forming, a fairly clear image of what appears to be an old man. My friend and her father did not like this, nor did this entity give them a "good vibe." However, I don't feel anything negative about this, in fact seeing it reminds me a lot of how I see my Main Guide, an old man with a beard, similar to a wise man from ancient Greece. Although they did not like this, they kept the photos, because they are very interested in the paranormal and metaphysical phenomena. My friend is one of the few persons with whom I transparently share everything I experience in relation to OBEs and other phenomena, since she and her father have lived all kinds of paranormal experiences during their lives.

I would really appreciate if someone who is familiar with this, could clarify for my friend and I, what it is all about, who this entity would be and why these happen. 

Here is the sequence of pictures, from 1 to 3. If you find it difficult to see the photos clearly, make sure you are in an environment with not much light, since with a lot of sun in the room little can be seen. I have raised the brightness of the image a little bit, but that was all I did, so the shape can be seen better. I have cut the photo showing only the phenomenon that formed in the corner, for privacy reasons. But if someone would like to analyze it and needs the original, I can talk to my friend so she can give me permission to send it to you. 





I remember that in my adolescence, my best friend at that time had a similar phenomenon, where she told me that her little sister, who was only 4 years old, said that her deceased grandmother was in her living room. When she went to look, of course she didn't see anyone, but the little girl continued saying that her grandmother was there. She decided to take a photograph, at that time with an analog camera. When the photos were revealed, a woman in white came out, as if she were a winged angel, she told me. I didn't see the revealed photo, but I did see the negative, and it was just like that. The mother had the original and sent it for analysis because she was a parapsiology student. I would like to have that photo too, but I have lost contact with them, that was a remarkable story.

Interesting that beings or deceased people use these devices to communicate.

Thanks Casey for your response too, I want to tell you that I didn't feel the 2 hours at all, the talk was engaging! And like Biba says, your voice Casey, I have to say it's so relaxing, I can listen to you for hours!     

I would like to add that the best part of this mass contact whole history, is that we do not need "intermediaries" or a government talking on television about disclosure, publicly accepting that the phenomenon exists, etc. This happens in one's room, at night while we sleep, in an OBE, in a meditation, on a walk in the forest. Or maybe like you, through crystals. For those who are open minded and hearted to connect with other realms of existence. I love it this way! 

Hey Casey! I want to tell you that I have seen the entire video of the conversation with Biba, enriching as always. This fragment of the video you put here is especially notable, since like you, I do not think that Earth is a hell or a prison, I think that in most cases, it is we ourselves who create our mental jails, through judgment, hatred, differences, fights, desire for control, whims and disharmony with ourselves and others. Through AP I was able to understand that we are not tied to this physical plane, but that we have freedom of movement, not without some tests and challenges, but the possibility is there. And when I read the incredible experiences of the great mystics of humanity, who have transcended the Ego and live in perpetual communion with All that Is, and remained human... I think that the "graduation" and freedom of the Spirit exists here also in the 3D, now. It is our responsibility to achieve it. We never left Home. We can bring "Heaven to Earth" if we set our minds to it, that is, transcend Consciousness through the different "levels" until we reach the Core, our True Self. 

I really liked the part where you felt the energy of a Being, which turned out to be very similar to the one Biba's mother saw in her quantum healing session, that was amazing!

Thank you!

Here a practitioner is reporting, who sometimes needs about three hours to induce an Ap, and she doesn't give up, Yay! I only give up after 4 hours (I have a lot of patience, yep). 
But in general, it takes me between 1:30 and 2 hours. 

All the advice given here is excellent and I like to reread these things to reinforce them. I use the same method as EV for over 10 years, it's what works best for me. 

And I like so much Lumaza's soak method, I had never heard of anything like that before, very innovative for me, and it has been used for millennia apparently! I should try one day. In my case it's the other way, I'm short and the bathtub is big, maybe I'll slip and be completely underwater LOL.   

Perhaps the biggest challenge of all this, regardless of the method used, is learning to relax and induce the state between sleep and wakefulness, since in my case I need to not be too awake nor too asleep, a "middle" state and it is difficult to achieve sometimes. Waking up and going back to sleep, at least for me, is not always easy. Even if I've only slept a few hours, between 3 and 5, my body and mind run at full steam. Re-inducing sleepiness and calming the mind again is quite a challenge. Perhaps before starting a method, one has to "practice" entering this state between sleep and wakefulness, without thinking too much about the OBE. And once you've learned this easily, apply your favorite induction method. 

When I read that people say that they have been in bed for a long time and nothing happens, I think... they just weren't sleepy! A little sleep is necessary... In my case, if I try the method after having slept eight hours or when I go to sleep after an exhausting day, nothing will happen. You have to find "the point" and that is a variable for many people. 

I have often looked into the blackness and seen hypagogic imagery. This has sometimes been incredibly real and has led to lucidity in the past.

<<< You have found the trailhead 

Go ahead!

Hypnagogia: This time I used a less dynamic and more passive visualization, I focused on breathing, visualizing myself on a raft floating in a beautiful river surrounded by nature, letting myself go with the flow, the flow of the mind and life itself, no interference, just observing my thoughts from the distance. To slow down the inner dialogue, I just kept silent as if waiting to hear what someone else had to say, giving space to that "other person" to manifest and express herself, attentive. Until the mind began to dissociate and answer on its own. Some nonsensical words were heard, until I began to see many very strong and beautiful geometric abstractions. So, I decided to "hang from the form" as if a train passed by and I boarded it, leaving the physical and thus changing focus. While I was making the transition, I felt a kind of "suction", a kind of "wooosh" in my ears, as if the focus of attention was literally being sucked "inwards" and I began to hear strange frequencies, at a different scale degrees, high and low pitched tones, a rather strange sensation.

Now I am in front of a grid of very thin black lines perpendicularly superimposed, some about 45 degrees, lying on a white background, and the distance between them was irregular, drawing points of greater density or tension in certain areas, thus forming a triangle in the middle. Suddenly, I felt that something in my brain's chemistry changed, I felt like a very intense brain pleasure, my brain turned to jelly, a torrent of energy soaking all my head, really beautiful... My God! But I got scared about all this and came back, so I induced another experience. I find myself in a black void, but I see that some strange fruits with colorful auras are falling from the sky like rain, and I grab some. I remember an apple and a pear with a blue aura and I said: Oh, how beautiful! does this have a name?! And when I said that, I heard my voice distorted, as if I were underwater and I woke up startled, so I got in again. I saw all sort of figures, especially irregular-colored polygons rotating and drawing chains, as if they were DNA. 

It really amazes me how we can feel so much peace and so much happiness just a tiny layer of distance between inward and outward focus, just "a few breaths away." How our physical reality, which we worry so much about, can just in seconds be completely "liquefied" and transformed into something completely different. All this makes me think about not taking things so seriously in life, due to the inconsistency of this physical reality among infinite possibilities and in relation to eternity. But also, it makes me feel that being here offers a miraculous and unique opportunity to grow in a very particular way and transform myself. And above all absolute respect for it.

I lose awareness but when I regain it, I am already out of the body, although in a crazy state, as if I was very drunk and didn't know what to do, I was a little out of control and confused. I flew everywhere, throwing myself against the furniture and going from one place to another, until I lay back down on the bed in the same position in which I was physically and I partially came back. But something strange happened, I began to feel like a cold, round, black metallic object, like a kind of flat funnel passed through my entire body and I couldn't move, as if it were scanning me, I also felt that someone was standing next to me, but I couldn't see who was there. I was a little scared to be honest, until I remembered that these things usually happen to me from time to time and that I just have to let it happen. I didn't feel like it was anything bad, on the contrary, that someone wanted to see that everything was okay with me, like a checkup. That makes me feel good because it stabilized my mind and I felt better, more aware.

I realize that I can now detach myself from my body again and I slowly roll to the ground. I have difficulty standing up, but I encourage myself to move forward and concentrate.  I'm also holding on to the furniture because it was difficult for me to get up from the floor, I feel a little heavy, but just for a moment. When I walk, I feel like I'm barefoot stepping on a carpet, something soft, and it makes me laugh that it feels like that, like walking on an energy cloud. 
At that moment I saw everything black, but when I was in front of the window, I saw it perfectly. I see the whole city through it and I felt that my awareness was very clean. I was convinced that I was in the etheric plane, but that was not the case. When I looked at the buildings it seemed to me that they were the real ones, but when I returned, I realized that they were not. I concentrated on going through the glass, and slowly I was pushed towards it until I was completely outside, but as I did so I could see that the city changed, everything was now full of medieval domes and castles as if it were Europe, but all painted in different colors, looking more like a Disney World theme park LOL. I started flying around the city, but very fast and in a somewhat erratic way, it was very fun! I continued swinging in the air until I remembered my last integration experience and that feeling separate from the environment is just an illusion, so I tried to do the same thing and wanted to enter the gray fog by rising the sky very high. I succeeded a little, but not completely, the attempt was unsuccessful and I partially returned to my body. There was a lack of real intention and my mistake was concentrating just on the feeling sensations. 

Once again, I find myself in my body, but without feeling it, it is like having my body completely anesthetized, I tried to roll but I couldn't do it, who knows why. So, I went "inward" feeling the strange frequencies and the wooosh again.

Suddenly I began to be carried by the Guiding Force, in a very soft and slow way. Already inside the landscape, I was bordering the coast of a beach town and I saw in an incredibly realistic way a construction over the cliff, they were like Gothic towers, but made of different materials, wooden domes and a white base with wooden trim as well, I really liked it, there were about 5. After passing that, a huge white mansion follows, it was incredibly beautiful!!! It has several floors, old roman architecture, full of columns everywhere and arch-shaped doors, balconies, plants hanging, more of a kind of palace perhaps, I was impressed by all the details and the exuberant construction. Then I realized that I was not alone, but that there were many people around me also being carried by the Guiding Force and we were about to enter into the forest... but the path was divided in two, those who wanted could enter the forest or go across the cliff. I decided on the forest, but everything turned black. When my vision come back, I am flying through a beautiful place alone being carried by the Guiding Force. It was a field full of beautiful trees of all shades of color, orange, red, violet, yellow, as when autumn arrives, but there is still a lot of green around. There is also a group of pink Sakura trees that catch my attention. A delicious earthy aroma surrounds the place, very freshy, and the sound of running water could be heard in the background, and I thought there was probably a small waterfall hidden somewhere. I looked for it, but I couldn't see it. 

When I'm placed on the ground, I lose awareness a little bit and the state is now semi-lucid. I am inside a forest, barefoot, and I am afraid to walk on the ground because it is all covered with dry leaves and there could be a snake hiding there, so I look for areas where there are no leaves and I can see the ground. I was also thinking, although I don't know if I saw it or not, that there also was full of bees, like a beehive hidden somewhere, so I was careful. However, I am stepping on many little stones, pieces of wood and irregularities on the ground that made my feet very hurt, I could hardly walk because of the pain and I complained a lot, ouch! I saw families with children passing by around me, who were enjoying and exploring the forest too, but they did have shoes on them lol. I arrived at an open area and climb a hill. I observed the beautiful landscape from above and then I returned.

A very peaceful journey, not much adventure, but very comforting. I want to tell you that despite having these very pleasant experiences, I am also having very different ones, full of challenges that, as has already been said so much here, are about mastering the Ego and behaviors so deeply rooted in human psyche, such as Lust, Gluttony, Greed, Fear, etc. I can't share all that here because I am ashamed of it! Sometimes I am surprised to find that I have behaviors that I do not have in my physical life or I do things that I would never really do and I don't know why, for example, going into an ice cream store or bakery and trying all different kinds of food, going to a shopping center and take everything I can LOL. Dressing like a queen (literally). Flying like crazy and breaking things, or maybe smoking a lot, which I don't do anymore, but I do it in LD. Sometimes I feel like old thought patterns are coming to light, as if I were a teenager again, it's very odd!    

Sometimes it makes me a little sad to think that we can do so many wonderful things in the astral and we have an open door towards to those vast realms, but behaviors of human Ego "ruin" everything, delaying all the work. But hey, I have also a lot of fun knowing more about myself, all this is very normal and just part of the learning process. It's like I feel that consciousness is in the middle of a sort of scale, where sometimes it leans more towards the passions of human ego, and sometimes it leans more towards the search for true self.

Hi Tides, thanks for sharing! I always enjoy reading your posts, don't worry if you don't update all the time, the important thing is to do so when you really want to share from the heart. 

You have a very good level and have been practicing AP for many years, I think that perhaps you are having trouble remembering your dreams, because you are too tired. Try to rest well and have a healthy diet. Something that works very well is every night before going to sleep, look at your third eye with your eyes closed and repeat the intention "tonight I will remember all my dreams and they will be very vivid" or whatever you like, until you feel It's enough. Maybe you already knew this. Try it and see what happens! 

I always really liked your Peacock Angel initiation and all the physical manifestations about it. Sometimes it seems like there is a big gap between the physical and the spiritual, but that is not the case, just another illusion. One just have to be open and attentive to these messages. Our great spiritual adventure is happening now, at this very moment!

One of the reasons that led me to respond to you today is because I felt identified with what you said about being visited by beings. I was just thinking a lot about all this because the same thing was happening to me, but the month before. And it makes me think that big things are happening globally.

I consider myself a happy and stable person, but I have anxiety problems from time to time, meditation and breathing sessions during the day are essential for me. However, I have not always won the battle against anxiety and last month I had a pretty bad one. After that, the following days, for about 4/5 days in a row, at some point in the night, I was being visited by a non-physical teacher, who gave me some lessons and talked a lot with me about this life. I remember practically nothing about these lessons, because they were more on a subconscious level. I didn't feel like I was "in a dream" but rather in a trance state, because I was still in my bed, but looking at the black void while an invisible teacher spoke to me mentally, feeling as if he was speaking to me behind the back of my head. I was so happy to receive these lessons! The one who was receiving the lesson was another part of me, only the last few seconds my human conscious mind, so to speak, took place and that's why I was able to realize what was going on and then it was over. I was only allowed to remember a little about the last class. Sometimes I am not in the black void, and images could be projected, being more interactive.

E.g. I was shown a beautiful labyrinth of carved wood, and inside, little metal balls going from one place to another. The labyrinth was human life, and the balls were people, lost and sad, unable to find the way. My life was also represented there. The teacher told me to find the exit, and since I couldn't do it, I made my ball jump over the edge of the labyrinth to have a broader perspective and find the way. He told me that was great resolution, to broaden my perspective and I would find what I need. And that was all. The class was much longer and more complex than that, it's just what I was allowed to remember. 

Just last night I was thinking about how happy this fact makes me, to know that we are not alone, that there are so many beings around us watching over and anxious for our development, that is very exciting! Sometimes I feel like they have more faith in us than we do ourselves. Living and being part of all this is a true gift. I now know that we all receive these lessons or help during the night while we sleep, even if we are not always allowed to remember. It makes me feel cared for, accompanied and lots of strength to face each day. 
In my particular case, I don't relate this to extraterrestrials, I simply call them my teachers/helpers/doctors/friends... but I don't think too much about where they may come from. However, they have taken me to crafts, and I thought, what do crafts have to do with all this? Well, I guess sometimes it's better not overthinking and stay with what matters, knowing that we are not alone.

Thank you Tides for sharing this personal experience, I'm glad you feel better now and that you definitely know that you are not alone, because you are not, no one is! Come on! I am in another part of the planet experiencing something similar to you, isn't that great? And that is why I also believe that right now there is a lot of activity, a lot of work in awakening human awareness, on behalf of these beings, whoever they are, for those who want to listen and open hearted to receive a message. Thanks for that! 

Hugs and congratulations on the new apartment

To induce this experience, I remembered Lumaza's technique of visualizing himself playing basketball. So, as I like to knit, I decided to imagine the movement of a needle knitting wool, making knots and different movements, the colors, and all the patterns I leave when sewing. Meanwhile feeling my breathing and waiting for this mental movement to trigger the hypnagogic state's geometric patterns. I need to visualize something that has movement, so I don't get bored and my mind doesn't go away from the exercise. The good thing about doing things with your hands for many hours before going to sleep is when you close your eyes, I don't know if this has happened to you, but I continue seeing the movement, if it has been "stuck" inside the retina. And that is why I chose to visualize the weaving as part of the exercise.

Suddenly, different colors and shapes start dancing and making undulating movements in front of me, sometimes in a grid pattern. Little by little I concentrate on a particular shape and I get into it, I play with these shapes. I discovered that I can change and manipulate them in a certain way, that makes them grow, their colors and movements increase, they start out being very simple, to gradually become very complex abstract formations, huge and beautiful with thousands of nuances. I really enjoy this moment! Something that is catching my attention the most is that a few months ago, this state was somewhat weaker, that is, if I heard any sound from the street that distracted me, everything would quickly fade away. However, now I can hear any sound or move a little on the bed and continue seeing all this.

Then, I start to see a sort of very old walls carved with many Mayan or Inca style figures and symbols, I really don't know who they could belong to, because my knowledge on this subject is merely superficial. To recognize the symbols and gods, I would have to pay more attention the next time it happens. This is a pattern that catches my attention, why do I always see this, these walls of ancient civilizations. I am very attracted to all this, but it is not something that I look at so often to appear so frequently and that is why I think it could be something related to some past/simultaneous lifetime. I do not have ancestry from these cultures, otherwise I might think that it has remained in my cellular memory or something like that, but no. It's just something interesting.
Now into the scene, I see myself as a young man of that civilization, I am a hunter in the jungle with my friends, we are in a river catching fish. My friends started making jokes about a crocodile going to eat me and they laughed, I didn't like at all, and I was very angry and scared! I could see my feet through the clear water. It is not a surprise for me to see myself as a man, even if I am a woman, sometimes I dream that I am of a different gender, and this is not odd to me because I know we have been many things. Suddenly I began to be carried by the Guiding Force through the air and I saw a map of an ancient city, I got very excited and wanted to go. I focus on a beautiful reddish pyramidal temple, and I am now inside it, but soon everything faded away and saw many native warriors around me. I lose awareness.   

When I become aware again, I find myself floating above my body in my room, I did not detach myself this time. I realized that the room was all fluctuated, everything looks strange, the furniture is "liquefied" as if it were drawn and someone swipe a finger over it with the paint still fresh, like those Photoshop effects LOL, that was creepy and scared me a little. When I look at the window, I see behind a black wall and that the sun was filtering a little above it...
I go out through the window as always, but I don't see anything, everything is black, but I can feel the heat of the sun and hear the noise of the city. It seems very crazy to me to feel the heat of the sun in my energy body, or maybe it is my mind that makes it by knowing is a sunny day. I feel like I'm rising and rising and finally getting into The Void, but now everything is gray, more like fog and there are spiral formations with some black and white swirls, mixing with each other. I had never seen these spiral formations before, I remember reading about it in The Void thread last year, but it is the first time I see it, in my case they were small swirls about the size of a tennis ball and a lot of them, but the gray fog predominated.   

This is a threshold state I was in before (just gray fog) I could move into the etheric plane from there if I would concentrate, but at the time I didn't remember that. Suddenly, I feel something very particular, a vibrant sensation throughout my body, it is beautiful and revitalizes me... However, I realize that I no longer have a body! I thought so, but no. I am completely merged with the environment now, it is as if the environment around me were my body itself.  I have felt something similar before, that my energy body has no form or limit, but it's as if it slowly faded away and merges with the surroundings, without knowing where it begins or ends. But in this case, it is not the same, because there is no difference between inside and outside, there is no "my" body anymore.

I begin to move, but more like a point of consciousness, even so I can feel that penetrating energy around me, I feel contained and loved by all that warm vibration that surrounds me and of which I am a part of. If I don't feel comfortable with this, I have the chance to create the sensation of having a separate or human-shaped body, but it would only be a holographic mental illusion, because actually my body is the environment itself. I liked it a lot, so it wasn't necessary. As I move around, I feel as if I were in a huge baseball player field full of small electric balls that slide around me, I feel like friction, if this makes any sense and at the same time, I am part of them, because I am them. I don't see them, it's just a feeling. My mind did not feel any change, I still felt like an individual, since the sensation of fusion had more to do with my surroundings. But off course I could say I felt more integrated, expanded and loved. Strangely enough, all this did not surprise me and seemed like a completely natural state.   
I stayed there for a while, but I already wanted to leave... so with all my strength I imagined myself surrounded by a beautiful blue sky with white and fluffy clouds, but I don't go there! I am surprised because I know those dimensions are thought response, but sometimes I really try hard to think about something, and it doesn't happen, I don't know why, maybe I'm missing an "ingredient" in the formula. Then I decide to come back.

The truth is that I am happy to be able to gradually get out of lucid dreams more easily and enter more stable areas, since it is something that always took a little longer for me. I didn't try to cross the door again; however, I made another attempt to move beyond Lucid Dreaming simply by employing mental movement and strong intention with a promising result.   

Last night in a LD I decided to ride a bicycle and go downhill at high speed, and I began to say, take me beyond the hologram, take me beyond the illusion, take me beyond the hologram, take me beyond the illusion...!!! What happened next was the scene faded in front of me, and I started to see beautiful kaleidoscopes. Usually, these kinds of things appear at hypnagogia, but I didn't feel like I was returning to that state... I discovered that there were symbols hidden inside the kaleidoscope, but I couldn't read them because they changed so quickly (and I didn't understand them either). It was really beautiful and with many colors, so vibrant, especially green and violet. I kept repeating the same thing... until suddenly I heard a BOOM! As if something exploded inside my head, I got very scared, and suddenly both the kaleidoscope and everything around it turned white and gold, and I saw the outline of what I thought was the god Viracocha of the Incas (as I told you, they always appear, although I have no relation to this culture. Of course, I would love to visit the sacred places and learn more, hopefully one day).

I began to feel something very strange, I felt that I was making a transition in consciousness, I no longer had a body and I felt so much peace, I began to see and feel that I was entering a space with a grainy texture, a sandy sensation like when there is a sand storm very strong on the beach, but without pain, more like a massage. And at the same time it was as if I was merging into this sandy texture, but this time not only with my body like the other day, but something was happening to my mind too, to my consciousness, I felt that it was going to merge with all that graininess, I really started to feel something very strong, but pleasant. I knew that I didn't have to be afraid and that I should trust and let myself go, but I couldn't do it. 
My human Ego felt threatened by this whole beautiful integration experience, and I ended up getting very scared, since it was unexpected. I was also scared by the noise. Obviously, I regret it now. I feel like someone extended their hand to me and I let it go. I hope I have another opportunity to "cross over" But it is okay to be human and to be afraid of the unknown or the unexpected, it is normal. Sometimes is better to add drops gradually .   

All this also reminds me of what I said a few weeks ago when I visited the City of Light in that semi lucid dream, where I tried a fusion experience and that Guide told me that I was not ready, but I would soon. And now I wonder if it has anything to do with this. I don't even know what I'm really doing, I just let myself go by all this, following my intuition, trusting. For now, just taking notes.

I must say, as a person who experienced this since I was child, it has never been a surprise to me, but rather something that has accompanied me my entire life. I remember at six years old finding myself out of my body in my room and just saying "Oh, well! It seems like I'm out of my body" like the most normal thing in the world, it's like I've brought this built-in knowledge that all human beings are capable of doing this. I just knew I had to keep it a secret, I didn't think it was a good idea to talk about this.

For me AP is like holding a magic key to an infinite, new and unexplored world. Truly knowing that we are more than a physical body, in such a materialistic world that only wants our time and money, is a breath of fresh air. Knowing that the world doesn't end here, working eight hours and paying taxes and that's all. Rather, we are invited to be part of a wonderful and huge multiverse, to discover our true essence and find our own path. Feeling closer to "Home" although we never left it, it is just an illusion. AP and LD also stimulate the imagination and creative force, definitely. Especially for creators. And also, we never lose the sense of fun and adventure, you never know what is going to happen! Knowing that the answers we always wanted to know are always available, and the healing experiences... I have infinite gratitude!

AP has made my life broader and spiritually rich, there is not a day where I do not keep all this in mind. Just thinking about the infinite forms of physical and spiritual life that exist, worlds, dimensions, states of consciousness beyond human understanding, etc.  fills me with great emotion. And above all to know that I can be part of all this.

Welcome to the Astral Pulse, Traveler! I feel your passion, that's very good! I suggest as Tides said, try to develop your patience in general, for all aspects of Life, it will be good. Because of the society we live in, we are programmed to want results, progress, goals, productivity, NOW... in the fastest way possible. Maybe we carry this way of thinking, to our personal goals. But I think for this field in particular, we have to approach it in a different way and broaden the perspectives a little bit. We have to learn to enjoy the process and, as Lumaza said, to trust. Trust that whatever is coming to you is what you need. I trust that I am on the right path, at the right moment and time, and when I am ready to know or experience something specific, it will happen spontaneously, even hope it or not.

In fact, my best experiences have been spontaneous, and not when I look for them, including the presence of Guides or Instructors. These are like little gifts. My advice to you is: With that same curiosity as a little child who wants to learn, relax and enjoy! Like children who learn by playing, just enjoy and have lots of fun, progress will come on its own. You will see that over time, if you are consistent and really committed, you will probably have spontaneous experiences. Let yourself go, relax, enjoy, have fun and be happy, live in the present, and above all, feel open to the new, and something new will come. That's my advice.

Every night before going to sleep I do a guided meditation and then I start playing with the geometric shapes, colors and different scenes that appear in my mind's eye until I fall asleep. I do it just for fun, immersing myself in those abstract worlds that invite me to explore. Without thinking about any progress, just like a toddler with her toys. And without realizing it, I think this helps me progress. 

You are doing a great job! Keep it up. 

I love these collective experiences/thought interactions! Delicious. A lot of energy moving around, huh? Sometimes I am stunned with these things, because I read your post here, and they are similar with my dreams/AP of the night before. In fact, I recently read Lightbeam's AP about that wonderful place she visited inside a portal, and coincidentally I was also in a very peculiar place, a "City of Light" where everything was made of the purest energy, everything was white, the structures, the beings and me. There were so strange things, impossible to translate, the only thing I remember is going up many elevators with a Guide and trying to merge between thousands of small light's particles, with the size of small pearls and trying to disintegrate in them. The Guide told me that I wasn't ready to do that, but my time would come. I don't even know what I was trying to do. I don't remember everything else because as you say, sometimes it's too much for the human mind. I was happy because I felt that the entire Earth was evolving towards it.

Also with Lumaza, who was in a futuristic scene and coincidentally I also had a lucid experience with that theme, walking through streets of the future, and looking to the sky I observed strange gas formations in the atmosphere in the shape of rings.

Thank you all for reading my Journal and my adventures. I love the Doorway technique, which I recommend to everyone. The time I tried it was incredible, I went through a multicolored fractal cave and literally opened a door, but then I don't remember what happened. I need to re-read that whole thread, because I didn't finish it. I still struggle with the "monkey mind." But I always use the visualization of geometric shapes and colors to "get in" this technique gave me the idea and is highly effective. 

Thanks a lot for this!

Hugs

Last night I tried Kurt's technique, where he teaches the way to go from the Dream Zone to the Astral Zone, saying that you simply have to cross a door. I suddenly found myself in my dream remembering this technique, but I wasn't lucid, I was simply chatting with other people about the book I had read, when I suddenly realize that I am in a dream and this is the opportunity to try it. When I look around, I am in The Old Mansion, in front of a beautiful carved door made of reddish oak. The entire room is empty and is also made of oak, walls, moldings and floors, and orange lighting. I stand in front of the door and set the intention: "When I pass through this door, I will no longer be in the Dream Zone anymore, there will no longer be holograms. I will be in the Astral." I was quite nervous! When I open it, I find a hallway and exactly the same door, I set the intention again and the same thing happens, behind there was another door, but this time with black bars, I didn't like that. And so, the same scene was repeated about 7 or 8 times, doors and doors (it has happened to me before but not so many times). Until I said, okay! I get it... I can't go today.

And after saying that, I open the last door and enter an empty room, everything is still made of oak with huge glass windows showing a wonderful wild forest... I felt that those glasses separated me from that larger area that I couldn't access for a reason, because I couldn't get out of my dream...out of the holograms, and I was left admiring the beauty behind the panels, thinking that one day I will be living there. However, when I turned around, the room was filled with palm trees, trees, flowers...a beautiful forest was formed, so I didn't worry too much, and I started singing and dancing through the meadows inside the room very happy, accepting. Until my holographic body disintegrated... I began to float and returned to my body.

Also a funny thing that usually happens to me in these states is feeling a little drunk, I've read about this before. At that moment I felt like I had drunk a liter of beer, you know LOL I don't drink alcohol, but many years ago I did, and the truth is that it reminds me a lot of that state. I thought about how it was going to be possible to enter a more stable zone in that dream drunk state in which I found myself. Even when I detach from the body and fall to the floor, many times I feel that. I could also compare it with feeling sedated or drugged, it is very strange! How could I go to the etheric plane like that, I thought... since awareness should be even, as far as possible, higher than the waking state. Well, maybe it has to do with the brain chemistry in those dream states, who knows, sometimes happens and sometimes doesn't. 

Anyway, I'm going to keep trying. I believe that the techniques must be polished. Or as the book says, continue working on the Ego and intention. 

I have read Kurt Leland's book and I just want to tell you that it has provided me with very useful tools for my exploration, I loved it! One of these things, which Escape Velocity has been talking to me about for months, are the famous "simulations" Twelve years ago I thought that if I was not having an etheric experience, then it was a lucid dream, I did not know that we could see the astral through personal mental images to translate this energy, nor did I know about our instructors' tests (although I already had them) dismissing everything to a simple lucid dream and perhaps discrediting my own experiences. So, this knowledge has been very useful for me.

The book also highlights the topic of controlling our ego, primary instincts and our emotions to be able to move from the Dream Zone to the Astral Zone, and not doing so can be a problem, it can condition our adventures a little bit. I still don't fully control my emotions, but there are days where I feel better in this area. Mastering lust, fear, control desire, adrenaline... I think it's very important to be able to do serious exploration, sometimes these things can be a distraction.   

Also, for 12 years I have dealt with the problem of how to go from a lucid dream to (as Leland calls it) "Otherwhere" and I really liked the technique given by his non-physical instructors, about simply creating a door... as simple as that. I have walked through many doors during my lucid dreams and on the other side there was nothing more than holograms. However, I think it can be helpful to set an intention. Lately what happens to me is finding myself in a dark hallway where there are hundreds of doors, it's difficult to choose one... and when I open it, something appears that I don't feel is a lucid dream anymore, therefore, it could be a simulation or well "Otherwhere". This has been very helpful for me, because I understand the hallway now as a threshold of states of consciousness, now I know that I must reach it and set an intention. I always get nervous when choosing one .

Traveling via buses also seems like a good tool to me. In my lucid dreams I often become aware and I am already inside a vehicle of some sort, full of people... Lately these buses have taken me to beautiful areas where people go to rest. And I've also been on school buses but ran away kicking the doors... sad! Which still shows my resistance to learning and my desire to just enjoy. In fact, I told the driver that the day was too beautiful to go to school and I went to stuff myself with candy... and he looked at me a little disappointed. I so regret it! I'm not like that in physical reality, and I don't even eat candy. 

Everything mentioned about the Purgatory of Souls was very revealing, and I was also very struck by the use of the term "Shadows/Shade" or "Shadow World" for them. I didn't really understand why he use it and he didn't explain it either. However, I would like to tell some encounters, in which I think it was part of Afterdeath Zone and reminds me of the Shadows, I hope it's not bad to do so, I always try to tell nice things, because I'm afraid that someone who is reading feel insecure. The purpose of creating a Journal here is to learn and hopefully inspire other people to do the same thing, so sometimes I avoid talking about certain things so as not to create the opposite effect. But precisely my message is not to be afraid but to overcome and understand it, since we fear what we do not know, but once known, it is fine.

At 16 years old I had a spontaneous AP where I suddenly found myself floating in gray fog. At that moment I saw hundreds of beings around me, which are black shadows, their shape is partially human. From the waist down it looks more like a hanging cloth that fade and the upper part has more or less human features, but with suffering and haggard expressions, their eyes are completely white, they look like specters... Everyone was heading to a specific place, it was a huge crowd... At that moment I knew it was an AP and everything had an etheric feeling, not like being in a lucid dream/simulation. Somehow, I knew that they were people who had already passed away, and who were really going through a lot of pain, people who had really had a sad life and were full of darkness, a pretty grim landscape to witness. Even so, I wasn't afraid, but I felt very confused, I didn't know what to do or where to go among all those shadows. At that moment two shadows, one of them seemed to be a woman, approached me, along with a man (her husband?! I thought) She asked me if I was lost, because I looked confused and asked to go with them to make "the journey" if I was alone. It seemed that a great event was going to happen... All those shadows were waiting for "something" that was going to take them out of that place, it seemed that they would move on to a better area and that their time there was already over. I told them that I was not dead, I still had a physical body, but that I was very grateful for their hospitality. The shadow woman was stunned, as if to say, is that possible? and the shadow man said nothing, and they simply continued on their way. I decided to return to my body because I didn't like being there, a horrible landscape and a chilling sensation.

Another similar moment was last year (I shared part of this before) I suddenly became aware during the night and found myself in this gray fog, like a mass of formless white light, following a Guide, who looked like a formless mass of grayish-white light too. Here it was also full of shadows, which I saw in a very similar way to what was described above, black specters with white eyes and gaunt features, however, this time I did notice some more human characteristics. Two shadows passed by me and I felt a very intense wave of suffering, that shook my entire energy body, then I felt that I wanted to help them... I had to do something with those people. However, the Guide told me that I couldn't do anything for them and that I knew it very well (I don't know if because I was a newbie or because these beings are too immersed in their own misery). 
Anyway, I decided to try, so I approached a shadow woman, it was difficult to get noticed, as always, it seems that they don't see anyone around them. I saw that she was carrying an empty baby carriage, which was also made of this mass of spectral black light, did she die and leave her baby?! I didn't want to ask about this. I naively asked her if she needed help, and she said NO and left quickly. At that moment I followed the Guide a little more, we were supposed to be waiting for someone who would come, someone "higher" to him... because again "the great event" was going to happen that takes some shadows that are prepared to a better place. All the shadows gathered, and it seemed that they were waiting for the long-awaited arrival of (?)... I see a glow of white light and while I wait among the shadows, I practice some movements, since I started to feel "numb". But I couldn't witness it because I woke up, huh!

The feeling I get is that another part of my consciousness was in this Valley of Shadows doing something in particular, when suddenly my human consciousness takes over and suddenly finds itself there without knowing why and how. The question is, what the hell am I doing there?! I hope one day I can find out more, this place is not pleasant at all, but my desire to learn is stronger, this is how I have overcome fear, the desire to know more, curiosity. And I would also like to understand what part of the Afterdeath zone is about and why I see these people as shadow specters... and not as normal people. That's why I even questioned if they really are people, I think so, but being so immersed in their suffering made them take on that appearance, or at least that's how I perceive them. However, it is curious that many people around the world, both in their astral travels and those who can see beings from the physical plane, also see these black shadows here, with a description very similar to mine. Many say they are not people. I do not know what to think. I only once saw a huge shadow on the physical plane, but formless and no features, and several of my friends also saw them, my mother... And thousands of people claim to have witnessed through the internet. Even in the movies they look like that, and I think it's because they know something. I haven't found this information in books yet, but I still have a lot to read. 

The other time I encountered a similar being, it was also when I was 16. I had an etheric projection in my room, I was really happy... and I was just a formless mass of light. I wanted to explore the house and went to the living room, which was identical, there was no fluctuation, and I could say that my awareness was even higher than the awakened state. But I see a shadow coming out of the kitchen... exactly as I described it before, her white eyes are what catches my attention the most, a horrible specter indeed (maybe a woman?) However, just like before, I wasn't scared...in fact I wanted to get to know her better! (I am very curious) I tried to send her telepathic greetings, but she did not respond, nor see me or perceive me in any way, she simply continued on her way to leave through the balcony. I didn't want her to go, so I had a (terrible) idea to make her notice me... I merged with her!

I get inside the shadow... at that moment I felt like I was inside of the most horrible emotions I could imagine, I was completely disturbed and full of fear, I no longer saw anything but darkness and it was like being rolled over by a huge wave again and again without being able to get up and drowning in the deepest agony... I was very disoriented. But suddenly something happened, I found myself back in my room (I told this once) and there was my Guide, whom I saw next to my physical body as a huge mass of white light of about 3 meters... At that moment I was immersed in the purest and absolute Love, like I had never been able to feel in my entire life... It was overwhelming! A Love so intense that I (as Kurt also mentioned in his book) was starting to lose my identity. It was not Tak feeling Love, Light, Peace... but my essence was composed of that, there was no one "behind" that feeling, no specific personality, that was an illusion. It was the pure essence of Life flowing in the purest Love, not "someone" feeling that. I think he did that to cleanse me and rescue me from there, and as a result I got closer to my Divine Core. I couldn't be more grateful for having experienced that at such a young age, that marked me for life.

But all that was too much for me, so I decided to go back to my body. When I get in, I felt like I was going through many layers, and I felt that living in a physical body is like living inside a stone, something terrifying. When I opened my eyes, I felt that we human beings are truly warriors, for having left the comfort of the Love and Light of the highest Consciousness to immerse ourselves in the physical plane, where torment of diverse kinds exists. And being partially disconnected from our true source to learn lessons and grow... That takes a lot of guts! 

There were other encounters with shadows, but I just mention these.

I thought Kurt mentioned the deceased as Shadows, because he saw the same thing as me, but it was just a name. There is still much to discover! I just would like to learn more about the invisible worlds that surround us. I really liked his book a lot and the best thing was that it took me seven days to read it, and all seven days I had spontaneous lucid dreams every night.

Welcome to the Journals, Kodemaster! It will be great to read your experiences. I'm sure you have amazing things to share I want to tell you that I really admire your courage and strength to face so many challenges in your life, you are a true warrior! (as many here). I am so glad you are on the path to healing and building a better life.

Light for you ★