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I have had yet another sudden revelation which has caused some questions about this 3D-Blackness you guys and gals have been talking about.  I went back over the material that has already been posted but I still have a few questions.

A little history first.

It is possible that I have been experienceing this for years, since age 10, maybe younger.  I would often lay down to sleep and after a few minutes the room would change a little and I would find myslef being pulled down a tunnel.  In the tunnel there is often orbs, but I always had the notion they were planets.  They range in color but mostly are dark, black, purple, blue, and various other shades.  The tunnel effect would eventually disapate and I would find myself in a large, seemingly endless, black room.  I would spent massive amounts of time just walking around, kinda exploring the dark, before having enough of it and some what forcing myself to fall asleep.  I always found this black room to be very comforting, which is why I would spend some time there before sleep.

Now a friend of mine who is familiar with projection told me that he almost always begins his ventures from a place he kind created and kinda found.  He uses this place to store things.  He caled it some thing like his "astral home" or some thing like that.  He asked about mine and all I could tell him was about this big, black room.  I figured that it was my "astral house" because I end up there so often.  He thought that it was odd that a person would have a place like that as thier "astral home" and that it did not contain anything.  But the only thing I could say in responce was that it "felt like home."

Now I have a physical trick to force this tunnel effect which always ends in the black room.  But my questions are these.

-Does the black room I end up in fit with the 3D-Blackness effect?
-Should I try to apply intent while there?
-Has any one else had this tunnel effect prior to the blackness or is it usually after?
-If normally after, any comments on why I get it before?
-Any other feed back?

Maybe some one can sort this out to me.

I was talking to some one the other day and during the conversation the individual in question managed to bring up "Free Will" and "Pre-destination" in the same sentance.

Now to me this make no sence what so ever.  How can "pre-destination" and "free will" co-exist?

In my mind they kinda cancel each other out.

If I understand this correctly "free will" gives us the ability to choose weather or not we want to believe, do good, and so on.  Correct?  And "pre-destination" says that every thing really doesn't matter anyway because what ever is going to happpen to you in life has already happened or is going to happen no matter what.  Well it's kinda the short, bias version but you get my meaning.  Is that correct?

So if I am right on both counts then how can they co-exist?  If I am wrong then please explain.

Well, I seem to have returned to the begining again.  Well almost.  My Hypnotherapist is going to be sad.

I haven't slept well in over a week now.  I keep waking up sweating like mad.  Now the temperatures here have been really nice, ranging in the mid 70's. (or 23.5 C, for you metric people.) Now the past few days it has been really cold in my room, about 65 DegF (18.33 DegC), when I wake up.  But I still am waking up sweating.  One day it was as low as 58 DegF (14.44 DegC) but still I awoke the same.  It seems I have become once again my own personal space heater.  

It is becoming really anoying since I have started to get used to getting good solid sleep lately.  But now it is back to the four hour spurts.

Okay, I think I am done complaining now.
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Well, its been a while since I have mentioned what I have been up to with my hypnotherapist, so here is an update.

My dream activity had picked up considerably for a while and we (being me and my hypnotherapist) think was partially due to Tom, and Rieki.  So again thanks Tom.  My ability to be lucid during those dreams grew in leaps and bounds in a couple of weeks time.  
  But unfourtunately I have not had any dreams that I can remember since my last therapy session.  I have the fague notion that I dreamed, with some interesting feelings when i awake, but noting I can remember.
  Now as far as the last session goes that I had., Thats all I can say, , so I will same it again, !  (Sorry, I'll stop playing with the buttons now.)  We had determined that I had been recalling some memories, but we don't think that they were past life.  We think that they may have been from an external source that I picked up.  So after about four years of this I have finally said good bye to this individual.  We were able to release him in the last session.  Well perhaps release is not a good word.  Booted, I think would be a better one.  She was trying to release him and then I nudged him through the door.  [}:)] It felt like the right thing to do.
  Through several of the sessions we continue to hit a point where I am unable to talk and we have finally made some progress in this direction.  During these moments I always knew what I wanted to say but was unable to.  It was as if I just could not get the mouth to work with the mind.  Also in the last session we found out that for some reason I just don't know the words, or how to speak them.  They kind of stutter out.  She thinks that this may be an area of pre-existance and wants to explore it some more.  She thinks that it may be from a the time just before this existance and wants to see if any informaion about what I "should" be doing now surfaces.
  In all, despite the time it has taken, I feel we are making progress and I am very happy with the work that she does.  And I plan on continueing to go for a little while at lest to see what else pops up.

neener neener

1st post after new set up.  I think I sneeked it in before Adrian too.

Another question.  This one sparked because of a responce from Danny_Boy in another post.

Dream injuries and pain.  Is this normal?

While dreaming I have been shot 5 times, stabbed a couple of times, burned once, and been in several car accidents.  In each case the pain was real, as in I felt it and would often wake up sore.  Now this only happens when the dream lasts long enough for actual contact to cause harm and my view is from the first person.  When it cuts off just before I don't have any problems or if it zooms out to 3rd person.  But I tend to feel every thing except minor bumbs and such.  It seems the more mortal a wound is the more realistic and lasting the pain, and although most of the injuries should have killed a living person I went on and had to deal with the pain.

Now my understanding is that this is not a normal function.  That for the vast majority pain is removed from the equation in dreams except on rare occassions.

Does any one else here feel dream pain regularly?
Does any one know why this happens?
Or even better why it happens more in some than in most?


David Rogalski
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I am he who walks in the light but is masked by the shadows.
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Okay another question.  

How often does lucidity kick in after awareness?

I have been finding that I am almost instantly aware that I am dreaming.  I would have to say that in about 60% of the cases this causes the dream to terminate.  I go "oh, wait, this is a dream."  and then it's over.  The rest of the time pending the dream I will ask questions or play.

But how often does this happen and what are some things that can be done to prevent termination of the dream after awareness?


David Rogalski
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I am he who walks in the light but is masked by the shadows.
David127385.freestoreclub.com

What kind of things do you do when you go lucid in dreams?

As I find myself begining to dream more and becoming more lucid durring them I was wondering what other people do with this time.

I have not been able to go fully lucid as of yet but I have noticed that I am almost instantly aware that I am dreaming and begin to ask questions of the other people there.  Also in the most recent dream I was able to bring forth object to make the dream more fun.  

Like in the last one my work place was invaded by some kind of aliens.  They lokoed human enough but I knew the difference.  Normally this might have been a nightmare but I made the concious choice to explore a little.  I also decided to start turning off lights so I could move around a little more easily.  This is where things became more fun.  I started thinking more like a video game and went covert ops, however I soon found myself ill equipt to do so.  This is also where it became more lucid because as I started killing the power to various areas it became more difficult to see so I need some night vision.  This was interesting because there was no pulling out any gogles or anything, I simply thought it and my vision changed.  I was also able to bring about some other things, equipment, weapons, the thing you need to play a game like this.  Each item appeared in my hand when needed with out the need to pick it up or get it out of a bag or bulky inventory.  But the whole thing terminated when I ran into a woman and lost control of my...uh, emotions.  But I found the ending kind of interesting.  The view backed out and then turned off much the same way you would turn off a TV or monitor and some times get the little picture shrinking into just a line accross and the pulling together into a ball and then just a blank screen.  But I remember thinking after it went black.  I just like "okay that was fun now back to sleep."



David Rogalski
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I am he who walks in the light but is masked by the shadows.
David127385.freestoreclub.com

Okay I am familiar with pre-projection noises, the banging, voices, and various other things.  But I have heard various other people mention a ripping sound.  I have never heard a ripping sound before, well until yesterday.  It sounded like some one took about 50 sheets of paper and ripped them in half, just once.  In fact it was so load I woke up.

  My question is this.  Is this ripping sound that common for projectors?  and two, does it seem to signify anything aside from other pre-projection noises?



David Rogalski
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I am he who walks in the light but is masked by the shadows.
David127385.freestoreclub.com

Okay I have one major question about guides.  

   I appear to have a guide, but I have never actually see him, at least not that I can remember.   He also appears to be an elemental, or at least that is what was suggested on the limited knowladge I was able to provide.  This particular entity is very old, very strong, and has never lived a physical life.  More directly put, when my hypno-therapist asked if the energy we encountered was alive or dead I responded with, "He never was".
   Now there has been several times when my therapist has asked for me to call in a guide or angel to help get through certain things.  Every time she has done this I have or tried to leave my body.  This has happened every time with the exception of once where this same energy tried to pull me out rather forcefully, but let go when told to do so.  My feeling at the time was that he was rather frustraited and had desided I was giong wether or not I wanted to.  This has led me to believe that for some reason or another instead of my guide coming to me I MUST go to him.

The question is here.>  So in short, is it common for a guide for to be unable to present themselves when asked for, but instead an individual needs to go to them when help is needed?



David Rogalski
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I am he who walks in the light but is masked by the shadows.
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I have several questions about elementals.  Any information on them would be great.

1.  How can you tell one elemental from another? (earth, wind, ect)
2.  Is it common for elementals to be guides?
3.  Are there multiple elementals of one kind?  (say 4 fire, 2 water, ect.)
4.  Are they general good or bad?  
5.  I gather that elementals have never been a living person.  True?

    I am sure that I will have more questions when replys start poping up.



David Rogalski
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I am he who walks in the light but is masked by the shadows.
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I am wondering if any of you history buffs know any thing about possible medical experiments that may have been done in the past.  This being along the lines of the illigeal or morally questionable kind.  Country does not matter, any and all info may help.

Any information provided could prove helpful in my current healing process.


David Rogalski
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I am he who walks in the light but is masked by the shadows.
http://www.prepaidliving.com/vip/David127385

I have a few questions for people who have either A) done past life regression, or B) are aware of past life memories.

1.  Do any of you recall experiancing any major tramas in past lives?  Like what.
2.  How much have your past lives effected your current life?  Do they create problems and/or provide answers to certain questions like "why do I do this?"
3.  How much of your current life is in conjunction with your past lives?  Do you find your self in the same kind of role or job, same kind of friends?
4.  Have any of you had to heal an aspect of your past life in order to heal an aspet of your current life?



David Rogalski
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I am he who walks in the light but is masked by the shadows.
http://www.prepaidliving.com/vip/David127385

Questions, questions, always questions.

1.  Is it common for the healer to experience side effects after healing another?

2.  Why or why not?

3.  Does the person being healed need to know you are making an attempt to heal?



David Rogalski
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I am he who walks in the light but is masked by the shadows.
http://www.prepaidliving.com/vip/David127385

I had a very very interesting experience during my last session.  At one point during the session it felt as if something actually reach down into my head and grabbed my mind and begain to pull as if to remove it and take it some where.  Even after I woke up I have the sensation of some ones fingers milling around in my head.  At the time the experience of being forcabely removed from my body was rather painfull.  However dispite the distress that I was going through there was no feelings of ill will against me when this was going on.  It was more like that of frustration.  Like there was some thing that needed to be done but it became annoyed when I would not let it.

After this I got three very clear images  but they are confusing to me as far as any meaning goes.  
The first was a face of a half man half cat.  The skin and eyes were very much human but the nose was not.  The forehead and nose bridge were the same hight, flat, they ran together like on a cat, and the nose coninued down just like a cats.  Its teeth were sharpe but not elongated.

The second was a man, regular human, yelling.  It was a 3/4 profile shot.  I could not tell if he was yelling from pain or anguish.

The third was that of what can only be described as a gargoyl or goblin head.  It was looking straight at mean and had some what of a mean face.


Any ideas or thoughts?


David Rogalski
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I am he who walks in the light but is masked by the shadows.
http://www.prepaidliving.com/vip/David127385

I couldn't figure out where to put this so it goes here.

I have been seeing a large number or R.U.S.'s lately.  And thoes who are unfamiliar with "The Princess Bride", they Rodent's of Unusual Size.    But honestly, over the past couple of weeks I have been seeing a large number of rats, but they are entirely too large to be normal rats.  Some times I think that I am awake when I see or hear them but then later question wether I was or not.  I do not think them to be actual physical critters at all.  This being largely due to the fact that I have several in my room at the same time and I would have stepped on one by now, which I haven't.  I only ever see them when I have been sitting some place for a while.  I have also had a few false awakenings in which the rats were involved.

So what do they want with me?  Are they just feeders?  Why do I see them now?

It's starting to turn into a twisted version of "Joe's Appartment", but at least none of them have talked yet.  I think that would be cause for medical attention.


David Rogalski
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I am he who walks in the light but is masked by the shadows.
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A friend of mine suggested that one of the problems that I may have is that my energy centers are open and active all the time.  It was suggested that I try some techniques to close them so that I have some control over wether they are open or closed.

The main problem I believe that I have is that since I was young I worked a lot on drawing energy in from my enviroment.  It is possible that this has or rather is now causeing problem because it is a natrual function now.  I no longer have control over the function, much like the beating of a heart

So if any one has any techniques that I could try to some what tone down or close the major energy centers before sleep I would be thankful.



David Rogalski
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I am he who walks in the light but is masked by the shadows.
http://www.prepaidliving.com/vip/David127385

Friday, August 30th, 2002.

  That was the first time I have ever experienced this that I can remember.  It was the oddest thing to wake up twice in a 30 second window.  

   The first time I awoke I got the feeling that I had been sitting there for some time.  I had a smoke lit and I was sitting up.  It was calm, peacefull, I felt as if I had no worries.
    But much to my suprise this small furry thing jumped from what seemed to be my shoulder, across in front of me, and scurried under my blanket.  My first thought was that there was a rat or mouse, a large one.  This was when I awoke for the second time.  The appearance of the rodent cause a rather bothersome startle.  
     When I awoke the second time I was laying down as I should have been and sat straight up.  I very quickly begain to look around for the rodent.  But then I realized that it had wings, like that of a dragon fly.  Since I have never seen a real animal like that I felt that it was safe enough to stop looking for it, I most likely never would have found it.  But I did decide it was a good idea to make sure I didn't have a smoke burning that I didn't know about.  I found the pack where I left it, across the room, well out of reach.  and I didn't find anything smoldering in my bed either, so I figured it was safe.
       I tried to go back to sleep but found that I was unable.  I could not shake the feeling of that thing being there.  So instead I rented some movies and sat around for a couple of hours before I had to go to work.

I really didn't care for that experience and hope to avoid it in the future.


David Rogalski
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I am he who walks in the light but is masked by the shadows.
http://www.prepaidliving.com/vip/David127385

My hypnotherapist put forth an interesting observation today.  All of my problems with dreaming and remembering them seemed to start shortly after I begain my search for truth.  This has got me thinking about a great many things.  We as humans learn on a 24 hour basis.  That statement is back by many in the scientific and spiritual worlds.  We spend our waking hours absorbing information and our sleeping hours sorting it all out into managable piles.  Our dreams help us to realize who we are, what we are doing, how we feel, what we believe, and help us to understand what we learn beyond the facts and statistics.
    So what happens when a persons time is cut in half?  When they are not allowed the time for realization and understanding?  Does that make them unable to learn as much?  Or does it just make the work harder because of time restraints?  For true growth one must be able to see all the sides of the story.  All the data must be present and the wisdom gleaned from it.
    What is one to do when all the data is present but they are lost in the dark and seemimgly unable to bring enough light to the situation to learn from it?  That seems to have been my problem since I started this path, and as an odd twist of fate I was even unable to see that.  Even so, surrounded in darkness, the path is still clear.  The instinct to drudge on is there.

Clouded in mist, walking, and moving only by feeling.  Does this make the journey of any greater importance?


David Rogalski
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I am he who walks in the light but is masked by the shadows.
http://www.prepaidliving.com/vip/David127385

I have a question.  How can one stop spontanious project if they have absolutly no control over the process at all?  Are there physical world things that can be done to prevent a person from spontaniously projecting?
   I am willing to hear any and all possabilities.

 Now I know the first question is going to be why one would want to stop this.  So I am going to answer that now.  

   It has become very apparent to me that in order for me to grow mentally, spiritually, and emotionally I am going to need to spend some time in the physical during sleep.  It has also become very apparent that me willing or practicing to stay in the body is not possible, nor is it going to be possible for me to gain control over the projection process.  It seems that at the very moment that my body begins to slow and the mind becomes quite, I split.  I am relizing that I have become a very hard core spontanious projector.  As soon as the possability is there I project.  However I am unable to retain an information of the process, or rather it is more that I have been blocked off from retaining the information.  
   I see the only viable solution availible to me currently is to make an attempt to prevent this from happening so that my mind can stay where it is to deal with the problems there before I can advance further.

David Rogalski
cainam_nazier@hotmail.com
I am he who walks in the light but is masked by the shadows.
http://www.prepaidliving.com/vip/David127385

Has any one heard of this Bach Flower system?  Is it any good?  Does it seem to work?  Or is it just a bunch of hoopla?



David Rogalski
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I am he who walks in the light but is masked by the shadows.
http://www.prepaidliving.com/vip/David127385

I find myself some what at a lose of words.  It was some what of a learning experience but I am still very puzzled as to what transpired.

I laid every thing out on the table before she put me under.  We went over the lack of dreaming, the time I passed out, the dream I did have with the whole getting stuck in the back of the head with a needle, the projection attempts, the dark stranger entity and possible reasons for, the various "abilities" and "sensativities" in regaurds to the astral and psionics.  I basically recapped the last 6 years of my life and touched on some of what went on before.

I did not think you were sapposed to be that aware during hipnosis.  I can remember the whole thing, not reaally in the correct order but the whole thing none the less.  I was thinking as she was talking to me and at times found it very difficult to follow her instructions.  But I went under none the less.  I say that because I had little to no control over me direct physical actions.  She would say do some thing and I would.

She believed that it would be best, given the multitude of questions that needed answers, to allow my sub-consious to choose where I should go and what we should work on.  It sounded like a good idea.  However we encountered a snag.  My sub-c did not really want to play along.  The moment my body relaxed my sub-c sorta stepped out for a stroll.  Although I did not fully project I was not fully in my body either.  It was extream detatchment but because she was trying to talk to me I could not fully leave.  She noted obvious physical changes when she would ask me to return to my physical body, but then as soon as she asked another question I would step out again.  

I was really strange because when she asked a question I so wanted to speak and tell her what was going on.  I also wanted to say that I didn't think I was under but I found that I was unable to speak a word.  At best all I could do was grunt.

I could not see at all really, just black with some flashes of color coming from behinde me.  I could feel, not really physically feel, but rather thoughts and emotions.  They would come mildly as she asked questions.

Here are some of the questions and answers.

She asked me to go down a path, she then asked if I was there.  I motioned NO.
She asked if I could return to the path she desribed.  I answer no.
She asked if I was alone.  I answered yes.
She asked me to call for a guide and then asked again if I was alone.  I answered yes.
She asked if I was afraid.  I answered no.
She asked if I was in my body.  I answered no.
She asked me to return to my body and then asked if I was there.  I answered yes.
She asked if I could stay there.  I answered no.
She asked if there was something in my throat preventing me from talking.  I answered no.
She asked if it was in my chest.  I answered yes.
She asked if it was light.  I answered no.
She asked if it was dark.  I answered yes.
She asked if there was a cord coming from it.  I answered no.
She asked again if I was alone.  I answered yes.
She then asked me a series of questions that I did not have to answer her with but that I was to remember any information I got.
She asked if there was a reason for the "needle dream".  I heard yes.
She asked if it was because I went to far.  I heard no.
She asked if there was a reason I was not dreaming regularly.  I heard "knowledge".
She asked if I could stay in my body.  I heard "I can't"
She asked what was the reason behinde the dark stranger.  I heard "It's me"
She asked a couple of other questions that were unanswered.  But I got the impression that the questions "could not" or "would not" be answered.

She eventually brought me back wich left me groggy as all get out.  I felt like I was just dragged behinde a horse for several miles.  She said it was because I was not only recovering from the hypnosis but I was also recovering from being in an OBE state.  I also had one heck of a head-acke which is still wearing off.  That she believes is from the influx of new information.

I feel that this is currently the correct course of action FOR ME.  However I would suggest that anyone who has difficulty with controlled OBE's to be VERY VERY cautious if hypnosis is being considered.  To be highly aware and not in control of what is going on can be highly problematic if you are not ready for it.


David Rogalski
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I am he who walks in the light but is masked by the shadows.
http://www.prepaidliving.com/vip/David127385

After much consideration and talking with a few friends and family I am going to go see a hypnotherapist. Why?  I am glad you asked. http://www.astralpulse.com/forums/images/icon_Smile.gif" border=0>

The main reason I am going to to find out a few things about a couple of instances I have had.  The brain is a wonderful thing.  It records everything you see, hear, feel, ect.  The only problem being at times accessing the memory that you want.

The first thing that I want to re-explore is a dream I had, The paranoya dream.   There are a few things aboutthe dream and what I did before the dream that I need answers to.   The biggest thing being wether or not I was wearing my sweats when I went to bed.  I don't recall having them on but I woke up with them on.  Also if possible I want to know what else was being said before I started remembering.  The last thing I heard was, "Don't worry he won't remember any of this."  Then was promtly stuck in the back of the head with a needle.  I want to know what was said before hand.  I am also hoping to find out what I was not sapposed to remember.

The other thing I want to re-experiance was when I passed out at work a year ago.  When I woke up I felt like I had 8 hours worth of sleep, and in the 15-20 seconds I was out I recall having a dream or two.  I recall the feeling of dreaming but I can not remember what the images were.  I want to know this one because I believe it to be link to the affore mentioned dream.  Most because of the lose of ability after the dream and the gaining of some of it back after I passed out.

There are a couple of other things I want to do also but I don't know how long this is going to take so I may have to go a few times.   But I will let you all know if anything of interest happens or is recalled.


David Rogalski
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I am he who walks in the light but is masked by the shadows.
http://www.prepaidliving.com/vip/David127385

I know that it is common to maintain a certain level of emtion after an impactive dream.  You often awake mildly paranoid, scared, or in total bliss.  However the dream I had this time was unlike any I have had before.  I do not wish to go into too many details for the dream was some what personal.  I still feel its effects just as much now as when I woke up and the was about 16 hours ago.  
    I feel broken and hollow.  I have never had a dream that tore at my heart so.   I usually find it very easy to let go of the remaining emtions after waking, but this one seems so very different.  I normally awake and find myself in bed and I am comforted by this.  This is normally what allows me to just say that it was all a dream and forget what ever pain or horror that was inflicted apon me.  It is odd but the reason I still feel this is because I awoke in my bed, seemingly returned to the reality of my life that was played out in the dream.  
    I have delt with depression before, and I have always won.  But this does not feel like depression, or at least not like any I have felt before.  I have always been able to take some pride in knowing that I am what I am.  I feel as if my heart was pulled from my chest in the dream and I was returned to the waking world with out it.  That is the only way I can describe the hollow pain that I was left with.
     How many have felt this?  And how in such a time of despair did you deal with it?
     I hope that by even simply writting this it is able to help me mend the wound that I was left with.

David Rogalski
cainam_nazier@hotmail.com
I am he who walks in the light but is masked by the shadows.
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Question.

I started a new thread in what I believe was the Astral Chat section and I got an e-mail saying it had been moved and it is still in the Astral Chat section??? Why was it moved and not moved? Or was I in the wrong spot? If I was correct then why did I get the e-mail?

Topic "One World Governemt/New World Order"
http://www.astralpulse.com/forums/topic.asp?TOPIC_ID=1606

David Rogalski
cainam_nazier@hotmail.com
I am he who walks in the light but is masked by the shadows.
http://www.prepaidliving.com/vip/David127385