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EscapeVelocity

#25
In my experience, the "Who to and why..." doesn't necessarily matter...it's simply going through the process and the unfolding awareness that results, is what is being asked of me...that is the learning...it is confusing for me and usually takes weeks and months to put any workable answer together, and even that can change over time.

So, in order to dig a bit deeper, I will try and dip a toe in the water and swirl the colors around, hoping a snapping turtle doesn't remove my toe for me...

In your experience, you relate the idea that two beings or aspects may be operating within your awareness. Your description makes me think of a Richard Sutphen book I read some thirty years ago which introduced me to a variety of, and more complicated possibilities of just what the "soul" may be. The Rita's World books that I read last year added to this thought-train.

Early in my life I figured that I was one singular soul, reincarnating through a linear series of lives, with a theory of Karma either thrown in or not. Then the idea of non-linear lifetimes was introduced, even parallel existences; okay, I incorporated that. Then came the idea of an over-arching Oversoul that "my" soul was somehow a part of. That became a bit problematic since I was already dealing with the issue of my present lifetime Ego which really resisted the idea of it's dissolution at death :-o; now I had to contend with the idea of the possible sublimation of my idea beyond the Ego, that of my idea of my Soul being somehow subsumed within a greater Oversoul or a "greater community" of some sort. My actual place within the Multiverse appeared to begin fading at the edges...

Now comes the DeMarco/Rita's World perspective that posits the idea that we are all not souls but actually little experimental combinations of "splinters" of previous successful incarnations, additive personalities and new attempts to complement the experience of the Soul/OverSoul. If we are successful, if we become fully defined/actualized/realized...then we continue, but always as part of a recognized greater being, so to speak. If not, if we utterly fail...then our "splinter" material dissolves back into the soup. The "splinters" are what give us these half remembrances of previous lives, because that is exactly what they are taken from, for whatever the reason they were chosen. The memories are not actually ours, except in an indirect way, but we sometimes tap into them. Genetics also ties into this.

At the same time, the Soul/OverSoul is experiencing multiple, maybe hundreds of lifetimes and with our individual psychic development we can tune into one or more of these either accidentally or by practice. Apparently it seems to be part of our development, as in this case with Nameless. Or maybe, it is an indication that you have actualized and are now at the next level, experiencing from an additional level, slowly beginning to understand how it is experienced from a minor perspective of the Soul/OverSoul level...? (Don't let that go to your head. Lol)

Personally, I have a slight issue with understanding the limits of my personal "being-ness". I do accept that all of Physical Life adheres to a certain framework and hierarchy- Orders and Phyla and Species, etcetera. It makes perfect sense that the Multiverse and the Non-Physical operate similarly, along with the concept that we are all somehow parts of a higher being (God/Source, eventually), and that may include many degrees and orders.

I guess the fear is loss of identity somewhere within it all. It's funny in that when I am in the Void, I have no problem with letting go and dissolving into nothingness; it is so relaxing and easy(I would take an hour of that over a two week vacation, lol).

You wanted thoughts, so there are some... :wink:

You didn't make a mess of those explanations...you explained them just fine. I know how, when I go to type out an experience, it is so understandable in my mind, and yet I freeze up over the keyboard, not knowing how to even begin, the language just isn't capable...been there many times.

Okay, so let's drill down on a point of interest that I have...You state that you became aware of her presence while you were awake? I find that just slightly amazing...please describe that...How did you become aware of her presence? Did your memory somehow alert you to who she was? What did you think and what did you feel? Not to your degree, but I have slightly felt the mental presence of others-you, Szaxx, Lumaza, Lightbeam and some "others"...very faint, but just enough to make me think...

I wonder that the "higher one" isn't the Oversoul in your context...just an idea maybe. A Higher Self that shares the two of you? Is the Ebony one a previous/alternate/parallel lifetime...a "splinter"?

I have fully given up on the idea that we are to figure all of this out, in this lifetime. Maybe we are continuously challenged to just take it as far as we can. What fun!

EV


Be yourself; everyone else is already taken.
                                                          -O. Wilde

Nameless

So much to think about. Some of the ideas you've posted I've come across before about the soul matrix (past lives, karma, over-souls and now splinters). I haven't drawn any firm conclusions yet probably never will realizing I'll not hold all the pieces at this point.

I feel the same as you as to learning the who and why and whatnot. I know we'll know when it's time to know. But it is entertaining to wrestle with ideas and every once in a while we hit on something and the universe gives us a nod. Snapping turtle <- you just had to plant that image didn't ya? LOL

I think I should probably give Rita's World a read. The splinter idea is like my own thoughts about re-incarnation/past lives and such. And it paints a prettier picture than the example in my head. I picture all of us like plastic. A few plastic items can last a very long time, most just wind up somewhere they were never intended to be and a lot winds up recycled into new and useful items.

"Or maybe, it is an indication that you have actualized and are now at the next level, experiencing from an additional level, slowly beginning to understand how it is experienced from a minor perspective of the Soul/OverSoul level...? (Don't let that go to your head. Lol)"

Haha, that's exciting to think about and it is gratifying if true for me. However even if so I know that would still place me dead center of still being a small fish in someone's pond.

"I guess the fear is loss of identity somewhere within it all. It's funny in that when I am in the Void, I have no problem with letting go and dissolving into nothingness; it is so relaxing and easy(I would take an hour of that over a two week vacation, lol)."

I don't think you should fear this. I've a feeling we NEVER lose who we are. I love the void too, could you imagine the euphoria is you could spend a week in the void. Wow!

I'm going to end this here and add another post. I'd hate to lose everything by making this too long.
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Nameless

Now I'll move on to your points of interest.

"You state that you became aware of her presence while you were awake? I find that just slightly amazing...please describe that...How did you become aware of her presence? Did your memory somehow alert you to who she was? What did you think and what did you feel? Not to your degree, but I have slightly felt the mental presence of others-you, Szaxx, Lumaza, Lightbeam and some "others"...very faint, but just enough to make me think..."

In 2012 I was suddenly inspired to begin writing creative stories. This is something that many people had told me I should do for as long as I can remember but I never cared. There are a lot of details I am not going into at this point. I played with the idea and posted a few crappy things online not giving it much of a chance because I just didn't see myself as a writer. And then... I don't know what happened. Odd things started happening. I was definitely being guided. So I began just writing what was in my heart. In 2013 I sat at my keyboard late one night just staring at the screen. I want to make clear that I was not asleep, sleepy or meditating. I was just looking at that blank screen and made a statement. (sort of like an after-thought). Okay, if you want me to write it show me. (something like that anyway).

Now I am not going to put that here but I wrote exactly what played out on my screen. I will say she first introduced me to some kids and those are what I wrote about. Only after I had written that did she appear some time later.

I had no idea at that time who she was. She was slightly terrifying, not that she did anything to garner that impression. It was her appearance and her clear commanding air. Well I had asked and this was apparently my answer so I dove in writing fast trying to keep up.

I felt GREAT. I felt confident and terrified at the same time. I was so nervous posting some of those stories but my confidence did grow. What is more important to me though was how she would clearly let me know when I had gone off course.

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I can feel you and the trio you mentioned above as well along with a few others. It's so strange to finally come in contact (online at least) with some of the energies I actually know on another level.

You know, it feels good to finally talk about this. There's just so much involved with so many day to day experiences that I and I'm sure WE just don't mention or talk about otherwise with those we are in actual physical contact with on a daily basis.

I think I've covered everything, haha.

One more thing, you ask if the Ebony one is a previous lifetime or splinter. I don't get that feeling but maybe. She seems to be her own separate person in the now despite living in a very quaint (by our standards) style. But timelines are different Otherwhere. The OverSoul(?) certainly has connections with both of us. Hmmm?
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Nameless

Lately I've been encountering lots of kids. I'm entering their dreams, nightmares and fears. It was a bit confusing at first then I realized my job was to help them overcome those fears. I'm telling you that can get pretty dicey.

I'm not given any information before I begin so I often don't know where their fears are coming from, that is, from their imaginations or possibly real-life fears so I just have to go with the flow. The kids are not always human as we think of humans. It's been quite a learning experience for me having the opportunity to view this other side of myself.

My most recent exp I had the wonderful opportunity to view a small boy with amazing courage. He nearly broke my heart. I will call him Cactus Boy here as a reminder to myself of his courage and his ingenuity. Where ever that little fellow actually resides I am honored to know him and pray I have given him the added courage he needed.
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LightBeam

Cactus Boy, haha. Lately I have been planting a lot of cactuses in my garden :) Maybe he is my garden gnome or fairy hehe
"The problem is not the problem. The problem is your attitude about the problem."
Captain Jack Sparrow

Nameless

Haha, what a coincidence! This little boy had learned to mentally wrap himself in a sort of insulated blanket fitted out with cactus needles so he could chase off the 'bad' man who scared him. Rather inventive.
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LightBeam

"The problem is not the problem. The problem is your attitude about the problem."
Captain Jack Sparrow

Lumaza

#32
Quote from: Nameless on June 25, 2018, 21:03:40
Lately I've been encountering lots of kids. I'm entering their dreams, nightmares and fears. It was a bit confusing at first then I realized my job was to help them overcome those fears. I'm telling you that can get pretty dicey.
Nameless, you are being shown that it is now time to step up and become the "Teacher". That usually comes as a result of accepting the duty of a "Invisible Helper". It's a mental decision, but nonetheless, still a decision that only you can make.  8-) :-)
"The day science begins to study non-physical phenomena, it will make more progress in one decade than in all the previous centuries of its existence."  Nicolai Tesla

Nameless

Quote from: Lumaza on June 26, 2018, 02:52:16
Nameless, you are being shown that it is now time to step up and become the "Teacher". That usually comes as a result of accepting the duty of a "Invisible Helper". It's a mental decision, but nonetheless, still a decision that only you can make.  8-) :-)
I sure hope I'm ready Lumaza. It's one thing to screw up on my own accord but can't bear the thought of screwing up anyone else.
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Lumaza

Quote from: Nameless on June 26, 2018, 04:21:12
I sure hope I'm ready Lumaza. It's one thing to screw up on my own accord but can't bear the thought of screwing up anyone else.
You have been ready for a long time. You just needed a bit of a "confidence" boost".  :wink:
"The day science begins to study non-physical phenomena, it will make more progress in one decade than in all the previous centuries of its existence."  Nicolai Tesla

Nameless

Thank you Lumaza, so many of you here at Astral Pulse have helped boost my confidence, enlighten my senses and put me on a track of thought I hadn't considered before.
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Nameless

Quick note - brief conscious phase last night -  a man entered my field. He looked like an Eastern Holy Man, garbed in red and yellow silky robes and wraps. He reached out and plucked something from my right ear. It made my ear burn though not painful. He turned his hand and showed me what he had removed. On his palm lay what looked like either a gold coin or disk. It was perhaps the size of a nickel and looked really old and maybe rusty or blood on it. He closed his hand and vanished. This is important but I don't yet understand.
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LightBeam

#37
That is very interesting, Nameless. Maybe he is showing you that you can hear something, but you have to really listen. An old wisdom that you already have, but need to realize that you have it.
Years ago I went to Vegas with my sister. Many interesting extraordinary things happened that week, but there was one instance where we were at a gift shop at a casino and as I was looking at the items, I knew that someone was looking at me. I turned and there in the distance was a group of monks, like from Tibet, exactly draped in gold and red. One of them was intensely looking at me. When our eyes met, he smiled. A rush of thoughts entered my head at that exact moment, like he was telling me that I know something that you know, but no body else. It was like telepathy. I smiled back, then the group left. I felt like this person was someone I knew from a past life perhaps, and in this life we just crossed paths with just this brief interaction. Brief but powerful though.

The other night, I had a similar dream like yours. I realized that I had a tick on my right shoulder. I ended up in a hospital room and there was a doctor who removed the tick and showed it to me and said "You see, I took out the whole thing together with the teeth and legs, nothing is left in your body and there will be no consequences of the bite. "
"The problem is not the problem. The problem is your attitude about the problem."
Captain Jack Sparrow

Nameless

That's exactly what I though, a Tibetan Monk. That was pretty wild seeing those guys in Vegas. I can relate to that knowing though. I find your dream really interesting in that it happened so recently as did this latest exp of mine. A tick a rusty old coin, both things we wouldn't want attached to us.

You said "Maybe he is showing you that you can hear something, but you have to really listen. An old wisdom that you already have, but need to realize that you have it."

I have been hearing something and have been working on clarity.
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Rakkso

That sounds great. See it is creating a shielding feeling that sounds great. 

I have a guide with the shape of a monk as well. As I told Lumaza once, he took me in one of my dreams to see the world tree, or how the world was like a tree and bearing seed for foundations.

Can you retrieve the blood coins? Can you remember if there was any engravings to pull you or push you towards some destination she had?

Has it changed your perception? Maybe you could try another phase session, try to get some answer to be more clear so when you know you flip back awaken.

There is nothing I can just think of that has not been already mentioned here before. Perhaps it is of luck disguised.  :-)

Nameless

Thanks Rakkso, this is the first time I recall encountering an actual monk although I have been close before. I will consider your questions. I did try to phase again last night but no go.

I'm constantly revamping my perceptions. Sometimes it feels like I'm in a whirlwind and I have to just stop and get off every now and then and remember the first course of action here is being human. :-)
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Nameless

Well I blew it.

Had the chance of an adventure and became all gooey human cringing in terror. Was grabbed by the ankle and should have just relaxed and went with it. Unfortunately I immediately reverted to my old fears and conjured up a dream to save myself instead. Darn it.

This is why you don't get cocky, LOL.
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LightBeam

Quote from: Nameless on July 02, 2018, 02:59:56
Well I blew it.

Had the chance of an adventure and became all gooey human cringing in terror. Was grabbed by the ankle and should have just relaxed and went with it. Unfortunately I immediately reverted to my old fears and conjured up a dream to save myself instead. Darn it.

This is why you don't get cocky, LOL.


That's normal, don't worry, maybe next time :)
"The problem is not the problem. The problem is your attitude about the problem."
Captain Jack Sparrow

Lumaza

#43
Quote from: Nameless on July 02, 2018, 02:59:56
Well I blew it.

Had the chance of an adventure and became all gooey human cringing in terror. Was grabbed by the ankle and should have just relaxed and went with it. Unfortunately I immediately reverted to my old fears and conjured up a dream to save myself instead. Darn it.

This is why you don't get cocky, LOL.
No harm, no foul. There "will" be a next time and another and another....

I aborted many "adventures" due to ankle and leg pulling.  Once I saw it through though. I found out how adventurous it could really be. I don't think there is much that can top my getting grabbed by the ankles, suspended upside down by them and twisted through my ceiling like some kind of spinning top. (I am not tempting or challenging fate either, lol  :-o :roll:). I got to the "spun through my ceiling" part, then I clicked out.
"The day science begins to study non-physical phenomena, it will make more progress in one decade than in all the previous centuries of its existence."  Nicolai Tesla

Nameless

Very interesting ap. I was with my daughter and we were walking around town, window shopping and a little actual shopping. We bought us each a dress. Mine was size 12. My attention was drawn to the 12 several times.

It began to rain so we entered a store, a number of other people were there as well getting out of the rain. After we entered I looked back and saw there were quite a lot of people there sitting on benches and the floor. A little girl looked at me and I immediately knew she needed something. I sat in front of her and bowed my head. Immediately I was chasing a white pinpoint of light down a long tunnel. (sound familiar).

The little girl sat in front of me and stared the whole time. I know she was with me on this journey across planes. Sometimes we slowed down just to observe what all was there and then we'd speed back up and race along awhile. We glimpsed and passed many realities eventually winding right back where we started there in the store.

My daughter and I decided to go on to the car and call it a day. It was still drizzling. Somehow she got ahead of me and I saw her meandering back toward me walking on the side walk. I couldn't find the car but she said it was 'right there'. I couldn't see it.

Significant points seem to be the rain and the number 12, my daughter and the child.
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LightBeam

Quote from: Nameless on July 03, 2018, 23:48:43
I know she was with me on this journey across planes. Sometimes we slowed down just to observe what all was there and then we'd speed back up and race along awhile. We glimpsed and passed many realities eventually winding right back where we started there in the store.

M

Wow, this description is like one scene from a fantasy book I am writing. One of the group gets killed in the battle with the darkness, then the main character lays next to his body, gets OOB by will and sees his spirit standing there. In attempt to show him the multiverse, she grabs him by the hand and start racing with him through realities flying higher and higher, streaming through light and colors, stars and galaxies, energy vortexes and swirls. At times they slow down and certain beautiful worlds are shown. At the end as they gain speed through the dimensions suddenly there is a blinding blast of light like supernova explosion, which  tells the readers that they have reached the highest heaven and have become one with everything and God. I imagine this becoming a movie and that exact scene in the background of this song. Epic :)
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=i1DOTURfpno

I think this AP definitely shows your continuous assistance and guidance to others.
"The problem is not the problem. The problem is your attitude about the problem."
Captain Jack Sparrow

Nameless

Wow, that is interesting. Loved the part of the youtube I got to see. Will have try and load it again to see the rest. :-)
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Nameless

Last couple of days have been interesting. I've noticed my daughter seems so much lighter (spirit, mood). Each time I notice this I reflect on that adventure I wrote above with us walking in the rain. The last scene where she is ahead of me and turns back - she's walking in the rain. This is not a heavy rain it's light gentle sprinkle. I noticed how light, fresh and just plain beautiful she is.

I just decided to check dream moods to look at the meaning of rain. Wow, the very first line "To see and hear rain falling symbolizes forgiveness and grace."
This is a personal validation as I know she has been holding onto a lot of baggage lately.

I decided to put this here just to show how our dreams truly can provide what we need even for those around us. :-)
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LightBeam

That's wonderful! The water I think represented the energy that cleansed her emotions.
"The problem is not the problem. The problem is your attitude about the problem."
Captain Jack Sparrow

Nameless

.....and down the rabbit hole _ again

Well I've been doing this healing meditation, looking to cleanse all parts and aspects of my being whether I understand them or not. This has actually been going really well. So several nights ago I had a 'talk' with the 'Others' leaving myself in their capable hands.

Yo-kay! First I want to publicly thank all those involved with my care. THANK YOU

If you are wondering what the heck I mean here it simply means I have finally accepted the fact that there are a lot of energies involved with who we are and they are here to help. But we have to accept them and allow them to do their work.

Anyway after meditating I lay down to sleep not really expecting anything other than sleep, figuring any energy work would happen while I was unconscious. Haha, I'm sure you all see the funny there. :-D

Instead of sleep I felt a deep sense of physical body relaxation and dove into that as blessed relief from stress. But then... Energy, strong, warm, non to gentle yet very healing. Felt like someone was giving me a massage with an energy device. The massage concentrated on hips digging deep and penetrating to the deep tissues and bone even. It was almost painful at some points but it went on and on. I lay there awake totally enjoying this for a long time before finally just deciding to let go so I feel asleep.

Can't say what happened after that but next day I sure felt the benefits. I lot of leg and hip blockages and pain have subsided. I know this is/will be a slow process and I really don't know exactly what to expect. But I'm trusting my helpers and they seem pretty competent to me.

It's taken a long time for me to get to this point of trust but it is the most important step forward I believe I could make.

Trusting in who we are, trusting in the decisions we made or the ones we make even when we aren't sure of our path is the ultimate test of our strength. It shows faith, willingness and belief in our unlimited potential.
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