Messages

This is dream one of 02-07-06.

Okay so in the dream I was at home.  Every one was there, but my father was the other major player in the dream.

We were being attacked by zombies.  Normally I like zombies because zombie fighting dreams tend to be fun.  But this one was just weird.

Some where along the line we decided that we were going to collect all their heads and take them some place else so we could mash them.  This was the logic....the zombies couldn't function right with out their heads, and they would want them back, so if we took the heads some place else they would follow me and my dad and leave every one else alone.  

So some how my truck ended up on the side on the house which is,  in reality and was in the dream, only about 3ft across.  The width of a standard door, ie: considerably small than my truck.  But there it was.  So we were throwing the heads out the window and into the back of the truck.  Okay?

So me and my dad pick up the last couple of heads and go towards the door to get in the truck.  We get out side and head for the side of the house.  When we rounded the corner the side of the house was a wharf front, docks, water, and every thing.  So now we are running down the wharf, still carrying the heads.

My dad stops and say that this is were we needed to be.  It was a boat. Okay, I though.  Not what I was thinking but okay.  Then I find out it was a dinner boat.  As in you pay, they take you out on the water, and then serve you dinner.  And it was like 100 bucks a person.  So me and my dad are standing there shuffling the zombie heads back and forth, looking in our wallets, trying to figure out if we had enough because the zombies were starting to catch up with us.

We kinda started arguing about who was going to pay, and how much money each of us had, and what else we needed our money for, and all kinds of things like that.  And of course the zombies are getting closer.  Finally I stopped, threw the heads on the ground and stated that this who situation was silly and started describing why.  When I got to the part about the side yard and where it went because the wharf was there now the dream ended.

This was from 02-06-06

Okay this one woke me up in a slight panic.  I really hate when that happens.

It started with me at work, just kinda doing my thing.  I went out side of the office to go to the main building.  I looked up into the night sky to see a large ship of unknown origin pass over head.  At first I was just thinking, "okay that was weird."  But before I turned my attention away it came back around.  I stood there for a few minutes watching this thing fly around in different patterns in the sky.  It was leaving this kind of burning smoke trail which was rather cool to look at.  

I went back inside for some thing and was about to go back out the door when I heard several people scream and then there was a lot of noise.  When I stuck my head out side the door to see what was going on I saw this big machine.  It was like some thing out of Robotech or Mechwarrior. or something.  It was about 20ft tall robot, 2 arms, 2 legs, with a cockpit and every thing.  There were also several creatures running around with it.  The creatures were come kind of beast, running on all fours, but could stand up when they wanted.  I guess they kinda looked like werewolves but instead of fur they were covered with some kind of exoskeletal plating, but it was not like a total hard shell.

When they noticed me I ran back inside.  They started to come after me, with the robot pulling the large roll up door open so that the others could get in.  I frantically was looking for a place to hide but two more robots had ripped into the building with about a hundred of those wolves coming through the wholes.  I got the very distinct feeling that they were coming after me specifically and just ended up resigning myself to my fate.  

Luckily that is when the dream ended.  But like I said I woke up in a panic.  I was all sweaty, heart pumping, and breathing heavy.

I don't like when I have dreams like this.  They aren't really nightmares because it's not like I am truly horrified and can't make it stop.  I was more feeling over exerted than anything.  It was more like an anxiety attack.

In looking back the dream had that whole War of the Worlds feeling to it.

reading your post the saying, "nothing left to lose" comes to mind.

personally my life is pretty parallel...don't think I'm looking 'down' upon your situation and attempting to give advice, or candy-coat.
just wondering about that saying, and if there's some passion you've always stashed on the back burner? something on a different path from where you are currently? might be time to change course?
obviously the universe doesn't seem real open to the path your on now.
any thoughts on that???

soul

    To be honest I can not think of anything that I have been putting off, nothing major anyway, nothing that I would have to change my life to do.  Every one has those fantasy things (like being an astronaut and such), but nothing realistic.  
    And it is real apparent to me as well that the universe seems bent on effecting some kind of change.  But I can not see what it is or where I need to be.  And I have entertained that there is some reason that I must go through this, but that reason is also beyond me.
    One of the things I find kinda funny is this.  I have been known to visit a palm reader, card reader, or what ever in my day.  I don't seek them out but if I happen across one I can pony up $15-$30 for one.  I like to see what they have to say for my own personal amusement.  There is even a friend of the family who does cards.  And they all say the same thing, even the friend of the family isn't working for money and actually takes it very seriously.  There is always this near state of bliss waiting for me in the near future but none of them see any hurdles in the way and yet it never comes.  The friend of the family thinks it's kinda strange because he has gotten near the same thing the couple of times he has done cards for me.

I have to question where and when I incurred all the negative Karma I seem forced to deal with.  I know that the world/universe is not out to get any one particular person, and your reality and happiness is directly a result of not so much the situations you deal with but how you deal with them........But come on already, when is enough..you know enough.  The last few months have been particularly trying.  Truck broken into, truck ran into while on vacation, a horrid vacation on top of that, personal stuff stolen from vehicle after that, forced to move back in with parents due largely to my indecisive cousin, switched jobs only to find more opposition, a co-worker who is a child and thinks he is my boss, and yet more theft of my personal stuff from work.  And those are just the highlights.  I had hopes that this year would bring, at the very least, an end to all these things that keep happening to me.  You know I can handle this going wrong in life.....It happens....you get a flat, car won't start, screw ups at work, bad relationships, things I can understand, they happen.  But it feels so much like I have become a target for stupid people to screw with my life.

These things are starting to seriously impact my spiritual self.  I am not able to see how I can grow as a spiritual being while having to deal with all of this crap.  Each instance makes it more and more difficult to keep the positive, although realistic, view I normally have on life.  My thoughts become more and more pessimistic as the days continue.  And it seems the more time I spend trying to improve my moral things just get worse.

I just don't know what to do any more......

so I'll stop now...the rant is over.

Residual emotions after a dream rather common.  Love it seems to be the one that people get the most or rather that they note it more because it is felt so much stronger.

I had no idea what "anahata nada" was until just a few minutes ago when I looked it up.  And oddly enough I thought it was kinda interesting.  I know most often when my ears will ring it is only in the absence of all other sound.  But I still kinda don't think it means anything.  Maybe I will explore it some more next time.

I do know what "anxiety" is but I never really associated the ringing of ears with it.  I guess it would depend on what your specific anxiety was about.

Time is a matter of perspective and is there for not a constant.  For us as humans we consider it to be a constant only because we all view time in the same matter as every one else.  And basically the intervals of time that we use were just kinda decided on.  Much the same way temps and such were also just decided on.

Okay......I want/need some input from some people.  I can put this up here because the other person in question will never see it.

So I have this friend that I hadn't talk to for some time.  I moved a couple of times, lost her number, and I don't think she knew mine.  Anyhow....I was under the impression that she had already gotten married this last October to the person she started seeing just before we lost contact.  Well I ran across her on MySpace.com earlier in January and we have talked a couple of times since then.  I found out that she didn't get married and things may not be going as well as they were before.  She says she still loves him and all that.  However she questions whether or not they will actually get married now because of a couple of the problems that they have been having.

My part of the problem is this.  I feel guilty talking to her.  It is probably due to the fact that she "was" going to get married, they are having problems, and them blam-o enter Dave. (that's me)  It honestly would not break my heart if they did not get married.  I still have very deep feelings for her but at the same time I don't want to inadvertently drive a wedge between them just by being around.  She has only mentioned once that her fiance was "curious" about who I was and what our past relationship was.  Which is that she is a very good friend, I still very deeply for her, we did have sex once, but we never "dated".

So what should I do?  Keep talking to her and not worry about it.  You know kinda let things happen as they will.  Tell her what I feel and what I am worried about.  Or should I just stop talking to her and let her figure her life out.  I just don't know.  So far I haven't called her in like a week and a half, I'm kinda seeing if she will call me.

That's funny.  Mostly because it happens almost just like that all the time.  I have seen it here too.

If you don't know its illegal, then to you its not. But in regards to the law, everything is not relative .
The law sees it as ignorance is not an excuse

So if one gets caught during an illegal act, even if the was no awareness the act was illegal, we are still punished. So surely awareness plays little part in the outcome in regards to reality? (ie if it did, the act would not be illegal even when caught as our belief dictates it is not)

Ahh, but this is not true.  I have a friend who has a certain "moral flexibility" and after seeing a professional in his earlier years was pronounced legally "crazy".  His values on right and wrong are way outside the society norm, so there are a great many things that are illegal that he would have no compunctions doing because to him there is nothing wrong with it.  If it were not for the fact that he had/has the capacity to learn what the society norm then he would have to live in an institution of some kind.  But his personal feelings still say that those other things are okay.

Awareness plays a huge part in laws....hence the insanity plea.  Which if argued correctly could be used to get out of a traffic ticket.  But in order for a person to be fully punished, under the laws of the US, he or she must be mentally aware of the concept of good and bad and able to understand cause and effect.

I think they are weird.  I don't think to do stuff like that.  I usually just take a second, stop what I am doing, and try to refocus my thoughts.  I just stand, sit, or lay there, no stamping, clapping, or shaking.  I just do what I do in real life when I am having a hard time concentrating.

It's hard to say if you were in fact lucid or not.  You kinda have to determin it yourself.  It is all a matter of knowing that you are dreaming while dreaming.  This alone does not mean though that you can excersize any control over your draem enviroment.  But usually you have at least control over self.  

Now that I think about it the most important thing that you can ask yourself after an experience to determin if it was just a dream or some thing else you be this.  Do you remember it , or do you remember experienceing it?

I don't know about the others but hearing a "high Pitched" whistle or ring in your ears is a sign of hearing damage.

If you work around loud equipment or listen your radio really loud those kinds of things can do it.  If you don't then don't worry about it.

I would do it.  I am at -6 or -7 off of Greenwich time.  However I also usually check this at night while I am at work. 11pm 7am.

Nay,

How sad for Freddy.  Usually repetitive dreams like go lucid very quickly for me.  More so when some one pulls that kind of crap on me.  It tends to get the brain working more.  I find it kinda funny to think of Freddy being sad and afraid to the point of asking for help.  I thought it was interesting too that you decided to help him.

Selski,

Having those kinds of dreams suck.  But you have to try and remember one thing when you start to get any kind lucidity.  It's your dream damn it.  Don't let whoever screw it up.

Unfortunately any time I read any thing like this, be it for or against a war, it reads like propaganda.  I yet to read anything that was well written and based solely on facts that didn't come out of a history book.   And like above any time I read anything that makes attempts to use numbers of dead/injured/ect. the numbers are always different, more so when they start trying to calculate the "innocents".  Every one has different numbers, different views, and different conclusions on what and how things should change.

[while a Christian will usually maintain that s/he must be fundamentally right, with no room for doubt (and I suppose this is what they call "faith" - and not having it is a no-no]

a) that you you had never heard of the point of view known as agnosticism, which to be honest, outside of bible belt areas is pretty much most people's point of view even if they don't always admit it

Actually most of the people I run into will flat say that they don't believe in God.  Not so much that they don't know.  I actually believe that most people are atheist going on the lack of evidence as to the reason they don't believe.  There are actually very few people that I know that fall into the true agnostic definition.

An agnostic might tell you straight up, "dunno," or "doesn't matter to me," while a Christian will usually maintain that s/he must be fundamentally right, with no room for doubt (and I suppose this is what they call "faith" - and not having it is a no-no ).

This is one of the things I find funny when I tell people that I have no faith.  Most will ask the question, "What if you are wrong?".   The reason for holding to my belief is that it really doesn't matter.  Either God doesn't exist and it doesn't matter or God does exist and I am doing what I was intended to do.  So to me arguing it becomes pointless when one can never fully know the answer.

So again I was laying down before work.  This seems to be a really good time for things as of late.

So there I am and again it started with being able to see through my eye lids.  But at the time really I was kinda annoyed by it.  I knew I was laying down but the view that I had was propped up a little and looking down at my feet.  The view was almost black and white but not really...it was more like grayed.  This in part is what annoyed me the other part was that I kinda just wanted to sleep.  But again I ended up opening my eyes and sure enough I was still pointed towards the ceiling and not propped up.

    That is how things begain, but I shall continue.  In the dream I was sitting in my room.  Which I do a lot of...It's just the way I am.   I knew I was using my computer but it wasn't on.  And thinking back that's kinda weird but it seemed normal at the time.  And then I was laying down watching the TV.  And for some reason I picked up the phone.  And I really don't know what I was trying to do with it.  I know I was not trying to make a phone call, nor was I receiving one.  I had just picked it and was either trying to play with the rings or program some thing in, I don't know.
    All I really know for sure is that I could not do what I wanted to do.  he buttons on the phone were all jacked up or something.  But I was getting very agitated because of it.  It got to the point of me doing bad things to the phone.  I was really ticked off about it.
    But I remember thinking that it was just a dream and it really ticked me off that the phone wouldn't work.  And all I really wanted to do was sleep and not go through anything like this.  

    The whole experience left me kinda frustrated, even after I woke up.  In the dream I was frustrated because I was dreaming and knew but still had to do something with the dumb phone.  When I woke up I was frustrated because I had that dumb dream about being frustrated.

    I really hate when that kind of stuff happens.

Here is one......




and I can't get to the other one.  So you just get that one.[/img]

It is difficult to say.  Ultimately you are the only one that can determine weather it was an astral experience or a dream.  For a long time I questioned the two myself.  But in retrospect you can totally tell the difference.  You just kinda end up knowing the difference.

It is not so much what you do to meditate, IE: weather you sit down, lay down, or stand in funny positions.

It is what you think about and dwell on while you meditate, and what your ultimate goal is for meditating.  I would go as far as saying that meditation probably would not be a good "cure" for depression for most people.  This being that people that are depressed already have a mildly screwed up view of life, hence they are depressed.  I will not say that it could not work for some people but it would not work for most.  But in this case a person who is depressed and meditates would more than likely focus most of their thoughts on negative things and the results could be bad.  Just like people who worry all the time about getting sick, they would more than likely think about this while meditating and could actually cause themselves to be sick because of it.

It is said rather frequently around here.  "Your thoughts determine your reality."  The more you focus on things that are negative the more of an impact negative things will have on your life.  But the more you focus on the positive the more you will get out of those experiences.

Yes I have.  It's kinda cool isn't it?  

That is also the neat thing about your brain.  Your brain records ever second of your life from every sense in your body.  All that information is there, always. The easiest ways to access that information is in a dream or hypnotic state.  Some times just running across some random bit of input during the day can set the stage a memory based dream later that night.

Here is one.  I was at the San Diego Comic Con.....And I took the picture myself.

"Yeah? Well I'm the L337 Child. One day you will all ph33r my L337 5k1llz! I will pwn you all!111!one!!1"

Wow, I can't even read that.....Is that English?

I do however find it really interesting that with all these "new" children coming into this world and all.  Every single one that I have read I fit the profile with only ever missing one attribute, mostly the anger bit that keeps showing up.  This alone leads me to believe that none of it holds any validity.  

There is one thing with science.   A person can always prove his assumptions correct.  Meaning....If you want it to be true it will, if you want it to be wrong it will.  True science is to prove yourself wrong.

I have never experienced that.  The best I could offer up would be the mind split possibility as mentioned before.  Or a recording problem.