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Even if some thing like that did pass they would never ever be able to implement it.  The very first time they rounded up a hole bunch of people and said you have to get this shot or you go to jail there would be riots in the streets.

hypnagogic myoclonus

or

Hypnagogic Jerk

or just

Hypnic Jerk

Look up any one of these medical terms for more information.

I know exactly what you are talking about.  This usually happens to me when I am starting to fall asleep in front of me computer.  Usually for me some thing weird happens, or I think I am awake until I try and move my arms.  This tends to wake me up and then I realize what was going on and think "Oh hell I messed it up again."

I have had some really cool things happen in these brief moments.  Over all I am glade that they happen because it keeps my hopes up.

Archnea--  I had not thought about the health care cuts that have been made by Bush even though I work at a health care facility and watched as the execs scramble to figure out what they were going to do because of them.  One of the places I was working at during that time was really worried because they are non-profit and get most of their funding from Medicare patients.

Jenadots -- I know what you mean about Kerry doing a 180 after he gets in office.  I have that feeling too.  I don't know...The guy just looks like a used car salesman.

Fallnagel777 -- That was a good article.  Sadly because the debates are set up by the 2 leading parties anyone else running hardly ever gets a voice.  The only exception that I can remember was....and I just lost his name....He ran back in 92 or 96...He had the really big, Dumbo like ears.  He was in 1 debate before he withdrew and the only reason he was in it was because he was considered a serious threat to both parties and they were doing their best to knock him down.

[For all of you outside the US, Who would you vote for and why?]

Greetings.

As the US Presidential Elections draw near I find myself more and more confused about who to vote for.  Personally I think that Bush has done an okay job.  There are a few things that I don't like about him or the way in which he has handle a couple of things.  But the more I hear about Kerry the less I like him as well.

In discussions here and else where it has become very apparent to me that people outside of the US seem to have a better grasp of our politics than the people who live here.  Myself included sadly.

So getting down to my question.

For all of you outside the US, Who would you vote for and why?  

Naturally every one is welcome to respond but I would really like to hear from all of you who live outside the US.

Honestly my first thoughts were 13 and 42.

Just dropping a quick line to let any who is interested know that I will be available for Telepathy practice any time you catch me online.

Any one wishing to partisipate should be able to set aside 45 mins to a hour to do this.

The reason being that we will be using Zener cards to track progress and accuarcy.

A quick run down of how it is done.

There are 25 cards, 5 each of 5 different symbols.  There is a sender and a receiver.  The sender shuffles the cards to make sure they are random and then picks the top card.  The sender then tries to send that image to the receiver who tries to figure out what the card is.  The receiver does not tell the sender what they see right away, but instead just writes it down until all the cards have been gone through.  The sender keeps track of the actual order of the cards and they compair notes after.

Each card is focused on for a designated amount of time, usually 3 mins. but I am cutting it down to 2.


So if this kind of things sounds interesting to anyone please let me know or catch me while I am on line, time will vary.  But I use MSN Messenger with the e-mail listed below.

Of all the sensations that I have awaken with after dreaming this has got to be the strangest and I am trying to figure out what it means.  The only way I can describe it is that when I woke up I remembered going to bed, having a dream, realizing it was a dream, and waking up.  However the whole sequence felt fake.

It felt like the entire order of events from start to finished were created for my own good.  Like whatever I remember happening was not what actually happened.  Like the memories were created instead of experienced.

It is difficult to explain fully.  

Has anyone else had this feeling of a dream being fake?

This is a game of tag. And since TAG....SQUEEK is now it.  He has to make the next post. I am now going to PM Squeek so he knows he is it.

Rules.

1.  There are no tag backs.  You have to select some one else and not the person who tagged you.

2.  No one wins and no one losses....Except for the last person tagged.  If they never tag anyone else then they are IT for enternity, which is like a real long time.  And I am not going to be IT for ever.

So there!

3.  And PM the person tagged after you tag them so they know they are it.

4.  The person being tagged must be listed in a reply message to this topic so every one can follow the game.

Squeeks it, Squeeks it....NEENER NEENER.

Does anyone know the purpose of sleeping while IN an dream?  It really makes no sence, you are already asleep.

I have had a couple of dreams where I have done this.  The most recent was just the other day (Tuesday?).  In that dream I was walking around and became tired so I layed down to sleep and then proceeded to have a dream with in a dream.  Or I was dreaming that I was dreaming.  From which I woke up from in the dream to continue the dream I was having before I went to sleep in that dream.  

Has this gotten confusing yet?

Another tie this happen I projected.  I wanted to find a place in the dream where I could lay down because I was getting some masive vibrations.  In the dream I fell asleep and when into projection.

Really I would just like to know the point of sleeping IN a dream, and dreaming while asleep in that dream.

And yes the capital letters in the topic title are to indicate yelling. []

But I digress.  So now onto your regularly schedualed topic.


Okay, so the other day I had yet another dream involving bugs.  Now I know the standard, assumed meaning of bugs in your dreams is that you will soon come into money.  However that is not the case with me.  This I know.

I have, over the last couple of months, had 4 or 5 dreams, where I am semi-lucid, and dealing with bugs.  Big bugs, little bugs, fat mushy bugs, and the often ugly, hard shelled bugs.

This is really starting to annoy me.  The most recent case involved the last two mentioned types in the above paragraph.  I was I believe in my house, walking around.  At this point in time I was not lucid.  At some point in time I ran my fingures accross my left earlobe and discovered a small bump.  Oddly this is what triggered my partial lucidness.

I went to find a mirror.  Which I found in my room, but in "real" life there is no full length mirror in my room.  So I am standing in front of the mirror looking at this bump.  Admitatedly I am a picker.  A person who picks at the various bumps, pimples, wounds, ect.  So I did what it was in my nature to do and gave the bump a squeeze.  As I did this a protrusion formed that was roughly 8 or 10 inches long (20 to 26 cm).  I knew that this was not right.  So I reached up with my left hand and grabbed this thing that was hanging out of my head.  

I gave it a little tug.  When I did this I got and incredibly sharp pain in my brain and let go of the object.  It begain to move around and wiggle.  I tilted my head to that side and this thing just kinda slid out and landed on the floor.  It kinda looked like a grub, but it had a face, eyes, and a mouth with little teeth in it.  This really freaked me out.

However things were not over.  As I was watching this thing on the floor another creature fell out of the hole that was remaining from the first one.  This one was green, about the same length.  It also had two arms with pinchers on the ends, and was a hard shelled bug.  This one first landed on my shoulder and I kinda smacked it away.

I had a sudden idea at this point.  I thought about saving them.  So I looked around for a couple of countainers because I didn't want to put them both in the same one. (always seperate your prisoners)...  The idea behind doing this was so that I could look at them when I woke up, and then show them to other people.  I knew that I was asleep.  But it seemed perfectly logical that I could save these things in the containers and have them when I woke up.  Don't know why this seemed reasonable.

(the story drags on)
When I went to pick up the grub like creature I noticed that it was considerabley smaller then when it first fell out.  It seemed to be shrivaling and dying because it was no longer inside a "host".  This puzzled me but I went to pick it up anyway.  So I could at least save the body.  About half way through picking this thing up is when I awoke.


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This recent dream is only one of several other similar type dreams.  I am starting to feel that some how I an infested with these things.  This as you can imagin is a troubling thought.

For any of you who made it this far.

1.  What do you think the bugs mean?
2.  Have you had similar problems?
3.  I knew I was asleep, so why save them?
4.  How many of you think that I am crazy? (be honest)

Since this happens frequently enough I thought that I would share it andsee if any one experiences it also.

I am currently at this time in an altered state of thought.  No drugs of any kind, nothing like that.

It is difficult to explain while it is happening.  But I feel like my thoughts are going a thousand miles an hour, and the world around me has slowed down a little, and got really loud.  Currently even my internal voice is yelling.  

Wait...it's over now.

But to explain a little better.  

It feels like time slows down a little, even my own actions are slower.  However my thoughts feel like they are going extreamly fast.  My internal voice was also yelling, my every thought was being vocalized like I was trying to talk over a crowd.  Every thing in the room around me seemed to be louder also, and durring this I can pick out and seperate the individual sounds.

Has this ever happened to you?  Do you know what is going on when this happens?

I had an interesting occurance the other day.  Some one asked me what I thought would happen to me when I die.  You know I have never really thought about it at all.  So I told him that I didn't know.  We discussed several possabilities, but still I didn't know.

So I went home and found myself thinking about it.  I went through all the possabilities that I know of and have heard of, and still I didn't know.  I thought about this for a long time.  But in the end there is no garentee in my final destination.

Do I goto heaven, hell, any where?  Do I simply no longer exist?  Will I get stuck on Earth, doomed to walk it for ever?  DO I go into the light, attach to some one else, or re-incarnate?

And I sat there thinking on these things, and then I truely realized that I DID NOT KNOW.  And I was made happy by this.

I did not simply realize that I didn't know, but I realized that I would NEVER know.  At least not until it happens, and even then would I be aware of my fate?  From now until the day that I die, no matter how much I learn, no matter what I see, no matter what knowlage is gifted to me, I will never truely know whatis to become of me.  There is no book, bible, or person who can tell me this.  It is not in the hands of man.

And knowing this, realizing this, has set me free.  I will no longer question it, wonder about, or ever worry about it.  It is an answer I can not have, and so I will no longer seek it.

Just sharing my realization of the day.  I hope that this helps some one else as much as it helped me.

Greetings,


It is becoming more evident with each session that for some reason or another I have become a beacon for misc energies and entities while under hypnosis.  So far there have been about 10 different encounters. 2 of which were attached energies that have been since removed.  Of the ones remaining 3 seem to be internal, possibly more attachments, and 5 which seem to be external looking for communication or entery.  I do however concede that some of these may be either parts of myself that do not wish to cooperate with the process or that they represent some internal defense machanism.  But this has been difficult to ascetain.

My most recent session brought about the following.

When I was first asked where I was I found myself sitting down atop a strange liquid.  It was easy enough to penitrate the surface of this liquid with my hand to touch and feel it but for some reason I did not sink into it.  I was just sitting on its surface.  What exactly the liquid was is still a mystery as we got side tracked.

I begain to feel a strange pain in my left arm.  When I looked to see what it was I found a small imp like creature had grabbed my arm.  But the only problem with this is that it really didn't grab my arm but it felt like it grabbed the very bone itself.  If you hold your arm out with your elbow bent slightly and your palm facing up it would be the small bone protrusion on the body side of the arm next to the elbow.

I pulled my arm way but this little creature continued to grab at that same location.  The therapist notice what was going on and asked that I explain it to her.  I did and she then issued instruction to the creature that if it wanted to communicate with me then it would have to let go of my arm and talk in a normal fashion.  This took a couple of times being said before the creature showed me some thing.

I saw an image of what looked like a mall with some visible hills in the back ground.  This mall seemed familiar some how and because of such I will be keeping an eye out for this particular image in my travels around town.  The hypnotherapist thought it would be okay to go and check out the image for further information.  Why not, most things in a session should have some kind of relivance.

I found myself in front of the door to the mall.  It was a large sliding galss door.  It did not have the normal mirror finish that most doors like that have around here but it was all black and I could not see in side.  The little creature that brought me here was now grabbing and pulling on my right arm.  Again it felt more on the bone.  He was grabbing the Ulna at the bottom just before the wrist.  Again every time I would pull my arm away he would just grab me again.  The whole time he was just repeating the word "yes".

I was very hesitant about this whole situation.  I didn't know exactly what it was but it just felt wrong.  Soon through the door apeared the image of a woman.  She was physically shorter than I am but was floating so that her head was slightly above mine.  Her face was slightly chunky and her hair was a yellowish blond color.  The problem that I had was that she didn't have any eyes.  Instead the space where her eyes should have been was empty and black, almost hollow, or filled with this blackness, this nothingness.  She opened her mouth and it was the same there also.  No tounge, no teeth just this hollow, black, nothingness.

All of a sudden the door was gone and she had reached out and grabbed at my face.  Again it felt like she was grabbing bone and not flesh.  My cheek bone to be exact.  She begain to pull extreamly hard.  I tried to get away but she just kept pulling and pulling, trying to get my inside the building.

Eventually the hypnotherapist was able to get the whole mall image to dissolve and go away.  With it went the woman and the creature.  I have tried to discribe the way the creature and the woman felt but I can only come up with this.  There was something wrong with the both of them but I can not put my finger on it.  The woman also felt external, outside of my body/mind trying to find a way in.  For what reason I don't know.  The imp thing however felt very much internal, like he was already there, waiting.  Although the two of them felt seperate in being I got the distinct feeling that the imp was working with her or rather her would be more accurate.

Both me and my hypnotherapist are perplexed as to why there seems to be a good number of entities that are trying to communicate or use me for some purpose.  Most of her confusion comes from the fact that for the most part a hypnotherapy session is a very controlled enviroment.  Nothing usualy gets in unless it is okay.  But for some reason or another I am not always "safe" durring the session.  For the most part we don't have any problems like that durring the seesions but there have been a few occurances like the above where some of the control that is normally in the sessions is lost and control can only be regained by ending the session.

Anyhow I am done rambling for now and I look forward to any comments you all may have.

Greetings,

  I have a couple of questions.

1. Are there any important nerve centers, energy points, or acupuntuncture(sp?) points at the base of the humerous where the Humerous and the Ulna meet?  The small bone protrusion on the body side of the elbow when the arm is held palm up.

2. Are there any important nerve center, energy points, or acupuncture points on the Ulna at the base just before the wrist?  In the area that a normal sized hand could cover if gripped.

3. Are there any important nerve center, energy points, or acupuncture points on the cheek bone?

For more information as to why, see the post "The oddities of Hypnosis."
http://www.astralpulse.com/forums/topic.asp?TOPIC_ID=5002

Tuesday, April 15, 2003. Some where around 7am

I fell asleep in front of my computer again, no major suprise there. But I saw the odd smoke again. This is the third time. Unfortunately I was unable to hold the experiance and yet again woke up and looked around for something burning and yet again found nothing.

I am curious as to what this is and why I keep seeing it.

It is kind of a light smoke, like what would be produced by something smoldering. It floats and hangs, rising very slowly. I have never smelled anything or experianced any heat to go with this, so I dont think I am dreaming of a fire.

So far it has only happened when I am in my chair in front of my compuer. And in this, what ever you want to call it, that is the view that I have. Looking at my computer. But is usually brighter than it should be in my room.

Just thought I woud share and maybe get some feed back.

The fun of it all.  I got to work an extra day at my job this week.  Sadly though I won't be getting paid for it as I can not prove I was actually there.  But I have all the memories of that extra day, with the exception of driving there and back and going to bed, which is where I woke up.

I really don't like the "a day in the life of" dreams.  I already know who I am, what I do, and I don't need to dream about it also.

My question is this.  What do these kinds of dreams mean?  There was absolutly nothing abnormal about it.  It was just like any other day at work.  What's the point of dreaming about a normal work day, or of any other normal day in your life?

I find this some what amusing at times and at other times anoying.  

Since as of late I have been dreaming almost every night I have begun to have effects of said dreams carry over into mid day.  

A few times I have woken up and not been able to recall any dreams.  But later that day ffor some reason or another, something happens and all of sudden like I have a new memory.  It is like some thing is side goes, "hey stupid, don't you remember this?"  And I then find myself ercalling some very odd events.  

Given the things recalled and most often the impossability of them in "real" life, I have concluded that they are dream memories, most likely from the night before.  It is kinda interesting when you suddenly have to stop and think, "When did I do that!?"  And then spend some time re-calling the whole memory so you can, as accuratly as possible, figure out what is going on.  

Does any one else have issues/problems with dream memories hitting several hours after being awake?

I have a sugestion, it may or may not help and do with it as you please.  

Adrian has said a few times about people posting almost anything and every thing in the 1st forum catagory they come accross, that being the OBE section.

Well instead of constantly moving posts aruond to put the in thier proper places have you given any thought to moving the "Astral Chat" area up to the top of the forums list?  This would allow for some of the random topics that usually end up in the first topic a person sees to actually end up where they most likely should be in the chat area.

Just a thought I had.

Later Days.

I have been thinking of this for some time now and I would like to gather some thoughts on it.

Since I really have nothing better to do with my time I was thinking about starting a monthly news letter aimed at general metaphysics.  I know there are a couple out there but nothing that I have seen that is highly published.

I figureed it would cover a wide range of topics like projection, enities, magic, various religious views, web site/book/movie reviews, interviews, ect.

Does this sound like a good idea or is it some thing that is over done and I am just not aware of it?

The biggest thing I would like to do about it is get it some what away from the often used ezine format and have it an honest snail mail publication.  I am not say I would not do an ezine set up but I think that it would be easier for me if it was mailable.  Plus I know I would rather have a hard copy of some thing rather than it being in my email.

whatchyathink?

Greetings,

   I have set up a message board on ezboards.com . If your interested its at http://pub4.ezboard.com/boddexplinations

It will be dealing with many of the same topics as here with a little bit of a twist.  I also will be controlling access to ensure quality, which means in short that you will have to register, sorry.

It's a new board, not even a month old, but please come by, check it out, leave a message.  Give it some time and it will grow on you, kinda like a bad fungus.

Later days...

http://pub4.ezboard.com/boddexplinations

I know this has not been something that has been asked for at all here but some thing told me that some one here would be able to help.  Call it a very strong hunch...

Please if you can provide any information on the following individual please Private Message me.


Amy French
Age 17,  Will be turning 18 this May.
Last seen Wednesday, Febuary 26th, 2003
Last location known was San Diego, California.

She left here fathers house to go get a soda at 600pm and has not been seen since.

You have my word that the identities of any one responding with information will be kept to my knowladge alone.

But I must ask for strong information only as this is for a friend at work who's daughter this is.

The human body is a wonderful machine.  The heart, the lungs, the kidneys, the stomach, all working together to keep the machine running smoothly.  

So why is it that the darn thing doesn't know how wide your nose is?  It continues to produce hairs that are longer than your nose is wide.  So what do you do?  Locate, grab, yank, and then sneeze until your lite headed.....

An interesting recount of some thing that happened a couple of days ago.  I honestly don't know if it was a dream, projection, or some other occurrance.  I had gone to bed before it happened so it could have been a lucid dream. I was also unable to get an idea of my surroundings.  There was only one solid thing in the whole affair, a little girl, between 6 and 8 years old.

  She appeared seemingly out of no where.  She was a very cute little kid.  Straight blonde hair about shoulder legnth, big blue eyes, and she was holding a teddy bear.  She was wearing a dress but I don't know what color, honestly I was too taken by her eyes.  There was something about them.  They had the look of innocense, but there was an un-imaginable depth to them.  They were the kind of eyes that just scream out at you.  I could tell that they have seen a great many things, a great many places.  The eyes are the windows into the soul and her soul was ancient.
  We stood there for a minute or so and just looked at each other.  I then nelt down on one knee in front of her, just waiting.  Then in the softess, clear voice she spoke, "Have you been to doorway at the edge of the univers?"
  I was caught off guard by her question.  But she just stood there and waited for my responce.  "Yes, I have."
  "Did you go through it?", she continued.
  I told here that I have not yet been able to.  I could tell that my answer confused her, and she asked why I had not.  I remember telling her that it was dark and I could not see anything on the other side.
  This seemed to upset her some how.  I felt the need to explain my answer some more.  I remember very quickly trying to sooth her by saying that it was not me that was dark, it was just that I could not see.  Her expression changed to one of understanding and simpathy.  
   She reached up and put her hand on my head and begain to say some thing but I could not hear her any more.  I could see that she was talking and trying to tell me some thing but I do not know what.  And then just as quickly as it begain it ended.  

   Despite the fact I was unable to get any more information from her I awoke in a very positive mood.  I still can not get over how this child made me feel.  It was very relaxing and soothing to be in her presence.  I also can not get over how real she seemed.  I mean this could have been any kid on the street stopping me and asking these questions.  I wish there was more but unfortunatly there is not.  Perhaps I will run across her again.

Adrian,

  I don't know what side of the streets this one is on but I figured I would throw it at you any way. (Like you don't have enough already.[])
 
   I have experienced a problem a couple of times when making kinda lengthy responces to posts.  I almost lost the posts because I got the standard I.E. page saying the page I was looking for was not there and to check my network settings.  Luckily I can normally tell when this is going to happen because of the long search/load time that I do not normally get and I am able to copy/paste to get the post up.  But I figured I would let you know.