Ever since I was a young teenager, I could never shake this notion that for some reason I probably wasn\’t going to make it out of my 30\’s. I didn\’t know where this information came from or why it was coming to me. Now, after 20 years of having this idea floating around in my mind, I finally realize where it was coming from and what means.
First I thought it was about dying. For one reason or another I thought I wouldn\’t make it through my 30\’s to see my 40\’s. However, now that I look back on everything I\’ve experienced over the last couple years… I look back on the transformations that have occurred in my life, I realize exactly what this \”feeling\” was all about. It wasn\’t about me dying… nothing could have been further from the truth. Just like the \”Death\” card in a Tarot deck symbolizes \”change\”, so too did this lifelong feeling I had. It was a note to myself that my 30\’s was when I\’d be changing, when I\’d be transforming. Forever changing how I not only viewed reality, but how reality viewed me.
My view on this world is so much different than it was a few years ago. I see a lot more of the good in the world. I\’ve changed in ways I can\’t even articulate, yet I know that it\’s a fundamental shift in what \”I am\”.
I think I\’ve finally learned that I really know nothing at all. LoL
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This is a very sweet encouraging blog and more than a blog, a very sweet part of your learning. I too have realized that I know nothing and I think I am handling that quite well. Lol.
Loved the post
Thank you for the encouraging words!
I equate learning that you know nothing to getting a black belt… it’s at that point your REAL training begins! 🙂